Our Secrets ((GxG))

[Zotohxan]

I let out a contented sigh when Teag agrees to sleep with me, a small smile showing on my expression, "Thank you..." I mutter, not realizing that everyone had looked over at me with sad expressions. I know that everyone kind of hates how emotional I am right now, and I know it's a burden.. Even if they insist it's not, I know... It's clear to see by the way they treat me. I know that they love me and all, but... I know I annoy them. So I do try to keep my emotions under control, I've even asked my doctor and therapist if there was any sort of medicine I could take to chill myself out... But there's not. It's just pregnancy, and coupled with trauma and psychological medication? Yeah... I'm bound to be a mess.

 

[Memster101]

I looked up when I felt Mir do the same, frowning some when I saw everyone else's expressions. "Do you want the rest of my sandwich?" I offered, finding I couldn't finish it. It wasn't exactly her taste so if she didn't, I could always save it for later. Maybe for dinner or if I got hungry later. I wasn't really a ham fan anyways. A yawn escaped me and I nuzzled behind Mir's ear, pulling her chair a little closer so I could lean against her a little. "If not, I'll just save it for later."

 

[Zotohxan]

I smile faintly at my girlfriend, reaching my hands up to run my fingers through her hair, "It's okay, you can save it for later. I think Jelly Bean and I are full for now. For the next ten minutes, anyway." I chuckle a bit, the medicine obviously getting past its initial stages so that I'm not completely crazy for now. "Let's go to bed?" I offer, then look around at the three others, "We're gonna go take a nap..." I didn't really know what to say beyond that, so I'd just stick with what I'd said...


Rosaline gives a small smile, "Alright. Sleep well, girls. If you need anything we'll be here, we're off tonight so there won't be any issue." Jess nods, "Yeah, I'm staying for awhile, too." She washes down her mouthful of food with some soda before continuing, "So just, like.. Scream or something if you need us."

 

[Memster101]

I nodded some at everyone's comments, standing up with my plate in hand. "Do you guys need any help cleaning up or anything?" Most of them were still working on their sandwiches as well though so I had a feeling the answer would be no, which it was. Following Mir, I headed back into the kitchen and found the saran wrap, covering the sandwich with it and the plate for safe keeping. I stuck it in the fridge then, putting the wrap away as well while I waited for Mir to clean off her plate. "Do you need anything before you nap?" I asked, referring to tea or another glass of OJ or something. Knowing her, she'd probably sneak off if I managed to fall asleep to grab a snack or something but I always asked juts in case.

 

[Zotohxan]

I smile brightly and shake my head, "Nope! I'm all good!" I reach out to take Teag's hand once I'd cleaned off my plate then I head toward my bedroom. "Do you think.. Since we don't live together, and Jelly Bean has a bedroom at both our houses... Will they get angry with us, or.. Will they have that complex kids with divorced parents have, where they think that we don't really love each other?" I feel tears welling up in my eyes, "I don't want our baby to think that... I want them to know that we love them, and each other..."

 

[Memster101]

I followed Mir to her room, chewing at my lip some with the question. I had hoped that I and Mir would have lived together by now but with rehab and everything, it hadn't panned out. It was probably for the best that we hadn't yet though. It wasn't something that had worried me before, considering I practically lived here. But it could be a problem..I shook my head some and and led her over to her bed. "Let's not thing about that yet, hm? Let's just take a nap." I waited until she laid down to do so as well, stretching widely out for a few moments. "Do you need any extra pillows or anything?"

 

[Zotohxan]

I nod, laying down I adjust the flat but soft pillow under my lower back, and also the one under my head and neck. "No, I'm okay." I say softly, smiling over at Teag, "I just want to cuddle and take a nap... We've only got a couple more months until Jelly Bean is here and will be waking us up at all hours of the day and night." I giggle a bit, "It'll be hell, but... It'll be nice. Because they're our baby."

 

[Memster101]

I smiled some and nodded, curling on my side so our legs were touching. We didn't cuddle too much any more considering how much she moved around in the night. "Exactly," I murmured, moving slightly forward for a moment so I could kiss her cheek. "I love you...Let's nap some." I curled up and pulled one of the spare blankets over myself, yawning tiredly. "Don't worry about waking me up if you need anything, okay?"

 

[Zotohxan]

"Okay." I say softly, then reach over to put my hand gently in Teag's. I usually try to stay on my back, as laying on my stomach is a no-no and on my side hurts after awhile... But still, I like at least trying to cuddle my girlfriend. "Goodnight, babe. I love you." I squeeze her hand then close my eyes and take a few deep, calming breaths. Though, as I try to fall asleep, just as I'm on the edge, Jelly Bean delivers a sharp kick, making me gasp in pain. "Calm down, Jelly Bean..." I mutter softly, "Sleepy time..."

 

[Memster101]

I tangled our fingers together happily as I settled down for bed, dozing off almost instantly. Unfortunately with how little sleep I had been getting, if I sat down for long enough I would fall asleep, almost instantly really. It was both a curse and a blessing really, when I could sleep at least. It definitely made driving a pain, or anything else I had to pay attention during like hospital visits. I stirred some when I heard Mir's discomfort but easily slipped back off into sleep, curling up deeper into the blankets.

 

[Zotohxan]

I manage to fall asleep not even a full ten minutes later, and I sleep peacefully for awhile. I don't even toss and turn much, just my head moving from side to side occasionally... However, an hour later I gasp awake to a sharp kick and the feeling of the bed getting wet between my legs. I blush deeply and start to tear up, and by the time I reach over and shake Teag's shoulder I'm practically sobbing. I couldn't believe Jelly Bean kicked my bladder and made me pee the bed...

 

[Memster101]

I shifted awake when Mir started to shake my shoulder, grumbling faintly as I sat up and rubbed at my eyes. "Huh?" I asked sleepily, looking over at Mir and frowned when I saw her crying. "Hey? What's wrong?" I asked her softly, pushing her hair back from her eyes as I looked her face over. I was vaguely aware that the bed felt slightly wet but it was something I was use to. Apparently pregnancy made you sweat a whole bunch and over heat.

 

[Zotohxan]

I just keep crying, feeling disgusting and beyond ashamed of myself. "J-Jelly Bean kicked my-y bla-a-adder... I'm sorry... I'm re-really sorry..." I whimper when another kick comes, but this time it's as if the baby were pushing and holding something down, bringing me almost the worst pain I've ever felt. "K-Keeps... Keeps doing i-it..." My tears pick up as my emotions grow, my arms moving to wrap around my belly. "Make... Ma-a... make it s-stop..." I plead, squeezing my eyes shut after giving my girlfriend a desperate look.

 

[Memster101]

My eyes widened, but not at the 'bladder kicking' part. She had complained of some pain every once in a while when things got stressful, but nothing that had made her react like this. I pulled the blankets off of us and sucked in a breath when I saw the wet patch under Mir. "Fuck..." I whispered. "M-Mir...that's not pee." It didn't smell like pee and as embarrassing enough as it was, I knew what pee smelt like. Lord knew I had woken up to find myself literally piss-the-bed drunk more times than I could count. "Lori!" I scrambled off of the bed, "Fuck, Rosaline! Mir's water broke!"

 

[Zotohxan]

My heart starts to race in fear at Teag's words, "No!" I shout, the pain so bad that I end up trying to curl against myself, but the belly makes it pretty difficult. "It's... N-Not ti-i-time!" I scream, my eyes still shut and my teeth grinding together. I hear footsteps running toward the room and before I know it the door is slamming open as Rosaline and Lori rush to the bed, Jess standing wide-eyed at the door.


"Okay... Miranda, you're going to have to be strong right now, okay? The baby is coming." Rosaline says to me in a calm voice, but I just scream out, "No!" I whimper, pulling my legs up so my feet touch my butt and my arms tighten around my stomach. "W-Way too... T-Too early! Jell-lly Bean is not co-comming so... S-So early!"

 

[Memster101]

"Mir, you have to calm down. Whether you like it or not Jelly Bean is coming and there's not a whole lot we can do about it. We have to get you to the hospital," I told Mir, trying to hold back the panic I felt building in me. It would be no help if I started freaking out like Mir was, plus it would only upset her more. I chewed at my lip as I looked around, wondering what all we needed to do. I knew there was a pack or something that we had made up for when this happened but I had no idea where it was.


"Jess, go start my car. It's the biggest." I groped around in my pockets until I found the keys and threw them to her, trying to think of where they would have put the pack.

 

[Zotohxan]

I hear as Jess takes the keys and runs outside, and I hear Rosaline telling Lori that the pack is stuffed at the left of my closet, and I hear her telling Teag to help get me up... But I can't respond to anything, the pain is blinding, deafening... Nothing is registering as real, and it honestly feels like I'm going to die. "Je-elly Bean... Has to b-be okay..." I whimper, feeling Rosaline starting to lift me up. I have just enough control over myself to straighten my legs onto the floor, but my arms don't leave my stomach and there's absolutely no way I'd be able to support my own weight.


"Shit..." Again it's Rosaline's voice, and I can feel something running down my legs. "We're going to have to call an ambulance, you'll go with her and we'll follow in the car, but... She needs to be seen... Now."

 

[Memster101]

Part of me managed to relax when Rosaline was able to get Mir out of the bed and then swung wildly into panic mode again when I saw the blood running down Mir's legs. It took all I had not to start gawking at it but I knew my face was white as a sheet. "I-I-I'll call," I managed to murmur, moving out into the hall so I could hear the call. I pulled my phone out and quickly dialed 9-1-1, cursing mentally as I waited for them to pick up. When someone finally did, I could have cursed them out. It had seemed like forever it took them to answer the phone. "9-1-1, What's your emergency?" The woman on the other line asked. "I need an ambulance at (insert where ever the apartment is xD ). My girlfriend is going into labor and she's bleeding." At this part, I stepped further into the hall, not wanting Mir to hear and to start getting even more upset.


"Okay, I'll send some people right over. I need you to stay calm though. Can I get your girlfriend's and your information?" I spent then next little while rattling off whatever the needed, leaning back against the door to the bathroom as I tried to do as the officer had requested. Once they got all of the info that the needed, she informed me that an ambulance would be over shortly. I ended the call there. "They're coming!" I called from where I sat, trying to get myself back together before I saw Mir again.

 

[Zotohxan]

Rosaline quickly gets me out into the hallway before looking to Teag, "Okay... I'm not even going to try getting her downstairs, that's just an invitation for disaster. So when the ambulance gets here Lori is going to go let them in, then you'll go down with her and get in the back of the ambulance together. Okay? We're all going to be right behind you in the car."


I can barely hear the officer's words as I start to sway, my vision getting blotchy as the pain starts to ease up. "It's... Feeling bet-better... I'm.. Okay..." My eyes close before I even realized they were heavy, and within seconds I'm slumped totally against Rosaline and the wall, unconscious.

 

[Memster101]

((Did I never reply to the other rp e.e ))


I looked up when Rosaline started speaking to me, horribly glad that Mir was somewhat out of it enough to miss the panic on my face. All I managed to do was nod to show I heard her and understood, knowing there was no way that I wasn't getting in that ambulance with her. My eyes nearly popped out of my head when Mir fainted and I hurried forward, easing some of the weight off of Rosaline by wrapping my arms around Mir's waist. It felt like Jelly Bean was doing the Can-Can in there. Vaguely I was aware of Lori brushing passed us and hurrying down the stairs to go outside to meet the paramedics.


"Is there anything we can do to ease the bleeding?" I asked Rosaline, chewing at my lip. "Lay her down? Get a towel or something?" I heard the door open then slam shut and not much longer after Jess came around the corner. "Oh my god! Is she okay?" I nodded, swallowing thickly as I tried to hold back tears. "Y-Yeah...Can you grab the pack from Mir's closet? Lori was suppose to but I think she forgot..."

 

[Zotohxan]

((Uhh.. I don't think so? >.> I'll check later, and if it's my reply I'll get it in the morning ;w; It's been fairly hectic and I'm tired af...))


Rosaline shakes her head, "No, sweetie... We've just got to wait for the paramedics, I'm afraid anything we do would just make it worse. They'll be here soon though, okay?" She tries to give a supportive smile, pretending that the way my body would randomly tense up and my unconscious self would whimper or gasp out in pain, were all totally normal.


"Got it!" Jess yells when she comes back out with the pack, throwing it over her own shoulder as she rushes over and looks at Teag nervously. "She's gonna be okay, right? Her and Jelly Bean both? They'll.. They'll really be alright? They have to be... We can't lose them, okay?" Before anyone has a chance to respond Lori is leading the paramedics upstairs. They quickly get me situated on the gurney and start rattling off their medical jargon, taking me downstairs and heading out the door. "Who's going with her?" They ask in urgent voices, looking around at everyone.

 

[Memster101]

(( Oh no! I hope all is okay >>))


It was hard for me to keep on breathing as Rosaline basically told me there was nothing we could do. How the hell could there be nothing that we could do? Every time she shuddered and whimpered, my heart broke a little and was I scared that it would be the last sound I ever heard from her. When Jess came back upstairs and managed to nod, swallowing some. "She'll be okay..." I murmured, steeling myself up for the worst, at least on the inside. Not soon after Jess came through the door, the paramedics did as well. Begrudgingly I let them take Mir from my arms and watched as she strapped her down to the gurney.


Everything they said more or less flew over my head, but when they asked who was going, I quickly volunteered. "I will...I'm her girlfriend," I told them, watching as they glanced at Lori and Rosaline, as if they'd rather them go. The women made no move to take my place and the paramedic finally hurried me along and we raced down the stairs. By the time I got down there they had already loaded Mir into the ambulance and I struggled to make the awkward climb into the vehicle. I was sat off to the side as two of the paramedics hurried about around Mir, setting her oxygen up and what not.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Oh, yeah! Just trying to clean up after Christmas(still), and trying to get the house ready for my girlfriend to come out on Sunday.. So, delayed replies Sunday-Wednesday since she'll be here! :3


Also, it is your reply on the other one~))


The officers and Jess take Rosaline's car and follow straight after the ambulance, keeping right on their tail so that they're sure to be there for me and Teag the moment we get into a room.


Inside the ambulance more words are being thrown around that would be far too difficult for a non-medical intuitive teen to know about, none the less one who's panicking over her girlfriend's safety. However, one would would be clear for Teag to understand, "Hemorrhage". More specifically they'd thrown around "prepartum hemorrhage", and "placenta previa". Neither of which would probably make much of any sense to the panicking girl, but obviously meant something to the paramedic in the driver's seat who starts driving faster, and the one in the passenger seat who calls the hospital and orders an O.R. to be prepped for a cesarean section.


After those in the back seem to have stabilized me one turns to Teag, "Okay, sweetie? When we get to the hospital I want you to go and stay with the others from the house, we've got to take your girlfriend to have the babies with a c-section. She and the baby will both be okay, but you can't go in there with her, okay?"

 

[Memster101]

(( That's exciting!! And oy vey e.e I'll get on that.))


The words I heard floating around the cab more or less went over my panicked brain completely, but I knew they meant nothing good for Mir or Jelly Bean. From the way that the driver stepped on the gas, I could tell that at least. When the paramedic started talking to me, I shook my head, my eyes going wide. "No, someone has to be with her. I can't leave her alone," I begged, wrapping my arms around myself as if that would seal (is that the right spelling? Like to close something or secure it?)) my fate. I couldn't exactly reach out and touch Mir, I knew it would only interfere with what the two men were trying to do.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Yeah! ^-^ I'm excited.. I haven't seen her since early November ;w;


And yeah, that's the right spelling. >w<))


"Please.. I know you want to be with her to make sure she's safe, but she's unconscious, and will stay that way through the operation, and for around an hour after that. You'll be back by her side before she ever wakes up, so.. There's nothing to worry about. But we can't allow anyone but doctors and nurses into the O.R. I know you wouldn't mean to, but you could really get in the way, and then she would just get hurt even more than she is now. Do you understand?" The paramedic gives a small smile, the ambulance slowing down as they get near the emergency entrance, "So, please.. Just go sit with your family, and the doctors will give you updates as often as they possibly can."