Love sick

[isax]

Alyssa stayed staring at the table and the wedding ring she wore on her finger. Maybe it was all her fault. She knew what Jaydens job meant and now she felt stupid for bringing Matt into the picture. She told him it was over that night however and she decided to just get rest since their discussion was over. She didn't know what to do anymore.


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[Lexus]

The next morning it was just an awkward feeling to be in the same house. As much as he wanted things to work out with him and his wife he was starting to let it sink in just what had happened and while he understood why she did it he still felt it was wrong and he couldn't get over it. He had so many questions and he knew they were ones she wouldn't want to answer however, there were just some things he needed to know before he could go any future with her, when they were alone he spoke. "How long has this been going on?"

 

[isax]

"A month." Alyssa told him as she stayed in the bed covered beneath all the blankets. She cried so much she didn't know what to do and now she realized she messed things up for herself. She just couldn't bring herself to take off her wedding ring and leave Jayden. Things would be better off that way. He could go back to being a doctor and see the kids without her having to say anything.


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[Lexus]

Jayden was honestly surprised by how little of a time her and Matthew spent together he suspected it to be longer. As much as he knew she would probably hate him for asking his next question he needed to know. "Did you engage in anything intimate with him besides what I saw?"

 

[isax]

At that Alyssa sat up as she looked at her husband and laughed with hurt. "No. We didn't. Nothing but hugs and kisses." She told him then laid back down and turned to where her back faced him. She hated this. She couldn't believe Jayden would even ask that. She didn't just have sex with anyone.


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[Lexus]

Jayden nodded and left her alone at that. He hoped things would work out but right now the two just needed their space. In the months following things seemed to be picking up for the couple though he never did touch her again. He still couldn't bring himself to do it. They were happy and he was glad but that all changed when one day he went in to surprise her at work and found the two more than just simply kissing in her office. Though he knew she didn't see him he made no attempt to not make it obvious he was livid with her. When she came home all his stuff was already packed.

 

[isax]

"Jayden please." Alyssa said as she went home and touched him but when he pulled away, she knew it was all over. This was what she deserved. She didn't deserve him or her kids anymore. She took off her wedding ring that day and when he left, Arabella went with him. Alyssa sighed as she sat in the house with just her and Landen. She was such an idiot. After that, she filed the divorce papers for her and him and in them it stated she wanted Jayden to have full custody for both children. The judge approved but Jayden was the one who needed to approve as well. Sadie and Alex even stopped talking to her after that. They only focused on Jayden and so did her own mother. Alyssa would never live it down. She ruined things for herself. Her reputation as a lawyer was ruined as well and she sold her firm. Her whole life just basically hit rock bottom and she was fine with that.


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[Lexus]

Why? That was the only question he had for her. After he tried so hard to work things out with her why did she go back to him? It was something he didn't understand, it would have been different if Jayden hadn't tried to fix things but he really had. Really after everything he did for her he never saw it coming. He never thought things would end like this. They had been through so much together. She broke him. But it was a side of himself he never let anyone see he needed to be strong for himself and the kids and while he agreed to take them at her request they still needed their mother in their life. So she got them on the weekends. It room him a long time to get over her and honestly he never would stop loving her, he cared about her and wanted her to be happy but he got the hint he wasn't enough for her anymore.

 

[isax]

Why was because Alyssa was being an idiot. She cut Matthew off, she really did but when Jayden just refused to hug her and let alone touch her, it killed her inside. She did it because it was the easiest way to break her and Jayden apart. As time healed their wound, Alyssa always felt like she wasn't enough for Jayden anymore and she would never forgive herself for being the reason he resigned. She still lived him yes, and she would never love anyone else. When the kids came over on the weekends, Alyssa took them to her friends house. She was a fellow lawyer who was trying to help Alyssa out but she refused. She didn't want the kids to see where their mother really lived. She wasn't rich anymore because when she sold the firm, her money left too. That's why it's so hard for her to pay child support but she pays it. Her life really hit rock bottom and when Alyssa went to drop off the kids, she let Arabella take her brother down in the stroller because she was sick again. She knew if she got down with them, Jayden would see it and she didn't want him to know. She didn't want him to know anything. He didn't know anything which was good.


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[Lexus]

When the kids came home Jayden looked to Arabella confused as to why she was walking in by herself. She was still only three. He didn't mention it to the little girl though. Taking her brother form her he helped the one year old out of the stroller and turned to Bella. "Did you have fun with mommy?"

 

[isax]

"Yeah. Sydney came over." Arabella said. Sydney was the secretary for Alyssa's firm but since she sold it, Sydney was now the owner of the firm. "Mommy took us to the park and we played ball out there." Arabella added with a wide smile. Landen began to cry however. He always did after his mother dropped him off. He still had a close relationship with his mom and he missed seeing her everyday.


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[Lexus]

Jayden sighed at the sound of Landen's cries he felt horrible every time she dropped the kids off but he just couldn't work things out with their mother after she did what she did. He hadn't been with anyone since his divorce with Alyssa and he has no plans to do so. The kids were his main priority he made sure they were both happy and healthy and he did it all on his own. The money Alyssa sent to him he sent right back to Sydney to put back into her account and she never seemed to notice. She never seemed to notice which was good because he didn't need her money.

 

[isax]

When Alyssa was finally told by Sydney that the money she would give Jayden was sent back by him, Sydney told her to start treatments up again. Sydney knew the kids still needed their mother and Alyssa was thankful Jayden wouldn't take the money. The next weekend, Alyssa called Jayden hoping he wasn't to busy to answer. When he did she asked, "Hey Jayden, can you keep the kids this weekend? I'm sorry I just have something to do." She told him even though she knew he would take that and think she was going off with Matthew which wasn't the case. She had treatments again and she couldn't leave the kids with Sydney.


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[Lexus]

Jayden sighed but agreed, he wasn't going to argue with her. It was her life to live and he had no control over it anymore. The choices she decided to make were not his fault. Because he had things he had to do he left the kids with Sadie and Alex and had dinner with them after.

 

[isax]

"How's she doing? Do you know anything?" Sadie asked. She may not talk to her best friend anymore but she always worried about her. "You need to go see her Sadie." Alex said hit Sadie shook her head. "That Alyssa isn't my best friend Alex. My Alyssa wouldn't do anything like that." Sadie said with a sigh as all the kids went to go play in the play area with Emma watching.


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[Lexus]

Jayden looked to Sadie and Alex and answered honestly. "Sadie, I don't know anything, I only know what I need to for the kids that's it. It's best that way." He knew if he found himself too involved he would want to work things out again. "But I know she's keeping something from me, I don't know what though,." That bothered him. Heaving a large sigh he shook his head and took his plate. "I don't know with her anymore." He said before walking away as he fought back his own tears. This is not how he wanted their kids to grow up.

 

[isax]

Sadie and Alex watched as Jayden left. Sadie sighed by the look Alex was giving her so she excused herself and went to Alyssa's law firm but was puzzled when they told her she no longer owned it nor was she a lawyer. Sadie went to Alyssa's "house" but only found Sydney who took Sadie inside and explained to her everything that happened. "And I don't want Hayden thinking she's meeting up with Matthew. Trust me after what happened she cut him off but.... Sadie she's sick. Very sick. She won't tell me with what but she doesn't want anyone to know and I'm concerned." Sydney said. This was so much for Sadie to take in. Her best friend hit rock bottom and she wasn't even there to help her. Sadie felt so utterly pathetic.


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[Lexus]

Jayden managed to compose himself but it took everything in him to do so. Every time he thought about Alyssa a swarm of unwanted emotions over came him and he wished they would go away but they never did seem to fade. Why did he still feel this way?

 

[isax]

Sadie left Sydney that night and when she got home before Alex and Jayden, she broke down and cried into her arms as she thought about her best friend. "You're such an idiot Alyssa." She whispered and continued to cry, and when the others showed up, Alex went and hugged his wife close. Sadie wouldn't talk. She promised not to tell Jayden but she would tell Alex. Later.


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[Lexus]

Jayden daughter when Sadie wouldn't budge in telling him why she was so upset. Not wanting to argue figuring it had to do with Alyssa he took his leave and took the kids home to get them ready for bed.

 

[isax]

The minute Jayden left, Sadie told her husband everything and Alex sighed. "Sadie, hun, look at me." Alex said as he made her look at him. "I know my love. I know what you're feeling but you have to tell Jayden." He said but Sadie refused. "Alyssa doesn't want anyone too." She said and Alex sighed. "Dammit Aly..."


The following weekend, Alyssa had treatments earlier but she was exhausted. She promised her children however she would pick them up today. She waited in the car and honked and when she saw Jayden walk over to put in Landen, she put on her sunglasses and tugged her jacket tighter. She lost weight and was exhausted and she knew Jayden would tell. "Mommy, what are we doing today?" Arabella asked with excitement and Alyssa laughed. "It's up to you princess." She told her.


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[Lexus]

Jayden has a feeling she was hiding something and when he saw her he knew what it was. Though he didn't say anything, she didn't want him to know and it wasn't his place to say anything. Saying bye to the kids he walked back inside to gather his thoughts. "Really Alyssa?" He was so beyond frustrated with her right now. Why did she have to be so stupid? Why couldn't she have just avoided temptation. Now he had to get involved and she knew it. The following weekend he kept the kids as she asked and once again Jayden left the kids with Sadie and Alex while Jayden went to pay Alyssa an unexpected visit.

 

[isax]

Alyssa was at the hospital getting her treatments done and when Jayden showed up at the hospital, they said he couldn't go in to see her. She had asked for no visitors. When she finished however, she looked at the time and sighed. It was getting late. She slowly walked out after they unhooked her and when she bumped into someone, she grabbed their arm so she wouldn't fall but when she looked up and saw Jayden, her eyes grew wide. "Jayden? What are you doing here?" She asked and held onto him. She was to weak and exhausted to even let go.


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[Lexus]

Jayden had waited for her to finish knowing she would leave as soon as they let her. "I don't know Alyssa, mind telling me why you're here." He didn't move her hand from his arm because he wasn't that cruel. Letting out a sigh he liked to her with hurt eyes. "I know you think I'm not the greatest person alive anymore but you could have at least told me you were sick. Like it or not you're stuck with me until the kids are grown and I think it would have been useful for me to know their mother can't take care of them." When he said it he knew it sounded harsh and that's not what he meant so he quickly spoke again. "Whether you chose to believe it or not I still care about you Alyssa, we've been through a lot together and I want you to be okay but it hurts that you can't even be honest with me , I think I deserve that."

 

[isax]

Alyssa closed her eyes as she fought back tears. She let go and sighed. "Go home Jayden. You know what's wrong now, you happy?" She said harshly and began to walk past him but slowly. She wasn't in the mood to argue and what he said hurt. It hurt terribly. "By the way, you're not stuck with me. I haven't talked to you since the day you left unless it's related to the kids so don't say you're stuck with me and I'm not stuck with you." She told him. "And as far as me being okay, I'm not. I won't be now that it's back again and news flash Jayden, my whole life has hit rock bottom. You want me to be honest then fine, here it is. Because of what I did, my reputation as a lawyer was ruined. I resigned and gave up the firm. With the firm being taken I lost my money. No the house I take the kids to every weekend is not my house and you know, when were you going to tell me you kept sending my money right back huh? It's for the kids. If you don't take it court will call for me Jayden. I don't need them thinking I'm not paying." She said as she looked at him with tears streaming down her face. She was exhausted and that's why everything came out. If he wanted honesty he got it.


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