Our Secrets ((GxG))

[Memster101]

((Awe >< And yeah, I feel you. I'm like super stand offish and I'm really unemotional unless I'm with someone close. I'm really blunt at times and really fucking quiet. And weird xD Again though, I feel you xD My family/friends put up with sooo much shit it's not even funny. ))


My eyes widened in fury at his statement and I clenched my hand tightly against the handle of the knife. Thankfully, at least Mark left Mir, and headed towards me. God I was seeing red, practically seething with fury. I let him grab me, pull me close to him. "And you're begging to loose an organ," I hissed, sneering as I pressed the blade against his side, over where his liver was. "Get you and your fuckers out of here before you get fucked the hell up." I rose a challenging brow and pressed the knife tip against his skin, seeing a satisfying well of red start to spread on his shirt.


"Jesus fucking Christ, man!" Dylan gasped, shoving Mir away from him. The other guy stepped away to, both of them looking between each other, pure panic written on their faces. "Dude!"


I leaned my face in close to his, standing on my toes to do so. "Do NOT fucking test me. I have no problem splitting your side open. Then who would win our precious state final?"

 

[Zotohxan]

((Aah, Been there.. I can't count the number of times I'd be in school and ask to go to the bathroom so I could have an anxiety or panic attack, then come back like nothing was wrong. :^)


I'm really quiet around strangers, usually not saying anything I actually mean, but I can be more blunt with my friends and people I'm close with.. So we're fairly close there xD


Bless be family and friends ;w; ))


Mark swallows hard and nods, pulling away from the blade and looking back at his friends, not even sparing me a glance. "C'mon, guys." He says in a flat tone, pretending as if Teagan hadn't bothered him at all. Though they all walk out pretty quickly, ignoring the glances from teachers and students who just watched three boys walk out of the girl's bathroom, but no one says anything. Perks for them, since they're such well-known and 'respected' athletes here...


I'm not completely unconscious, but I'm practically there. Faintly I could hear what was happening, but my eyes are closed, my breathing is shallow, my heart is still racing horrifically fast, and my body is limp against the floor. I can't believe Teag came to save me... I mean I can, but... She stood up to them. I know it couldn't have been easy for her, especially while I was so stupid and immature this morning...

 

[Memster101]

(( I feel you there! I'd like hurry and leave in the middle of the class and go cry in the bathroom for a bit then come back like I was dandy xD I'm kind of good at that >> ))


I sagged against the wall when the boys left, my vision clouding over with black. Not now, Teagan... I coached myself. Mir needs you. The sharp breaths I could hear my love making sent me over edge. Shoving through my own discomfort, I knelt down beside Mia trying to hold back my panic. I had been around to see enough of her attacks to know what to do. I brought her against me, leaning us back against the wall. "Babe just focus on my breathing. I don't think I can get you to the office," I murmured softly, feeling another wave of dizziness hit me. God fucking dammit. With her sitting between my legs, her back against my chest, I held her close.


"Just breath with me, okay? In...out...In...out.." I focused on exaggerating my breathing, making sure she could feel my chest rise and fall against her back, giving her a verbal and physical goal to mimic. "Just focus on matching your breaths with mine. You've got this, Mir..." I kept repeating the little 'In, out' phrase softly in her ear, praying she would be able to calm down. Breathing so slowing was making me even more light-headed and I could feel one of my fainting spells coming on. By now the bell for class to start had rung, meaning that we would most likely be alone for awhile. Whether or not this was good I wasn't sure.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Crazy unhealthy, but.. Same. <w<


There was once i actually had a breakdown in class, and the teacher sent me out because I was 'disrupting the class'... I was like eight. To this day I can't understand what she was thinking. o-o))


I listen to Teag's voice, doing as she says. Maybe three or four minutes after I hear the class bell ring I'm finally able to open my eyes again. Again I feel tears well up then start pouring down my face. I turn and wrap my arms gently around Teag, leaning us both up against the wall as I sob against her. "I'm sorry..." I whimper through my sobs, "I'm so sorry... Please forgive me, I love you... I love you so much..."


I don't want her to leave me... Not now, not ever. Not over some stupid fight, not over us getting angry, not over what happened to me... I want us to be together, forever. What we've promised one another for more than a year now. "Please never leave me." I don't even have the strength to wince at the fragility in my voice, just letting it out there. I don't want her to feel bad, but I had to say it. I know she said last night she wouldn't... That she'd never leave me, but... After our fight this morning, when she wouldn't even look at me... I'm just scared now she may be rethinking us.. Especially after seeing how weak I am, she saw what they were doing to me...

 

[Memster101]

((What the hell?? Dude >> That teacher was fucking stupid...))


When Mir's breathing calmed, I was able to relax some, drawing her close as she turned back around. "It's okay...I'm sorry for being so stupid..." I murmured against her hair, try to pull her closer. I swallowed and pinched at the back of my hand behind her back, hoping to bring some focus to myself. No matter how much we fought, I could never leave her. This was no where near one our worst fights, but with everything else that was going on....I was up there. My face buried more into her hair and after a minute, my holding became more like clinging.


"I love you so much... I'm never leaving." I wanted to pull back to look at her, but I was too scared that I'd faint if I did so. "I'm so glad you're safe...." My eyes widened slightly as my vision blacked out once more and I pinched myself hard enough to leave a bruise, but to no avail. "I-I'm sorry..." I mumbled, barely understandable, before going slack against her. My arms released her and I slid across the wall so that I was laying against the tile, unconscious.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Yes. Yes she was. :^) She got fired like two years later x'D))


When she clings to me I cling right back, my face buried against her pale blonde hair. My eyes were again closed as I take in her words, "I love you..." I whimper again just before she goes slack. I let out a gasp of fear, pulling back and holding her gently in my arms. "Shit.." I mutter, the tears still in my eyes. I slowly stand, then bend down and pull Teag up into my arms. I carry her bridal style, cradled against my chest out of the bathroom. Though she can easily carry me and weighs a few pounds less, I've always been pretty weak... And I struggle to get her to the office which holds the nurse's area.


"She fainted.."She tells the teen office worker who comes over and helps her carry Teagan to a cot in the far room. "Um.. Can I stay in here with her?" The other girl, also being a senior and recognizing the pair as the 'famous' lesbian couple smiles softly and nods, "Yeah. The nurse should be back in about twenty minutes or so." I thank her and watch as she leaves, taking up the seat next to Teag and holding her hand. "Wake up, love..." I whisper through the tears which started up all over again.

 

[Memster101]

((Yay justice! Ahhh, my friend-type individual is popping up in my nap dreams >> ))


I shifted awake not too long after Mir managed to somehow get me into the nurse's office, groaning at the pounding headache I was starting to suffer from. My eyes blinked open slowly and another groan left me at the familiar too-bright lights of the office. Turning over onto my side, I warily picked out from behind the fingers of my free hand which I'd placed over my eyes. A faint smile touched my lips and I brought her palm over my mouth, kissing gently at it. "How're you doing, babe?" I asked, fumbling for a moment to successfully reach out for her face to rub the tears away. I nuzzled her palm, half tempted to pull her onto the cot with me.


Frowning, I sighed as I recalled the events of the bathroom, swallowing. Both Mark, his friends, and I knew better than to go to the principal or anyone about what had happened. They would get in trouble for assaulting a minor and I in turn would get in trouble for assault with a deadly weapon and carrying said weapon onto school property. But it was the only thing I could think of at the time. It wasn't like I was much brute force on my own...My hand fell from her face and I groped at my pocket, relaxing when I felt the knife still in there. I wasn't sure if Mir knew how I got rid of the boys, but I wasn't sure I really wanted her to either. Maybe it would be better for her when they decided to come back with whatever twisted revenge they thought of.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Oh my! x3


I just took a nap as well >w> An incredibly long one considering I only got a total of about 2 hours of sleep last night x'D))


I instantly shake my head at Teag's question. Normally I'd play as if I'm happy so I didn't worry her, but right now, I feel like we just need to be honest with each other. "I'm really bad, babe..." I admit, my voice cracking. I gently reach out and wrap my arm around her waist, laying my head down against the bed and just looking up at my love. "Thank you for saving me... But, I'm going to kill you for not eating..." I stand up a bit, just enough to lean a bit on the cot and kiss her lips quickly. "I'm going to force feed you if I have to."


I'd actually come up with a few other.. Fun ways to get some food in Teag's system, but I'm not sure if I'd be up for that, especially not after today as well... "And.. I'm sorry about everything this morning... I know it's not a very good excuse, but I'm due for my period soon, so I'm just turning into this horrible, bitchy, hormonal asshole, and I'm sorry..."

 

[Memster101]

(( I dunno how to feel D: And oh dear >< I hope you can get some sleep tonight! Do you think maybe doing something kind of tiring before bed might help? Like going on kinda long walk or running or something??))


My heart broke when I heard Mir wasn't doing well, but to be honest, I hadn't expected her to be. She had nearly gotten raped again... I twitched my lip into a faint smile at her threat and I scooted closer to the edge of the cot so our foreheads rested together. It surprised me when Mir kissed me, figuring that would have been the last thing she would have wanted to do, but glad for it all the same. When she sat back down I took her hand again, rubbing gently at it as I tried to ignore the thought that popped into my head at her comment about her period coming soon. If it came....


Gritting my teeth lightly, I propped myself up on my elbows and looked over at her. "Do you think you want to go home? Are you still up for going to the..." I glanced around for Mir's sake, dropping my voice some. "To go to the station?" I could completely understand if not. I wasn't sure I could have talked about my first rape attempt hours after having had an second one.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Do you maybe like this person? o;


And nah.. This just happens sometimes. I'll probably just end up taking some more medicine to knock me out. xD


But I'm still so flipping tired, so please excuse the cruddy excuse of a reply... ;w; ))


I take a deep breath, stiffening at Teag's question. I let it out and swallow hard, then nod. "Y-Yeah..." My voice is hoarse and small. I close my eyes tightly, willing the tears to stop. "Can we... Um, I.." I take in a deep breath, trying to calm myself. Finally I open my eyes again to look at Teag. "Can we just.. Skip today..? And.. Go up there now..? I just really want to get this over with, and.. I can't be in the same building as those guys anymore...


Another sob leaves my lips as I squeeze Teag's hand, "Please..." I don't want her to get in trouble for skipping with me, but.. If we explain to the office workers we've got to go to the police station, they can't really object, right..? I mean... I don't have to tell them what it's about right now, anyway...

 

[Memster101]

(( We've mentioned that we'd be fine with dating, if things turned into that but nothing like...official has ever been said? We've kissed but that was by accident xD And you're fine >< I'm sorry you don't sleep well. I forgot, have you tried actual sleeping medicine? ))


I nodded at Mir's request, hoping that I could drive for her sake. She was in no shape to drive with how emotionally distraught she was. Rubbing at my eyes to push back the migraine that was starting to set in, I swung my legs over the edge and eased myself off the cot. Another wave of light headedness hit me, no surprise there, but it was lesser this time. Sometime during the period I had been unconscious, someone had brought my bag here, having left it by the bathroom, and I swung it onto my shoulder. The weight of it almost knocked me back down but I gritted my teeth, trying to put on a solid face for Mir.


"Come on, love. Let's go get this over with..." I murmured, wrapping an arm around her neck to try and sooth her, but also balance myself. Thankfully the office aide was too busy on her phone to notice us slip out of the office and quickly head down the hall. "If they'll let me...do you want me to come into the interrogation room with you? It's okay if you don't want me to..." I tried to push a smile to my lips but failed, the migraine making the lights take on a too-bright quality that hurt my eyes. I dropped my gaze to the floor, hoping I had some sunglasses in my car.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Well... Maybe it's time to have another talk? x3


And no.. I've mentioned it to doctors before but they just blow it off and say it's nothing, so I just stick with benadryl. I tried melatonin before, but that didn't work either..))


I frown when I see how Teag is walking, and when we get to the car I stop her before she can open it. "Let's call a cab... You're not in any condition to drive, and neither am I..." I bite my bottom lip, pulling out my phone and handing it to my girlfriend, as I don't really want to talk to anyone but her until i have to. "A-And.. If you don't mind, but.. If it gets too much for you..."


I start trembling a bit, "I don't know how far into it they're gonna make me get.. So if it gets too much, just leave.. I promise I'll be okay so long as you're waiting for me right out in the waiting room" I try to smile to her, but it just comes out as a grimace. So I just take to biting my lip again, tears still in the corners of my eyes.

 

[Memster101]

(( Maybe x3 It was so bad. I went to kiss her cheek good bye and she chose THAT moment to turn her head. Gahhh ><* I just kind of ran away after saying goodnight xD And that's stupid>< I know there's something a few of my cowokers have been on but it makes you do weird stuff in your sleep. ))


A slight sigh of annoyance left me as I dialed the cab number, unlocking my car to rummage through for the sunglasses. I hated taking the cab and it would have been much quicker to drive, but I didn't need Mir having an anxiety attack or something over my driving. When one of the operators answered the phone, I gave them address of the school and where we would need to go. They gave me a guest-imate on how much it would cost and how long it would take to get there before ending the call. By then I had managed to find the glasses and quickly put them on after resurfacing from the car.


I handed Mir over her phone and leaned back against my car, locking it with the fob on my keyring. "No, I won't leave if they let me come in." I doubted if they would actually let me and I really hoped they would, but in all reality knew better. How was she going to handle the rape kit? What if they made her do a pregnancy test as well? What if it came back positive? My head started to pound dangerously as the thoughts whirled around it and I reached to my back pocket, rubbing at the pack of cigarettes there. I didn't want to upset Mir anymore than she already was though, so I resisted from having a smoke.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Awwh, sounds like something out of some cheesy romance book x'D


owo I need nothing that'd make me do weird stuff. I already randomly talk in my sleep. xD ))


I turn and wrap my arms around Teag, not wanting to be so far from her. "I love you, Teag." I mumble against her neck. I take a short breath before pressing her gently against the car, my entire body against hers. Immediately it starts calming me down a bit more. "I'm sorry for all this... But I love you." Those three words are so difficult to stop myself from repeating over, and over, and over again. After all she's done for me, I just.. I could never thank her enough.


Never in my life will I be able to say the words to explain how much this girl means to me. "I love you" is just as close as I can ever get. "I love you so damn much.." I feel tears spring to my eyes again as I start thinking about what'll happen at the police station. I don't know much about it, but I know they'll do a rape kit... I want Teag with me for that, I.. Know I wouldn't be able to handle it on my own. And they'll do a pregnancy test. I don't even know if it's been long enough for it to be positive if I am, but.. Either way, I truly hope I'm not. Teag and I have talked about things like abortion and the other 'options' before... I don't agree with it. Unless there's health risks for the mother or baby, I just can't see myself ever killing a life inside me, even if it came from a monster...


"Would you still love me if I'm pregnant?" I ask without thinking, my voice raw and pained. It's clear that the subject hurts to so much as think about, but.. It's something I have to know. I'd understand if she couldn't love me anymore... if she couldn't be with me. Seeing my belly would only be a reminder that I've been with someone other than her, while we were together... I can understand where that'd be hard for her. I can only hope she'd be able to handle it...

 

[Memster101]

(( I know xD I wanted to shoot myself xD I hate that type of stuff but it always happens to me! And I don't know if do anything weird >> ))


I wrapped my own arms around Mir, pulling her close to me as we stood together. I buried my face into her hair, closing my eyes. "I love you so much too," I murmured against it. A faint smile touched my lips, knowing exactly what Mir was trying to convey without having the words to do so. I felt the exact same way. When she started crying again I pulled her even closer, smoothing my hand against her hair to try and sooth her. My heart jumped at her mention of being pregnant and I felt a chill rundown my spine. Of course I would still love her...things would just become a lot harder... I swallowed and kissed her head.


"Of course I'll still love you..." The pounding in my head grew worse as I let the thought mull around in my head. God it was so sickening to think that he could have impregnated her. I could never leave her for her choice... It was her body and I couldn't force her to do anything. Just because the father was a despicable human doesn't mean that I should take it out on the baby....


((sorry my reply is shit >< I just got off work ))

 

[Zotohxan]

((Awwh x3 I love cheesy crap >w> I can't tell you how bad my crush and I tease one another with all the cheese x3


I only know because my friend and I used to wake each other up with sleep talking/walking 'w'


And you're fine! x3 Sorry mine have been taking so long, I've kinda been on the phone for the last few hours >w>))


"Thank you..." I whisper, sniffling back a few more tears and taking several deep breaths. I pull back when I hear the cab approaching, then shakily walk to the door and open the back for Teag. "I love you." I tell her one last time before opening the door, just wanting to curl up next to her in her room, and never let go. I never want to end the contact we can have.. I don't want to go through this, I don't want to be pregnant, I don't want to be afraid Teag will leave me, I don't want to have the nightmares, and the fears, or the panic attacks... I want this all to be a dream... I want to wake up, or have someone jump out and tell me it was all a joke. Someway or another, I just don't want it to be true.


But that's not possible... No matter how much I wish that I could somehow escape this, I can't. And that's why I'm leaning against a cab, weakly holding the door for my girlfriend while I tremble with sobs, unable to quiet them even a little... It's why the cabbie is staring at us with an expression crossed between annoyance, and concern. It's why the area between my legs burns and aches 24/7, why I can't stand to be touched by anyone but my love, why I'm constantly crying and afraid... "I can't do this..." I mutter, falling to my knees. "I have to... But I can't..." Deep down I hope Teag won't listen to me. That she still makes me go, as I know it'll only be harder the longer I wait. But my more immediate reaction and desire, is that she'll let it slip.. That she'll just take us home or something. But I don't really see that as being an option. Because as much as I hate it, it did happen.

 

[Memster101]

(( Awe! What's your crush like?? And you're fine I've been working >> ))


I gave the cabbie a look between annoyance at his expression and apology for having to deal with us. "You can do this love...you need to do it," I murmured, kneeling down beside her. After a moment or two I helped her stand back up and get into the cab, following in after her. "She okay?" The guy grunted as he pulled out of the school parking lot and onto the street. "Yeah," I murmured, wrapping my arm around Mir. I pulled her close, smoothing my hand over her hair. We drove in the silence of Mir sobbing and the radio, me trying to calm Mir down while the cabbie tried to ignore us. Shutting my eyes, I let my thoughts wander some. As awful as it was, I kind of hoped that they wouldn't let me come in with Mir...I was practically aching for a smoke.


After about a ten or so minute drive we finally arrived to the police station. I gave the cabbie the money and helped Mir out of the cab, my arm around her waist to hold her upright, even though I was still scarily light-headed. "You're going to be okay, Mir...once you do this...things will get better. Hopefully they'll find the man and arrest him..." A sigh escaped me and I leaned down, kissing her forehead. "I love you.."

 

[Zotohxan]

((Pssh, all I can say is she's flipping amazing... So sweet and genuine, and honestly just one of the most caring people I've ever met.. She's funny, and flat out fun, but has her times, like everyone.. We help each other a lot through depression and anxiety, so that's a thing. -w-


And eww, working *^*))


I stay silent as I force myself to stop crying. I don't want to walk in there bawling my eyes out, as I know that'd make it even harder for me to start out talking to them. "I love you too." I say with a ragged voice. I take in several deep breaths before making myself stand straight and just entwine my fingers with Teag's. "Thank you, again..." I say in a voice barely above a whisper, afraid of breaking down if I speak any louder. I then start into the police station, terrified about what may be awaiting me.


The moment I step foot inside the building, I just break down again. I turn and wrap my arms around Teag, sobs ripping from my throat and my body trembling horribly. Seeing the police walking around in uniform, the person handcuffed on a bench in the corner... It just made it all too real to me. "I can't do it..." I say again, my voice weak and trembling, "Please take me away..." But before Teag could even respond, two police officers were rushing to our side. One male, one female.


The female puts her hand on Teag's back while the male puts his hand on mine. My eyes go wide and I gasp in fear, pressing myself more against Teag. The male officer quickly retracts his hand and nods over another female officer who rushes over and looks between us. "What's going on here?" She asks in a soft, concerned voice. "Come, sit down you two."

 

[Memster101]

(( Awww That's so cute ^^ And I know!! I put in my two weeks yesterday >> ))


All I could really do was pull Mir close when she started to sob again, rubbing at her back and resting my lips against her head. There was no way I was taking her back... I knew it was cruel to put her through this but...if she didn't go now, who'd say she'd work up the nerve to go later? Mir didn't have much more of a chance to try and persuade me to leave, two cops instantly rushing to our sides. I flinched slightly when the female cop put her hand on my back and glowered when the man put his on Mir's, holding her even tighter against me, shoulders curling against hers as if I could wrap myself around her like a blanket. I hushed my love gently, protectively smoothing my hands over her back to prevent anyone else from touching her.


When the other officer came over, this time female, I stopped my glowering. A glance down at Mir, still sobbing into my shoulder, proved that she wasn't going to be much of a help in questioning... I pulled my emotions in myself, trying not to show my exhaustion, but from the worry and stress of the week, along with my sleepless night and lack of food. Swallowing some, I held Mir closer to me as a pair of cops walked by holding a man, stepping us backwards. "My...I need to report a rape...." I murmured in a hushed voice, not wanting to draw more attention to Mir than she already had to herself.


"My girlfriend..." I nodded down to Mir, as if it wasn't obvious enough with her distress and constant flinching. "She...yeah..." I rubbed at my eye slightly with the heel of my hand, trying to push away the growing headache. "Can we go somewhere more private? Away from everyone...from...them?" I asked, glancing over at some of the men who where nearby, along with the male cop. "And maybe get her some water and if you guys have anything to eat like a granola bar? She hasn't eaten yet today..."

 

[Zotohxan]

((>w<


And good! You don't need all that stress... I really hope it goes well for you!


Tomorrow marks 1 more week for me, so it'll be interesting to see how my boss reacts.. >w>))


I flinch when Teag uses the r-word. I couldn't even think of saying that... Again, it'd just.. Make it far too real. "You need.. Food too." I mutter through my sobs, lifting my face just enough to give Teag a pointed look. No matter what I'm going though, I'm not going to stop being concerned about her.. And the fact she's so concerned about me right now, trying to protect me and be strong for me when I know how hard everything is on her, it just.. Revamps my feelings of protectiveness toward her. Though I can't make myself be any stronger right now like I want to do, I can at least look out for her a little...


The first officer who'd come to our side nods, everyone removes their hands from us and she gives a few quiet orders to another female officer before gesturing toward an opened door, revealing a long table and several chairs. "We'll sit in here if that's alright? My name is Officer Rosaline and I just sent Officer Harkin to go and get you both some food and water.. We can just sit and eat, and we don't have to talk about anything until you're ready, okay?"


I nod my head slowly, but still cling to Teag. I'm grateful they won't make me talk until I'm ready, but I just... Don't know when that'll be. I know I can't waste everyone's time, especially my girlfriend's, so.. I can't take forever, but it'll just be really hard...

 

[Memster101]

((Yeahh. It's a little bitter sweet, I love the people there but I don't think I can handle work and being off my meds at the same time >< Do you have another job lined up or??))


"Come on, babe," I murmured softly, leading us to the door. It was a bit of an awkward shuffle considering I didn't try and move Mir from in front of me, but we eventually made it into the interrogation room. Officer Rosaline shut the door behind us and we all took our seats, me beside Mir with our chairs pretty much as one, arm wrapped around her shoulders. Once we were settled, I held my free hand out to the officer, inwardly cursing myself for how my hand trembled. "I'm Teagan Saint Hopkins...This is Miranda ((I don't think you ever gave me a last name xD )). I suppose I should say it's a pleasure to meet you but..." I gave a humorless smile, shrugging my shoulders faintly.


While I might have appeared to be just over protective and tired on the outside, on the inside I was freaking the fuck out. I hated police stations. Lord knew I had spent enough nights locked up in one after my parents got tired of paying bail for me. I'd been taken in for a few nights at most, only being a juvenile at the time so never having to actually go to jail, for numerous things, including possession of some of the harder stuff Jess had given to me. Just being in here made my anxiety jump to all new kinds of heights. Swallowing, I smoothed at Mir's hair, not only to sooth her but myself as well.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Aah, I understand..


And no. Honestly, I cannot handle a job at all right now ;w; My depression and stress can't handle it. How about you?


And oh crud, a last name.. I totally forgot about that! x3 Um.. Miranda Carson.))


Knowing how Teag feels about police stations makes me feel like shit for bringing her in here... I'd completely forgotten. And here I am, being selfish, and begging her to stay with me in here. I squeeze her tight and then let go, sitting in my own chair with my hands clasped tight and held between my knees. "You can go, Teag.." I say softly, tilting my head to the side to give her a small smile, hoping she believes it. "I'll be fine, love... Thank you."


I do hope she goes... I only want her to be comfortable. I'll be able to handle this on my own ,it'd only be easier with her. I lower my head again, knowing that if I watch her walk out I'll lose it. "Go do what you must. But be sure to eat, okay? I won't be happy with you if you don't."

 

[Memster101]

((About the same >< I don't know if my depression is just flaring up really bad again or the fact I'm off my meds/stopped cold turkey, or a combination of both :/ And I'm going to donate blood/plasma for a while. Until I can pay off my credit card and my gym membership is up will take most of it up, then the rest will be for bills and such I'm at a weird place where I don't HAVE to pay for my phone/car, I just choose to because my family's money situation is kind of tense Are you just going to try and get yourself together for a little while? ))


I shook my head, sliding my hand into hers. "No, I want to stay with you. I'll live.I might just have to take a break in between whatever's going to happen..." Bringing it up, I kissed the back of it softly, giving a slight smile against her skin. Maybe after Mir got done recounting the event, I'd go out for a smoke, or in between the rape kit and before it. It was something I'd worry about later. Mir was what mattered most now. I let my hand fall back into her lap, absently rubbing my thumb over her knuckles to relieve some of my anxiety.


"So...do you want to know anything about us? Or... I don't know...Something to get the ball rolling?" I glanced at Mir for any inspiration, pulling my lower lip between my teeth. I wasn't honestly sure how to go about doing this, not sure how to help Mir relax or feel ready again... I was surprised she wanted me to be here to listen to it. If it had been me, I'd been scared that retelling the event would have disgusted Mir and frightened her away...Smoothing a hand through my hair, I idly bounced my leg, waiting for whatever to happen to start.

 

[Zotohxan]

((D: Why'd you just quit cold turkey? But that's understandable.. I think it's good you'll still be doing something to help out financially, even if you can't handle a job right now.


I don't have any 'bills' or anything going out except my 25$ a month for my phone, so.. Yeah, I'm just going to ride it out as long as I can... Or, at least.. Until I'm able to get back into it. ))


Officer Rosaline smiles softly at our exchange and it gets a little wider when I finally realize Teag won't leave me, and I once more cling to her arm, resting my head on her shoulder. "Well.. Sure." She figures that if she talks about our relationship that seems to be going so well, it may make us more comfortable. "How long have the two of you been together?" She asks, her voice and posture seeming more lax than I'd have assumed a police officer about to head an interrogation- especially about something like rape- would be. But I'm grateful for it.


"A-A little over two years." I answer, smiling up at Teag. "We've.. Helped each other through a lot." I feel like I could sit here for hours and just rant on and on about how amazing my girlfriend is, but I know we've got more important stuff to get to. Which is why I'll keep it short and simple, at least until Officer Harkin gets back with food and I can focus on making sure Teag eats.

 

[Memster101]

((Mmm, well my medication was giving me really bad headaches among other side effects and I did some stupid stuff and was nervous about what would happen if I tried to take my medication >> And that's good. I wish I could do that :/ Stupid school >< I'm glad you realized you needed to pull back though and get yourself figured out though ))


I nuzzled my face briefly into Mir's hair, breathing in her comforting scent. "Two wonderful years," I mused, laughing faintly. "And that we have....This girl right here has done her fair share of straightening me out. I honestly don't know where I'd be if she wasn't here." With my free hand I gently tapped under her chin affectionately. "Why a little goody-two-shoe like her fell for a delinquent like me is still baffling, but I'm glad she decided to stick around." Shaking my head some, I leaned back in my chair, thinking maybe if I appeared relax I could trick myself into becoming so.


"What about you? Are you with anyone?" My head cocked to the side some, freeing my hand from her grasp so I could wrap that arm around Mir's shoulders. I quickly slid my free hand into hers again though, squeezing it gently. "Or is that something too personal for you to discuss? If so.....I guess what made you want to become a cop?"