NinjaGirlGamer
Call me Ninja
“You want to know why it's failing?”
“It's because PEOPLE LIKE YOU won't let me UNDERSTAND what the HELL IS GOING ON WITH THEM!”
The sound of Baxter’s shout made her stop her motion. She could feel Baxter’s eyes burning in the back of her mind. He ripped her up with his words.
“YOU OUT OF ALL PEOPLE!”
Ivanna felt a little stung by that last part.
“Well. Guess I was wrong”
Ivanna was about to turn around and say something but Baxter already made up his mind by flowing past her and exiting the room.
Isn’t this what she wanted? For that little peace and quiet that’s all too familiar. The silence in the room when no one was there. Alone in your thoughts with not a person to stare and wonder. How did you get this way? She thought about letting him go, going back to the silence and loneliness that awaited her. That has always awaited her, for she had no one. But....
“Expect no help from me in the battlefield”
Everyone
“Maybe people would actually like you”
Leaves
“Psychopath”
Because
“We’re not friends”
She pushed them
“Guess I was wrong”
Away
A strong hand grabs Baxter by the wrist and forcibly yanks him back inside the room. The door was closed shut right after with Ivanna looking down on the ground. She didn’t want to do this again, she couldn’t keep doing this to herself. Letting people go, letting people hate her for the sake of their own safety. Safety from her.
But Baxter
No. She didn’t want Baxter to hate her too. Not like this.
Ivanna looks up to finally face Baxter with her true self. The one she hides from everyone, the broken woman in black. She stood in front of the door, not looking anywhere else but directly at Baxter. “Maybe you’re right.” Ivanna started to say, it was gentler from before. “Maybe I am some crazy psychopath that only cares about bloodshed and have no emotions when killing. Maybe I am truly the monster I become.”
“But—“
“That’s not what I want to be”
“And I don’t want you to walk away with that notion. So—“ She deeply sighed out. “I’m only like this...because I don’t want you to get hurt in the process.” She sniffed in the presence of tears and looked away before looking back at Bax.
“I’m protecting you from me.” It was the thing she never revealed to anyone. She would always take the head charge or tell people to stay back when things were dire. She worked alone for a reason and that reason was to protect the people she cares about.
“I don’t want you to get hurt because of me. Because that’s my biggest fear, everyone that I have ever loved dying because of me.” Her heart was burning with all the built-up emotion inside. It was suffocating.
“Because that’s what happened to my family.” A single tear streamed down her face, she never talked about this. For no one was there to comfort her during the dark times. “There was a little girl, who lost her family right before her eyes. Every. Single. One. Of them. That little girl was me.”
Xanto