Love sick

[isax]

Sadie and Alex couldn't help but laugh. "We'll try our hardest Jay but you know her better then all of us. She won't rest." Alex said and Sadie sighed but nodded. Her husband was right. To Alyssa there was no such thing as rest. Alyssa's mom smiled at the three and then she looked at Jayden. "Thank you for saving her Jayden." She whispered. No matter what she still considered Jayden her son.


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[Lexus]

Jayden turned to her mother with a blank face. "It's my job." He answers simply but he couldn't help but crack s smile when she did. "You're welcome." He says in whisper before he took her into a hug. It was unfortunate things had to be this way. Pulling away he cleared his throat when his eyes rested on s familiar face, Matthew. Without saying anything further Jayden took his leave and walked in the other direction. Even though he was now nothing more than a doctor who oversaw her care it was hard for him to watch someone else be there with her. It wasn't something he was used to.

 

[isax]

Alyssa honestly didn't want Matthew there. She didn't know why he was there and she requested for him to not be allowed in the room. Everyone just watched him but when he left, Sadie and Alex sighed. "Why was he here?" Sadie asked and Alex shrugged. "I know Alyssa hasn't talked to him." Alex told her but when Jayden left everyone sighed.


The next day, when Alyssa was released, she tried so hard to get Alex and Sadie to take her to her house but they wouldn't budge. When she was at her friends house, she stayed locked up in her room and refused to leave for days. She didn't like this. She knew everyone was upset with her so they didn't see why they tried so hard to make sure she would be alright.


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[Lexus]

When she didn't come out Jayden was sent for reinforcement. He let out s sigh, he really wasn't trying to be where she didn't want him but she needed closer. Knocking on the door he waited for her to open it. "Alyssa open the door, we need to talk." He calls through the door when she didn't open it.

 

[isax]

Alyssa stayed looking at the wall even when Jayden came knocking on the door. "It's fine Jayden." she called out as she yawned from exhaustion and sat up as she looked in the mirror. She wasn't herself. She knew that. She screwed everything up for herself and now the regret was eating her out alive. She didn't want to talk with anyone but when she heard Landen call out to her, she immediately opened the door and carried him close. She loved her children. They were her only motivation for living.

 

[Lexus]

"Alyssa please, you have got to talk to someone, it doesn't have to be me but you can't live like this. So you made a mistake, you're human it happens. Please know that you deserve to live your life, I forgive you Alyssa." It was the truth but more importantly he knew she needed to hear it. It would help her cope. "If you can't do it for yourself do it for your kids. They don't need to remember their mom like this, they deserve to see the woman their father fell in love with. The selfless, caring kind woman we all knew. Can you do that for them?"

 

[isax]

When Alyssa heard this, she tried so hard not to cry. She needed to hear this but when Landen wrapped his arms around his mothers neck, she kissed his cheek. "I love you baby boy." Alyssa whispered as she let out a sigh and looked at Jayden. "She isn't around anymore." she told him, referring to who she used to be. She wished it could be so easy to just be herself but she couldn't. When Landen left to go with his sister to play, Alyssa let out a sigh. "You don't have to forgive me you know? I know what I did was wrong and stupid and you deserve way better Jayden. Thank you though." she whispered.

 

[Lexus]

Jayden shook his head. "You don't get it Alyssa. I'm forgiving you because there's no reason to hold a grudge. What happened happened and yes it was wrong but you had your reasons. You just need to let it go and move on. You have two beautiful children who need their mother and if she's not careful she'll miss out on so much because she's too caught up in the past."

 

[isax]

"You don't understand how hard it is to move on from a mistake you can never fix. You wouldn't understand and I don't expect you too." Alyssa whispered as she heaved a sigh and tried not to cry. "I can't go back to being myself because I just can't seem to find that girl anymore. I'll always be caught up in the past and I don't know how to just let it go." she added as she saw their kids playing. She smiled a bright smile as she saw Landen pick up a football. "Just like his father. They'll grow up to be great kids but when they know the truth Jayden, nothing will be the same." she whispered before she walked down the stairs to play with them. She didn't want to talk about this right now.

 

[Lexus]

Jayden sighed, he would never be able to convince her she wasn't a horrible person and that broke his heart. He felt horrible for it, he should have never went through with the divorced she filed but if what Alex said was true then it was possible it wouldn't have worked out in the end. He thought she was happy but he guessed he was wrong. The fact that he knew there was nothing he could do drove him crazy, he had many sleepless nights until he met someone. She did the impossible, she made him realize he could love other people but he knew it would never be like Alyssa but he needed to move on for his own good and hopefully him moving on wouldn't hurt Alyssa too much he often worried what it would do to her and he felt guilty.

 

[isax]

Alyssa tried her hardest to move on with her life but she just couldn't bring herself to do so. She knew about Jayden and his new love but she tried to not let it affect her. She just wanted to die now but she would never tell a soul. When she went to drop off the kids, she noticed she was there. The minute Arabella and Landen ran into her arms was the moment Alyssa regretted every decision she made. The fact that the kids looked like they loved her more was enough to break her terribly. Alyssa gave them goodbye kisses and ignored Jayden completely as she left. Things shouldn't have been like this but she made them this way. She should have never filled her divorce papers but she did. She was stupid and now nothing could fix her.


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[Lexus]

Jayden sighed when Alyssa ignored him and as much as he wanted to retreat to his room and leave the kids with Jessica he couldn't. He didn't need to lose her because he was too caught up with Alyssa but if something ever happened to her he would never forgive himself. She was s part of him forever and whoever he made a life with would have to accept that.

 

[isax]

Alyssa tried her hardest to be civil with Jessica around and she did rather well. She was polite and acted as if nothing bother her but when alone, she cried and cried for hours. She knew somewhere in the future she would lose her kids to Jessica. Alyssa sighed as she applied as a secretary for another firm and thankfully she was given the job. She started the following week and when she told Sadie, her and Alex took her to a celebration dinner but little did Alyssa know they invited Jayden and Jessica as well. When Alyssa saw all four of them, she froze for a moment but acted civil and polite. She sat down and talked with Sadie and Alex. She didn't want to talk to Jayden or Jessica really.


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[Lexus]

Jayden smiled at the kids reactions when they saw their mother. It warmed Jayden's heart, that wasn't something they would do for anyone else. It was something about a mom that couldn't be replaced. Even though Jayden was invited he felt he shouldn't go because he didn't want to ruin her night. He himself was proud of her but he knew If he told her she wouldn't believe his sincerity.

 

[isax]

Alyssa smiled at her kids and hugged them both close as they laughed with her. "I love you my loves." She told them as they told her they loved her back. Alyssa looked at Jayden and flashed him a smile. A bright smile. One she hadn't smiled in forever. Alex smiled at the two and pushed Alyssa forward to where she tripped and grabbed onto Jaydens arm to catch her. Man if looks could kill, the look Jessica gave Alex and Alyssa could kill them both. "S-sorry." Alyssa told Jayden as she let go and walked over back to the kids where they were playing.


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[Lexus]

When Jayden saw her smile the happiness he felt from within was something he hadn't felt in a long time, a warm feeling. One he missed. When she grabbed onto his arms he didn't feel the urge to pull away instead it brought him s sense of comfort, paying no attention to Jessica's looks she flashed his friends he stared at Alyssa for a moment transfixed on her eyes and how the light brightened them. When she quickly pulled away he was brought back to reality and nodded. "It's okay." He whispered before he flashed her a smile.

 

[isax]

Alyssa didn't want to pull away but the look she recieved was one she didn't like. she got lost in Jaydens eyes for a brief second as well but when she pulled away, she went and focused on the kids. The smile warmed her heart. The smile she got from Jayden was one she missed getting. After it all, Alyssa didn't regret telling Jayden to stay for the celebration because she and him talked for once. She talked to Jessica as well go make her feel welcomed. Alyssa wanted to get to know her if she was going to be apart of her kids lives. She enjoyed herself that night, but when Jayden said she was proud of her made her night even better.


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[Lexus]

Tonight was the first time since they separated Jayden felt he didn't have to worry about Alyssa, she would be alright. She was moving on and though it was slowly Jayden was more than proud of her but he couldn't help but feel like missing her and he knew it was wrong but it was a feeling he couldn't avoid.

 

[isax]

Alyssa missed Jayden as well and that guilt and regret would always be in her life but it was small and locked up now. It was good because this was her process of moving on though she wanted Jayden back, she couldn't have him. After everything was finished, Alyssa tucked the kids in bed in the one they shared at Alex's and Sadies. She sat and watched them sleep until she was pulled into the bed with Arabella and Landen. She held them both close and fell asleep with them. She missed these moments. All they were missing was Jayden.


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[Lexus]

Sadie smiled when she found Alyssa with the kids asleep and watched them for a moment. She let out a soft sigh, while she was happy her best friend was finding the way to move on she still wished she wouldn't have made such a stupid mistake because she saw the look between her and Jayden and it wasn't hard to see there was still feelings there.

 

[isax]

(Sorry my screen was getting fixed)


Alyssa stayed asleep with the kids all night long and when she woke up, she smiled at her kids smiling at her. "Hello there my loves." Alyssa whispered as she kissed their cheeks and sat on the bed watching movies with them. When Jayden came, Arabella ran to get her dad and brought him back up and told him to sit with them. She didn't care if Jessica was there. They hadn't all watched movies together in forever.


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[Lexus]

Jayden smiled and nodded to Arabella taking the seat on the edge of the bed, sitting her in his lap. Despite what Jessica wanted he didn't care, his kids always came first but he didn't expect her to understand since she didn't have any

 

[isax]

While Jayden held Arabella, Alyssa held Landen in her lap and let out a soft and exhausting sigh. She started to fall asleep with Landen and soon she leaned over against Jayden and slept while Landen slept against her chest with his arms wrapped around her neck. Those two never were separated now and days and Alyssa loved that.


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[Lexus]

Jayden smiled at his son with his mother he was attached to her and it was the cutest thing. They had gotten close again since Landen stayed with his mom during her fusions. Staying up with Bella they finished the movie before Bella began to fall asleep herself. Laying her next to her mom he smiled at the three. Suddenly he felt his own exhaustion overwhelm him and he began to doze off as well.

 

[isax]

Sadie and Alex went to go ask the family of they wanted pizza but what they saw brought a smile to their faces. It was so cute and they missed those days. Jessica had left for work but Sadie didn't bother to wake Jayden and tell him. They all looked so peaceful together. When Alyssa woke up, she felt a hand holding hers and when she realized it was Jaydens, she smiled but sighed and slowly pulled away.


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