Our Secrets ((GxG))

[Memster101]

((That's not to bad :3 I hate when you have writer's block though! ))


I looked at the two of them from the corner of my eyes, scrunching my nose some. Was Jess trying to annoy me? "Yeah. They're pretty nice and all," I agreed. I peered up through the windshield and grimaced some when I saw Dylan and Matt, with some of the other guys who'd gone after Mir. Sinking down in my seat some, I peered warily from behind the wheel. Mir would probably have to switch to home schooling with how bad her attacks were getting...I'd be all alone with them. Honestly I didn't expect them to try and attack me like they did Mir...but I knew that they wouldn't just let my stand up slide by without repercussions.


When Mir got moved out, I'd probably offer for Jess to come stay with me...at least until we got Michael in jail. Mir wouldn't like it but I was scared to be alone with how bad I was getting again. Aside from her, Jess was the only person I could turn to for help, and Mir needed to start focusing on getting herself better. My thoughts broke when I saw Matt look over here, stiffening in my seat when we caught eyes. The group nudged each other and smirked over at me. Some how I held back my fear and rolled my eyes in an exasperated expression, flipping them the bird. They laughed cruelly before walking back to the football field and I face palmed into the steering wheel, wondering if I could just drop out of school like Jess did.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Ugh, I know.. I want to start on another book ,but I don't really know what to do it about...))


I noticed Teag sinking down up front and I stiffened when I saw Matt and Dylan. "Shh, you're okay." Jess coos, one arm around my waist now while the other is on Teag's shoulder. "You're both okay. I assume those're the little fuck boys you told me about, Teag?" I felt my heart lurch- in a bad way- when Jess called her Teag... I hadn't heard anyone else call her Teag before. It was sort of my name for her. But, I guess that's just yet another thing I'll have to share with Jess when it comes to my girlfriend, huh?


After a few moments she pulls back and just wraps both her arms around me, causing me to tense up. "What.. Are you doing?" I ask, my voice a bit breathy from nervousness. No one holds me this close except Teag... "I'm hugging you.. It's what people do when they want to comfort one another." Jess chuckles, then leans forward and kisses right behind my ear, making my breath catch in my throat. In a way I'm too afraid to pull away. "Stop..." I whimper, but she just places another kiss right below that. She lifts her eyes, meeting Teag's in the rear view mirror. "I'm just comforting you." She says, her fingers starting to make little absentminded patterns along my stomach. "Just relax."


Jess remembered that it was in a way very similar to this she'd seduced Teag for the first time... And she was using that to her advantage. Especially after seeing the flush on my cheeks, knowing that even though I didn't want to, I was enjoying how she made me feel... At least a bit, under the fear. "Please stop..." I whisper, but she just presses on my stomach, making me gasp.

 

[Memster101]

(( Hmm >> Maybe do just a few short stories?))


I stiffened further when I saw Jess start to kiss Mir and narrowed my eyes some. "Hey, I'm uncultured. Cut that out before I beat you," I grumbled, turning around to look at the two. It wasn't even the fact Jess was messing with Mir, it was the fact that was enjoying it. I stepped out of the car, throwing the back door open, and yanked Jess out by a fistful of her shirt. When she was out, I used the momentum of the movement to shove her against the side of the car. Drawing her close and down to my level by the front of her shirt, I glowered at her.


"What the fuck was that?" I asked her, pushing her back against the car some,not to gently. "Why are you touching her like that?" My lips pulled back some to show my teeth and I gritted them some. "I should tear you a new one."

 

[Zotohxan]

((But I don't know what to wriiiitteee x'D


It'll probably just end up with me writing 10+ story ideas and going on them as far as I can, then abandoning them for all eternity... That's what usually happens. >w>))


When Teag first started yelling I started to get scared. I tried again to pull myself away from Jess but she wouldn't have it, and started nipping at my ear lobe. However, when Teag storms out of the car and pulls Jess out by her shirt, I'm left sitting in the back seat, staring at them in what might as well be horror.


Jess, however, just starts to laugh. "Teag, baby... You know what you're feeling right now? How betrayed, shocked, angry you feel? That's what Miranda feels every time she knows you're with me... Because she knows what we're probably doing." She then turns her head to look at me and speaks a bit louder so I could hear her through the car, "And Miranda, if this doesn't prove that even though Teagan can get moody and distant that she still loves you and wants to protect you, I don't know what will." She then easily gets out of Teag's hold, then just puts her hand on my girlfriend's shoulder.


"You two didn't talk this morning, am I right? Well, I just decided to be the middle man in all this and take the active approach of showing both of you what you were supposed to talk through." She shrugs, then walks around the car and sits in the passenger seat, looking back at me with a sly smile. "And you also know now how hard it'd be for Teagan to say no to me... So cut her some slack about me getting her in the sack."


If I weren't so shocked and upset at the moment, I'd probably laugh at her pun.

 

[Memster101]

(( Niiice and what the hell xD The site totally auto corrected my curse! >< Suppose to be the c word >> ))


I narrowed my eyes at Jess, even if she had been doing me a favor, still fairly agitated. To be honest with myself, I was glad that I hadn't had to beat up on her. I wasn't sure that I'd have been able to stay conscious, or hurt myself in the process. "You're a fucking bitch," I muttered at her through the car, pulling out my pack of cigarettes. Moving to the hood of the car, I took a seat and lit a smoke, trying to calm myself down. It might have helped the situation, but I was too worked up, sick, and exhausted to be too thankful for it at the moment. Mir and I could have worked things out in the end without her having to go to that extreme.


Bringing one of my feet onto the bumper, I rested an elbow on it and put my head in that hand while the other dangled beside my other leg. God my head hurt, everything hurt. I hurt. Flicking the burnt up bits off the end of my cigarette, I rolled it between my fingers. How long would it take before Mir and Jess got distracted with each other again? How long before I could press the ember-ed end against my skin without them taking much notice? I hoped it was soon, I knew I couldn't hold out much longer before I started to breakdown.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Aha, yeah.. It doesn't come through to me that way, but that's what you see is the "I'm uncultured" thing.. It does it with f-ag too >.>))


Jess and I stay in silence for a few moments before I decide to get out and walk to the front of the car with Teag. Somehow I knew she was going to do something bad.. So instead of saying anything when I get to her, I just wrap my arms around her waist, staying clear of the cigarette, and place a small kiss on her lips. "I love you." I say firmly, my fingers brushing along her hips gently. "I love you more than anything, Teag." I kiss her lips again, "Don't ever forget that, okay?"


Out of the corner of my eye I see Jess smiling at us, but I don't linger long on that, or the fact she has jealousy in her eye. I focus instead on my girlfriend, the love of my life. "We're going to get through all of this... Okay?" I bite my bottom lip, hoping she doesn't get upset with me for trying to talk again. "I don't care what it takes... We'll get through it."

 

[Memster101]

(( For weird >> That's kind of funny though xD ))


I jumped some when Mir came, wrapping her arms around me. I was even more shocked when she kissed me, but managed to return it some, setting my free arm around her waist. "I know we will...and I love you too," I murmured, being careful not to burn her. Gently, I kissed her again, taking comfort in the feeling of her lips on mine, her arms around me once more. This was where I belonged. No matter how hard things got, in her arms was home. I just wished there was some way I could hold back the onslaught of emotions that were building up, to prevent them from spilling over. Not even for myself, but for Mir and Jess. They already had so much on their plates...


Rubbing softly at Mir's hip, I took a drag of the cigarette and hid my face back into my hand. "I don't know if I'll be able to help much for the move... I'll come to the station though or at least talk to Lori and Rosaline with you..." I pursed my lips some against the tears that were threatening to come, pinching the bridge of my nose hard. Why couldn't I hold it together long enough to help get Mir through this? I needed to be able to be strong for her, to be strong for us.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Very true x3))


I shake my head and smile a bit sadly up at Teag, "It's okay... You need to focus on you right now... With all the stuff going on in my head, I don't think I'll be able to help you very well through what's going on in yours... But, Jess can." I swallow hard, hating that I'm sitting here telling my girlfriend to spend even more time with the girl who has- as much as I hate to admit it- incredibly skilled hands... And lips. I know there's no way it'll stay innocent...


"All I ask is that we talk... That.. We don't shut each other out..." I feel tears in my eyes as I see the ones in hers, "Even.. If you have sex with her, or get high, or whatever... Talk to me about it, please..? It makes me feel better about it all if you tell me, rather than me finding out by the marks she left on you, or getting a butt dial...." I sniffle, hating the weakness I felt. I don't think I've ever expressed to Teag just how much it hurts that she does all that with Jess, but that it hurts even worse when she doesn't tell me... But now I have, and hopefully it'll make things a bit easier.

 

[Memster101]

(( xD Yeah. >> Oy, I have the opportunity to go to this pride center Halloween thing but I'd be going alone >> ))


I nodded some, giving a hard sniff to rid myself of the tears momentarily and to free my hand to press back against Mir's hip. "I'll see if she wants to come over after we all talk to Lori and Rosaline," I murmured, giving it a light squeeze. "I can try and promise we won't have sex...I think if I really ask for her to lay off about it, she'll respect it...." Timidly, I slid my hand up under shirt to rest on her waist, just needing to touch her. "I'll call you, or I guess let you know when I see you or text you when anything happens..."


Swallowing some, I took another drag and flicked off the burnt ends again. "I was thinking of asking her to stay with me at the house. Or I'd go be with her...at least until Michael is in jail. You'll be safe with Hastings and hopefully that'll keep both Jess and I safe... I'm not sure how long it'll take them to do that though." I sighed and put my head back in my hand, careful not to singe my forehead with the cigarette as I did so.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Pssh, go alone! Rock it! Meet you some fine ass people!


<,<Because that's how pep talks work, right?))


I follow Teag's lead to slip my hand under her shirt, onto her waist. I knew she needed the skin-on-skin contact to help her calm down, and truth be told, I did too... I'm thankful she'll at least try not to have sex with Jess... But, it's true. I do know now how hard it'd be to say no to her. I always thought Teag was exaggerating when I'd see Jess' effects, or when she'd try to explain it to me... But now I know she wasn't. That serves a little to clear my mind and make me less upset about it all, but then again, it almost makes me more upset... If Jess would respect it now, why hadn't Teag told her to lay off before?


I shake those thoughts then nod to what she says, "I'd rather you stay at your house... I-I feel like that'd be safer, especially with your parents there..." I wanted to add 'and if I need you I know where to go,' but then remembered how we'd decided we need space... "Can I..." I take in a deep breath, not knowing if I'd be able to handle it if she denies this request. "Can I at least call you every night to say goodnight? After Rosaline and Lori find out about Matt and the guys, I don't know if they'll let me go back to school here until they're taken care of... And considering our school system, I may not be back for awhile... And if I don't get to see you at least at school, I'd like to hear your voice at least once a day..."

 

[Memster101]

(( I think so xD If I was looking to hook up xD Which part of me wouldn't mind doing ^^* I guess I can always leave if I feel too awkward >> ))


I felt my skin break out in goose bumps at Mir's familiar touch and leaned into it, turning to rest my forehead on her chest. "Of course....But, babe...I don't know if I can have you telling them about Matt and the guys," I murmured, pulling back a little to look up at her. Searching her face, I wondered how much she recalled of the event and all that had happened around it. "I-I...I attacked Matt, when he came at me. That pocket knife I always keep on me? I threatened to kill him with it and cut him some- that's why they left." My breath started to left me in short bursts.


"They'll press charges if they get confronted about it..." I pressed my face to her chest, pulling her closer with the hand that was under her shirt. "I-I..I don't know if it'll cause repercussions for me..." It was selfish of me to ask her to do this...but How could I protect her if I was in custody?

 

[Zotohxan]

((Lol xD Just go and meet good people! ^-^ The anime club at my old school and some cool people. I actually made a friend at the Halloween party a couple years ago. -w-))


I bite my bottom lip and nod, "Okay... I won't tell them, then." I was honestly a bit nervous myself to even think about coming back to school with Matt and his gang, but... I knew I'd have to. I couldn't just skip if I want to get into any sort of decent college after high school, plus, I'll kinda need that as my only time with Teag... So I'll put up with it, and whatever happens, happens.


I hadn't realized when Jess got out of the car, but by the next second, she was standing right beside us. "Ya know... Maybe I could enroll here? I know I look about y'all's age, so maybe I'd fit in... Plus, I deal for enough people here they know not to mess with me, and the word'll probably spread around. Then if I hang out with you two; boom. Instant psychological protection." She grins widely, as if she'd just had the greatest idea. And while to me it'd seem she was probably just worried about Teag and wanting to keep her safe, my girlfriend would almost positively know her ulterior motive was that she wanted to actually graduate high school...

 

[Memster101]

(( That's cool! I'm so shy it's painful though so who knows how long I'll actually stay xD It's an excuse to get dressed up though I suppose :3 ))


"I don't want you coming unless you have to...I know it's going to be hard for you in general...maybe you should just do online schooling?" I suggested, starting some when Jess came out. I scooted over some on the car so Jess could sit as well, passing the cigarette over to her. Inwardly, a smile stretched across my lips at her excuse for coming back into school with us. "That could work..." I agreed with Jess, pulling Mir between my legs and wrapped my know free arm around her as I tried to cuddle her some.


"If you feel like mentioning it to Lori and Rosaline, go ahead if it'll make you feel better...I'm sure they can find a loop hole or something," I murmured to Mir, chewing at my lip. I was scared about allowing this, but Mir needed to do what was best for her and if that was this...

 

[Zotohxan]

((Yes! Very much so! ^-^))


I cuddle back against Teag, over my shock of Jess suddenly appearing, then smile up at my girlfriend. "I won't tell them. If anything, I'll find a way to catch them at something else and report it to the principal... Maybe they'll get at least suspended or something?" I then turn to look at Jess, "Why would you want to come back to high school, though..? I mean... You couldn't possibly miss all the horrid people?" I bite my bottom lip, not really sure how she'd react.


Knowing that I'm unaware of her dropout status, Jess just shrugs, "I dropped out of high school my freshman year. It'd be nice to get to come back, plus, you two could totally use someone behind you to kick someone's ass if needed." She winks at us then leans back against the car, taking a puff off the cigarette and letting the smoke just blow straight above us. Just then Teag's cell phone rings with a text message notification from Lori.

 

[Memster101]

(( :3 Occasionally I like to dress up girly, I'm not as uncomfortable with it as I use to be >> ))


I smiled some when Mir let me pull her close, resting my chin on her shoulder. "Some people like to go for the education and not just all of the tail you can get," I mused lightly, watching the smoke dissipate in the cool winter air. It was then that I felt my phone buzz and pulled it out, reading through the text. "Lori says that she and Rosaline should be here in about ten or so minutes," I informed mainly Mir. Looking over to Jess, I clarified, "Those are the officers I was telling you about. The ones Mir is going to stay with."


I sent off a quick reply to the officer, letting her know that we would be there and that we had some information concerning Mir's case. "Oh, to make sure that you aren't going around Michael, do you want to come spend some time at my house? It'll be safer- for both of us that way," I informed her, making sure that she knew it wasn't an option to say no.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Same here. I'm glad you can feel better about wearing that sort of stuff now! ^-^))


I nod to Teag about the officers being on their way, then look at Jess."Why do you always try and have sex with Teag?" ....Okay... That wasn't near what I'd meant to ask. But, now that I think about it, it's a valid question. I've never had the chance to ever really talk to Jess before, and Teag's never told me why, so...


"Well.. 'Cause I like her." Jess shrugs, taking another drag off the cigarette before stomping it out on the ground. "She's hot, fun, smart.. Who wouldn't like her?" I feel myself growing possessive over my girlfriend as I put my arms over hers that are around my waist. "But... She has a girlfriend? Doesn't that mean anything?" I notice the brunette beside us getting a mischievous glint in her eye before she pushes herself off the car and stands directly in front of me. She pushes her front against mine, making my breath catch in my throat, then snakes her arms around so that they're resting on Teag's hips. She then looks between us, biting her bottom lip. "Well.. Maybe that was my plan all along? To get both of you worked up, alone.." She leans down and runs her tongue along my jaw, making a shiver run down my spine as I try to push myself more into Teag. "I've always wanted to try it with three instead of two." She then leans past me, her body pushing firmly against mine as she bites Teag's bottom lip and tugs gently before releasing it. "And maybe I want you two to be my little testers."

 

[Memster101]

((Yeaah :3 I'm still not Uber confident but oh well xD And Jess, oh lord xDD))


My annoyance spikes again as Jess starts to harass Mir again and tugged her away from the elder girl and more against me. Of course this only resulted in her being sandwiched between us when Jess bit at my lip and I felt an angry, but bothersome flush come to my cheeks. "You've been in a threesome," I muttered, shaking my head some as I tightened my grip around Mir. I'd have been lying if the prospect of something along those lines with the two girls dearest to me didn't...excite me some.


I freed one of my arms to push Jess away some from Mir, crossing my legs in front of her hips and my arms lightly over her chest. A few people had glanced over at us and I shot them a fiery glare, my cheeks heating up even more.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Well I hope you can get more confidence back soon -w-


And yes. I'm having way too much fun with her x'D))


Jess pouts then walks forward again, "Awh, c'mon. You both like the idea, don't you?" I glance back at Teag then lower my head. It didn't necessarily appeal to me, but... It also didn't disgust me. Which kind of disgusted me.... Conflicting? Yes. "I-I.." I bite my bottom lip, realizing I had absolutely no response. Honestly... After what happened to me, by Jess' brother, I should really be screaming and cursing at her. But I'm not... And it's really weird, and making my head feel weird.


"See?" Jess teases, pushing herself against me again despite Teag's 'blockade', then reaching around to firmly grab my girlfriend's butt. "I know you want it too, Teagan~" My eyes wonder over several people who are watching us- mostly men- and my cheeks flame up horribly. "C-Can you stop..? Everyone is watching us..." I actually hear someone wolf whistle at us, and that just makes the older girl laugh.

 

[Memster101]

((I can tell xD it's always nice to have a character like that to just kind of have something different than the one you're playing :3))


I blinked when Mir didn't exactly protest the idea and looked at the back of her head curiously. I glared some at Jess as she pressed the matter and grabbed my butt, tightening my grip on Mir so I didn't fall off of the car. I braced my feet against Jess' hips, trying to push her away. "Come on Jess, you've had your fun. You're making Mir uncomfortable now," I told her, pushing against her stomach now.


"Plus Lori and Rosaline will be here soon." I shot another glare at the people who had started to watch us, giving them a middle finger. "You can continue your harassment another time. I'm too tired to try and beat you up. "

 

[Zotohxan]

((Yeah, I agree. ^-^))


Jess just laughs and backs up, putting her hands up in mock surrender, still looking over both of us with lust in her eyes. I'd thought she was just joking around or trying to get to us, but.. Apparently not. "Um.. Yeah.." I mutter, lowering my head. Jess chuckles again then moves to lean against the car's hood once more, "So what're you two doing? Just gonna talk to the cops outside the school here?" She quirks an eyebrow, seeming to put up some sort of wall behind the emotion behind her eyes. I'd assume it's because she doesn't like cops...


Just then their red car pulls into the parking lot and they park right beside us, both getting out and giving Teag and I small smiles, while giving confused looks to Jess. "This is Jess," I say softly, "Jess, this is Rosaline and Lori..." I wasn't sure why I was doing the introductions exactly, but apparently I was... Rosaline smiles a be more genuinely now and walks forward, offering her hand. "Nice to meet you, Jess." She then turns the curious gaze on my girlfriend and I, "We'd assumed it'd just be us three for our talk?"

 

[Memster101]

((Agreed ^^ Oy five KS are boring ><))


A sigh escaped me when Jess finally backed up andsettled back against the car, leaving my arms around Mir's waist. "Pretty much. The original plan was to go and get some of Mir's stuff, then go back to their place to go over their rules and such. But that's obviously not happening today,"I informed Jess. "And relax, they're pretty mellow as cops go." I straightened up some when thewomen arrived, glancing Jess over to make sure she was suitable.


Thankfully, the officers seemed to accept Jess' presences, though we're still confused by it. Glancing at Mir, I wondered if I shouldinform them of what we had just learned or if she would. After a moment or two of waiting, I decided to. "The reason Jess is here, is becae Mir saw her attacker -or at least a person who looks like him. Jess was with him and..." I looked to the elder girl, wondering if she'd continue.

 

[Zotohxan]

((What are five KS? O.o ))


I stiffen and lower my head at the mention of my attacker again... I was starting to feel the panic crawling up me and clawing at my throat, but I desperately try to beat it down. Teag and I are finally alright for a moment... I don't want to ruin it by having another panic attack. Jess looks over at the two of us and lets out a silent sigh before pulling out her phone with slightly shaky fingers, swiping through a few things before pulling up a picture that looks like a mug shot; and is no doubt the man who'd attacked me... The one I saw her with today. After seeing the picture I abruptly turn and hide my face against Teag's chest, trembling.


"His name is Micheal..." She takes in a deep breath, "He's my brother... And even though I wish I could say it's totally uncharacteristic of him and impossible that he's the one who hurt Miranda," She bites her bottom lip, obviously trying to calm herself before continuing. "He's been raping girls for at least fourteen years." She refuses to look at Teag or I now. While I was oblivious to the reason, it was because she'd never told Teag that he'd started doing such things to her when she was only seven, he was 15.

 

[Memster101]

((Running things >> Like marathons. It's only like 3 or so miles butmy mom did one and my dad and I were waiting for her >< ))


I stiffened some as Mir began to tremble, knowing that the storm was coming again. I held her though when she turned her face into my chest, rubbing her back gently. Instantly I felt bad for turning the attention onto Jess when I saw her struggling and took her free hand, squeezing it gently. Lori took the phone when it was offered, studying the photo for a few moments as we listened to Jess speak. She gave the phone back after assumingly sending it to herself and Rosaline.


My eyes widened some when Jess announcedhow long Michael had been active. She'd never told me the exact time when her brother had started to molest her and doing the math... God... I squeezed her hand, pressing my lips against the emotions I felt.

 

[Zotohxan]

((Ooooh, okay. That makes sense. ;w; ))


Jess still doesn't look over at us, and I don't even notice. In fact, I don't notice anything going on around us at the moment. I'm just trying my hardest to keep my breathing steady, and to not pass out from another attack... I think I'm doing well so far, but I just don't know how long it'll last. "I can give you our address, but I don't know if he'd be home yet. We were at the park for the majority of the day, and when I left him, that's still where he was."


"Thank you, and I'll be right back, okay?" Rosaline says softly, pulling out her phone and walking a few feet away before pulling it to her ear and making a call. Presumably to the station to let them know about this lead. After a few more minutes I'm finally able to pull back from Teag. I stay in her arms of course, but I'm able to look at her. And when I do, I just know that my expression is one of shock and disbelief. "I made it go away..." I whisper.

 

[Memster101]

(( Yeah >< I'm home now though. Hopefully by myself soon >< Everyone is so noisy and my head's hurting pretty bad ))


I watched the exchange between the officers, continuing to hold Mir close and rub at Jess' hand to try and comfort them both. When they walked away, I focused on keeping myself calm, figuring I could break down later when Jess and I went back to my place. Mir broke me out of my thoughts though when she looked up at me and I blinked some at her announcement, widening my eyes. Maybe this was progress...I knew over time things would get better, but so soon? I couldn't wait to see how therapy would help her. "That's good," I murmured back, offering a slight smile. I kissed her forehead, giving her back an encouraging rub.


I looked back at Jess, letting go of her hand for a moment to tap her chin so she'd look at me. "How're you holding up?" I asked her softly, my face soft and worried. She looked like she was having a rough time, no doubt knowing she'd have to reaccount her own history with Michael when he was brought in. Gently, I cupped her cheek, smoothing my thumb over her skin. "What can I do to help?