ohdittoh
still kicking :)
@therealnickieabrams
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MOOD || hurt
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OUTFIT || cheer uniform
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LOCATION || football stadium
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INTERACTIONS || Winona (ash), geminiy (elias), natsukashii (mimi)
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MENTIONS || trevor (but ditto's not about to tag herself), Winona (nate)
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OUTFIT || cheer uniform
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LOCATION || football stadium
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INTERACTIONS || Winona (ash), geminiy (elias), natsukashii (mimi)
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MENTIONS || trevor (but ditto's not about to tag herself), Winona (nate)
As Nickie listened to Eli fumble at his words to answer her question (and as her face resumed the expression that she always had when listening to drama), her eyes went to the very tall, green-clad boy approaching. Trevor Callaghan, she thought that he was called, but she couldn't be sure. Pretty average looking, and not high up enough socially for her to look past that fact. Apparently he'd hit a car, too, and his eyes and his general reeking-ness of canned body spray made it obvious what the cause was, exactly.
As she watched the conversation unfold before herself, she focused mostly on Ash. Was this guy the thought that had crossed her mind? This beanstalk boy? She watched Ash's eyes. There was something in them that made Nick's thinly-veiled gossip girl's heart patter. Oh yeah, Ash was definitely into Trevor. And she'd called Nickie a simp?
Mm. Tea.
Nickie sat for a moment as everything happened around her and as the game kicked up. Her heart fluttered again as she recalled once more that she was the co-captain of this team. Co-captain. They'd have to perform soon again, and she'd have something to do with the results. When the team got congratulated, she was being told, through their congratulations, that she was doing a great job.
It made her feel good about herself. Things like that happened once in a blue moon.
Beside her, Nickie's phone was making a racket upon the metal bleachers. She, up to this point, had mostly ignored it. It was definitely Twitter, because she'd set a custom vibration for Hunter's number, and most of what Twitter had to say was bullshit anyway, like that she was a simp, which would imply that 1) she was in love with someone and 2) she wasn't able to score with them. Despite her acute lack of confidence and, thus, façade of "I don't care at all about what you have to say", Nick could get whoever she wanted. Sure, it would probably be no thanks to herself and would mostly be due to either her friends' or the boys themselves' efforts, but it still counted for something.
All that went to say, Nickie wasn't a simp.
...but she did want to check Twitter, and she finally gave into temptation about little bit after beanstalk boy had departed.
She immediately wished that she hadn't.
Don'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcry, she chanted inwardly, sucking in her bottom lip and staring at the photo on her phone screen. Her hand began to shake, and she clutched her right hand over her mouth as she repeated typed "nope". Maybe if she typed that enough, it would make it go away. Maybe it would help her unsee it.
Maybe she could unsee the photo of one of the boys who she swore to herself to love and serve forever, even if it be in secrecy, making out with Sebastian Osario.
She thought that Chas was gay anyway, to be honest, but...seeing...him...and...........she was in love with him, okay! It was like...
She sat down her phone. She needed a break. She needed to breathe.
Today was a good day. Today was supposed to be a good day. Today was a great day. Tonight was her night.
Badbitchyou'reabadbitchyou'reabadbitch. Badbitchesdon'tcrybadbitchesdon'tcrybadbitchesdon'tcry.
Her eyes hadn't lied when she saw the photo, though, and even when she closed them and tried to smile so that the others wouldn't look at her or think her out of place, it didn't work. Sadly, chanting didn't help cover up the truth.
Everyone wanted to fight Nate. For good reason, you know...but...
She was selfish.
Chas' life might have just been ruined by one photo.
She knew that.
If certain people found out that he was gay, then his life could be fucked up.
She knew that.
Chas and Sebastian were...
Fuck. This...hurt. This fucking hurt.
She felt stupid. She was disgusted. With that Nate guy. With herself. With how she felt.
But she let a tear fall down her face and then they all came coming, and as her shoulders shook, she turned fully away from the others, trying to act like she was choking on water while covering her face. Her mascara was running. Now she had no lipgloss, fucked up mascara, and a broken heart.
And she didn't feel like a bad bitch. She felt just like a plain bitch. Actually, not just a bitch.
A pitiful, selfish, self-centered, disgusting bitch.
As she watched the conversation unfold before herself, she focused mostly on Ash. Was this guy the thought that had crossed her mind? This beanstalk boy? She watched Ash's eyes. There was something in them that made Nick's thinly-veiled gossip girl's heart patter. Oh yeah, Ash was definitely into Trevor. And she'd called Nickie a simp?
Mm. Tea.
Nickie sat for a moment as everything happened around her and as the game kicked up. Her heart fluttered again as she recalled once more that she was the co-captain of this team. Co-captain. They'd have to perform soon again, and she'd have something to do with the results. When the team got congratulated, she was being told, through their congratulations, that she was doing a great job.
It made her feel good about herself. Things like that happened once in a blue moon.
Beside her, Nickie's phone was making a racket upon the metal bleachers. She, up to this point, had mostly ignored it. It was definitely Twitter, because she'd set a custom vibration for Hunter's number, and most of what Twitter had to say was bullshit anyway, like that she was a simp, which would imply that 1) she was in love with someone and 2) she wasn't able to score with them. Despite her acute lack of confidence and, thus, façade of "I don't care at all about what you have to say", Nick could get whoever she wanted. Sure, it would probably be no thanks to herself and would mostly be due to either her friends' or the boys themselves' efforts, but it still counted for something.
All that went to say, Nickie wasn't a simp.
...but she did want to check Twitter, and she finally gave into temptation about little bit after beanstalk boy had departed.
She immediately wished that she hadn't.
Don'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcrydon'tcry, she chanted inwardly, sucking in her bottom lip and staring at the photo on her phone screen. Her hand began to shake, and she clutched her right hand over her mouth as she repeated typed "nope". Maybe if she typed that enough, it would make it go away. Maybe it would help her unsee it.
Maybe she could unsee the photo of one of the boys who she swore to herself to love and serve forever, even if it be in secrecy, making out with Sebastian Osario.
She thought that Chas was gay anyway, to be honest, but...seeing...him...and...........she was in love with him, okay! It was like...
She sat down her phone. She needed a break. She needed to breathe.
Today was a good day. Today was supposed to be a good day. Today was a great day. Tonight was her night.
Badbitchyou'reabadbitchyou'reabadbitch. Badbitchesdon'tcrybadbitchesdon'tcrybadbitchesdon'tcry.
Her eyes hadn't lied when she saw the photo, though, and even when she closed them and tried to smile so that the others wouldn't look at her or think her out of place, it didn't work. Sadly, chanting didn't help cover up the truth.
Everyone wanted to fight Nate. For good reason, you know...but...
She was selfish.
Chas' life might have just been ruined by one photo.
She knew that.
If certain people found out that he was gay, then his life could be fucked up.
She knew that.
Chas and Sebastian were...
Fuck. This...hurt. This fucking hurt.
She felt stupid. She was disgusted. With that Nate guy. With herself. With how she felt.
But she let a tear fall down her face and then they all came coming, and as her shoulders shook, she turned fully away from the others, trying to act like she was choking on water while covering her face. Her mascara was running. Now she had no lipgloss, fucked up mascara, and a broken heart.
And she didn't feel like a bad bitch. She felt just like a plain bitch. Actually, not just a bitch.
A pitiful, selfish, self-centered, disgusting bitch.
code by ditto (head empty go bonk)