Fandom The Farmhouse Dream { The Last of Us 1x1 with icedthemoon }

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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

Kaleb didn’t know what was wrong, what had happened but he was determined to be there for Carlos. He heard his words, the question. His mom? That was two years ago that he’d brought her up. “Yeah. I do remember. It was in that hotel, a day or so before we met Jordan and Asher. Carlos.. what’s wrong? Talk to me.” He said, shifting so he could look at his partner, confusion in his body.​

 

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Nathaniel Matthews and Carlos Price
Former Firefly, Aspiring Artist | 21, 25 | Current location ;; Washington

He pushed his fist into his lips for a moment as he stared into the darkness of the room. “I was so proud of you for sharing that, because it had to be so hard.” Hard to let go over everything that kept him safe from the danger that was the outside world. “But I couldn’t really imagine what that was like. Seeing that. I never had family to lose.” The tears slid down his cheeks as freely as they would. He was not going to be able to stop them now. Not if Kaleb was going to insist that he tell him.
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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

Confused, Kaleb looked at Carlos for a moment. “It was hard, but knowing you were there was so helpful. I knew this forming relationship wouldn’t work if I didn’t let you know what plagued me. Why I was so against getting close to anyone. Getting close to you.” Kaleb admitted. He heard Carlos’ words and sighed. “Is this because of earlier? Was.. was your dream about losing me?” Kaleb asked tentatively, lifting a hand to wipe away the tears from his partners cheeks.​

 

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Nathaniel Matthews and Carlos Price
Former Firefly, Aspiring Artist | 21, 25 | Current location ;; Washington

Carlos stared out into the shadows of the room where the moonlight trickled in and danced on the walls. His breath caught at Kaleb’s words. Speaking them out loud made it real. Kaleb may wipe away tears, but more came faster now. It took all of his will power to keep his breath quiet. Even if Kaleb told him not to push it away, they had two other people sleeping there. He could not wake them. He thought of a million different things he could say, and all of them hurt to even try. Instead, it was his turn to roll over and press his head into Kaleb’s chest. The moment he did, he couldn’t stop. He was still quiet, but he cried. He cried because he was so afraid. He had never been so afraid in his entire life. He didn’t even know that he could be.
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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

Kaleb’s eyes widened as he watched Carlos roll over and pressed his head into Kaleb’s chest. His arms wrapped around him tightly, face pressed to the top of his head. Soft humming came out, quiet enough so it doesn’t wake up Nate or Alex but loud enough for Carlos to hear. He squeezed him gently, kissed the top of his head and stayed like that. He curled around him as a barrier from the hurt, the sadness, and the world around them. Right now it was just Kaleb and Carlos. And that was all that mattered to him.​

 

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Nathaniel Matthews and Carlos Price
Former Firefly, Aspiring Artist | 21, 25 | Current location ;; Washington

Time ceased to have meaning as he cried. Carlos’ fingers gripped onto Kaleb’s shirt like he might not ever be able to let go as he silently shook from the waves of emotion. His body tensed so much that he knew that whenever he could get out of this, he was going to hurt. What was a little more hurt, huh? His mind ran to a thousand different places. Dreams that spiraled around him like he was caught in a tornado. A man with a blade to Kaleb’s throat. Chains dangling from a battered ceiling. He clung to the sound of Kaleb’s humming. It was grounding. That and the feel of him around him. But the weight of never being the one to cry was so heavy that he was having a hard time coming out of it. Wait for me, love. I’m coming. I promise.
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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

He felt the fingers gripping his shirt and held tighter to him. Kaleb had a vague idea of the dreams that had haunted his love’s dreams. Chains, the blade to his neck, being taken away. He held tightly to Carlos, never stopping his humming. He rubbed his back, kissed his head, kept humming. He would wait forever for his love. This was something he rarely saw from Carlos and he was doing his best to be there for him. To be everything that he needed. That was when he felt a tired hand on his shoulder. Alex?? Kaleb twisted his head around at the sleepy face of their traveling companion. A pained face from Kaleb and Alex caught sight of Carlos tucked into his chest. What was family for if not to comfort everyone? Alex stood from the blanket, moving away from Nate and laid behind Carlos, his arms wrapping around him and head pressed into his back. Kaleb’s arms moved so he was holding both of them as best as he could. Alex tucked as close to Carlos as he could, half awake but concern in his body because he’d only seen a vague part of Carlos crying when Kaleb had been shot.​

 

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Nathaniel Matthews and Carlos Price
Former Firefly, Aspiring Artist | 21, 25 | Current location ;; Washington

With eyes shut, attention entirely on his own thoughts and Kaleb’s hums, he was shocked when another pressed against him. For half a second, he panicked in not knowing and another in the realization that he woke up someone else. That was two. He woke up two of them. At the same time, he was surrounded by love. So when he continued to cry, he crowded how he should. Out loud. Not more silent tears. No more forfeiting breath for the sake of others. He gasped out loud. He inhaled as deeply as he needed. His body rocked from the waves of what now was sobbing. And then there were more hands, somewhere by his head. They touched his shoulders. Beckoned them. A gentle command swirled down from somewhere above. “Scooch, big guy. This is my spot.” Nate, who woke from the combination of Alex’s movements and then the louder sounds of Carlos’ break, was siting above Carlos’ head, but not for long. He maneuvered himself underneath Carlos, so that his head was in Nate’s lap. Carlos, was surrounded by love before. Now he was engulfed in it. He had never felt so loved as he had in that moment. When he got shot however long ago that was, they were all there for him, and that was beautiful, but this was different. This was being at the lowest point and still having them all there. This wasn’t just surrounding himself with other misfits who lived in the same room. This wasn’t the kind of connection that came with kissing the pretty guy next door. Or more. This was totally different than he had ever had. And he cried. He cried because he was so scared, and he cried because he was so moved.
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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

Alex heard the gasp, felt Carlos' body rock from the waves of sobbing, loudly. Alex curled tighter against his back as Kaleb looked up at Nate, hearing him up as well. Kaleb adjusted so that Nate could set Carlos' head in his lap. Kaleb curled back around, this time including Nate in his curl. They were all one big cuddle, and holding tight to their family member. Alex and Kaleb tightened their hold, hearing him cry made Kaleb's heart hurt. But it also swelled with love because of their family. The love that they all projected to Carlos by making him the center of their cuddle. The center of this beautiful group hug. Kaleb hummed louder now that he didn't have to worry about waking the other two, and Alex joined in. A melody of humming swirled around the four, a soft lullaby meant to comfort and sooth.​

 

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Nathaniel Matthews and Carlos Price
Former Firefly, Aspiring Artist | 21, 25 | Current location ;; Washington

Nate was not about to join this choral humming, because he was pretty sure he would ruin it. It was too beautiful for that. Instead, he decided to talk though as he cradled Carlos in the middle of their giant cuddle. He wasn’t sure exactly what happened, but he couldn’t guess it was like the rest of them. They all were plagued with their fears in their dreams. Sometimes they needed a distraction. “My mama told me that before the world was wrought with this infection, there was this colony of cats that lived in the trees by her house. She saw all these little ones all the time. Super skinny little kittens. She always wanted to feed them but could never catch them. Then one day she looks outside and there’s this bigger cat. Still kind of skinny but clearly older. Walks with a confidence. Gray with big eyes. So she follows this cat wondering why this one seemed new. Then she sees it. Oh this is a boy. She never knew how to tell the difference in cats until that moment. She told be that this boy was a proud boy. I asked her, ‘but mama, how did you know?’ And she told me that only boys that confident have balls that big.”

Carlos, though in the middle of ugly crying like a baby, laughed. Cried and laughed all at the same time.
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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

Alex and Kaleb continued their humming as Nate talked, but as they listened to the story, the humming slowed to a stop. Alex looked at Nate, Kaleb started laughing himself and then Alex joined in the laughter. The laughter died down a few moments later from the two, as the humming picked up again. The distraction was welcomed as they worked together to help their family member. "I've got a good one. My mother used to do this thing called skiing when she was younger. The mountains would have these places you could go to and you stood on long pieces of wood and went down a mountain covered in snow. Well. She went one day with my father, and his ski got stuck in the snow, and he ended up tumbling down the mountain, before he got stuck in a big snow pile. She said that all she could see of him was his feet and the wooden skis attached to him." Kaleb said with a chuckle, as Alex looked at him, eyes wide as he pictured a man, stuck in snow with wood planks attached to his feet. It might have been harder for Alex to picture it, but it was still a really funny image and made him laugh.​

 

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Nathaniel Matthews and Carlos Price
Former Firefly, Aspiring Artist | 21, 25 | Current location ;; Washington

Carlos laughed so more. Cried and laughed. Laughed a little more than he cried. Then he stopped laughing so much but he also stopped crying so much. The images of confident male cats and men stuck in the snow were far more entertaining than what was stuck in there before. “Okay,” he said weakly, still sucking in giant gulps of air as he tried to breathe, “b-but imagine daddy c-cat with wooden sti-sticks stuck to his p-p-paws and and - and rolling down the snow.” Nate, who ran his hand through Carlos’ hair, briefly had to stop to giggle at the new image Carlos created. “Yeah, that’s good too.”
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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

Kaleb heard the laughter from Carlos, mixed with the crying. But the laughter seemed to be so much more prevalent than the crying now. Alex listened to his words, picturing that little scene in his mind and laughed himself. He heard Nate's giggle and it made Alex smile as he laughed. Kaleb chuckled as he listened, a smile on his face as he listened to his love and his family. "What made it worse, was that all the people coming down the mountain saw him before mom could get him free from the snow. And mom never let him forget that day either, teasing him about it constantly." Kaleb added with a laugh. "In fact she used to call him 'snowball' because of it."​

 

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Nathaniel Matthews and Carlos Price
Former Firefly, Aspiring Artist | 21, 25 | Current location ;; Washington

Carlos erupted with laughter, his words struggling to come out. “Snow-sn-snowball!” That was just too silly. This grown man buried in the snow with his legs sticking out like that for everyone to see. It was like the goofy pictures in little kid books that he would sometimes look at when he was younger. It had been a long time. A very long time really. There was not much use in picture books when he got older and was too busy trying to get away with his little crimes. Carlos shifted so that he was buried a little less and rolled almost onto his back. As his laughter died away, so did the crying. He sniffled a little, and he shielded his raw eyes with his arm. Nate patted his head. “You’re all sniffly and gross. Let me go get something.” Carlos pulled himself up so that Nate could extricate himself and pull a rag out of his pack. Then he made Carlos get up again so that he could take his position back as he handed Carlos the rag to clean his face. “But I’m still cute right?” Carlos asked. Nate snorted.
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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

Kaleb loved hearing Carlos laughing like he was. It made him smile big and he shifted as did Alex when Carlos moved. Kaleb looked at his love, seeing him shield his eyes, and he laughed softly. Both Kaleb and Alex moved so Carlos could move up, both when Nate left and when he came back. Kaleb heard Carlos and laughed. “You’re adorable my love.” Kaleb told him, settling beside him. “Yeah. You’re almost as handsome as me.” Alex added, as Kaleb snorted and kissed Carlos’ forehead.​

 

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Nathaniel Matthews and Carlos Price
Former Firefly, Aspiring Artist | 21, 25 | Current location ;; Washington

Carlos wiped away the tears and snot from him with the rag Nate gave him as the few sniffly remains broke through. He laughed at Alex with an exclaimed, “Almost!” as he, leaned into Kaleb, resting his head in the crook of Kaleb’s neck. “Can you believe he- he thinks he’s more handsome than me?” He put out his hand and reached for Alex’s. “That’s because he is,” Nate teased from where he still held much of Carlos’ body. Carlos laughed again as he worked to regain control over his lungs.
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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

Alex heard that ‘Almost’ and laughed as he watched Carlos lean into Kaleb. Kaleb chuckled, feeling Carlos’ head in the crook of his neck. “I can’t believe that my love. You are clearly more handsome than the one we call Handsome.” Kaleb said as Alex laughed again, glancing at Nate. “At least someone thinks I’m more handsome than Carlos.” Alex said, as he took the hand that reached for him and gently squeezed it. ​

 

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Nathaniel Matthews and Carlos Price
Former Firefly, Aspiring Artist | 21, 25 | Current location ;; Washington

“We can’t call me Handsome,” Carlos responded. “I’m Carlos.” He raised his freehand to gesture like this was obvious and it was silly of them not to have considered this. He pulled Alex closer now that he had his hand and tried to begin the weirdest of group hugs. Nate couldn’t get out of it, because Carlos was large and keeping him in place. But also, Nate wouldn’t have tried to leave this time. Carlos needed this. “Thank you,” Carlos breathed as he was practically okay again.
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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

Alex and Kaleb looked at each other and laughed at that. Of course. Alex felt himself pulled closer and Kaleb shifted so he was as close as he could be. This was the perfect group hug, it was weird but it worked for them. "Of course we can't call you Handsome baby." Kaleb said quietly before he heard Carlos. "You're welcome love." Kaleb said as Alex leaned in and kissed Carlos' cheek before pulling back. "You're welcome." Alex replied as he curled close to him.​

 

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Nathaniel Matthews and Carlos Price
Former Firefly, Aspiring Artist | 21, 25 | Current location ;; Washington

“We’ve got you, big guy. Even when the night gets the better of you.” Nate leaned down so that he was closer to each of them. If Carlos wanted group hug time, then they could have group hug time. “So. Was it those wolf people?” He waited a moment to gauge Carlos’ reaction. “Was it Kaleb?” He had plenty of dreams about his mama and his brothers. He could only imagine that there would be a time that he was unlucky enough to start having dreams about Alex. Carlos was quiet for a moment before he nodded against Kaleb. “Yeah.” That was all Nate wanted to know. He could guess, but it was good to know. That meant they could all be on the same page. Carlos was still immeasurably hurt, but at least now he wasn’t alone. He had been so alone in his sleep.
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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

Kaleb hugged Carlos tighter when he heard Nate’s comment and the nod against him. “I’m right here my love. I’m not going anywhere.” Kaleb whispered, kissing the top of his head. “And you’re stuck with us too bud.” Alex commented, rubbing Carlos’ side from where he hugged him on the other side. Alex was the first to drift asleep, curled close to Carlos as he could be. Kaleb refused to sleep until Carlos was okay enough to sleep himself.​

 

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Nathaniel Matthews and Carlos Price
Former Firefly, Aspiring Artist | 21, 25 | Current location ;; Washington

With so many hands and bodies around him, it was hard for Carlos to think that his dreams had ever been a possibility. They could not come true if they were all together. He held onto his people as hard as he could as the silence fell between them. He wrapped an arm around Alex as he slept. He tried to wriggle his other arm free from where it was trapped between him and Kaleb but was only able to get so much. It was fine, because that was enough for Nate to take. He rested his head against Kaleb and breathed in the feeling of them all. Slowly, so slowly, he finally fell asleep. In probably the worst position for sleeping, Nate sat there for a while until eventually his body slumped behind the rest of them and curled around. He still held Carlos’ hand in this strange and awkward position. That was okay. It was a small price to pay for his big brother.
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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

Kaleb felt Carlos try and move his hand, but as he curled around Carlos, he heard his breathing slow and saw him finally fall asleep. The moment Carlos fell asleep, Kaleb fell asleep too. He let out a deep sigh as he slipped into sleep. The next morning showed Kaleb still asleep, but Alex was waking up. He felt the arm wrapped around him as he woke up and he glanced at Carlos with a smile and just curled closer waiting for his family to wake up.​

 

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Nathaniel Matthews and Carlos Price
Former Firefly, Aspiring Artist | 21, 25 | Current location ;; Washington

Having been the person who probably slept the most, Nate woke up pretty early on. He stayed curled against Carlos until he couldn’t be still anymore. He sat up at some point and then moved away from them to find his glasses and then return. Alex was waking. He could tell. The subtle movements were enough for Nate. He got up and moved beside Alex and snuggled close. “Hey,” he whispered as he peered over at the other two who were still asleep.
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Alexander Brennan and Kaleb Price
Former Seraphite, Former FEDRA officer | 19, 27 | Current location ;; Washington

Alex could tell that the other two were sound asleep and he turned his head when he felt a body snuggle close to him. “Hey.” Alex whispered back, shifting in Carlos’ arms so he could look at Nate. “How’d you sleep after last nights late night cuddle?” He asked softly, moving so he could kiss Nate before pulling away to look at him again with a smile.​