Our Secrets ((GxG))

[Memster101]

((Oh my gooooooddd~ *squeal* That's adorable!! Have you guys hung out a whole lot since then??))


"If you like that...I can't wait to see how you'll react to what I have in store," I purred, shutting the phone after finishing my little message. Sliding it into my pocket, I lead him down the stairs and finally, through the back door into the alley way. Turning around, I smirked at him, feeling my stomach roll at the hungry way he was looking at me. Like I was just some piece of meat. A look I wasn't unfamiliar too, usually just too drunk to notice or care. "I ended up walking here, but my house is only about a five or so minute walk... I'm sure we can make the time fly." I gave him a sly look, beckoning him with a finger to come over.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Not at all, actually. ;w; We're both only 17, and we live two hours apart... Neither of us have cars of our own, so we have to wait for our parents to drive us to and from. We'll really only get to hang out once a month(if that) until one of us gets a car v.v But we talk every day, so that's always good. ^-^))


Micheal practically growls as he follows Teagan. Though, the moment the door shuts behind them, Micheal grins and slams Teagan against the wall. "Fuck you're sexy." He says gruffly, his body pushing hard, sandwiching her between him, and the bricks behind her. He leans down and sloppily kisses her again, one of his hands reaching between them to lift her shirt and dance his fingers across her skin. "I can't wait, baby. We'll have an encore with Jess, but for now.. Let's just have it you and me." He grins wickedly and starts messing with the button to her pants, his lips latching onto her neck and no doubt leaving a mark.

 

[Memster101]

(( Oh no ): I'm glad you guys get to talk every day though! Phone calls or just texting?? My first girl friend and I had the same problems, not including that one of her parents couldn't know about us and the other didn't like that we were dating >> ))


Inwardly, I winced as I was forced up against the rough surface of the the bricks and felt the sharpness digging into my back. I thought Jess was rough but this was a whole other level. I could practically feel the bruises forming already wherever he grabbed. Apparently he got too impatient and broke the button to my jeans....Well, now was my time to shine if any. Taking the opportunity of how close his hips were, I brought my knee-quite bony from the week- straight into his groin. When he stumbled back, I threw a hard right hook at his jaw, falling him to the ground. "You bastard," I hissed, straddling him. "How dare you violate my Mir, Jess." Again I drew back my fist, slamming it into his jaw.


Lori had decided to wait a minute or so after Jess pleaded for her to go out, wanting Michael far away enough from the building so not too much of an uproar was caused before more officers could show up. Now she felt sure enough, she started out of the car. "Stay in here, okay? I don't need you getting hurt..."

 

[Zotohxan]

((Aah ;w; Yeah, neither of our parents know.. We'll tell them soon enough, but we know neither of ours would let us spend the night or anything if they knew we were dating.. And we don't do anything anyway, it's just nice to see her :/ ))


Micheal's eyes go wide, "What the fuck, bitch?!" He shouts, groaning in pain and cupping his nether regions. "I didn't violate no one, bitch! I only fuck chicks who want it! Hell, one bitch had her fucking Daddy pay me she wanted me so bad!" He then reaches up and roughly grabs the waist of Teagan's pants, "But if you wanna act like that, then I'll do as you say!" He rips apart the zipper, even the seam down her crotch a bit. His hands immediately move to push her under him and start pulling the fabric down, her arms pinned above her head in one of his hands. "Enjoy, baby." He seethes, gripping her thigh hard.


Jess nods, slightly shaking in her seat with fear. "Please get to her soon enough..."

 

[Memster101]

(( I feel what you mean I didn't tell my parents for the longest time because that only times I could really see her was when she'd sleep over. And that's good! While all of that stuff is fun, it's sort of nice to have a relationship where you don't have to worry about sex and what have you, or so I've learned the hard way e.e ))


My ears perked up at the comment, having no doubt that it was something that Mir's dad could have stooped too. Of course... I hadn't really thought ahead to what to do if he over powered me. Something I clearly should have thought of with how weak I was. I held back a cry of pain when he grabbed my thigh, managing to narrow my eyes defiantly at him. "Fuck you, bastard!" I hissed, squirming under him. Even though I knew Lori was just around the corner, a fear so gripping hit me that my vision went black and I had to fight the urge to freeze up.


Lori hurried out of the car and down to the back alley way, her gun drawn at her side. When she rounded the corner and saw the sight before her, she drew it up, holding it level to Michael's head. "Freeze! Step away from the girl and get your hands above your head!"

 

[Zotohxan]

((Yeah.. Neither of us are really ready for sex, but still.. Parents don't seem to understand that we can control ourselves without jumping bones every five minutes... >.> I mean, I spent like four days at her house.. We slept together and cuddled every night, but never went beyond a kiss here or there. Neither of us even want anything more right now. Her Mom caught us cuddling and got mad, but we don't think she actually suspects anything.. She and I both cuddle with friends, so x.x))


Micheal had just twisted his fingers under the band of Teagan's underwear when he hears the voice. He turns and glares as he sees a cop, abruptly standing off of Teagan and putting his hands behind his head. "Yeah, yeah.I know the deal." He rolls his eyes. "But honestly, you can't be wanting to arrest me for having sex with my girlfriend in an alley?! It's secluded,and this is private property." He grins, as if he'd thought this all through. "I know my rights lady. I'm allowed on this property, it's dark, I can fuck her if I want to." He turns and gazes darkly down Teagan's exposed lower half. "And damn... Do I want to."

 

[Memster101]

(( Awe :3 I wouldn't mind having a nice relationship like that again. Sex is complicated D: Especially when you're super insecure and shy and blah e.e))


I felt my heart nearly stop with relief when I heard Lori come and pulled my ripped pants back up around my thin hips. "Well I know for a fact that your sister and Miranda Carson were not your girlfriends and never willingly had sex with you." Stepping forward, she pulled her cuffs from her belt, grabbing Michael's wrists and securing them non too gently. "Michael (whatever their last name was xD ), you're under arrest for the rape of Miranda Carson and Jessica (last name >>), and the attempted rape of Teagan Saint Hopkins." Grabbing him by the upper arm, she turned to me, her face full of concern. "Are you alright?"


I nodded, murder in my eyes as I stared up at Michael. Lori's face managed to relax some and she nodded, leading the elder sibling to the front of the building. Slowly I got up, sighing in annoyance when my pants started to fall down. I had liked these pair too a fair bit. Hitching them up, I made my way back over to my car to go sit in the back with Jess.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Yeah x3 That's one reason I'm not ready; same for her.. We're both pretty down on our bodies and don't have the best self esteem on a normal basis, SO ...))


Micheal grumbles profanities under his breath as he's shoved up against the car. When he notices it's not actually a police car he understands that they're waiting for reinforcements, and that his night was likely about to get significantly worse. That is, until he glances up and really looks at Lori's face. After a moment a sick grin spreads across his. "Holy fuck." He says, then starts laughing. "You're a cop now!?" Micheal is older than Lori, 29 to her 23. "Never thought I'd see you again, sweet cheeks. Where's the other one?" He sneers.


Jess wraps her arms around Teag the moment they're together in the back. "Holy shit..." She mutters, paying to mind to the scene outside the car as she notices Teagan's ruined jeans. "He didn't.." Tears fill her eyes. "Holy shit.. Please tell me he didn't!"

 

[Memster101]

(( I feel you there >< Just take it ease. If the time comes, it comes. Just make sure you both talk everything out, make sure that everyone is comfortable with what is going on every step of the way, listen to each other, and try and enjoy yourself and well...have a little fun. I had a really hard time learning that with my last ex and it's something I'm still struggling with a whole lot, but the communication we had helped a TON. ))


Lori shoved him roughly against the car to get him to shut up, gritting her teeth some. "Be quiet." She led him over to the side of the building and forced him to sit down, than began to read him his Miranda rights. During this, her hand rested on the butt of her taser, just in case he tried to do anything. Though she was fairly certain he wouldn't...Some how, from what she had read on his record, he always managed to swindle his way out of things, thus causing no need for un-pleasantries.


I smiled slightly and shook my head, brushing at a few tears that managed to fall from Jess' eyes. "No...Lori came in time," I assured her. My arms wrapped around her familiar body, pulling her close. I had hated how afraid I'd truly been, how easily things had gotten out of control...How bad things could have gotten if Lori had been even a minute later. I made sure to keep these fears to myself, knowing it'd only upset Jess more if she saw how scared I was.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Yeah, we both understand that nothing will happen until we've talked, learned boundaries, and obviously if we both consent at that time for it. So far we're really good about talking through things.. Insecurities, fears, all that jazz. And we're on the same page for pretty much everything, so that's always good! ^-^))


Micheal just continues laughing, "Bitch, I remember watching you two fuck! I paid good money that day. How the hell'd you become a cop?!" His eyes gaze over Lori's face then down her body, "I remember getting you bitches high as fucking kites after, too. 'Thought you'd be college drop outs, not on your way to the straight and narrow." He winks, then laughs at himself some more.


"Good..." Jess says, squeezing Teagan tight. "Holy shit I was so scared... It took so long, then when you called I didn't know what to think... But I'm so glad you're okay, babe. So fucking glad." She pulls back a bit, holding Teagan's shoulders, "Do you want to call Miranda? I'm sure she's worried about you after hearing that on the radio..."

 

[Memster101]

((Oh! That's really good then :3 Communication is like, everything >> Now i'm brain dead even more xD ))


Lori gritted her teeth, trying to ignore what he was saying. When she finished the small speech, she rolled her eyes and stepped back some holding her gun level to Michael. Thankfully, Jess and Teagan were still safe away in the car and out of ear shot. God what was she going to tell Rosaline? He was sure to blab all sorts of things when he got into the station.


I held Jess back, just as tightly, trying to ground myself some. At her announcement, I nodded some and fumbled from my phone, speed dialing Mir. I wouldn't tell her what I'd done, not yet, it would only freak her out, but she deserved to know he was in custody.

 

[Zotohxan]

((As am I... I honestly thought I replied to this forever ago x.x))


Micheal still just laughs, even with the gun pointed directly at him. "Oh? And what're you gonna do? Shoot me? An unarmed man who's been apprehended by a pornographic police officer?" He shakes his head in amusement. "Oh, that's rich. Or, wait..." He grins widely, "Did you come here to strip for me? Jeez, I knew my sister was the best. Getting me a hot ass stripper for my birthday- in two months."


After the first ring I was already fumbling with my phone, desperately picking it up when I saw Teag's picture and name flash. My breathing was heavy and I'd just abruptly dropped the photo album I was putting into a box. "Teag?! Oh my god.. Are you okay!?" The moment I'd heard the first announcement coming over the radio I was worried, but when I heard Lori's voice reply back I was terrified... I don't want Teag around him, Jess either, but... In all honesty, my girlfriend is my top priority. So the whole time Rosaline and I had been at my parents' house, I've been nervously going through my stuff and not paying much attention to what I'm doing.

 

[Memster101]

(( You're all good, I do that with texts a lot >> When were you thinking of time skipping? Like after the other cops come or?))


Lori rolled her eyes some and walked a bit away from Michael, picking up her radio. "The suspect has been apprehended, I'm currently waiting for another unit to arrive to bring him into custody," She informed the station and other officers. Leaning back against building beside Michael, she scanned the windows, wondering what all was going on inside. How many people they could bring into custody? At least one right now. And he was the most important at the moment.


"I'm okay, everyone is okay. I just wanted to let you know everyone is safe and that Lori's got Michael. We're just waiting for another pair of officers to come since Lori is technically off duty," I informed Mir, leaning back against the seat some. I kept Jess' hand in mine, squeezing it gently. "How are you holding up? I'm glad Rosaline didn't come..."

 

[Zotohxan]

((Yeah, that sounds good. -w-))


A muffled reply of "On our way-" comes through the radio and Micheal laughs again, "Oh, I'll certainly have fun recounting to all them other cops about how you looked with that other girl. The way your bodies slammed against each other and you rolled around." He shakes his head in amusement, then licks his lips. "God you're fucking sexy back then, probably are now." He nods his head toward his crotch, "Why don't you gimme a little treat and I'll give you another pay off?"


I let out a deep sigh of relief when Teag tells me that everyone is okay, but then my breath catches at Micheal's name. It takes me a moment to compose myself before I could answer her question. "I'm okay... I-I was just really worried about all of you..." I swallow hard, then take a deep breath. "And.. He didn't touch either of you, right?"

 

[Memster101]

(( Cool :3 And oh my god yay mild panic attack D: ))


Lori gritted her teeth some once more but continued to ignore what the older man was saying, crossing her arms over her chest as she looked out over the street. This place was going to get crazy when the cops showed up. No doubt they'd see a large herd of people running from the building or something along those lines. It actually would have been humorous to see if they hadn't been in situation such as this.


I chewed at my lip some when Mir asked about the touching part, smoothing my sweaty palms against the fabric of my jeans. It wouldn't be the first, or last time I lied to her...but I couldn't tell her now. Some how I'd have to ask Lori and Rosaline to keep it a secret. Mir would go berserk if she found out. "No, we stayed in the car. Lori went in and got him," I said, grimacing some at the lie.

 

[Zotohxan]

(( ;-; What happened?))


The moment Lori's head is turned Micheal leans forward and 'sexually' nips her shoulder, but not hard enough to leave much of a mark. "C'mon, baby. I bet you'll look good as hell with your little uniform all around the floor. Let's go back to my place and I can make sure of it, yeah?" He moves to lick her neck, even knowing he'd likely get hit this time.


I let out another deep sigh of relief. "Okay, good..." She takes in a deep breath, "I'm going to see you before the night is over.. I already asked Rosaline and she said I can at least hug you and say goodnight, so.. I will. I really need to see you, anyway."


Not even a moment later the sounds of at least three police cars start growing faster and faster, speeding in their direction.

 

[Memster101]

(( There was part of a project due in one of my classes that I had no idea about so I just had to whip up a bunch of b.s. in like two hours so I could turn it in >> ))


When Michael bit Lori's shoulder, she instantly shoved him back, withholding the urge to punch him. The second time around when he advanced on her again, she let her annoyance come through and tased him, knowing that she could say that he had tried to assault her as well. Lori looked up when she heard the sirens of some of her fellow officers, relaxing mildly. Thankfully this would be over soon and she could talk to Rosaline about what all was happening.


A sigh left my lips and I nodded, more to myself than her. "I know...and okay. I look forward to it. Make sure you get everything you need, okay? I love you..." I hung up after that when the sirens started to approach, sitting up some in my seat to look at them. The cars pulled into the parking lot and inside the building you could see the a large commotion start up. The cops knew that this was going to happen and made it a point to try and hurry Michael out of the area, not wanting to deal with the mess that was starting to arrive.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Gaah, school x.x))


((So I tried looking up the amount of time rapists are generally sentenced for multiple counts, but it just had all these stories of rape cases and I couldn't handle that.. Soooo, I just made something up. xD ))


It's been about three weeks now since Micheal was arrested. I'd made a positive ID on him that night, and after he'd started shouting profanities and threats behind the two-way mirror I had an awful panic attack, about as bad as the day Teagan had found me in my bathroom... Rosaline helped me through it after about twenty minutes then took me to see Teag, which is when I finally calmed down the rest of the way.


I still haven't decided what to do about school... I haven't gone in these past three weeks, and Teag keeps insisting that I switch to online school, but... I don't want to let this rule my life. I want to get back out there, to live normally. Aside from my appointments I haven't seen Teag in person at all... So that'll definitely be a plus. Not to mention the fact that I can't just become a hermit. I know most people know what happened to me by now, some students at school have parents on the police force. There was also a short story on the evening news the day after Micheal's court case, and even though they didn't have my consent, they used my name. My parents probably signed the papers... But even with that, I still want to at least try.


Jess is living with Teag now, and after her brother was sentenced to 20 years in prison with no chance of parole, she's been pretty broken down from what I understand. She fakes being okay around Teag and takes care of her, which I'm thankful for, but when she's alone.. Apparently she does nothing but cry. Which is understandable.. Even though Micheal is a monster, he was still her only family left. And even if she hates everything about him for what he'd done, he's still family. And in a way, she still loves him.


Living with Rosaline and Lori has been strange, but they're incredibly nice and understanding. They don't judge me when I have attacks, and seem to know how to handle them pretty well. They've also kept up with taking me to the hospital every week for an ultrasound, and Teag has come with me to every appointment which I appreciate more than she'll ever know. They haven't found anything yet on those scans.. And seeing as how it's been a month now since the attack, the doctor is pretty positive I'm not pregnant... Thank god.


Well... Looks like the doctor is wrong.


"Miranda, please let us in!" Rosaline calls, slamming against the bathroom door. I was trembling on the floor, my fingers weakly holding onto the little plastic stick, a little pink plus sign staring right back at me. My breathing is shallow and tears are running down my face. "It's positive..." I whisper, starting then to sob. I knew why the officers were getting worried.. I've been in here nearly thirty minutes, and haven't spoken to them at all. But I can't... I don't feel as if I can face anyone, I don't even know how to deal with this... Not in the least.

 

[Memster101]

(( You're all good! I don't know much about it either but I'm sure its something along those lines~ Also, my reply might be shoddy. I'm having a bad day ))


The past three weeks had been...a blur really. After Michael was convicted and the trail was over, things had come to a unexpected stand still. Visits with Mir were fleeting and few in between and our promise to call every night had fallen through. When we did see each other, things were unfamiliar and strange...Like we weren't quite the same people we had been before all of this. Like puzzle pieces that are just slightly off. They should and look like they fit...but the edges and grooves no longer line up. And the scary part was...we really weren't. No amount of therapy or medication would bring us back to that normalcy we once held. This thought plagued me late at night as Jess and I laid together in my bed, trying to fight off our own demons and pretend that we were doing alright.


I had started to go back to school not too long after we caught Michael and Jess had enrolled herself as well, some how making sure a good portion of our classes were together. Whether or not it was for her comfort or for mine...I honestly couldn't tell you. A lot of our time was spent with red-eyed dazes and drunken minds, but I managed to keep my promise to Mir about us limiting anything sexual to a bare minimum. Most of the time we were too consumed in our own grief to think of such things. I was starting to wonder how long this pact would hold, especially when it got cold at night and I started to miss Mir's touch.


There had been no news from the doctors about a pregnancy or any complications from our past visits, and the nervous energy I had been drowning in had started to recede to a more manageable level. We had been starting to think we might even been in the clear, the only damage Michael leaving Mir with invisible to the naked eye.


And then Lori called.


She informed me that Mir had been locked in the bathroom for the past half hour, obviously having an attack, after going in to take one of her last pregnancy tests. It took all of my strength not to hang up my phone, to pretend I hadn't heard those words, and to go back to sleep. We had been so close. So fucking close. And now this... I could have tried to convince myself that the tests offered false positives all the time, but the certain dread I was suddenly hit with informed me not to bother with such silly notions. This was the real fucking deal. A new chapter in this fucking nightmare that had been the past month and a half.


Of course, I didn't let Lori know I was thinking any of this. Like the dutiful girlfriend I had been failing to be lately, I told her I was coming over. And here I was, racing down the freeway to get to the Hastings' apartment, towards my worst fear. What the hell had we done to deserve this? What had Mir done to deserve this? Any of this? How the fuck was any of this fair. Upon arrival, I took the stairs two at a time, nearly falling about half a dozen times before I finally reached the door to the officers' home. Lori quickly ushered me in and led me to the bathroom where Rosaline was still trying to practically break the door down. The sounds of Mir's rapid breathing and tears reached my ears between the bangs and once again I had to fight the urge to run.


Lori motioned for Rosaline to stop and with great effort, I made the short walk to the bathroom door. Leaning against it some, I twisted at the knob, that numbing dread threatening to suffocate me. "Mir...Let me in," I called in softly.

 

[Zotohxan]

((No you're fine... I'm sorry that you're having a bad day ;-; Did anything happen?))


The moment I hear Teag's voice my eyes go wide. I don't know why I hadn't expected them to call her... Maybe because we've been so distanced lately? I know everything is hard on her too, but... I just keep feeling like she simply doesn't want me anymore. But either way, I need her right now. Which is why I scramble up and to the door, throwing it open and wrapping my arms tightly around her, "Teag..." I choke out, sobbing too violently after to say anything more. I still clutch the test in my hand, now behind her back, as I use her for some sort of support.


Rosaline swallows hard, able to see the result on the out-turned test. She then looks to Lori and nods toward it, grabbing her wife's hand and squeezing it gently.

 

[Memster101]

(( Not particularly, just a lot of stuff adding up =/ ))


I jumped some when Mir practically tackled me, feeling her not so familiar arms wrap around me. I stumbled back a step but pulled her closer, smoothing my hand against her hair. A look at the two women's expression confirmed what I had been fearing and I hugged Mir closer to me, almost expecting to feel the thing inside of her move against my own stomach. "Hey...we'll make it through this," I promised her quietly, leaning our cheeks together. How long had it been since we'd held each other like this? With actual sincerity? It was...nice.


Lori squeezed at Rosaline's hand, chewing some at her lip. Clearly the other woman was just as nervous as the other girls.

 

[Zotohxan]

(( :/ Well, I hope today is going better for you!))


I can't stop crying... No matter how badly I want to, no matter how much I know I need to calm down, I can't. "I can't be pregnant..." I whimper, my words just barely audible through the broken sound of my voice. "I'm scared... I-I'm so... So scared..." I cling tighter to Teag, the sobs becoming more and more violent. "I'm sorry... I'm just.. I-I'm sorry..." I didn't know what to say. I know that I'm not to blame for what happened to me, but still. I feel as if it's my fault Teag and I have been so distant lately, that the hug we're sharing now is the most sincere one we've had in three weeks. I feel like me being pregnant is both the end of the world, and also the start of one. I know that if Teag and I can make it through this, we can make it through anything. But the question is... Can we make it through this?


Rosaline squeezes Lori's hand back, looking between the girls then at her wife. "We're going to give you two a few minutes, okay? We'll be just in the sitting room if you need us." She knows that before her and Lori are involved in any of this, Teag and I would need to talk. More specifically, I'd need to calm down.

 

[Memster101]

(( Thanks~ I'm trying ><* I feel like the might soon when school calms down a little!))


I nodded some as Lori and Rosaline retreated into the adjoining room, moving Mir and I into the bathroom to shut the door for some privacy. Slowly I sat down in front of the tub and shower unit, leaning back against the wall its basin. I drew Mir down with me, pulling her between my legs so she was leaning against me. How long would it be before we could easily do this? Before Mir became too...pregnant to be drawn down at any whim of mine? How long till I would have to start holding back her hair? My legs tucked around her now small form and I smoothed her hair.


"I am too," I told her, knowing that it would be an insult to her intelligence to argue otherwise. "But we're going to have to get really brave for the next nine months. It's not going to be easy- it might even make what we've been through look like a walk in the park, but we've got this..." I tried to encourage, trying to believe in my words as well. As I leaned back against the tub, I wondered how we would do this. That first week nearly tore us apart...what was nine months going to do?

 

[Zotohxan]

((Then I hope school can calm soon, because you deserve to start feeling better. -w- ))


I swallow hard and nod, the sobs not ceasing in the least. "You.. Don't have to stay with me..." I whimper, turning a bit to look at Teag, "If it's too much... If I'm too much. You don't have to b-bother with staying with me... I wa-want you to be happy,Teag... And if I can't make you happy anymore, I don't want you to s-suffer through staying with me." I bite my bottom lip, willing myself not to break down even more at the thought of no longer having Teag to help me through everything. "You need to t-take care of yourself, too..."

 

[Memster101]

(( Thanks e.e The same with you too! You're a lovely person who deserves to be happy~! ))


I nodded some, swallowing some at Mir's words as well. I knew this and the same had applied to her back during the beginning of our relationship. It still did honestly, but it hadn't been bad enough to cause too much of a debate before all of this. "I know...but that doesn't mean I'm not going to try and stick it out," I told her softly, brushing away some of her tears. I studied her face, my lips pursing some at the sadness I saw there. Even if her behavior lately was overwhelming to me, it didn't mean I still felt grief at seeing her tears. "That's all we can do, just try and make it through this as two whole people..."