Love sick

[Lexus]

Jayden blinked in response to her rant and cleared his throat. "I'm not trying to argue with you Alyssa." He says throwing up his hands in defeat. "If you would quit being so stubborn you would see I'm trying to help you. They're not going to come after you because i never asked for you to pay for the kids in the first place. I'm sorry all this has happened to you, I really truly am but you have no idea how beyond frustrated I am with you. I didn't want to leave you Alyssa, I had to you had already made your choice and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I don't know why you did what you did but you did and I caught you, do you have any idea what that was like? To watch you look at another man the way you're supposed to look at me? To watch you do things with another man that is only supposed to happen between married couples. Alyssa, you hurt me. Can't you see that? I understand what I did to you was wrong but I was trying to fix it and you didn't have faith in me. It's my biggest regret and not something I can take back."

 

[isax]

"Well I guess we both have a biggest regret." Alyssa said as she sighed and turned to leave. "I've told you plenty of times Jayden that I was sorry and I know sorry isn't enough but there's nothing else i can do. I know I hurt you. Why do you think I'm trying so hard to not tell you anything? Now that you know everything you're going to try and help and in the end I'll just screw up again and hurt you. It's not something I want to happen again. Just find another girl so you can forget about me already." Alyssa told him as she sighed. "I'll be at the house Saturday to pick up the kids. I promised them a movie." She added and walked out. She didn't want to talk about this anymore. In all honesty, she was so alone and the regret was eating her alive. She really just wanted this to be the last time she saw the world. She wanted the cancer to grow and kill her, but she couldn't let it. She had her kids she needed to be there for.


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[Lexus]

Jayden sighed when he watched her walk off. As much as he wanted to let go and let her deal with this on her own he couldn't. He loved her and he couldn't just sit back and watch her die, he wasn't capable. Running after her he reached for her hand. "Please, let me help you, it won't turn into anything, I just need my kids to have their mother, I can't let them go through what I did. If it's the last thing you let me do I would be grateful." She knew how important it was to him that their kids have their mother and if history repeated itself he would never get over it.

 

[isax]

Alyssa sighed as she felt his hand holding hers and when he finished, she pulled her hand away and looked at him. "I'll be fine. The kids will still have me. I'm not going anywhere but I don't need your help." She told him as she smiled a weak and fake smile. "Go be happy again Jayden and don't worry about me." She told him and walked off again. She didn't need his help, well she didn't want it. Her stubbornness always won.


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[Lexus]

Jayden walked away from her completely and utterly frustrated. When he got to Alex and Sadie's for once he took the beer Alex offered him. "She's so fucking stubborn he drives me crazy." He mutters to his friend.

 

[isax]

Alex sighed as he shook her head. "She's just going through a rough time Jayden. I know why she refuses to let you help and well, Id do the same thing. If she says she can do it, have faith in her." He told him and took a swig of his beer.


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[Lexus]

Jayden sighed and nodded at his friend he was right. He need to let Alyssa do things on her own for once, it was going to be hard since he was used to taking care of her for so long. He really hoped she would be okay, that she would get well and find someone to make her happy, she deserved that after everything he had been through despite what she did. "I just don't understand it." He says butting his lip. "Why would she do something so stupid?"

 

[isax]

"To make you hate her." Alex whispered as he looked at his friend and sighed. "She talked with me after it. She wanted to have faith you would fix things but she said while things may have seemed happy, but she said she always felt regret about having Matthew. Jayden she said you didn't deserve her. She said you wouldn't touch her and you wouldn't talk to her when alone. She hurt you the first time and as time went by, she hurt you a second time so you would leave her. She was being stupid." Alex said as he shook his head.


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[Lexus]

Jayden felt sick to his stomach when he heard the truth. She set herself up to lose him? Who did that? That's not what he wanted. He wanted to fix things between them and he was reaching the point where he felt comfortable with her again. "Damn it." Jayden mutters under his breathe in frustration. "I was just trying to fix things." He whispered to himself but knee his friend head his desperation. "

 

[isax]

"I know." Alex whispered as he sighed and shook his head and looked at Jayden. "She'll be okay Jayden. She wants you to be happy again but with someone else. This was her choice Jay." He whispered and patted his friend shoulder knowing he didn't want to hear anything now about it being Alyssa's choice.


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[Lexus]

"Everything has to be Alyssa's choice he says with a sarcastic laugh, he knew they all just wanted him to be happy but he just couldn't see himself ever get over her, he still has trouble believing they were no longer married and it had been over s year since they separated.letting out a defeated sigh he turned to his friend. "I never thought it would end this way but I can't change if." He had to come to terms with that fact. "

 

[isax]

Alex looked at his friend sadly and nodded. "Nobody thought it would end this way Jay. You'll be okay and so will she." He said reassuringly until he heard the phone ring. Alyssa was being rushed to the hospital. Liquid build up in her lungs again. Sadie and Alex told Jayden but told him to stay. "We'll go. You stay with the kids." Alex told him.


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[Lexus]

Jayden was in no mood to argue so he simply agreed with yet another defeated sigh. When they left and the kids were asleep he broke, he did that s lot but no one ever knew or saw it, he put on a strong face for the kids and his friends so no one would worry but he truthfully still blamed himself for all of this. If he never would have made her feel so alone none of this would have ever happened and they would be living the life they were supposed to, together forever.

 

[isax]

Alyssa was so scared this time around she wouldn't make it and sadly, the doctor thought so too. She was unconscious and all she thought about was Jayden and their family. She missed them all so much especially Jayden, but she ruined it all herself. She wanted it like this because Jayden deserved so much more. He was right. She pushed him to have an amazing career but then wished he hadn't gotten it. Alex knew things weren't going good for Alyssa so he left to switch with Jayden. "She needs you. They think she won't make it out of this one." He whispered sadly but when Arabella heard, she looked at her father. "Daddy? What's wrong with mommy?" She asked.


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[Lexus]

Jayden immeadatly jumped up at the news but when Bella stopped him he sighed. "Mommy's sick princess." He wasn't going to lie to his daughter. "But don't worry daddy will make her all better okay?" He says before walking off but to their surprise he didn't walk off to her room. Instead he walked off to an office where he then changed. This is where he spent his time on the weekends. Taking care of the Cancer patients just as he had when his mom died but this time around he was doctor. Putting on his official whote coat he grabbed her chart and walked into her room where he made the appropriate change to her dosages. It was dangerous but hopefully it would work. His colleagues thought he was often crazy but they leaned not to question him, he was very smart and had yet to lose a patient and he wasn't about to make Alyssa his first. Leaving the room he went to make a phone call. When Landen was born he had them save some of his cord blood cells for this purpose. He walkways feared her Cancer would come back and it was proven these cells often times worked. Within an hour he had implanted them with the written consent of her mother of course now that he didn't have such authority. Nu this time they were all still in shock. Jayden had never told anyone where he went on the weekends and that's because he felt they didn't need to know. Too many people thought he was a life saver when in reality to him he was just doing his job,

 

[isax]

Alyssa's mother hadn't talked to Alyssa since the divorce but she couldn't lose her daughter. Not like she lost her husband. Everyone in that room watched Jayden work. "Jayden she won't make it." Ome said as they watched but everyone told him to leave if he was so negative. Soon Alyssa regained consious but she began to cough and cough. She coughed up blood and when she finished, she looked at the ceiling. When she saw Jayden, she slowly raised her hand to touch his face. She felt like she wouldn't make it. "I'm sorry,for... Everything." She said coughing in between. "I love you...." She whispered before she faded back out again and her arm fell to the side. Everyone watched Jayden for a reaction but when he continued to work, they knew he wasn't about to lose Alyssa.


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[Lexus]

He really wasn't going to lose her, he meant what he said about his kids not losing their mother like he had. With a team of medical professionals now breathing down his neck he paid them no mind they weren't the first to watch him in such fascination. To him this was life and death and it was person. "Come on Alyssa." He says as he infused the last of the cells and uped her oxygen intake while decreasing her high chemo dosage. This would make or brake his career. If he lost her she would be the first and he would hang up his coat for good.

 

[isax]

Everyone watched and suddenly, things began to look better. Even Alyssa herself looked full of life again. Her breathing went stable and everyone let out a sigh of relief. "You're one hell of a doctor." One of the members from the team said as everyone cleaned up and Alyssa was given her own room. She would be okay. That was reassuring news alone to everyone.b


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[Lexus]

Even though she was awake Jayden's work wasn't finished. He really didn't want to put her on the transplant list because he knew it wouldn't last. She had a better chance if she kept her own and made then stronger. Speaking with a team over the phone he arranged for more cell infusions that would have to be taken from laden but they would be harmless to him. As always Jayden paid the costs and while she was resting he had her blood transfusion scheduled. When she came back from that he explained to her mom what he had arranged and then went to check on her despite his continuous praise from the mind blown medical team he had a patient who needed him and all that mattered was she was going to be alright.

 

[isax]

After the blood transfusion, Alyssa slowly began to wake up and when she saw Jayden, she smiled a weakly smile. "Thank you." She whispered to him and patted the spot on the bed next to her for him to sit at. She held his hand tight and put her other arm over her face as she began to cry. "I really thought this time it was over. I was so scared I wouldn't see the kids anymore." Alyssa said between her cries. She couldn't do this. She broke like she did by herself. He was the only one she could ever break with.


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[Lexus]

Jayden felt bad when he saw her cry. He wanted to reach out to her but he didn't want her to think it was just for show. "You're going to be fine. A promise is a promise." He says with a faint smile referring to the one he made all those years ago.

 

[isax]

"Why?" Alyssa whispered. "Why after everything I did. Jayden you're supposed to hate me. If you don't then it didn't work." She said referring to her set up. She didn't know if he knew or not but that didn't matter. She should've died. Jayden should've not saved. He should've just left her to die but he didn't.

 

[Lexus]

Jayden sighed and turned to Alyssa. "Alyssa, no matter what you do I could never hate you." Jayden answered honestly. "Your the mother of my kids, it's unconditional love. So it's pointless to try to push me away because I'll always be here." He wasn't going to discuss this anymore with her right now she was far too exhausted. Getting up from the bed he let go of her hand. "When you're released Sadie and Alex agreed to let you stay with them and next week I'll start bringing Landen in for the fusions."

 

[isax]

Alyssa looked over at Jayden and sighed a soft sigh. "Thank you Jayden." She whispered as she slowly began to fall asleep but with her cheeks stained with tears. She was extremely exhausted and honestly, she shouldn't have lived. She felt bad for Landen about the transfusions but Jayden refused to put Alyssa on the transplant list. He knew best so Alyssa didn't argue anymore.


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[Lexus]

Jayden nodded in satisfaction as he watched her succumb to her slumber. She would be alright and that's what was important the kids would have their mother. Exiting the room he walked back over to their friends and her mom. "I'll release her in the morning but I need you to keep a close eye on her and make sure she rests. She's too weak right now to try anything." He hoped she wouldn't cause them trouble with her stubbornness.