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[Zotohxan]

I bite my bottom lip at Teag's question then shrug a bit, "I figure next week... I'll start therapy then go back, that way the therapist already knows what's going on with me, and if anything happens between my appointments I can go ahead and get it out..." I swallow hard, wrapping my arm around Teag's waist, just loving the feeling of her flesh on mine. "I know it'll be hard... And I know you're scared for me, but.. I'll be okay. I'm trying to grow strong. For my sake, your sake, and the baby's sake. And part of that is facing my fears, and heading back to high school."

 

[Memster101]

I nodded some, figuring that, that was the best out come for her. My lips pressed briefly to her forehead before I relaxed my head against the pillows, eyes closing from exhaustion. "Okay..." I murmured softly, freeing one of my hands to rub absently at my eyes for a moment before returning it to her skin. "Are you going to get some type of note to excuse all the things you missed in class and what not?" She certainly had missed a lot...

 

[Zotohxan]

I shrug a bit. Since during the time Teag and I were apart my parents were convicted along with Micheal for paying him to attack me, their parental rights were ripped away, and Rosaline and Lori readily took over... Legally, they are my parents now. They adopted me... Meaning that they have the legal say in everything I do. "Rosaline and Lori said that it'd probably be best if we told the school what happened to me... That way I can get out of the classes that are too much, like gym, I can go to the office for any medicine I need, doctors appointments will be excuse, the nurse will be aware... And I guess they're thinking it would work out better all around. Like.. The school would excuse me themselves if two police officers came in with me to explain everything that happened."


I'm not really sure how I feel about the school knowing, mostly because I've seen a lot of movies where they'd hold an assembly to announce there's a pregnant student, and to be careful with her. I'm terrified of that... I feel like since everyone already hates me, it'd just egg them on more to abuse me. More verbally than physically though, I'd hope. But I know I have to do whatever it takes to head back to school... I'm going to be a mother, I need to learn to take life's hardships and move past them. I need to learn to stay strong.

 

[Memster101]

My eyes opened briefly so I could look at Mir as she spoke, lips pursing mildly in thought. I knew what she was afraid of, one of those awful assemblies, but for the few cases that had happened at our own school there had never been anything like it. Of course, they could ask to avoid it, just in case. Now that we had cooled down even to that the air from outside had become unpleasantly cold, I got out of the bed and shut the window, peering outside a moment or two while doing so. The two officers were sure lucky how much privacy their apartment offered- more than my own house did most of the time. Despite this though, I shut the curtains and took my place back in the bed with Mir.


"I don't think they'll do anything really out there concerning the whole pregnancy thing," I assured her, tucking one of my arms under my head after sliding down under the covers. Naturally, I was freezing once again. "It's just the kids I'm worried about." I knew that not many people went out of their way to be nice to Mir, but aside from Matt and the guys, I'd never seen anyone make an effort to be mean to her either. Things might change now though that they had ammunition.

 

[Zotohxan]

I shrug a bit and lower my eyes, obviously still afraid. "I hope not... I mean, I want what's best for this baby, and if it'll be safer for everyone to know flat out that I'm pregnant then I want that, but.. I'm just scared that if they do, people will be harder on me... I'm scared once I start showing they'll be harder on me, really.. I mean, there's no telling what Matt and Dylan will go around telling people about how I got pregnant. And you and I both know they'll say something stupid, and I'm just afraid it'll make more people hate me." He shrug again, cuddling close to Teag, though I stay above the blankets, still needing to cool down a bit. Pregnancy, probably.


"I'm happy that I'm going to be a Mom... Not about how it happened, and I'm not exactly thrilled that I'm so young, but... You know I always wanted to become a mother someday. I just want what's best for my baby, I want it to grow up with the happiness and love I didn't have for so long, I never want it to feel helpless or scared..." I look into Teag's eyes again, "I don't want my baby to die before it even gets into this world... And I'm sort of afraid that that would happen... Especially if Matt and the guys try... T-That again..." I could feel my throat starting to close up at the thought of what they'd tried to do my last day trying to go to school, bu I force myself to calm again. "That's my only real concern about going back..."

 

[Memster101]

I moved my free arm around Mir, playing softly with her cherry hair. "People are going to be mean regardless, Mir," I told her gently, looking over at her. "I guess my view on it is why draw unnecessary attention to yourself? Putting it out there so broadly...it makes you a target. Or at least that's my logic." I shrugged some, turning my gaze back to the ceiling. "That doesn't mean you have to hide that your pregnant...you just don't have to go shouting it from the roof of the school." My jaw hardened some at the mention of Matt and Dylan and my eyes glared daggers up at the ceiling.


"If they do anything to you...I'll kill them," I murmured, shaking my head some. And it was the truth. Sure it was a long way from stabbing a guy a little from actually killing him...but if he hurt Mir...if he hurt her in anyway, I'd do what I hadn't been able to do to Michael that day we arrested him. "One way or another they've got to learn they can't get away with shit like that and if I happen to be the one to teach them that..." I shrugged once more, sighing up at the ceiling.

 

[Zotohxan]

I frown a bit, moving my hand to Teag's cheek and turning her head to look at me again. "You'll do nothing like that." I say, my voice firm. "I need you, Teag.. And you can't very well help me from prison, can you?" I swallow hard, "Believe me.. I don't want them doing that to me anymore than you do, but... Even if they do, I don't want you getting violent. Rosaline and Lori could look past the drugs and alcohol, but I don't know about assault or attempted murder... Even if you were to claim self-defense, I don't think you'd get away without some sort of legal repercussions."


I sigh and close my eyes, "I'll get pepper spray from one of the officers... That'll work, and if they do try anything, I'll spray it on their junk.." I smirk lightly, knowing the mental image would hopefully make Teag laugh. "They wouldn't be trying anything with it for awhile more."

 

[Memster101]

I searched her face, lips still pursed somewhat in aggravation. Again, there were a few ways I could go about this doing the least amount of damage to my freedom and a lot to theirs. If I could antagonize them, like I did with Michael, and somehow catch it on camera to prosecute them. My eyes widened slightly at the idea. Sure I'd get hurt...maybe a lot....But in the end, it would protect Mir, myself, and every other girl they had harassed throughout the years. I knew what I was doing in the upcoming week. At least it would be one less problem for Mir to have to deal with.


I managed a soft chuckle at Mir's own idea, smoothing her hair from her face briefly before pulling her to me. "I'm sure it would...Maybe you should get some sleep, love? You've had a long day."

 

[Zotohxan]

I smile a bit and nod, "Yeah... You too." I relax against the bed a bit before my eyes go wide, "Shit.. Should you call Jess? She didn't know you'd be staying so long, did she?" I chew on my bottom lip, afraid that Jess may be freaking out right now. Even though I don't know her incredibly well, I do know how much she cares about Teag, and how her own nerves have been shot as of late... And the fact Teag probably disappeared without a word, well.. I can imagine how much that'd freak her out.

 

[Memster101]

I started some at the mention of Jess and swore, sitting up so I could find my pants that had been thrown somewhere beside the bed. When I found them and my phone, I looked through the messages, frowning at all of the ones that were from Jess. She was freaking out alright. Not that I blamed her. A sigh left me and I flopped on the bed, hitting the speed dial for Jess. "Thanks for reminding me," I murmured, feeling awful for stressing her out like that. Lord knew I was probably going to get an ear full when she picked up.

 

[Zotohxan]

I nod silently, a small smile on my face as Teag waits for Jess to pick up. Which she does after only two rings.


"Teagan Saint Hopkins what the fuck is wrong with you?! Where are you?! Do you have any fucking idea how god damn worried I've been you little bitch!?" She lets out a huff of annoyance, "I've been trying to call you for three fucking hours! How'd you know I wasn't dying, huh? Maybe I got fucking attacked by someone I used to deal to and I was bleeding out in a fucking gutter somewhere! But no, you had to ignore my fucking calls! Where are you? I'll drive over there and kick your scrawny white ass!"


I couldn't help it.. I could hear Jess' screaming voice through the phone and I started cracking up, my laughter though muffled by my hand, apparently audible through the phone. "Oh, and you're with some giggling floozy now?! What the hell! What about Miranda, Teagan?!" Another huff, "I haven't even fucked you 'cause of that girl! Jesus... Where the hell are you? I'm coming to kick your fucking ass."


((Because holy hell I love Jess))

 

[Memster101]

(( Oh my holy hell I adore her xD ))


I ripped the phone away from my ear as Jess started to yell at me, nearly dropping it, then had to spend a few seconds juggling it before holding it back a few inches away from my ear. "Oh my god Jess, calm your fucking tits," I mused, smiling sheepishly into the darkness. "Mir dialed me up and so I went over to score some booty." I turned my face into Mir's stomach to muffle my laughter, snorting lightly in that obnoxious way when I laughed too hard. "That 'floozy'-Jesus, what are you, my grandmother?" Another peel of laughter left me, along with a few more snorts, which only caused me to laugh harder. "You're certainly old enough to be!"

 

[Zotohxan]

I couldn't help but laugh more at Teag's words, hearing another huff through the phone. "Well.. I'm glad you're able to fuck your girlfriend, but you should fucking tell me first, you bitch! I was fucking worried! Why the hell wouldn't you tell me?!" Despite her harsh words, there was definitely fear in her tone, and it almost sounded like she'd been crying.. But if she had, she did hide it very well. I bite my bottom lip, still able to hear Jess, and move to Teag's other ear to whisper, "Tell her I need to talk to her tomorrow.. We can all meet up after school or something, but.. She deserves to know." I'm terrified to tell her... Terrified about how she'll react to the news that she'll be an aunt because of her brother being a monster. But... It's true. She does deserve to know. And if I want to have any sort of relationship beyond being an acquaintance with her, then I'll need to start now.

 

[Memster101]

I managed to calm my laughter and rubbed some at my eyes, sighing softly. "Lori called me and told me that Mir was having a really hard time. I didn't really think about anything other than getting over here," I apologized, smoothing my hair from my face. "Actually, tomorrow, Mir wants to have a talk about something after school..." Now I pulled my lip between my teeth, chewing lightly at it. "About why I had to come over here. Do you think you can hold off from kicking my 'scrawny white ass' until after that?"

 

[Zotohxan]

Jess sighs and nods, one could practically hear her rolling her eyes. "Whatever... Just.. Is she alright?" Though the past three weeks even though Jess and Teag were almost constantly high or drunk at any given time, they'd both worried about me. Even if they didn't act on it, they did. Jess would often ask Teag if she'd talked to me that day, how my appointments went, asking for updates on whether I was going to school or not.. That sort of thing. She'd also been relieved along with everyone else when the news came that the doctor was 99% positive I was not pregnant... Surprise.

 

[Memster101]

I cast my gaze up towards Mir, studying her curiously for a few moments before reply. "She's doing alright now. At least better than she was when I got here," I informed Jess, smiling slightly. This whole Michael thing hadn't been all bad in retrospect. It had brought both Jess and Mir closer, into at least tolerating each other, from their shared experiences. And that meant the world to me. Hopefully things would continue to grow in a positive way after the announcement of Mir's pregnancy. "I'm sorry for not leaving a note or anything. I was just scared."

 

[Zotohxan]

I smile softly, moving to cuddle against Teag, the smile not leaving my face. I close my eyes, my arm wrapped around my girlfriend's waist as I just listen to her voice.


"It's alright, I understand now..." She sighs slightly, "It's just..I know he's in prison now and all, but I still get scared sometimes, ya know? Like.. He's broken out before. Of course it wasn't for anything like this and it was a much less guarded prison, but the fact of the matter is that he has broken out... And when you suddenly disappear and I don't hear from you, I start thinking the worst. I even tried calling Miranda, and when she didn't answer at first I thought that maybe you two were together, but I figured you'd tell me.. So then I got scared he had both of you, and just..." She audibly shudders, "Just.. I got scared." On her last bit her voice was sounding slightly broken, though she clears her voice to wipe that away. "Anyway... I've got to go get high off my ass, and you should probably either get your scrawny white ass back to fucking your floozy, or get some sleep." She teases, "I'll see you tomorrow at school."

 

[Memster101]

I drew Mir close to me with my free arm, nuzzling my face into her hair some. It wasn't a thought that had ever really plagued me...but now I had to wonder and stew about it. Who would be the first one Michael would come after between the three of us? A light shudder ran through me and I tried to put the thought to rest, holding Mir closer. "Go get high, grandma," I mused softly, a light smile brushing over my lips at her teasing. "I'll see you tomorrow at school. Love you." I hung up after Jess said her own goodbyes, setting my phone somewhere on the bed beside me in case she tried to call me again.


A yawn escaped me and I nuzzled at Mir's nose lightly, wrapping my arms around her neck. "I'm ready for bed if you are," I offered sleepily.

 

[Zotohxan]

I smile softly and nod, a contented sigh leaving my lips as I cuddle close against Teag, "Yeah... You wore me out." I chuckle a bit, giving her a mischievous smirk. After a few moments I run my fingers gently through Teag's hair and just stare at her happily. "I really am glad you're here... And I'm glad that you and Jess have each other, and I really hope that after tomorrow, we can all sort of start to bond... I don't hold the same feelings for Jess that I had, and.. I think it'd be nice for all of us to get along better. Especially for this baby's sake, don't you..?"


I hadn't been able to hear Jess' side of the conversation toward the end, but I'd noticed how it effected Teag... And I didn't like it. Apparently it wasn't anything especially good. But, who knows.. maybe if we can all get along better, all that negativity can start to mellow itself out?

 

[Memster101]

I smiled and nodded my sympathies, she had done a fair number on me as well. "I am too...And I think that would be for the best, especially if she can handle the news about the baby." I still wasn't thrilled about the news of Mir being pregnant, but I knew that I was going to have to get use to the fact and try my hardest to love it. It being apart of Mir would certainly help with that. "I wouldn't stress too much about giving her the news. I'm sure she'll come to terms with it pretty quickly. And it will be great for the baby. It sure is going to need a lot of love."


I pulled the blanket over myself some and hid my face into the crook of Mir's neck, fairly tired. "I love you," I murmured sleepily, giving her neck a soft kiss.

 

[Zotohxan]

I smile, closing my eyes as well and nestling my chin on top of Teag's head, "I love you too." I yawn once before snuggling down against the bed some more, the day's events finally catching up to me as I feel completely, totally, and wholly exhausted. "Good night." I say, my voice tired and low from the utter exhaustion I feel.


((I'm so sorry it's short and cruddy x.x I'm utterly brain dead))

 

[Memster101]

(( You're fine~ I'm pretty mushy right now too. Should I skip to the morning or after school? ))

 

[Zotohxan]

((Might as well do after school, unless you have anything planned for the next morning.. ;w; ))

 

[Memster101]

(( Not really so after school it is haha. ))


The next morning I had woken up with about an hour to spare before school started. This unfortunately left me with very little time to say goodbye to Mir before hurrying off home to go change my clothes and get ready for the day. Jess and I had hurried off to school then and the rest of the day had pretty much gone without a hitch. My anxiety grew as it grew closer and closer to the end of the school day, not wanting to have to deal with the commotion Mir's announcement might bring. But it was something that had to be done and we needed to get over with. If not for Mir, than for Jess' sake. Thankfully, Jess did little prompting and eventually dropped the subject, so the only nagging I had to deal with was my own.


Now that the bell had rung, Jess and I were heading out into the parking lot to my car. Mir had suggested meeting us here, but I told her it might be better somewhere a little private, like the park. A lot of yelling people could usually be found there and if Jess needed to storm off, it left her plenty of room with little chance of running into another person unlike here. We managed to chit chat about nothing until we got to the car, but I would glance at her nervously, especially once we actually got into the vehicle. Even though I knew it set Jess on edge, I couldn't help myself. She seemed in a pleasant enough mood today but...


"Mir said she should be at the park around 2:40, which gives us plenty of time to get there," I murmured, more to myself than her as I pulled out of the parking lot and into the street.

 

[Zotohxan]

Jess nods, leaning against the passenger seat and just staring out the window as they go. Sure she's in a good mood, but that doesn't make her blind. She's seen all day the way Teagan has been avoiding answering what this meeting is about, the way she's so jumpy and antsy... Were it anyone else the twenty-one year old would feel like she was walking into some sort of trap, but she knows better... She knows Teagan, and knows she wouldn't knowingly take her to get hurt. However, that doesn't mean she couldn't... Teagan just wouldn't mean for it to happen.


"The park is a pretty strange place to have a meeting you want private, right? I mean.. Why not your house, your parents don't get home until later. Or my apartment? The place is abandoned. Or even those cops' house, since they're probably still at work? At the park, you never know who could stumble over and listen to your conversation. People normally only talk there if there's an escape route needed, if you're stealing something, or dealing something." She turns and quirks an eyebrow at Teag, even knowing she wasn't looking, "It's curious, right?


I, on the other hand, have been pacing around the house all day, my nerves sky-rocketed in fear of how Jess would react. I'd wanted to just get this done as soon as possible by meeting them straight after school, but Teag was right to shoot down that idea... Too many people who could use what I'm about to tell for too much ammunition. The park would have to do...Hopefully if Jess gets mad she can just turn and stalk away, instead of, I don't know... Hitting me.


...I don't know if she actually would, but it doesn't seem too far a cry from something she'd do. After letting out a deep breath I pick up my phone and call the cab company, telling them my current destination and the park's address, then waiting. Five minutes later it arrives and I get in, and I'm on my way, probably getting to the park around the same time as the other two.