Our Secrets ((GxG))

[Zotohxan]

((Aah, I understand ;w;


And yehh.. I hope a school break or something comes up soon for you so you can just try to relax some. ;-; ))


I giggle a bit against Teag, unable to help myself. Everytime she adds that bit of humour about 'goody two shoes' and 'delinquent' to 'our story' it always makes me laugh, and she knows that. When she asks Officer Rosaline if she's with anyone I tense. I'm afraid that Teag may have just asked something too personal, as.. What if cops cant' talk about stuff like that? or.. What if she doesn't want to? What if she's actually disgusted with gays and is just being professional, and asking about her relationship was just crossing some sort of line? I feel myself starting to get into another panic attack but hide it well. I just avert my gaze from everyone and try to take deep breaths to calm myself down.


The burgundy haired woman chuckles softly, shaking her head with twinkling green eyes. "No, you're perfectly fine to ask... The truth is-" She's cut off by the door opening and Officer Harkin walking in with a tray, on which sits two platters of bacon, toast, scrambled eggs, and a few sausage patties. My eyes go wide as she sits the plates before us. "I-Is this.. Really okay?" I ask, wincing as my voice sounds raw, showing I'm on the verge of an attack. To other's it'd just sound as if I'd been crying, which was obvious, but.. I hope Teag just overlooks it. I'll be better now...


"Of course it's okay, hun." The brunette says, her gaze then turning to Rosaline as she walks over and quickly pecks the other officer's lips, taking the seat next to her. "And, this is my wife." Rosaline says, chuckling softly. "I suppose that was an easier way than just telling you, yeah?" She reaches over to grab her wife's hand, looking at Teag and I with almost nostalgic eyes. "This is why I called her over.. I thought you may be more comfortable with us seeing as how we're both women, and you'll also know we won't judge you..."

 

[Memster101]

(( Me too >< I don't know if we get an actual break like how normal school does or if it's just between semesters. If so, I won't get one till December =/ Hopefully not though >< So..I'm curious, and if you don't mind me asking...I noticed when I was stalking your page the other day, it said you were trans-male? If you don't want to talk about it, it's okay ))


I could fell Mir's tension, which only fed mine, at the moment of silence between her response and my question. Just as she went to answer, the other officer- Harkin?- walked in with a tray of food. A mixture of ravenous hunger and nausea/dread filled me and I dropped my free hand to rest over my stomach as it tried to rumble in protest. Fuck. Why did Mir always have to worry about me? Couldn't she just press matters like this in the safety of our own homes? It was so awful to feel the stares, always curious to why I only picked at my food or didn't eat it at all. I could feel my stomach trying to claw its way out of my throat as I stared at the food, eyes widened with slight horror, momentary forgetting to harness my emotions.


I was brought out of my thoughts as Officer Rosaline started to speak again, mouth falling open slightly when the two officers kissed. I never knew why but seeing older gay people had always shocked me. Being openly gay had always just seemed like a teenager thing that everyone seemed to forget when they grew of child-baring age. A sudden rush of warmth filled me and I squeezed Mir's hand, seeing the possible future we could have together. Even if things like gay marriage had been legalized, sometimes it seemed like a far off concept, bound to never happen. I glanced over at Mir, trying to hide the smile I felt bubbling up in me.


Even the thought of imagining Mir as my wife sent me over the moon, my heart skittering in my chest. Taking in a deep breath, I calmed myself, rubbing at my mouth to ease my grin. "Well... congratulations..." I murmured, shifting in the chair some. "You both are a beautiful couple." I wondered idly just how long I could keep Mir from harassing me about eating, thinking if we marveled in the cops' marriage long enough, she'd forget and out of habit start to eat while I busied myself.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Aah, well I hope you do.. ;-;


And no, I don't mind at all. -w- In reality, I'm biologically female. And a few years ago I learned about transgender, and started kind of coming to the 'conclusion' that I was transgender male. I only came out a few months back as that... I don't want to go into details, but I'm just going to say that a lot of stuff happened when I was younger, making me want to push myself as far away from the female gender- and anything associated with female- as possible. That being said, I wouldn't even humour the idea that I could be nonbinary or anything like that. I wanted myself to be strictly male, as that made me feel safer. And it's only recently(within the last month or so) that I've realized I actually am nonbinary; meaning that I don't strictly identify as either binary(male/female) gender. I have some traits that are more feminine, some that are more masculine. And due to my past, my comfort is more toward being addressed with a masculine name, rather than my birth name, but I'm slowly becoming okay with female pronouns and addresses(sister, etc). When I first came out as transgender I asked everyone to stay away of those things because they made me uncomfortable, but as I'm coming to terms and healing from my past, I'm also coming to terms with the fact that I'm not strictly one gender or the other.. At least, not in my mind; not with what I'm comfortable and happy with. So, yehh..


<w< Sorry, I didn't mean to rant... You can totally feel free to just ignore all that if you want. xD ))


My eyes had gone wide when I saw the two officers kiss. Teag and I had talked before about the fears and uncertainties we felt about the future.. And over the past few months it'd become a bit of a habit to actually people watch in public and try to find at least one gay couple, just to give us some hope.. So, I knew we were both sort of thinking about the same thing. Especially when she turns to me and smiles, and squeezes my hand. I squeeze right back before turning my gaze to the officers.


"So.. How long have you two been together?" I ask, my voice gaining back a bit more strength. I know I'll break down again once all this nice talk is over and we get down to business, but... I just hope that can take a little longer than 'usual'. Another thing I notice, though... Is how Teag had tried to silence her stomach. It's for that reason I pick up a piece of bacon and start eating it, putting another piece up to my girlfriend's lips. I don't make a big deal about telling or demanding her to eat, as I know that wouldn't do either of us any good... But if she doesn't, if she's really slipping into this again... I'll have a few words to say. We just got over this fully about ten months ago. There's still a long way until full recovery, but we're so much closer than we were before... I'm not letting her slip back into that dark hole.

 

[Memster101]

(( Ohh, that makes a lot of sense I'm glad you've been able to start figuring yourself out and all ^^ That's always a good thing. One of my best friends is actually transitioning from female to male (he hasn't started T yet) and I have another friend who is kinda complicated. Like he still prefers male pronoun but dresses girly a lot and it kind of confuses me but to each her/his/their own xD Like I personally identify as female and I don't think I'd ever want to be a guy, but back when I was a lot skinnier and my hair was way short/I didn't wear make up, people confused me for a boy a lot and it never really bothered me. I actually tried to go by a different name for awhile and still try to, but most of the time I just settle for my last name. I'm not sure if that's really anything like what you/ my friends are about but yeah. Just one of my quirks >> I tried to bind for awhile too. I might start that back up, it helped with my posture xD ))


I couldn't help my let my nose scrunch up some when Mir placed the bacon against my lips, but warily took it from her, nibbling slightly at it as I turned my gaze to the officers. I'd hate for them to think I thought their cooking was gross, another thing I constantly had to deal with, so I'd at least attempt to finish the bacon. Harkin smiled over at her wife, squeezing the other officer's hand. "In total? Five years. We've only been married three of them," She announced. This made sense, considering they were still on the younger end of the adult spectrum, probably no older than their late twenties. Could that really be us within the next few years? Happily married, maybe with kids on the way, or just worrying about getting ourselves through college and keeping our home? The thought was still hard for me to believe.


I shifted in my seat some, crossing my legs. "How did you two meet? Through the force or?" I managed to get at least a two thirds of the way through the strip before having to set it back down, letting my stomach adjust to the feeling of having something in its system again. It gurgled, both in seeming protest at not eating anymore and in discomfort. Swallowing, I ran a hand through my hair once more, bouncing my foot lightly as I glanced over at Mir to make sure she was still eating.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Well thank you ^-^


And that's cool o: I do hope he can start on T soon, if that's what he wants.. I know it can be hell without it. And with your other friend, power to him! x3 I love it when people just say 'eff you' to the socially constructed binary. At least, for clothes and makeup and stuff.. I don't know why, it just makes me feel happy.


I never went on T.. But I start on blockers- which my body promptly rejected and left me horribly sick for like a month(which is what I'm currently getting over, which is why I have random headaches/shitty replies xD ) so, that's over.. And I do bind. That's one thing- I'll definitely be getting top surgery, even though I'm NB and not transmale... It's just uncomfortable to me. ;w; But if you do start up again, remember.. NO ace bandages, NO tape, and don't do it for more than 8 hours MAX at a time.. I almost broke a rib wearing a binder for 10 hours multiple days a week /-\ It was painful as hell xD But honestly, quirks are awesome.. Embrace them! They help keep us unique. ^-^))


I smile brightly, squeezing Teag's hand again when I hear how long they'd been together. Almost immediately images began flitting through my mind of what Teag and I could be like after that long... It started to bring tears to my eyes but I promptly pushed them down, not feeling like crying anymore right this second... I finish my piece of bacon and move on to the toast, figuring that may settle better on my tossing stomach. I won't let myself get so into this I forget about what's coming... And I wouldn't be surprised if reliving and recounting all this causes me to lose all the food in my stomach, so.. Hopefully a piece of dry toast will help as a preemptive strike against nausea?


"We met in school, actually. Training to become cops. We were roommates-" Rosaline pauses for both she and Harkin to giggle a bit, as if remembering some sort of inside joke. "-um.." She clears her throat, seemingly remembering that there were teenagers in the room, and they were on the job... "Anyway. We got along right from the start. Helped each other through the academy, and voila. Here we are now. Our first year as cops, and still going strong." She nods between Teagan and myself, "How about the two of you? Did you meet in school, or in the neighborhood like all the sappy romance stories?"

 

[Memster101]

(( Yeah! He wants to start soon, I actually gave him a little bit of money for T for his birthday, but things like car problems and such keep getting in the way >< It'll be crazy when he actually starts, but I'm excited for him And what do blockers do exactly? Just stop estrogen? And I know, I've heard horror stories D: Back when I first started I'd use boxing wraps (technically ace bandages really) but eventually stopped. Now I've actually bought binders, like those kinds that are kind of like sport bras? I haven't worn them in awhile but I might when it starts getting colder and I can wear thicker things over myself I've never really known why but it just makes me feel a lot more comfortable >> I don't think I'd ever get top surgery though, it's just something I don't think I could ever justify money wise/ I don't really mind having boobs, at least when I'm a lot thinner. Now that I've actually gained weight, it makes me uncomfortable >< ))


Another thing that always took me back was how high-schoolish adults could sometimes act, like that little giggle. It was comforting though, knowing that there still some bridge between us and the adult world. I could only imagine what trouble the must have gotten into being roommates. Hopefully the future held the same for Mir and I. "We met in school actually. I think we had, had a few classes together before and we knew of each other. Well one day I was... well, throwing up in the bathroom and Mir decided to be all sweet and check up on me...Eventually we became friends and then obviously more..." I smiled faintly, chewing at the edge of my nail.


The cops didn't need to know that I had come to school completely shitfaced and while had been nauseated, actually been trying to get rid of whatever I had eaten that last night. I still didn't understand why Mir decided to take the school druggy/skank under her wings, but she had and I still appreciated her every day for it. She was wonderful. Taking a moment, I judged the cops demeanor, figuring that we'd still be on idly chit chat for a short while longer before getting down to business. Mir seemed to be relaxing fairly nicely now that she was getting food in her system and things weren't focused directly on why we were here.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Awwh, sweet -w- But I get that.. Car troubles can be an absolute bitch. x.x And yeah, pretty much.. What I was on(the only thing my insurance would cover) is technically just birth control, but it stops your period. It's working super well for one of my friends, and he is in love with the stuff! xD But, my body just doesn't do well with certain things, and it decided that this was just one it wouldn't cooperate with.


Aah... Well, maybe it's not actually your boobs, but just insecurity about your body in general? ;-; I mean.. I don't know you obviously, so I don't know what you look like or whatever.. But I know many people with breasts who get uncomfortable if they start to gain weight and they feel like their chest is 'too big' or whatever.. But, if binding helps, totally do it! Like.. So long as you're safe about it, do whatever makes you comfortable...))


I blush slightly as I remember the first day Teag and I had really 'met'... She just sort of awkwardly ran out of class one day and I excused myself with the teacher to go check on her. I hadn't ever seen anyone so drunk and high before, and it sort of scared me. But when I noticed that she'd puked all over her shirt I had slowly helped her out of it and threw it away, then promptly pulled mine off to leave me in just a tank top. I never go around like that, even still... Unless I'm just around Teag, of course. But, I think it was in that moment when she just seemed so... Helpless and lost, that I decided to help her help herself, to find herself. And I think she's done the same for me as well. Perhaps it hadn't been her original intention, as at that point when she found out I wasn't going to have sex with her, or give her drugs, she tried pushing me away... But over time... We grew to love one another. And for that, I'll forever be grateful for the day I peeled a vomit-covered shirt off a perfect stranger.


Rosaline puts a hand up over her heart as she looks at us, "That's wonderful." She says softly, looking up at Harkin then back to us. It was fairly obvious she wanted to ask us something, but held herself back. At first I wondered if it was maybe that she wanted to get right into questioning me about the r-word, but no... She's still too relaxed for that. "What is it?" I ask, getting about half my toast down before jabbing my nail lightly into Teag's palm, trying to silently will her to eat more. I refuse to allow her to slip back into Ana....


The red head tilts her head from side to side for a moment before finally letting out a half sigh. "I was just.. Going to ask, how your parents feel about your sexuality?" She looks between both of us, seeming to notice my rather obvious stiffening. "Of course you don't have to tell us, but.." She trails off, leaving it sort of open-ended, leaving me to wonder if she could've been casually slipping in some of the interrogation questions, so maybe it'd be more comfortable for me.. Another thing I'm thankful for. "Um.." I'm not exactly sure what to say... "My parents... Don't like it, they say it's a phase, and a sin, and... Yeah." I lower my head a bit before a thought hits me and I immediately snap my gaze upward again, "But they never threatened me or anything! The most that happened is my Dad kicked me out for a night, but I stayed at Teag's and everything was fine the next day... I just can't mention it around them, and they can't know I'm dating..."

 

[Memster101]

(( Tell me about it! Fucking A, man. My car can be such a bitch sometimes. I love her though x3 She's mah baby. And I might have to look into that! Depending on how much it would cost and if my insurance would cover any of it >> It'd sure be an interesting conversation between my parents and I. And that's probably a lot of the reason >> I hate how curvy I am But oh wells. Eventually I'll get back down to a weight I'm comfortable with if I put my mind to it xD ))


I blinked in surprise at Officer Rosaline's comment, wondering if she was being sarcastic or not. It wasn't exactly your typical love story... But, it did seem to be a pretty good precursor to our relationship in all reality. My lips pursed in slight annoyance when I felt Mir's fingernail dig into my palm, fighting the urge to roll my eyes. As of right now, I wasn't trying to loose weight or anything, I just couldn't eat. What was the point if I was just going to throw up whatever I ate? I'd rather feel tired and have fainting spells than have my head stuck down a toilet with my throat burning from stomach acid. Why couldn't shy understand that? I swallowed and pulled of a piece of my toast half-heartedly, squishing it flat between my fingers before popping it into my mouth. It was a disgusting habit really and I knew it grossed Mir out, but it was sort of my way at getting back at her.


Silently, I listened to what Mir had to say, wondering if the two officers were trying to get at anything or just enjoying having another gay couple to talk to. It hurt that Mir had to keep us a secret from her parents, to say she was spending the night at a 'friends' or when she first introduced me...'My friend, Teagan.' I had never really let on how badly it hurt, but I think she knew it upset me to a degree. It was something I could live with though, knowing that at least until she moved out, it would be the easiest thing for Mir. There was already so much drama between them, why create more?


Harkin's eyes shifted to me questioningly, raising a black brow. "And what about you?" She asked. A slight smile rose to my lips and I shrugged a little. "My parents have just learned to accept that I tend to do what I want-" I frowned at how...well, sketchy that sounded. "Or at least did what I wanted to. They don't mind that I'm gay. They adore Mir, considering the fact she's helped clean me up a lot. But as a person as well. It's kind of hard not to." I gave Mir one of my crooked smiles, the one I really only saved for her, cocking a brow some.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Yeah.. I don't have a car yet, but I know I'll probably be of the same mindset once I finally do. x3


And I'd think it would.. When my doctor first put me on it she said most insurance covers it, so.. Whoot


*Sends positive vibes* I believe you can get where you want, no doubt! ^-^ >w> Just do it the healthy way..))


I scrunch up my nose in disgust when Teag squishes the toast between her fingers, but know that I brought it upon myself... That's always how she gets back at me. So instead of saying anything against it I just lay my head again against her shoulder and listen as she talks about her own parents. When she gives me her smile I can't help the blush that forms on my cheeks and the way I awkwardly shift in my seat. For some reason, that single smile always has a way of making me feel a bit... Bothered whenever she uses it.


"Yeah, I.. I spend a lot of time at Teagan's house. Her parents don't mind, and it means I can actually be with my girlfriend." I explain, squeezing her hand again and smiling up at her, my eyes gazing through my lashes. I kinda wanted to use some payback against her... But this is as far as I'd go. We are not having a full out teasing-war while we're in the police station. Especially not while we're here for what we're here for. Rosaline smiles and nods, "Well, that's great. I'm glad you were able to help one another-" I smile a bit wider when she says that, it's like she could just tell... Even though we hadn't flat out said how we'd helped one another, she could see it in the way we interacted and held each other. And that felt really good... "-and are able to be so happy together, now. You're both so cute together."


((And now I must go to bed.. I've gotta wake up at 6 again in the morning. 'w'


And I work tomorrow, so there'll be a few replies in the morning, then no more until later afternoon. xP))

 

[Memster101]

(( Yeahh, I just got her in March or so :3 It's a 97 Suziki Sidekick, I named her Robin cause my girlfriend at the time was Batman obsessed and she's a sidekick xD Punpunpun. And I'll try :3 Also, I have to be at work 6 so I'll be heading off to be too xD I won't be able to reply till the afternoon so I guess it works out?? Anywho, hope you sleep well and such ))

 

[Zotohxan]

((Haha, nice x'D


Whelp, I shall talk to you this afternoon, then~))

 

[Memster101]

((How was work?? Sorry if my reply is shitty. I don't feel too well >< ))


I blinked at the look Mir gave me, swallowing some and crossing my legs. The effect my smile had on Mir was pretty unknown to me, it was just my smile for her, but her look always got my heart racing. Rubbing at her shoulder gently, I turned to face Officer Rosaline and Harkin, smiling some at the comment. "Well thank you...Though Mir makes up most of the cute factor." Another little smile as I kissed the top of her head. I pulled my lower lip between my teeth though, silently wondering when we'd get down to business.


The more raced Mir became, the more inwardly tense I became. I knew what was coming, what I'd have to hear. God it just made my stomach churn. Part of wished i would have left when given the chance, not wanting Mir to see how my nerves were starting to get to me.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Eh, not too bad.. My one manager who makes things really difficult on me was off today, so that was nice. ;w;


And no, it's fine. I hope you feel better soon!))


I blush at Teag's little cheesiness and nuzzle against her. As Officer Rosaline's eyes follow this action it seems she's remembered rather suddenly why we were in here. "Now, Miranda, Teagan... I do hate to ruin the good mood, but..." She takes in a short breath. "You came here to report a rape... We do need to get down to business." I stiffen at her words, hiding my face against Teag's shoulder.


After taking in several deep breaths and allowing my mind to race for a few moments I realize how hard this would probably be for Teag to hear... Sure I want her support, but in reality... Hearing everything the man did to me would probably disgust her anyway, she'd be ashamed of having touched me as she did... She'd be ashamed of me, period. "I-um..." I pull back and look into my girlfriend's eye, trying not to show my weakness and fear. "Love, I can handle this on my ow... Y-You can go and do what you need to do, and I'll call you in when I'm done talking to them, okay..?" I force a smile onto my face, though it's really the last expression I want to be wearing...

 

[Memster101]

(( That's good And me too :/ Im nervous that I'm getting this old side pain I use to get all the time when I was younger. I'd come home in tears all the time from work from how bad it hurt ><))


A frown came to my lips when Rosaline changed the topics back around, wishing she had brought it up a little easier. Swallowing, I looked down at Mir, hating the panic I saw there. "Are you sure...? I'll stay if you want me to?" I asked softly, smoothing Mir's hair back from her face. "If I'm allowed to?" I turned my attention over to the cops at the question, raising a brow some. I would be surprised if they let me, but also relieved if they didn't. To be honest, I was going crazy for a cigarette, and to be away from the food. Officer Harkin smiled faintly and shook her head, glancing at Rosaline. "Unfortunately not...We'll have to have you wait outside..."


I sighed faintly, turning to Mir and hugging her tightly. "I'll be right outside of the station, okay? I love you so much, Mir..." I murmured to her softly, pulling back to kiss her briefly. Unwillingly, I pulled myself from her, giving a departing nod to the two officers before slipping out of the room. Once the door was shut behind me, I quickly headed out of the station. The cold winter air bit at my skin and I started to tremble instantly, but quickly pushed it aside, lighting up and taking a drag off the cigarette. Damn that felt good...

 

[Zotohxan]

((Oh gosh ;-; Did you ever go to the doctor's about it or anything?


And also- I don't really feel like typing out the entire ordeal x3 do you mind just time-skipping until she's done giving her statement?))

 

[Memster101]

(( Yeah,the never really gave me an actual thing that was wrong. They just said I was really prone to kidney stones and had some kidney damage >> And sure thing.))


By the time Harkin came out to get me, I had finished my smokes and was sitting on a bench near by the room. I was twirling my lighter between my fingers, chewing idly at my lip. "Teagan?" Harkin called as she stepped out of the door. My eyes shot up to the tall black-haired woman and I got up quickly. The woman looked no different than from when I had met her, maybe a little more somber. Things like this were undoubtedly a commonality of her day. I hurried into the interrogation room, not missing the slight scrunch of Harkin's nose as I walked passed her, obviously having smelt the cigarette smoke. My heart broke when I saw Mir's tear stained face, Rosaline sitting on the edge of the table beside her, a hand resting on her shoulder.


"Mir..." I murmured, moving to stand in front of her. I pulled her close, letting her hide her face into my stomach as I stroked her hair. "Hey...I'm here now...Everything's going to be okay." I shut my eyes, lips pursing slightly as I listened to her sob against me. That was such an awful feeling, her shaking against me, unable to control herself. "You're so strong and brave...My beautiful girl." Looking up at Rosaline, I tried to pull myself together again. "D-Did...Did you get anything useful?" I hated talking about Mir like she wasn't here, but I didn't want to pressure her anymore about anything else than she already had been.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Aah ;-; I know kidney stones... I sympathize 100% with that, not so much the kidney damage.. But if it's starting up again, maybe it's time to get that checked on again? :/ ))


Rosaline steps back when Teag enters and comes over to me, and just watches us for a moment. I can't say a word... I'm hyperventilating from the sobbing and the only thing making me feel even slightly safe is having my girlfriend holding me. But after a few moments I hear the red-head speak to Teag. "We did... There's a few things we can go off, and Officer Harkin is sending some men out to check a few leads as we speak. Had we spoken sooner, we would have been able to use a full rape kit to try and find out who this man was. However, as Miranda and I have already spoken about, it's been too long.. All physical evidence that could link to him has already been washed down a drain. However, we'd still like for the pair of you to visit the hospital so they can give a physical exam to make sure everything is still working properly, and there's no permanent damage." She seems to hesitate for a moment before continuing with her next statement. "It's there they'll also perform a pregnancy test. Now, this one may not be conclusive. As it's only been a week. For the next month, I'd like to recommend you go back to take one a week, no matter the results. Just to be positive..."


Had she not already told me all this, I would've been freaking out so much more... And I'm glad they told Teag everything, she'd asked me permission to do that... But, the part I'm dreading the most has yet to be said. "Her parents will be the ones escorting you to the hospital today. They're on their way now, and will be given a short briefing on what's happened. For both of your safety and peace of mind, everything about your relationship beyond friendship will be left out."

 

[Memster101]

(( Maybe >< If it continues a lot longer I might >< ))


Thank god they were able to get some information out, but my heart plummeted though with the conformation of my fears with the lateness of the rape kit. I held Mir even closer, sitting back against the table some when another dizzy spell hit. Nodding some at the request of seeing a doctor every week for the next month, I tangled my hands gently in Mir's cherry hair. I knew Mir knew without having to say it that I'd accompany her to every appointment. My poor Miranda...How many nights would she end up spending at my house these next few months? How many nights would I hold her as she cried? How many mornings would I be hold her hair out of her face as she vomited, how many midnight craving runs if she turned to be pregnant? My hands trembled slightly against her head as my thoughts whirled.


I was suddenly ripped out of them at Officer Rosaline's next statement and my hands tightened momentary in Mir's hair. Panic and mild rage bubbled up in me and my eyes widening while my lips pressed into a thin line. "Why the fu-?" I cut myself off, leaning heavily back against the counter. Sometimes I forgot that Mir was still a minor with how alone she was. They had to take her to the hospital. "Fuck..." I pulled Mir closer to me, my already pale skin turning even whiter. There was no way they'd let me come with Mir to the hospital. They wouldn't see the purpose and say it was a family matter. "I don't want you spending the night there..." I knelt down in front of my love, cupping her cheeks so she'd look at me. Who knew what they'd torment her with. What if they pushed her over the edge and she ended up hurting herself again?

 

[Zotohxan]

((Ugh, I'm sorry... I ended up on the phone for several hours again last night, then just kinda passed out in bed...


And well, I hope it gets better before you've got to do anything; you don't need that pain.))


I had kind of zoned out into my own mind up until Teag kneels down beside me. I know I must look like nothing but a mess... Throughout telling the officers the whole thing, I'd run my hands through my hair countless times, pulled it, whatever I needed to do... He helped relieve a bit on tension by focusing pain somewhere else. Not to mention my horribly bloodshot eyes, beet red cheeks and nose, and the tear stains going down my face. Plus, I'm sure I just look horribly tired in general...


Knowing exactly what my girlfriend means when she says she doesn't want me to stay the night, I nod vigorously. "Teag.. They're gonna tell me its a good thing... E-Especially if I'm pr-" I flinch at just the idea of saying the word. I take in a deep breath, swallow hard, then manage to whimper out, "Pregnant..." In all honesty, I'd forgotten Rosaline was still in the room... Had I not, I would've never said that. It sounds far more horrible on my parents' part than it is.


"What do you mean by that?" The older woman asks, a look of disbelief written over her features. My head snaps over to her and immediately I start crying harder. I wrap my arms around Teag's shoulders, burying my face against her pale hair. I still don't understand why it calms me so much, but... It does. And I'm grateful. "I can't..." I whimper, shaking my head and just pulling Teag and I closer against one another. Rosaline seems to understand and just takes in a short breath, then stands up from where she'd been seated on the tabletop. "I'm going to leave you two alone... Once you're both calm and able to talk some, we'll talk. And I don't want anything left out like they were earlier, okay? But we won't release you to your parents, Miranda, until after we've had this talk and made sure everything is okay." And with that she turns and walks out, closing the door behind herself to give us some privacy.

 

[Memster101]

(( You're fine I ended up going to hang out with my friend-type individual and talking ))


I pulled Mir close as she buried her face into my hair, trying to sooth her some. Officer Rosaline's shock to Mir's comment was understandable, things like that at first had thrown me off as well, but now I was use to them. In her parents' eyes, if Mir was pregnant, maybe that'd somehow show her that being with a man isn't all that bad. She was having sex with a guy, not another girl, and that was all they really cared about, regardless of Mir's feeling. And it was even better if she was pregnant because that would deter any future female partners. It was sick and wrong, but made a horrible twisted sense of logic.


I relaxed when Rosaline left the room and I gently pushed Mir back from me so I could look at her. "You know your parents aren't going to let me come with..." I whispered, smoothing my hands against her cheeks. I wiped away at the tear marks that sainted her cheeks, pulling my lip between my teeth. "I don't know what to do... I'm not letting you be alone with them...Not so soon after them finding out..." I rested my elbows on her thighs, setting my head in my hands to rub at my temples. "I don't know what to do.... They've never physically touched you so there's no good reason to prevent them from taking you..."

 

[Zotohxan]

((Oh? x3 I hope everything turned out well~))


I shake my head vigorously, the tears still just pouring down my face, "I don't know..." I can't help but whimper out my words, feeling utterly broken inside. I reach up and start tugging on my hair again, hissing through my lips at the pain but then just lowering my head and continuing."I don't know... I-I don't want to go with th-them... They're going to make e-everything worse... They'll p-probably ground me, so... I-I won't get to see you... And... I can't get through this.. .Without you." I release my hair and just lean forward, wrapping my arms once mroe around Teag's neck.


"We can try ... See if Officer Rosaline and Officer Harkin will talk to t-them... Tell them I need my f-friends right now? Maybe.. maybe that'd work?" My tone is full of a mixture between hope and disbelief, and I honestly can't pinpoint which emotion I'd rather embrace.. One could make me feel decent for now and either form to elation or absolute destruction of anything good in my mind, while the other could leave me depressed for now and either turn into happiness or even deeper depression... Which is better? "That's... All I can think of... I can't do this w-without you, but... I don't know how to make them a-actually comply with what the o-officers say..."

 

[Memster101]

((Ehhhh haha. It's all good. What have you been up to today?))


I leaned my forehead against her chest slightly as we tried to think, sliding my hands to rest on the back of her neck. And that was the thing...Officer Rosaline and Harkin could not do anything. They could suggest and highly advise this and that, but ultimately it was Mir's parents' decisions. Fuck. I rubbed anxiously at Mir's neck, hating how helpless I felt. I'd have Mir runaway with me right now if her parents wouldn't have me arrested for probably kidnapping their daughter. There was literally nothing I could do to help the situation. I forced my hands to stay gentle against Mir's neck despite the desperate urge I had to strike out at something, beyond frustrated. "I guess I can always sneak into your house at night after they've gone to bed....Or after they send you to your room..."


I knew that if I did that though, it would mean who knew how many countless sleepless nights. If I was there, I wouldn't be able to sleep. I'd have to be ready to hide at a moment's notice, constantly on guard. There was nothing I wouldn't do for Mir, this included....But I was terrified of what would happen if I did get caught in Mir's house. There was little doubt in my mind that their parents would turn violent, if not towards me than towards Mir. It was something I was prepared to deal with but I had no idea how I was going to handle it. God knew what they'd do to Mir.... I cursed softly under my breath, lacing my fingers up into Mir's hair.


"We should probably get Rosaline and Harkin....your parents should be here soon...." I gritted my teeth and pulled back some from Mir, pushing her hair back from her face and taming it some with my fingers. "I don't know how...but we're going to get through this...We'll be okay. You'll be okay..." I promised.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Eh, not much.. Just reading and RPing, mostly.


How about you?))


I nod slowly, holding my breath a bit in hopes of calming the sobs. Eventually it starts to work... Granted I'm no where near calm, but I'm better than I was. "G-Go ahead and.. And get them..." I say softly, not trusting myself to walk anywhere at the moment, especially not on the off chance my parents were already here, and I'd see them... I don't want to see them at all. Despite everything I do love them, but... They scare me. I know I'm only one wrong-move away from their emotional abuse turning physical, even if they don't quite mean it to. That's one of the reasons I force myself to keep Teag a secret... If I thought they'd do nothing but bad mouth us, I know we could get through it. But there's a genuine fear there that they'd hit one, or both of us without thinking... They'd go into a rage I've only seen once before, and that's when I fought with them over my sexuality. My mother had raised her hand then, my father threw his steak knife he was using for the dinner we were eating... Neither actually struck me, though. Neither of them have ever apologized, either.


They would beat us if they could, and have no remorse. And I feel like if they found out about Teag and I... They'd be in the mindset of 'consequences be damned'. I also know I'll get punished for this... Even though I was used, forced, this was done against my will, they'd call me a whore. My father already did, anyway. I used to be afraid that he would hurt me in this way. Because of the way he always called me a whore, and would get me alone from my mother to talk to me about all the ways 'man desires woman and woman desires man', trying to turn me straight... I've honestly feared more than once that he would orchestrate for this to happen to me, or he'd do it himself.


Suddenly my eyes go wide. "Teag..." I breathe, my voice trembling. I'm so lost in my thoughts I don't even know if she's in the room anymore, but I still say her name. My tears had stopped now. I was just staring ahead at nothing in particular, my body feeling cold and numb despite the terror coursing through my veins. What if he did make this happen? I mean... Really. What are the odds of someone being pulled over at the very corner of Teag's street so late at night? Why would they grab me, when I'd seen several other women walking in the half hour before I left? Flashes start clouding my mind and again tears fill my eyes, but don't spill over. One thing keeps running through, though.. Something I'd forgotten, probably blocked out along with the rest of his appearance... His voice, saying a single word. "He knew my name..."

 

[Memster101]

((That's not too bad? And I had school for a bit then my dad had me run some errands with him when I got home ))


I had stood up while Mir got lost in her thoughts, trying to keep my own at bay. There was no point in speculating 'what ifs' right now...We had to get over the current situation before we worried about anything else. I stopped in my tracks though at Mir's revelation though. I stared wide-eyed at the doorknob, it clasped in my hand, ready to be turned. He knew her name...He knew my Mir's name...That only meant one thing...He knew Mir. This wasn't some random event. It had been planned. What little I had put into my stomach turned sour and started to gurgle unpleasantly, causing acid to build up in my throat. Had it been Mark or one of their cronies? No...that would have been stupid to go to all the trouble of assaulting Mir anonymously to later ruin it all by doing it personally. And there had been only been that man in the van...not multiple as I'd expect if it had been the guys.


That didn't leave many other choices...Mir wasn't on too close of a biases with many guys, aside from our group of friends, but she would have recognized the voice...The acid rose to my mouth and I grimaced at the taste. That only left her family...all of whom she also would have recognized. So what did that mean? Mir parents had taken very unconventional methods before trying to 'fix' Mir's sexuality...it was very possible they would have taken it to the next level...I was going to be sick. My forehead rested against the cool metal as more acid bubbled up, burning my throat. There was no way to prove it though... If they had resorted to something along these lines they would have been very careful. And once they realized they hadn't done anything to change Mir...what new horrors would they resort to then?


"I'll be right back..." I said, my voice barely more than a dry whisper. I slipped out of the room, glancing around until I spotted the two officers. Walking up to them, I rested my hand gently on Rosaline's shoulder. "I-I think we're ready..." God I was trembling and the room was starting to spin again. "M-Miranda said he knew her name...What does that mean?" I hated the helpless, close to tears look I knew resided on my face as I looked at the women, but I couldn't help it. I was absolutely terrified of my train of thought.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Not at all x3 I also cleaned around the house some, but that's not nearly as exciting.


And nice. x3 errands are always fun~))


Rosalind's eyes go wide as she sees the state Teagan is in. It's clear she's more than just a bit shaken up at my revelation. So instead of answering at first, she turns and puts both hands on the younger girl's shoulders . "You need to calm down, Teagen.. Take a few deep breaths, alright? We're going to figure this out. It sounds like the man knew Miranda... So we're goingf to have to talkk to her again, see if theres anything else she remembers about him... I know how bad is sounds about anything concerning this situation, but maybe it's a good thing that it's someone she knows, or at least who knows her... It's normally much easier to find the culprit when there's a personal connection in the first place. They're usually not as skilled or worried about covering their tracks." She'd said so much only in hopes of calming the other it wasn't exactly procedure to reveal quite that much, especially not without knowing exactly what's going on.


Without warning a couple come running through the door. The man has dark brown hair and hollow hazel eyes, while the woman's hair is blonde and her eyes are a bright blue, shadowed by way too much makeup. They appear to be in their mid to late 30s or so, and both he features reflected almost exactly on my own face. The woman, my mother, rushes to where she sees Teagan standing, my father right on her heels. They ignore my girlfriend, always having a special place in their hearts for hatred towards any of my friends.


"Where is our daughter?" She appears to be far more annoyed than anyone else. She glances over just long enough to see Teag's expression, but hers stays the same. "We were told we had to come pick her up. Did she get into some mess?" She points her thumb at Teag, her lip curling up in disgust. "Did this one get her into trouble? Because I swear I don't encourage them hanging out." My father then speaks, "We told her from the start to stay away, but she just won't."


Rosaline is rather obviously trying to keep her temper in check as she smiles tightly to my parents. She then turns to Harkin. "Please take Ms. Teagen here back to the previous room," she then turns to my parents again, "Mr. And Mrs. Carson... This is a very serious matter, and if you'll follow me, everything will be explained."


(Sorry for any mistakes! My computer freaked out so I'm on mobile for a bit..))