icedthemoon
you are not alone | no one is alone
Hayden Gaines and Soren Truelson
Citizen of Seattle, FEDRA Officer | 24, 35 | Current location ;; Washington State
Soren laughed. That was one of the truest things he ever heard. “I was not prepared to have a whole awakening when I took you guys to your dad’s house. I really did think I was just going to turn around and do my job like I always do.” He stared out the window as they slowly followed along the road. “But then there was him.” He tried to bite back his own smile, but he couldn’t. “Thanks, I needed that. In the last two days, I gained probably the closest friend I have and also whatever it is I have with him.” He sighed. “But I’m just a little afraid that now’s a bad time, you know? With your… with your mom. I’m afraid that if I do something about this, it’s taking advantage? Because he’s hurting. He’s hurting so badly, and I want to be there for him like I have never wanted to do in my whole life. But we met at the end of yesterday, and I’m already sharing intimate hugs in a kitchen and telling things about myself I’ve never told anyone, and holding him so he can fall asleep…” He let the words trail away, lost in the thoughts and the memories. “I don’t want to be the bad guy.”
The rubs to his back brought thoughts of Josh. Josh who was out there somewhere trying to be a hero. He was a hero. He would come back. He promised that they would come back for them. He had to believe that. Breathe for me. He worked on those deep breaths. Deep breaths. It was okay. When your cool older brother told you that it was going to be okay, it was going to be okay. He was okay. Okay. Breathe. “At least you don’t have episodes like that,” he finally whispered when he felt more like himself again.
Citizen of Seattle, FEDRA Officer | 24, 35 | Current location ;; Washington State
Soren laughed. That was one of the truest things he ever heard. “I was not prepared to have a whole awakening when I took you guys to your dad’s house. I really did think I was just going to turn around and do my job like I always do.” He stared out the window as they slowly followed along the road. “But then there was him.” He tried to bite back his own smile, but he couldn’t. “Thanks, I needed that. In the last two days, I gained probably the closest friend I have and also whatever it is I have with him.” He sighed. “But I’m just a little afraid that now’s a bad time, you know? With your… with your mom. I’m afraid that if I do something about this, it’s taking advantage? Because he’s hurting. He’s hurting so badly, and I want to be there for him like I have never wanted to do in my whole life. But we met at the end of yesterday, and I’m already sharing intimate hugs in a kitchen and telling things about myself I’ve never told anyone, and holding him so he can fall asleep…” He let the words trail away, lost in the thoughts and the memories. “I don’t want to be the bad guy.”
The rubs to his back brought thoughts of Josh. Josh who was out there somewhere trying to be a hero. He was a hero. He would come back. He promised that they would come back for them. He had to believe that. Breathe for me. He worked on those deep breaths. Deep breaths. It was okay. When your cool older brother told you that it was going to be okay, it was going to be okay. He was okay. Okay. Breathe. “At least you don’t have episodes like that,” he finally whispered when he felt more like himself again.