Darktanion
A professional writer is a amateur that never quit
He winced heavily at the smack of her hand, stepping back and grabbing his torso. It hurt so much. Each breath, each word, but he had to say it.. No matter how much it hurt. He had to tell her. "No.. You would have hated me.. Just as you do now.. " His eyes became cold, he suddenly pushed away the pain, lunging towards her. His body slammed hers against the metal bars behind her, each hand grabbing the cold metal. His body hovered over hers like a force, his breath tickling her neck as he spoke. "What do you want me to say. That its a lie? That i'm not Reventree, that I have just been mistaken? Or that I am everything you see me as.. A liar, a murder. A person who every time you outstretched your hand to touch, wanted nothing more then to lean into it and kill you. Drain every sparkle of life that lives in your body! But instead.. was forced to flinched away.. "
His hands tightened around the bars, his feverish form careful to keep his flesh just far enough from hers. "What do you want me to be Julia.. ? What do you want me to say.. You had to raise one child.. you act like it was the hardest thing you have ever endured. poor you. I am sorry I could not be there Julia, but it will not change.. Who I am.... will not change.. And what I can do.. " He stopped for a moment, letting his eyes look over her skin. "... will not change.. .. Tell me Julia, what do you think now... Do you.. hate me now... " His words trailed off. His lungs locking up once more. He could not speak, his entire body shook, not from anger, and maybe it was the pain.. but to him.. it was sadness.
How could she say that? How could she. He did everything he could to protect her, to love her. He would go home and collapse several times a weak, his body drained from being forced to touch Julia so much. It was hard.. to control and filter his power. And even in his sleep he had to be weary, constantly able to wake and control his power so that if she touched him, she would not die. She always saw it as him being distant, but it was never like that. He was so scared he would hurt her. He was always so exhausted, so drained, his body often shaken as it was pushed to its limits.
He could never tell her the truth, not about him then, or now. She did not need to know that his memory was stolen, or that he was forced away. She didn't need to know what she really meant to him, how he stayed to be captured, so that she would not be hurt for letting him go. Reventree was always more capable then he seemed, yet for her.. if it meant she would be safer.. then he would become weak. Only for her.. And Raisa.. oh Raisa. His breath was hot, though his eyes moved like he could see, they couldn't. His head spun, the only thing keeping him up was the cold bars he grasped so desperately too. If he pushed Julia away. Would she be saved??
His hands tightened around the bars, his feverish form careful to keep his flesh just far enough from hers. "What do you want me to be Julia.. ? What do you want me to say.. You had to raise one child.. you act like it was the hardest thing you have ever endured. poor you. I am sorry I could not be there Julia, but it will not change.. Who I am.... will not change.. And what I can do.. " He stopped for a moment, letting his eyes look over her skin. "... will not change.. .. Tell me Julia, what do you think now... Do you.. hate me now... " His words trailed off. His lungs locking up once more. He could not speak, his entire body shook, not from anger, and maybe it was the pain.. but to him.. it was sadness.
How could she say that? How could she. He did everything he could to protect her, to love her. He would go home and collapse several times a weak, his body drained from being forced to touch Julia so much. It was hard.. to control and filter his power. And even in his sleep he had to be weary, constantly able to wake and control his power so that if she touched him, she would not die. She always saw it as him being distant, but it was never like that. He was so scared he would hurt her. He was always so exhausted, so drained, his body often shaken as it was pushed to its limits.
He could never tell her the truth, not about him then, or now. She did not need to know that his memory was stolen, or that he was forced away. She didn't need to know what she really meant to him, how he stayed to be captured, so that she would not be hurt for letting him go. Reventree was always more capable then he seemed, yet for her.. if it meant she would be safer.. then he would become weak. Only for her.. And Raisa.. oh Raisa. His breath was hot, though his eyes moved like he could see, they couldn't. His head spun, the only thing keeping him up was the cold bars he grasped so desperately too. If he pushed Julia away. Would she be saved??