S o l a r a || F e i v e l
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He hadn't answered her questions, but it was just as well. She wasn't sure she could handle hearing it if anyone from The Spark had left this life. The news of death never came easily to Sola. There was silence for awhile as Kais stood and came to sit closer to her, resting on the edge of her bed. He didn't say anything for a little while, until finally he asked a question of his own.
"What happened?"
Those were just two words, but the weight they carried was impossible. How was she supposed to explain in black and white what had transpired this evening? Would he even understand? Sola rested her mug on the windowsill as flashes of the night came back, causing her to shiver...the inhumane wails of the woman as she lay in her own blood, the look on the boy's face when he saw his brother's corpse, the feel of his body crashing on them after she killed him, the slippery coating of blood splattering against her skin. What would she have done if she found her own brother dead in the clearing? How would she have reacted if she saw his corpse lying just a few feet away from his murderers?
She wasn't sure how to explain her grief to him. Kais wasn't affected by death in the same way that she was. He had never been. He somehow was able to detach himself from it, to view it pragmatically. Something that needed to be done. Sola herself had told Veda something similar to that sentiment: that they were just doing what they had to do, that it couldn't be helped. None of that made it any better. All she could think of were those three words. Henry, get up! They stretched through time, from the forest clearing to her room, ringing in her ears as though she had just heard them. She pulled her knees up to her chest, resting her chin on them. Without realizing, tears had begun to run down her face again.
"I killed someone's brother. His name was Henry," she whispered, before covering her face with her hands. It was all she could manage to get out. She didn't want to cry in front of Kais, but she did nothing to try and stop the tears. They came silently, softly...watery representatives of what she had done. Henry was dead and no matter what, for the rest of her life, that would be her fault. That clearing was now a family grave.