Love sick

[Lexus]

"That makes two of us." Jayden says with a proud smile. "We'll play later okay?" Jayden was excited she had found an interest in a sport at such an early age. "Thank you." He says to their friends for watching her.

 

[isax]

The two nodded and Arabella nodded as well with a bubbly laugh. She was excited for this. "Baseball." She told her father with a wide smile. She was defiantly going to be a girly girl.


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[Lexus]

Jayden laughed and nodded. "Your mommy is going to love this." He says with teasing sarcasm before he said bye to their friends and carried the little girl to the car and put her in her cats eat before he drove her home. "Now Bella we have to be quiet mommy's still tired."

 

[isax]

Arabella looked at her father and sighed but she nodded. "Okay." She told him with a yawn then looked at the baseball and held it. "Bat?" She asked curiously remembering her uncle talked about one.


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[Lexus]

Jayden set her down and nodded with a smile. "I'll show you one." He promised before he left Er to play with her toys while he ran upstairs to check on Alyssa and Landen.

 

[isax]

Four months or so had passed from that day but things only turned out to be worse then better. Jayden hadn't been around anymore, the kids obviously missed their father but Alyssa missed her husband as well. She looked at her wedding ring as both children were with their aunt and uncle. This shouldn't have been happening. Jayden couldn't balance this out anymore.


Another two months passed and Alyssa found a guy who gave her the attention she sought and he took Alyssa and the kids to the park since Jayden wasn't in town that day. Everything felt right then but Alyssa still had a longing for Jayden he just wasn't around anymore.


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[Lexus]

Jayden unfortunately did key work take control but as much as he wanted to back away he couldn't. He was needed. He wasn't a man for excuses he told himself he wasn't going to be like his father and never be around but against his will he turned into him. There was a lot of his shoulders when lives hung in the balance and while he felt appreciated in the field it didn't fill the void. He was honestly thinking about giving it up, it's not like he needed the money he made something of himself because it's what Alyssa wanted for him. Deep down he knew she was unhappy and that broke his heart. He looked to himself now as a failure. He had decided this was going to be his last trip and then he was resigning. It had only been a little over a year since he started but he didn't care if wasn't worth missing his kids growing up. He was far from done. So much so when he was alone he often cried but that was something he never told anyone.

 

[isax]

The kids seemed to enjoy their day with Alyssa and her "friend" as they called him. She invited him over for lunch and before he left, Alyssa heard the front door open as he leaned down and kissed her. When he pulled away, Alyssa saw Jayden and Arabella along with her brother were in the play room. Matt looked at Jayden then Alyssa and looked away before he walked out. Alyssa looked at Jayden with hurt filled eyes and looked away. She knew her cover was blown now and she knew it was all over. She was waiting for him to start yelling but she heard Landen cry so she pushed past him and went to go hold him. Her and Jayden would talk about the event when the kids were asleep. "Daddy, you're home early." Arabella said as she yawned.


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[Lexus]

Jayden walked through the door and set his keys on the counter. When he saw what he he blinked, he felt his stomach fall to his knees but somehow he managed to keep himself composed as he watched the stranger who just had his hands on his wife leave for the front door. Was this really happening? He wished it wasn't but he blamed himself. He deserved that smack in the face. When Arabella ran to him he smiled and nodded as he picked her up. "Yes Princess I am, I came for you." He says softly. Despite his absence Arabella was still found of him and while he was grateful he knew he didn't deserve it. He was a horrible father in his eyes.

 

[isax]

Arabella smiled and hugged her father close. "Daddy, tuck me into bed tonight? Mommy does it every night but I want you too." She told him with a smile. When she was set down, she ran up to her room to grab her baseball. Alyssa got Landen to quiet down but when it was just her and Jayden, she felt the tension in the air. Alyssa handed Landen over to her husband but the minute she did that, she regretted it. Landen began to cry because to him, his father was a mere stranger. Alyssa felt terrible all this happened so when Jayden handed her back Landen, she looked at him with apologetic eyes.


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[Lexus]

Jayden was hurt, but again it was his own fault. All of this was and there was nothing he could do to take it back. It took everything in him not to brake down in front of Alyssa. She shouldn't have to reassure him, again, he did this to himself. He was in no rush now to tell her he resigned. There was no point it was too late now. All he could do was be there for the kids. When Arabella came back he took her hand and led her outside to play with her. He needed this.

 

[isax]

Arabella went outside with her father and enjoyed the time they spent. She was learning a lot when they had the time to go and play. It was surprising her father even played with her. Usually he came home and just went to lay down. "Daddy, what's a bat?" She asked. Her father never showed her one like e said he would. Alyssa stayed inside with Landen in her arms. She began to cry quietly as Landen fell asleep. This shouldn't have happened. They should all still be one big happy family but now she just didn't know. She still loved Jayden, the only reason her and Matt were a thing was cause of the attention he gave her and the kids. It was something they lacked for awhile. Things shouldn't have turned out this way. All of Jaydens family was right. They wouldn't last.


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[Lexus]

Jayden smiled despite his exhaustion he knew this was important. Picking her up he carried her to the garage and grabbed one of his old bats. Taking her hand he led her to the backyard. "You stand right here and throw the ball as hard as you can okay?" He smiled at her nod and took his place before he hit the ball she threw at him swiftly with the bat.

 

[isax]

Arabella watched the ball with wide eyes as it soared through the air. She was amazed but when it went through the kitchen window, she laughed as the expression her mother had. These were the moments they should have had. Alyssa grabbed the ball and laughed softly along with Arabella. These were memories Alyssa wanted to make but things were already to late.


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[Lexus]

Jayden held back his laugh when the ball broke the window but smiled softly when he saw Alyssa smile, that had been the first time in awhile he had seen that. "I'll fix that." He calls out before turning back to Arabellla. When they finished playing while the kids ate their dinner with their mother Jayden went to the store to buy the glass for the window. And then replaced it. When he finished he walked inside and went to tuck in Arabella as he promised her he would.

 

[isax]

Alyssa had to admit, the day they spent together was one she would always hold close to her heart. She hadn't smile and laughed like that in awhile but at that moment, she was enjoying the fact Arabella and Jayden were spending time together. After both kids were tucked in bed and asleep, Alyssa sat downstairs at the dinning room table and sighed as she played with her ring.


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[Lexus]

Jayden really was dreading the conversation him and his wife were about to have but it wasn't one he could avoid. Once Arabella was asleep he headed down the stairs and sighed softly when he found her at the table. Since he walked through the door they hadn't really spoke. He knew she would expect him to argue and yell but he couldn't, it wasn't her fault. There was a silence before he spoke. "What's his name?" He asked in a soft whisper as he went to trudge for water.

 

[isax]

Alyssa stayed quiet majority of the time and when Jayden asked his name, she cleared her throat to speak. "Matthew." She told him simply as she fought back tears. She dreaded this conversation they were about to have and she was just so ready for him to get angry with her but she knew Jayden better than that. He wasn't going to snap. He was blaming himself and she hated that he felt like that. "It's not what you think Jayden.... I don't love him, he just gave us attention and...." She just decided to stop talking because of the tears that began to fall.


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[Lexus]

Jayden sighed and turned to her. "I don't need your explanation Alyssa, I know why you did and yes it is my fault, if I was doing what I was supposed to he wouldn't even be in the picture." There was another silence before he spoke again. "I'm not upset with you, you're not to blame for this, does he make you happy?"

 

[isax]

Alyssa stayed quiet as she looked at their wedding ring and tried so hard not to cry harder. "Yes..." She admitted. Matt does make her happy. He spends everyday with the kids and spends every chance he can with Alyssa. Things were just right for once with him around.


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[Lexus]

Jayden simply nodded and sat across from her. "So, what do you want to do?" He was leaving this all up to her but he wasn't going to tell her right now he resigned because he didn't want her to sway her decision. She needed to do what was right for herself. He didn't want to lose her but he didn't deserve her or the kids.

 

[isax]

Alyssa sat there as she played with her ring. She looked at the table and then looked up at her husband. "I just want my husband back. I want the father of our kids back." Alyssa whispered as she sighed and kept her ring on. She didn't want to leave Jayden, she couldn't do that again. Her life was hell without him.


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[Lexus]

"I'm right here Alyssa."he reassured her but kept his distance. He couldn't bring himself to touch her right now, not after he was someone else with their hands on her it was too much for him. "Everything I do is for the three of you and you know that but I can't fix problems with you don't tell me what's wrong." He wasn't sure where they were headed at this point.

 

[isax]

"What's wrong is I miss you. Jayden we promised work wasn't going to interfere with family. You've been gone so many weeks at a time and when you do come home you just go straight to the room. The kids miss you and I miss you. I love you Jayden. I don't want to lose you. I cut back my hours at work and yes I understand your job is demanding but dammit Jayden, going practically 7 months with only seeing your family once every month just doesn't cut it." She said and cried. "I want you and only you. I want to be able to sleep next to you again Jayden. I just want things back to the way try were." She whispered. She was afraid where they were heading.


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[Lexus]

Jayddn sighed in frustration and looked at her with tired eyes. He just flew half way around the world to be here and he didn't expect to find his wife being intimate with another man when he walked through the door and now his anger was getting to him. "I'm trying Alyssa, I really am but you have no idea how hard it is to have to chose between your family and saving people's lives. Either way I feel guilty for making the choice and it's one I have to make every day! I'm tired, tired physically and emotionally and I can't make that choice anymore it's too much, you're the one who wanted me to make something of myself and now you wish I never did, well, good news for you I resigned today.." With that he was done with this discussion and he went to sleep in the guest room.