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Fandom The Reunion { The Last of Us 1x1 with icedthemoon }

Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan knew a little bit of what Asher had been thinking as they traveled. He’d asked questions but some of those parts were new to him. “You really considered letting Darling have me? Or killing me when I was hanging up?” He asked, those two were moments he hadn’t known. Did those change his opinion of his partner? Nope. Just surprised him a little. “I think that’s a better story and I’m glad I made such an impression on you gorgeous, because I don’t know what I’d have done if you hadn’t fallen in love with me. If you had just left me when we finally left the city.”
 
Asher McCoy
Former Hunter | 29 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Asher wasn’t looking at Jordan anymore. He stared out at the trees. These were not thoughts he shared often, because he did not want them to hurt either of them anymore. He wasn’t sure why he said them anyway. “I thought about it then too. When we were out of the city. Not killing you. Leaving. I thought about it so often. But I couldn’t get anywhere quickly. You’d just follow me. And I hated the idea of being away. And I hated that I felt that way even more.” He was avoiding the first questions. They were too deep in for this to change how they were. He could admit these things. “No. I mean, yes. I did. But I didn’t really. It was a fleeting thought. Most of them were. Once we got away from her the first time, those thoughts weren’t real options anymore. They were… attempts at running away.” That did not answer the other question though. “And… yes. I did think about when you were hanging up there. I considered it only in that it was what I should have done. Or what I thought I should have done.” He watched trees go by for a while before continuing. “I wasn’t going to do it. I spent too long worrying about you and trying to find you to do that. I didn’t see it then, of course. I thought… I thought that was me being selfish. Not wanting to be in trouble for not killing you. I was. I always have been selfish.” Did he think about a lot of this as a ways of turning around and restoring his old life? Maybe even restoring his old reputation? Yes. He did. He didn’t do it though. Never.
 
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Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan noticed that Asher wasn't looking at him anymore, and he wondered what his love was thinking. He tilted his head slightly as he listened and he hadn't realized that. "True, I would've followed you." He said softly, agreeing with him. Jordan had never met anyone so.. interesting before and he'd been drawn to Asher from the start. He chuckled softly, squeezing his hand. "Gorgeous. None of that I would've blamed you for. You spent a long time with them, being who you were then and it was a big life change what happened, not only when Joel came through but when I ran into you.. literally.. and look at you now. I'm pretty sure you have a crush on a former officer and you're in love with a smuggler. Everyone has a chance to change, and even though you had those thoughts, that was just a part of who you were. Or once was?"
 
Asher McCoy
Former Hunter | 29 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Asher’s whole face went red. He was ready to talk about his faults. He had so many thoughts about who he was once and who he was trying to be. He needed that reassurance from Jordan that he was doing well. He liked the compliments. He was not, however, ready to hear that he might have a crush on Kaleb. His body went rigid, and his breathing sped up. He looked from one thing to the next, though none of it was Jordan. “I don’t know if- I mean, I am intrigued- He’s just so- so-“ god, what was he even trying to say? He had no idea. “I don’t know if I have a crush on him.” He was so flustered all of a sudden. “And just because he was an officer doesn’t mean-“ He puffed out air. It didn’t help him.
 
Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan flicked his gaze over to Asher and saw his face was red. He saw that rigid body, could feel it in their joined hands and caught that breathing speed up. Jordan couldn't help but chuckle softly. "Gorgeous.. you know who you're talking to right? I can see it clear as day that you two have something more than just friends. Maybe not the intensity that Carlos and I have, but there is something there." Jordan said, hearing him puff out air. He just wished they'd had time to allow Asher and Kaleb to.. explore a little more. They had a bond, one that would stand through time. "It's okay to think about that too, and who knows, maybe he has a crush on you."
 
Asher McCoy
Former Hunter | 29 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Asher did now look at Jordan, and that was to glare at him though not because he was mad at Jordan. He was glaring at the situation. Maybe even himself. Jordan had to deal with that often. “I know that’s how you work but I-“ He wasn’t sure. “I don’t-“ What? Don’t have crushes on people? Like more than one person? Maybe that was right until they met other people. Maybe he was more like Jordan than he knew. Maybe he was just pickier. He shook his head. “I liked… having him around. He is refreshing.” Not the way Jordan was. Jordan brought Asher life when he felt empty. Kaleb instead brought a new perspective. He felt more like the good parts of where he came from. The good parts of who Asher was. Or possibly is. That was so hard for Asher. “But that doesn’t mean I have a crush on him.” That felt too heavy. Even when he was considering allowing himself to open up to more than one person, even when he knew that he liked Kaleb, it still felt like too much. For now anyway. Maybe he could come to terms with it later. It was too late for anything else.
 
Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan caught the glare but that did nothing, it was something he had grown used to over the last year. He listened to him, and decided to let it alone for now. Jordan knew when to leave things alone. "Yes. They were both refreshing in their own way." Jordan agreed, biting his lip as he remembered the kiss that Carlos initiated and stopped in the middle. He swung their joined arms as he walked, humming softly. "Even if you don't, I know he liked you." Jordan whispered before he dropped the subject completely. "So. What's the first thing you want to do when we finally find Jackson and stop traveling? I plan on sleeping in all day. I miss that the most from when I lived in Boston."
 
Asher McCoy
Former Hunter | 29 | Current location ;; New Mexico

He liked you. Was that true? Asher knew they clearly had a connection. They worked well together. They moved well together. They certainly did not dislike each other against all odds. But did Kaleb like him? He did not think that parting would make this harder but it absolutely did. Now he couldn’t ask. He wouldn’t. Probably. Now he couldn’t watch his actions and guess. That he would do. He pushed it aside and tried to think about what Jordan asked as they walked through these trees. “I do not think that I could sleep all day with you. I love you, but I would die waiting for you. So I guess I’ll have to find something to do.”
 
Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan hummed as they walked, thinking about that response and looked at Asher. "It's not my fault I love to sleep. Though, true, you never could sleep as long as me. I'm sure we'll find something you can do." He said, not sure how Jackson was run so he couldn't exactly give him any suggestions. "But we won't know until we get there gorgeous, maybe you can bond with Joel or Ellie." Jordan suggested. "Or I could not sleep all day then we can spend time together, doing nothing for once."
 
Asher McCoy
Former Hunter | 29 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Asher shook his head. He wasn’t sure what he would do. He couldn’t really remember what he did back in Pittsburgh when he wasn’t actively hunting people. He worked to create his little home away from home. He didn’t really do anything in it. He just curated it. Maybe he would curate a place for them to live. But what would he do? “No. You are going to sleep, and I am going to… sleep for a while. And then I’m going to do something else. Maybe bother Joel and ask how he put up with you for so long.” He smiled at Jordan, trying to keep the mood light.
 
Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan saw Asher shake his head and he chuckled softly. “So I can sleep the day away while you bother my dad? And I don’t think I’m that much to put up with.” Jordan said, raising his free hand to his chest in mock hurt. “Then again, perhaps having you two together would be.. different.” He said, thinking about Joel and how he’d take to Asher. Jordan was a little worried that even if they isn’t say out loud that Asher was a hunter, his mentor and father figure was smart enough to figure out something was different about Asher. He wasn’t sure what would happen but he certainly was going to be watching their first meeting carefully.
 
Asher McCoy
Former Hunter | 29 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Asher probably would not be hanging around Joel all that often. They could joke about it now and say all they want, but he wasn’t really a people person. He did not like being around too many people. He was not like Jordan. He was happy to have him and no one else. Except maybe Kaleb. Not that he was going to have Kaleb anymore. That was okay. He was happy how they were. “Maybe I’ll take up some hobby. Like gardening. Or… knitting.” He was not taking up knitting. “Or cooking. You know, we could have food that isn’t beans. I’d be willing to find a way to make you a nice meal for once. Depending on what’s available. I’ll figure it out. When we get there.”
 
Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan looked at Asher and heard him, chuckling. "I wanna see you knit gorgeous." He said, shaking his head a little bit. "Though cooking would be nice. Something other than beans would be great." Jordan admitted as they walked. "Who knows what we'll find when we get there. there could be something there for you." Jordan said as he squeezed Asher's hand. Silence fell over them for a few moments as they walked. It wasn't heavy or anything, just comfortable quiet. "I'm sorry." Jordan finally spoke, looking straight ahead, his words paused though, not continuing.
 
Asher McCoy
Former Hunter | 29 | Current location ;; New Mexico

In the silence, Asher lost the conversation. He lost the plot of their story. The thread of their seams. He drifted into other thoughts. Kaleb and his past that no longer defined who he was. Carlos and his willingness to love and share. A long time ago Cameron and Emmett who awoke something in everyone. He felt the stings of his many cuts and wondered if that was the pang of healing or reopening. He was not about to check. The words pulled him out of his own mind, and he faced Jordan, brows furrowed. He was not sure if he missed something. There was no connection. “For what?”
 
Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan walked quietly for a few moments, trying to recollect his thoughts. He looked over at Asher, seeing him face him and bit his lip. "For making you continue traveling when we should've been following the lead. For worrying you when I fell through the floor chasing someone else, and for not getting you out in time before you got so hurt back there." Jordan's words flowed out of him without thinking. He just spoke what was on his mind and he looked away, eyes on the ground as they walked. "And I'm sorry it took a year for me to realize how much you didn't like traveling."
 
Asher McCoy
Former Hunter | 29 | Current location ;; New Mexico

It was so quiet for a while that he wondered if Jordan did not hear him. Asher began to wonder if he thought the question instead of saying it out loud. Oh. He was not sure how to say anything to the words that fell between them. Had he really made it sound like it was that bad? It wasn’t. Not really. Not… not the whole time. “It’s not…” He was not sure if he was able to say how it was when even he did not quite understand. “It’s not that I don’t like it.” His words were not so sure though. “It’s more… recent, I guess. I got… I got so tired. That isn’t your fault for not knowing what I don’t tell you.”
 
Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan looked at Asher and listened to him, hearing his words though he didn't sound so sure. "I wish you'd told me sooner, we could've headed to Jackson so much sooner gorgeous." Jordan said softly. "I never want you to do something that you didn't like." He added, looking at his partner. "But, I guess, that traveling is behind us and we're headed to our final destination. Finally headed somewhere we can call home." Jordan said, as they walked, knowing they still had a few days to get up to Wyoming.
 
Asher McCoy
Former Hunter | 29 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Asher hated that Jordan felt bad about this. It was not his fault for being unable to read Asher’s mind. This was a problem they always had, and it was always Asher’s fault. Never Jordan’s. “Lovebug, do me a favor? Stop blaming yourself.” If it was for Asher, maybe Jordan would find a way to do that. “You saved me. I don’t know if I would even be alive right now if not for you. I certainly wouldn’t be happy. Sure, I may not love traveling. Really, it hasn’t been the whole time. If I told you when I realized this, it would have maybe been a week ago.” He wished that he could do more to convince him. “I’m sorry I don’t always sound or look grateful. I am.”
 
Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan looked at Asher when he heard his words and chuckled a little bit. This was how they worked normally. "I'll try. But in that same aspect, I want you to talk to me. Let me know how your feeling." Jordan said with a smile as they kept moving north. "I'll always be grateful we met in Pittsburgh, and I know that place was slowly killing you, but I'm glad to know that the entirety of our traveling was not hard on you. And I know you are grateful, that I've always known." Jordan said, pausing their steps so he could kiss Asher gently before he pulled away so they could keep moving.
 
Asher McCoy
Former Hunter | 29 | Current location ;; New Mexico

It was hard to admit his own faults. This Asher assumed was an affliction on all people. He spent the entirety of his life up to this point not ever admitting when he was wrong or how he was truly feeling. He was lucky that he was able to question as much as he did prior to Jordan’s arrival in Pittsburgh. They were lucky that Jordan was enough to snap him out of walking straight into his own grave that he made. He sighed as Jordan stepped away from the kiss. A continued journey. He was not even sure exactly where they were going. Yes, he knew a name and information, but he just didn’t know. That was the worst part about traveling. At least in Pittsburgh, he knew everything there. He thought about saying something. He wanted to be able to tell Jordan that this was his fault. That he may have learned a lot in the year of their travels, but he was still learning. He wanted to reassure the man who saved his life. He didn’t know how. He never could. At least not well. Instead, he squeezed the hand he still held. “Take me to Jackson? Let’s find that crazy old man of yours. Maybe that feisty girl too. And then we can find something new to do. Something that makes us both happy.”
 
Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan, as attuned as ever to Asher, felt the squeeze to his hand and the comment. "Okay gorgeous. Should be about a week if we travel often and only stop to sleep. But with your injuries, we should stop a little more often." Jordan said, pulling out the map he'd found a few months ago. He showed Asher by pointing with one hand and holding it with the other. "We're here in New Mexico, and we have to go north. Through Colorado and then into Wyoming." Jordan explained as he tucked the map away. "But, I do need you to tell me when you need to stop and rest."
 
Asher McCoy
Former Hunter | 29 | Current location ;; New Mexico

With your injuries. He slid his eyes to his partner and stared at him with this knowing little smile. “Oh, you mean like how I didn’t when we first started this journey?” Asher was always bad about voicing things like that. He would never choose to stop and rest. He would never choose to admit that he hurt or was inferior in some way. Instead, he liked to power through. It made him feel worthy of… well, something. “You just get us into Wyoming, okay? I’ll handle the rest. I don’t have a gut wound this time, so I think I’ll be okay.” But the fact that Jordan was so worried about him all the time was gut wrenchingly sweet, and it made Asher far sappier than he would ever allow himself to be.
 
Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan looked at him and heard his words. "Yes, that is exactly what I mean." He said as he sighed softly. "Gorgeous, I swear if you push yourself because you don't stop and rest.." Jordan said quietly, shaking his head. He knew the journey would be long, and he was skipping past any settlements. They didn't need supplies that badly. And he was ready to stop traveling, ready to retire and enjoy life. Enjoy his love, and not have to worry about losing him.
 
Asher McCoy
Former Hunter | 29 | Current location ;; New Mexico

He worried too much. That was what Asher thought about Jordan in that moment. He was a worrier, and the fact that Asher’s cuts and bruises were less than great meant that it looked worse than it was. Okay, it wasn’t that good, and honestly, he felt like he could fall over from the exhaustion of fighting to have all his limbs and from his body healing that many injuries, but that was not something he was ever going to admit. He was stubborn that way. So was Jordan. He pulled on that hand he held and pushed it behind himself where his own hand grabbed it and placed in on his side right above his hip. He leaned his head against Jordan’s shoulder. “You’ll be here to catch me if I fall. Okay?”
 
Jordan DeShay
Former Smuggler | 28 | Current location ;; New Mexico

Jordan was a worrier, it was just how he was, especially with Asher. He had when he was first hurt, and every subsequent injury after that. He also worried because he knew that Asher wouldn't say when he needed to stop. Jordan was usually watching him and over the last year he'd gotten better at catching when Asher needed to stop. He felt the hand that Asher held pulled, and it was brought behind him and his hand ended up resting on Asher's other side above his hip. He felt the head leaned against his shoulder and he smiled softly. "Of course I'll be here to catch you if you fall. That's my job gorgeous." He replied, kissing the top of Asher's head as they moved.
 

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