Our Secrets ((GxG))

[Zotohxan]

((Aah I understand. I hope it gets better though. x3


<w< Most of the books I read tend to have pretty messed up story lines.. But yes. The book living dead girl by Elizabeth Scott is amazing! As is Such a Pretty Girl by Laura Wiess. I'm also reading IDENTICAL by Ellen Hopkins right now, and it seems awesome... As well as Deeper Than The Dead by Tami Hoag, which I 'm also reading at the moment.


....Again, not a nerd.))


A thought slips through my mind as I can feel Teag's lips against the bandage. While we were in the kitchen, I was perfectly fine with what we were doing, and where it would go... I was fine with anything. And... That's because, I think, we'd sort of warmed up into it.. We'd kissed, causing the want to fill me, because I could feel how Teag felt through it. In the way we held one another. Even though it was teasing, it was still rather obvious. At least, it was to me. Unlike while we're here in the bedroom. Despite Teag being gentle and cautious with what she was doing, there was no build up.. It was just immediately into a sexual situation. Maybe that's what the problem is?


I lean down and gently put my index finger under Teag's chin, making her look up at me. "I love you, Teagan Saint Hopkins. And I don't ever want you to forget that, okay?" I wait for just a second, not really giving her any time to properly respond before I'm leaning forward and kissing her. My eyes are closed, and yet I don't fear. Yeah... We've just got to go slowly again, like we did in the beginning. We've got to build back up to the more wild stuff. But for now, I'm perfectly content with just hugging, kissing, cuddling, teasing this love of my life. And if she wants to make love, then we'll just have to be gentle with one another. I don't think that'd be too difficult for us.

 

[Memster101]

(( I've heard pretty good things about all those books :3 I've been going on one of my famous King binges lately/not had a lot of time to read, but hopefully I can unbury myself for two seconds after this latest book and switch authors xD King has some pretty messed up books if you're interested x3 ))


I looked up at her, my brow furrowed and lips pursed in worry about my Mir. How could I help her through this? How did I help prevent more of those horrid wounds to appear on her skin? I resisted the urge to shut my eyes as my eyes started to well up once more, listening to her words and trying to let them sink in. I was about to reply with something similar but much to my surprise, she caught my lips with her own. My heart jumped in my chest, even two years after could she still make me react like that, and I relaxed some.


My hand moved to gently cup her cheek, standing a little higher up on the balls of my feet to get a better advantage. Absently, my free hand moved to brush the items that had been strewn out on my mattress onto the floor and I moved into her lap. Legs wrapping around her waist, pulling myself closer to her, I timidly parted my mouth a little wider to intensify the kiss. I was hyper aware of how she was reacting, scared to death of upsetting her once more.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Ugh, you're the first person I've 'met' to have ever even heard of them... But yes, they're amazing. x3


And I've read some King before, but not a lot x3 My parents owned like every single book to date when I was younger, but I have no clue what's happened to them over the years. xD ))


Instead of feeling afraid when Teag sits on my lap, pulls herself close, and intensifies the kiss, I only start to feel that familiar twinge of want. It's not as intense as usual, I'll give it that much.. Perhaps a deep fear was holding it back from being as noticeable as it normally is, but it's still there. And that, in addition to everything we were able to do earlier, brings me hope.


I wrap my arms around Teag's lower back, pulling her a bit closer to me. My tongue slowly moves through the entrance of her mouth, pressing against hers which elicits a quiet moan from me- not what I'd intended, but stirring up feelings none the less. I love feeling our bodies so close, engaged in one another... It's the best feeling in my opinion. It makes me feel so free, so open, so loved. None of which I'd felt before I met Teagan. Which is why I don't even hesitate at slowly moving my hands under the bottom of the sweater, my palms resting flat against her slightly heated skin. That just made me feel even better..

 

[Memster101]

(( ^^* I really need to spread my horizons xD The only books I've probably read for the past year are King ones ^^* I want to get his autograph along with a quote as a tattoo >> ))


I quite moan left my own lips and my hands moved to tangle into her hair, somewhat afraid to let my hands venture under her shirt again. I figured the best thing to do was to more or less copy what she did, not going further than that until she grew more comfortable with the idea of sex again. I arched into her hands, yearning to feel them on me. One of the only times I felt safe and somewhat secure with myself was when I was with her. Only recently had I been able to do anything with the lights on, but slowly I was starting to be able to love myself. Seeing how much Mir loved not only me, but my body, despite all of its scars, was starting to wear on me.


My teeth gently set against her tongue, trapping it there so I could lightly suck at it, my face flushing as I started to feel the tell-tell want building up within me. I knew that this didn't mean it would escalate to anything beyond probably making out and a few lost articles of clothing, and was fully prepared to back out and probably have to hop into the shower to cool myself off. But for now I'd enjoy the moment.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Ooh? o: What quote?))


My breath catches in my throat and I mean when I feel Teag sucking on my tongue- another of my huge turn ons... I slowly move my hands up her back, relieved that she was already not wearing a bra as I didn't have that pesky material to mess with my hands feeling along her smooth skin. My own was quite alight with heat and want building tougher and tougher in me, making it more difficult to push us into going much further than I'm okay with in this moment. Perhaps once we've warmed up again we can actually make love tonight, but.. At this moment, this is all I want, it's all I'm comfortable with... Except..


"Babe.." I whisper, pulling back but still letting out lips brush. "Can we.. Take off the shirts?" I ask, desperately wanting to feel her skin on mine. I didn't want to just yank it off though, because while I know she's getting more comfortable with doing things in the light, I know she's not totally fine with it yet.. And I really don't want to make her uncomfortable. So I just wait, breathing heavily and letting our breaths mingle between us as I await her answer, desperately hoping it's a yes, even if it means breaking apart to go and quickly shut off the light... I just want to feel her.

 

[Memster101]

(( Either, "Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win." or "The world has teeth and it can bite you with them any time it wants." :3 ))


I could feel her starting to tense up and inwardly whined, hating that it was hard for me to stop. My lips followed her for a second when she pulled back an shyly I opened my eyes, already breathing fairly rapidly. After a moment of consideration for her request, I nodded shyly, untangling myself from her so that we could remove the clothing. While I was still shy about being topless in front of her, it was really being without pants that bothered me the most. My arms weren't all that pretty, lined with scars, but they were nothing compared to my thighs. Thus time around I didn't make much of a fuss about the light being on, knowing that she liked being able to see me and I definitely loved being able to see her.


With gently hands trembling slightly from the pent up desire I had, I gently pulled her shirt off, resisting the urge to start kissing her then and there. I knew it would be unfair to make her be the only one without a shirt on, even if it was only for probably a short while. Pulling my lower lip between my teeth, I looked up at her with eyes filled with a mix of desire, nervousness, and love.

 

[Zotohxan]

((They can both be taken in such depressing ways x'D But I like the second most, I think.. I've heard both of those before and love them, though. x3 Good choices!))


The look in Teag's eyes after she pulls my shirt off has tears forming in my own. I could practically feel everything she was- mostly because I had the same emotions flowing through me, but... They just seemed so... Raw... From her. I guess because they're directed at me. I move my own hands down and grip the bottom hem of her shirt, brushing my fingers delicately along her skin as I lift it up, then throw it to the side. I look her exposed skin up and down, a smile falling onto my expression as I put my hands flat on her stomach, then lean in and kiss her again, hands moving to rest on her hips.


After a moment I pull back, "I love you." I state, no room for anything more in the three words. They were full of every emotion I felt, even cracking with the intensity with which I felt them... More tears were formed in my eyes, but not from any sort of fear. "I'm so lucky to have you.. I love you so much." And then I lean in once more, pulling her front tight against mine as I tilt my head to the side and kiss her deeply, never wanting this overly-perfected moment to end.

 

[Memster101]

(( Yeah xD I really like the second one because it's from my favorite book by him :3 I just have no idea where I'd put it. I have so many I want D: ))


I trembled lightly as I watched her look over my skin, a blush rapidly blemishing the paleness of it. My own eyes gazed over her longingly, her beauty taking my breath away. She was far from perfect, but I loved her even more for every flaw, which were few and far between. I let her pull me towards her, shuddering lightly as our skin pressed together, eagerly meeting her lips. "I love you so much," I muttered against them.


I pulled myself closer to her, my hands tracing along her back and sides. "You're so beau-" My comment broke off though as a little moan escaped me as she moved in to kiss deeper, hardly hesitating to match her intensity. Softly a bit at her lip, sliding one of my hands across her stomach, keeping my touch light and teasing despite how badly I wanted to be rougher.

 

[Zotohxan]

((I know the pain! ;w; ))


I whimper in want and moan against Teag's lips, slowly beginning to lay down so she was over top of me. I knew I should be freaking out right now... And deep down I think I felt that fear, but.. It was far overwhelmed by the love I feel for the girl atop me, and the pooling desire that dares not give up. I then realize that I'm actually wanting to be a bit bolder... My arms move to wrap around Teag's waist, then one hand goes down to rest on her bottom, while the other tangles in her hair.


I tug gently, then pull my lips from hers and attach them instead to her jaw, making a short trail of kisses up to her ear lobe. "You are gorgeous." I whisper breathlessly, kissing and nipping at her ear before moving down to the sweet spot on her neck. I bite the skin there, but not really enough to hurt.. I run my tongue across it and suck, then pull back and run my tongue across the mark I've left there. I honestly loved giving and receiving hickies just as much as Teag does... Especially now, as I feel like it may remind me that we are both here. We love one another, everything we're doing is out of love, respect, and consent. Nothing else in the world matters... Just the messy blonde hair, and wanting grey eyes. She truly is enchanting...

 

[Memster101]

(( What do you want/do you have any??))


I followed Mir down as she started to lay herself out, adjusting us some so that I could pull her leg up along my side, opening her hips so I could press my own against hers. My eyes widened in surprise when her hand moved to my behind, both from how brave she was by testing her boundaries and the fact that she was bold enough in general to do so. A slight whine escaped me when she pulled away from kissing me, almost going to reach a hand up to bring her back before I realized where she was going.


The fact that she took time to tell me how beautiful I was despite the heated moments also was a reminder of how much she loved me. Quietly I moaned as she sucked at my neck, shuddering gently against her in want, a hand diving into her cherry hair to hold her there. I briefly was able to open my eyes an felt my want soar by the obvious desire painted on her face. "I love you...." I murmured between labored breaths, massaging at her stomach with my free hand.

 

[Zotohxan]

((I have none, sadly.. But there's a quote I want, a memorial tattoo for my sister, a semicolon(cliche these days I know, but the idea for it is still beautiful..), at least one butterfly(my insect obsession since I was young>w>), something fairy and/or dragon related(my fantasy obsessions since I was young), and a bunch more... x3


How about you?))


I smile brightly, but in my eyes you could still see the many emotions and feelings swirling around. Desire, need, love, nervousness, uncertainty... I was afraid I may push something, that I may do something Teag wouldn't like.. Even though it's been over half a year now that we've been making love, I still feel so inferior to her... I mean, I never had any partners until her, so I don't know much of anything... I don't want her just to humour me as to not hurt my feelings.


"I love you too." I hoarsely reply, then focus both my hands down at the waistband of her sweats, biting my bottom lip and tilting my head to the side, essentially making the face I know that drives her wild. "Shall we?" I offer, tightening my leg a bit behind her, bringing our hips closer. Feeling her, even through clothing, set my body on fire... But I wanted to feel closer.


Right now, it's not about forgetting. It's not about using. It's about remembering how much we love, cherish, and protect one another. It's about forming our bodies together to satisfy the most primal, deepest needs a human could ever feel. And I'm in love with how gentle, respectful, and perfect we could do that... I'm in love with the way she can move her hands along my body and make me feel as if I were floating millions of miles above the earth, lost in a world of ecstasy, happiness, and her. I'm in love with how even when we play rough, everything is still loving. Nothing ever forced. It's always about consent, and both of us being comfortable. I just simply... Love Teagan. And that's why I'm not afraid, that's why I want to do this... It's about love. Purely, simply, love.

 

[Memster101]

(( For cool! I have a semi colon actually on my left wrist and my dad's Taiwanese name over my heart :3 I plan on getting this really cool spin off Da Vinchi's perfect man on my right forearm, this kind of symbol that represents recovery either around the semi colon or higher up on the same arm, the King tattoo, maybe a sleeve of the Starry Night painting, something for pride, and when my dad passes away I want to get his birth and death date written in Taiwanese next to his name :3 ))


I searched Mir's eyes when she looked up at me, studying the emotions I saw swirling there. I loved that I could tell just what she was thinking and feeling by looking into them. It showed just how open and trusting we were with each other. And the fact we stopped to consult each other before each step.... There were so many couples who didn't bother to do that. Just the little things we did to check on each other, the respect we held for one another, I was proud to call her mine. I could sense her hesitation though and smiled softly, amused. No matter how many times I assured her that she was amazing at what she did, she always doubted her self. Even when I was writhing under her, moaning at the top of my lungs, she did.


My breath caught in my throat when she set her hands on the waistband of my pants and I felt my anxiety spike. Just like she doubted her skills, I always doubted those first few moments when my skin was bared to her. Even though I knew she'd never judge me or make me feel bad about myself, it still made me nervous. Swallowing, I nodded after a moment and briefly untangled us to slide my sweats off. Smiling shyly at her, I inched down between her legs and set my hands on the waistband of her pants, looking up at her in silent questioning.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Awwh, the stuff for your Dad is so sweet.. And the rest are awesome, and I like your style! x3


Another I want is a sort of sleeve of the tree of life. With the bushing leaves on my shoulder, chest, and back, then the trunk making it's way down my arm.. Though, I probably won't go through with that one. I don't like needles, and that'd hurt BAD xD ))


I smile down at Teag and nod. I know that we'd had sex earlier... But, we were both fairly drunk, one of us far more than the other... And now my nervousness was really kicking in. What if she was disgusted with my lower areas? I mean.. That is where the man focused the most of his energy... I honestly wouldn't be surprised if I had some hickies on my thighs, or.. As I so desperately hope not... On my most intimate spot. That would just... Crush me if it were to happen.


But, either way... I still don't fear this. I don't second guess what Teag and I are about to do. The thought to back out doesn't even cross my mind. In all honesty, I still want this, so bad. I want to show Teag again just how much I love her, and how deep that love runs. And I know she wants to show me the same... I just want us to be together, and I refuse to allow memories that won't go away to ruin that. This moment isn't for him. It's for us.

 

[Memster101]

(( Thanks ^^* And that'd be so sick! :3 ))


Gently I slid her pants down and threw them somewhere in my room with the rest of our clothes. Smiling shyly and kissed my way up her thighs, stomach, and her chest, staring up at her from behind my eyelashes. Switching between kissing, gently biting, and sucking. I kept myself pressed against Mir's body as I inched back up, smirking as I came to her lips. "Hello," I mused, just keeping our lips a breath apart. Though I was teasing her, she knew that I had the utmost respect for her. And if she ever decided to switch the tables I'd be putty in her hands.


One of my hands traced down her stomach, just trailing my nails against her skin. I searched her eyes with longing as I stared at her, feeling the want towards her nearly overcoming me. Despite trying to tease her, my face turned bright red and my breath was coming in shy gasps.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Yesss! x3))


I bit my lip to hold back loud moans from Teag's actions, knowing now her parents were in the house we'd have to at least try and stay a bit quiet... "Hi." I whisper back, breathlessly. It felt as if a single gaze from Teagan could send me over the edge, the sound of her voice cushioning the fall, yet also making me fall harder. It was a bit of a conundrum, but I liked it. I slowly arch my back so I'm closer against her, my leg coming up to once more hook around her hips, pulling them closer to my own as my hands move to gently glide across her back.


Without another word, I tilt my head up and press our lips together firmly. The kiss was fueled by the want we both felt, but at the same time it was full of passion and love. I close my eyes, losing myself in the world of Teagan. Hands moving, bodies aching in the sweetest of ways, screams muffled by kisses so intense they'd knock a boxer out of the ring... Again, it was beautiful. It was slow, gentle,trusting. Everything was done with love in mind, and I know that neither of us doubted the respect the other felt toward us. We continuously watched to make sure the other was comfortable with what we were doing, and understood when we were asked to stop something. It was perfect... Just like the first time.


And now I pull the blankets around us, shielding our bodies which gleam from the thin veil of sweat transferred between us, cuddling close against the love of my life. "I love you."

 

[Memster101]

(( Sorry my replies were kinda poop >< My dad's watching tv and it's really distracting. Do you have an piercings or anything??))


In all honesty I was surprised that my parents didn't come to investigate the noises we made, knowing that I was at least having troubles muffling my moans and cries. When we finished I fell lax beside her, a worn smile resting on my lips. Despite the sheen of sweat that now covered us, I happily pulled her close, enjoying the feel of my love tucked against me, our faces turned so that we could look at each other. " I love you too," I informed her, reaching up to gently cup her face in my palm. "You're amazing..." My eyes slid shut for a few seconds before I shook my head some, not wanting to fall asleep and miss being able to stare at the gorgeous girl before me.


If it were possible, I'd stay like this with her forever. There was something so personal, so loving about cuddling with her, no clothes separating us. I knew I'd never be close enough but this was good enough. I kissed her softly, with so much love behind it that it shortened my breath slightly. I didn't want to ever imagine being with someone else like this. We might have been young but I knew that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Haha, you're totally fine! x3 Your replies are still good! ^-^


Mine will be a bit more delayed, as I'm making dinner, then my Mom wants to watch a movie. ;w; ))


"As are you, my love." I say, smiling lazily at her as my hand comes up to tuck a bit of wild hair behind her ear. Though there was nothing rough about what we'd done, there had still been a lot of movement. I just know that my hair is sticking up at crazy angles, just like hers. And honestly, I love it... It just proves, as if the marks along our skin didn't, that we are one another's. No one else's... We'd caused this lovely disarray and it seemed to me to just accentuate the image of my girlfriend, my Teag, that was already breathtaking enough.


"I hope your parents didn't hear..." I say, only half teasing... My face burned blood red at the thought. Even though I knew that we had to be quiet, there was a few times I just couldn't hold back the screams... I was honestly surprised they hadn't come in to see what was going on, though.. I imagine it doesn't take a genius to figure out what it could be, especially after they'd seen us in the kitchen... Again, the thought makes me blush even harder.

 

[Memster101]

(( Okay! Also, do you have any piercings??))


I laughed as I took in note of her wild hair, knowing mine looked much the same. To be frank though, I didn't really care. I pulled her closer to tuck myself against her warmth, enjoying the feeling. "They were probably too embarrassed from earlier to think about even coming up to make a scene," I pointed out, combing my fingers gently through her hair as we laid together. I took a glance at the clock that sat on my night stand, blinking when I saw it was roughly eight o'clock. We had certainly been at it for quiet awhile. If we didn't start to already feel it by tonight, we would definitely be hurting tomorrow.


After I had fixed Mir's hair some I stretched a little, listening to the pops that ran up my spine and then my neck as I turned my head side to side. A happy sigh escaped me and I eased back down against the bed, pulling Mir's arm around me . Teasingly I hid my face in her chest, giving her loving pecks along her skin, not really trying to start anything though. I just loved the feel of her skin against my lips. "Should we watch a movie?" I muffled against her skin, wrapping my arms around her to pull her chest closer to my face once more.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Aah, sorry. I got distracted from answering x3 No, just my ears.. But when I turn 18 in a few months I'll be getting my bottom lip pierced


How about you?))


I giggle at Teag's playfulness and nod. Both to agree with what she'd theorized about her parents, and to her offer of watching a movie. That did certainly sound nice... "Yeah." I bite my bottom lip, gently tapping my girlfriend's chin to get her to look at me. "Think we could do a sappy one?" I must admit... if I'm addicted to anything in this world, it's sappy, cheesy romance movies.


Even if Teag does like them, she's always teased me about it because they're just about the only movie I'd pick as my first choice. And I like to annoy the hell out of her to make her watch it with me, whether she wanted to or not, really... Of course we also watched what she wanted, but.. I'd always playfully whine about it.


....God... Now that I think about it, I really sound like a huge bitch.... "I'm sorry.." I say, pulling my brows together as I frown slightly. "We can watch whatever you want.." I put a small smile on my face, "I really don't mind."

 

[Memster101]

((Nice! I want a lip piercing but I'm already going to have trouble getting other jobs with my gauges. I've got a cartilage piercing, a nose piercing, and three sets of lobe piercings and all of them are gauged. My thirds are at 10, seconds at 6, and firsts at 0 ^^* ))


I teasingly grumbled at her when she made me surface from the hidings of her cleavage, pouting a little up at her. I chuckled softly at her request, not at all surprised by it. I would humor her and watch them, paying more attention to her really than the movie, finding her reactions adorable. But truth be told, they weren't my favorite. I loved being romantic but it was always so dorky the way everyone went about everything. I was die hard horror flick fan, but I could probably guess that Mir had, had enough horror to deal with for this week.


Searching around on my bed, I located a blanket to wrap around myself before standing up. "No, it's fine love," I argued, smiling at her. I would still tease her during it though, often making gagging sounds or mocking the characters on screen. I found the remote that I had sitting on my dresser, flicking on the TV. "Guest's choice," I mused, lightly tossing her the remote before turning off the lights so we could see better. This done, I returned to my spot next to her, pulling her back in close.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Aah that's wicked! owo I envy you. I'm trying to get some sort of job that won't care if I've got piercings or whatever, but the only place I've found so far where you see the employees wearing whatever piercings they want seems to be places like Hot Topic or maybe Walmart, depending on how lax the managers are. ;w; ))


I smile softly as I catch the remote, honestly thankful Teag didn't recommend a horror movie like normal. I honestly hate them.. I'm scared so easily, always have been, but.. They're a crazy good excuse for burying my face between my girlfriend's boobs. And I usually get her back to the bedroom before the movie's even half over, so.. I guess it's not that bad. I smirk lightly at the memories, but tonight.. I'm really not up for anymore fear. So I decide to try and compromise...


When Teag sits down again I cuddle up against her, my head resting on her shoulder as I flip through the movie channels. I stop on a comedy, reading the description and looking up at her curiously, "Does this sound alright?" If she didn't like it, I'd go to my sappy one.. But I know she really only puts up with those so she can have fun teasing me and the characters, so I don't really want to make her sit through that, since she doesn't much enjoy the movie itself..

 

[Memster101]

(( I know :3 I kinda wanna go up to maybe 00 for my firsts and 4s for my seconds but I've already bought so many in the sizes I'm at now >< And at least here, I know that Walmart has a problem with facial piercings >< I'd think call centers would be a lot more relaxed considering you can't actually see the people.))


I smiled as Mir tucked herself back against me and wrapped an arm around her shoulders, resting my hand lightly over her heart. I had a bad tendency of often setting my hands on her boobs or rubbing at her thighs, but never actually meaning for it to be sexual. I just loved touching her. Briefly I glanced over the synopsis, hemming and hahing teasing for a moment. "I suppose," I mused, though truth be told it had two actors I rather liked. "Go for it, babe." Worst came to worse I could always just space out and find something to keep my attention.


When Mir hit play, I settled down against the bed, drawing her in closer to my side. Nuzzling my face into her hair, I peered through her cherry locks at the TV as the opening credits started to roll. "Is this one you've seen?" I asked, trying to recall myself if I had or not. The title had sounded familiar enough but I couldn't be sure.


(( Also, sorry for the delayed reply. I had to go be hygienic and shower. Ew O.o ))

 

[Zotohxan]

((Aah, I didn't realize Walmart actually had a rule against that. o: I guess some of the employees I've seen were just asking to get fired. x3 But yeah, I'd think that'd make sense.. I believe my brother tried getting a job at a call center once, though, while he was still actually wearing plugs in his gauges(Correct me if I'm wrong on the wording here. x3) and they wouldn't hire him because it wasn't professional.. Though, that could have just been that one.))


I snuggle gratefully against Teagan, the smile seeming to be a permanent fixture on my expression now, at least.. That's how it seems. "I haven't." I say with a shake of my head, my arms wrapping around her waist and just resting on her stomach and hip, a position that was plenty comfortable to me. "If you want me to move, just let me know." I say, though really... I have no intention of moving.


Unless I'd have to go pee... That would be my only exception. I watch as the movie starts up, it actually seeming a bit familiar. "Hmm.. Maybe I have..?" I offer, though a bit more to myself than to Teag. "I really don't know..." I shrug lightly, relaxing totally against my girlfriend, not having the slight, irrational fear that I may crush her if I didn't consciously keep my head or my limbs from putting their full weight on her. Hell, the girl can easily pick me up and throw me over her shoulder. I don't know why I have that fear in the first place...

 

[Memster101]

(( It could have been! Who knows xD Once my hair grows out it won't really matter cause I can hide them then :3 It needs to grow fastterrrr >< And yes, plugs are the solid ones, tunnels are the ones with the holes in the middle. Then there's tapers and those are the long ones that go from smaller to larger and that's what you use to size up :3 ))


I nodded some at her reminder though knew that there wasn't much of a chance of me having her move. My arm could fall asleep but then I'd just move it, not her. i enjoyed Mir's presences too much to be bothered with trivial things like that. A yawn escaped my lips as we settled and I was happy to find that she was fully relaxed against me. I understood the fear of accidentally crushing someone or being scared to put your full weight, though in retrospect had no reason to even think I could do so. I lightly traced patterns along her skin as we started to watch the film, never really being able to stop touching her.


About twenty or so minutes into the film I realized I did know it and figured it would be something I could actually enjoy. Occasionally I'd glance at Mir to see if she was enjoying it as well or to check if she was asleep. I was fairly tired myself after our endeavors but would force myself to stay awake as long as Mir was.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Aah, I wish I had some hair growth wisdom to share but I am unfortunately too unwise to hold such knowledge. I apologize~


And okay, sweet. owo I never really paid attention to what he'd call everything, so I'm pretty glad I got that right. xD ))


The smile on my face only widened as I feel Teag making little patterns on my skin. This always happens.. No matter what we're doing, it's as if she can't get enough of touching me... And I love that. I'm the same way, but mine usually comes in cuddling or hand-holding, mostly because I'm afraid she'd find me annoying if I were to do anything else... Another 'irrational' fear as she says, but.. To me, it's more rational than a lot of things... I'm just so afraid that one day she'll realize how much better than me she is, and how I don't even close to deserve her...


It'd crush me, but if that day comes.. I'd give her up. Because I know I'm not good enough for my Teag, but I still love her so much. I really do just want her to be happy, though.


Happiness... That sends my mind trying to go down several other paths, but I refuse to allow it. I force myself to focus again on the movie, occasionally scooting closer against Teag. I laugh at the parts I find funny, and boo at the parts I don't like. I've always been a pretty vocal movie watcher... Though about halfway through the film my eyes start feeling heavier than before, and I feel groggy. I realize that I'll be falling asleep soon so I look up at Teag, smiling softly. "I'm gonna sleep... Soon." I yawn, snuggling a bit deeper against my love's chest, also to playfully tease her a bit. "Night, love."