You're leaving? (A 1x1 with Lexxy)

[isax]

(Oh gosh. That would add a lot of drama. My feels are all messed up from this so maybe.)


"Yeah... I know." Ashley said and sighed as she looked at Clay. "I'll be out of here after tomorrow Clay. It won't be awkward for you anymore." She told him. Could she truly survive being alone and independent?

 

[Lexus]

(Ditto.)


"Ashley, you don't have to do that, the kids need you." He says setting the folded towel down and stood. "I mean you can go of you want, it's just an offer but don't do anything stupid, the kids still need a mother. You can stay as long as you want to."

 

[isax]

"I wouldn't want to stay here all the time Clay.... say we do divorce and I'm still here, that would be awkward. Especially if you moved on. I know the kids need me. I'm trying my hardest not to do something stupid. Believe me." She told him and sighed as she sat at the island. So many memories in this house and they were all going to mean nothing to him if they did divorce.

 

[Lexus]

"I didn't mean that far in the future I meant for now, until we work things out and things are decided." He knew what she was thinking about and he didn't want to address it because she was wrong, even if things were over between them he wouldn't regret any memories they have, he gave her a good portion of his life end he was glad he spent it with her.

 

[isax]

"It's still awkward Clay. We just have to talk about this eventually. I'm just going to go to sleep already." She told him and walked up the stairs. She would be the one broken if they divorced. She would never be okay without him. He was her rock but she just lost her rock because if a stupid decision she made.

 

[Lexus]

Clay sighed and didn't run after her. She was right, they did have to talk eventually but he wasn't ready. He waited for the kids to get joke before he went to sleep on the couch, he couldn't sleep in their bed because the last time they did they showed wash other how much they loved each other and he couldn't think about that, not after what she had done.

 

[isax]

Ashley couldn't sleep. She couldn't. She went down stairs at 3 in the morning and went to the kitchen. When she saw Clay she sighed because she knew why he was sleeping on the couch. It was understandable. She walked over to him and leaned down to kiss his forehead as tears fell. She was an idiot. Why would she do what she did. She sighed and gave Clays sleeping from an apologetic look and went back upstairs, locked herself in and cried for the rest of the night.

 

[Lexus]

Clay woke up before the kids so they didn't see him sleeping in the living room and made their breakfast before sending them off to school. It went on like this for a week and one day was sitting at the island having a drink when Ashley walked through the door. This made him finish if in one gulp and shake his head from the stinging. They really had to talk soon. It didn't occur to him him drinking was a strange thing for Ashley to see until he saw her puzzled look. He never really did drink and when he did it was usually a wine, not liquor. He figured why not? The kids were with Jenna and Greg. "Want some?" He asks making himself another holding up the bottle and mixing it with soda. He wasn't drunk. He always knew when to stop.

 

[isax]

Ashley shook her head. "No thanks." She told him. She did want one but honestly she made a promise. She wasn't going to drink anymore after what happened when she did. She refused. "We really need to talk about what we want to do Clay." She added.

 

[Lexus]

Clay closed the bottle and stirred the drink, setting the bottle on the counter. He took a sip before answering her, "What's the rush?" He asks chewing the ice and swirling the drink in the cup. "Not that it's any of my business but where have you been today?"

 

[isax]

"Oh my god. Are you really going to accuse me of seeing him again?! For you information I was at the kids school then I went to Jenna's." She told him. Did he not trust her anymore? Of course he didn't. She broke their trust. "Clay.... Can you just stop accusing me? I know I made a mistake but I haven't been to the country since then. I get it. You don't trust me anymore and that's understandable. Just try and trust me again." She whispered and then went up the stairs but went to their room. She looked at the pictures on the wall. She began to cry as she saw their wedding picture. The looked over at the dresser and saw her wedding band. She was stupid for ever leaving.

 

[isax]

(At the movies. Will be back in after.)

 

[Lexus]

(Have fun. ^~^)


"I wasn't accusing you of anything," He says in disbelief at her reaction to his question. "It was just a question Ashley, but you reacting that way towards maybe makes me wonder." He took another drink and almost choked when she asked him to trust her again. "I'm sorry, did you just say try to trust you again? Did you really just ask me that? You might want to reevaluate this situation." He says setting down the glass as she ran up the stairs. Something was up with her. He sighed and took the drink in his hand again. "That's it, that's your answer for everything run away." He says through the glass finishing the second drink.

 

[isax]

Ashley heard and came back down. She slapped him across his face with tears in her eyes. "Just say it. You want to divorce. You want me to leave. Say it. I know that's what you want because obviously Clay, you aren't acting like the Clay Waters I fell in love with. You most certainly aren't acting like the one I married. I'm sorry dammit! I've said that. I got drunk and made the wrong decision. I screwed this all up but at least be the person I fell in love with.... What happened to that Clay Waters huh?" She asked, her eyes red and puffy. She would have never laid her hands on her husband but this man. This one talking the way he was and acting the way he was with her, was not the man she married.

 

[Lexus]

(Things just got real.)


Clay placed his had on his cheek where she slapped him and looked her harshly in the eyes setting down the glass. He slowly stood up and stayed silent for a few moments. He could see she was frightened. He didn't care. "Why? Why do you even deserve that? You don't. So why should I continue to be the nice person, the only people I have to be Clay for are my kids. You however, I don't have to do anything for you, I've done enough and before you go thinking I'm accusing you of anything maybe you should think. I know you weren't with Jenna because Jenna has the kids and they are three hours away at the beach. I was asking because I was concerned for you. If you want my trust, maybe you should tell the truth."

 

[isax]

(I know.)


"Okay dammit I wasn't with Jenna!" Ashley exclaimed and continued to cry her eyes out. "You want the truth? Fine then I'll tell you. I was out with Trent." She said and waited for a reaction. That was a lie. She wasn't with Trent. She hadn't seen him since that night and she didn't plan on seeing him anymore. "And you believe that. That's what's sickening. For you to actually think I would be out with him after I realized how much I screwed up my life. No I wasn't with Trent. That's just what you wanted to hear right?! No I was out finding my own house and then I went to my lawyer because.... Well because I want to file divorce papers." She said and looked at Clay with nothing but hurt in her eyes as she continued to cry. "It's not what I want.... But I know that's what you want. I made your decision a whole lot easier for you Clay." She told him and then walked to the couch and sat there with her head in her hands and cried. That familiar wheezing sound coming back. Hearing that scared her. Why was it coming back?

 

[Lexus]

"What's sickening is not that I believe it but you have me a reason to believe it. Don't try to turn this on me Ashley, I tried to help you, I did everything I could think of to make you happy but you didn't want it. No one asked you to quit your job, I begged you not to no one told you to continue to live here. I tried to take you home. No one told you to fight by yourself, you chose to keep it from me. So don't say I didn't try and you have no right to blame me for how you feel right now, you did it to yourself. You chose to leave and you chose to leave your family behind. That's what sickening. And I'm glad you know what I want because I don't even know what the hell I want." He exclaims. Based on the sound of her wheezing he knew it would pass. And eventually it did. He say and watched her from across the room while ha had his third and last drink. After a long silence he turned to her, "you went to talk? Let's talk but let's do it like two composed adults."

 

[isax]

"I would love to talk but why should we talk if I already know I'll never be Ashley Waters again." Ashley said as she continued to cry and sighed. She wiped away her tears and tried to compose herself to talk. "Alright. Let's talk." She said as she looked at him.

 

[Lexus]

He eyed her hesitantly when she walked over to sit stocks from him at the island. He moved the bottle out of the way so he could see her. He didn't even know where to start, he bee thought they would have this discussion. "I would love to say this is your last chance to make a decision to make yourself happy but honestly, I don't have the effort to try to win over your stubbornness. I know you're sorry but we aren't kids anymore, sorry doesn't fix this, and now the kids are involved. Really, whatever we chose it's a losing situation Ashley, but I can't handle your secrets so this," he says pointing to the counter. "Is your moment to confess any other things I need to know before we continue this discussion.

 

[isax]

Ashley felt utterly hurt that he felt there was more she needed to confess. There wasn't. "There isn't anything to confess then what I've told you. There is no other secrets." She told him and looked him in the eyes so he knew she wasn't lying. When she did lie, she always avoided eye contact but not this time. She already confessed everything she needed to tell him. She knew the kids were involved and honestly, she only acted the way she did because she wanted them happy. Allie wouldn't have been happy out in the country. The clan was upset they were moving. Clay had to much work for her to tell him about her being sick. She didn't want to stress him. Everything she did she thought was right but obviously it wasn't.

 

[Lexus]

Clay nodded, "Alright then," he didn't know where to take this conversation. He still didn't know what was right for them or for anybody. "What do we do?" He asks simply,

 

[isax]

"I don't know." Ashley said as she sighed and stared back down at the island. "I want to stay married with you and stay being Ashley Waters but I just don't know what you want." She told him and sighed. "I know you think I was unhappy with you but Clay, I was always happy with you. Everything I was doing was to keep my family happy, or well I thought it was. I'm sorry you ever married me. I'm sorry I was such a stubborn person but I'm going off topic...." She said and sighed."I don't know what to do." She finally said and then looked up at him with hurt filled eyes just like his were.

 

[Lexus]

"Ashley, I love you but save me the rambling, please." He says closing his eyes for a minute. That's what she did when she knew she did something wrong and she wanted to get out of it. After awhile he looked up at her again, "I'm not trying to make you feel bad but you know Claire did the same thing to me and look where she got." He shook his head and cried in his hand for a moment. He would always love her for the memories and he didn't regret anything. He just couldn't look at her the same way. He lifted his hand from his face and for the first time in 17 years he took off his wedding band and laid it on the counter.

 

[isax]

Ashley looked at his wedding band and tried to fight back tears. She did this to herself. She sighed and then stood up. "I think we have our answer." She said and bit the inside of her cheek to keep the tears hidden. "If you um, don't mind I think id like to do what Claire did." She told him and walked out of the house.

 

[Lexus]

Clay didn't follow after her. He just stayed in his chair and stared at the wedding band on the counter. He felt naked without it on his finger. He covered his face and cried before getting up to clean his mess from his drinks. When Jenna came back with the kids he composed himself and welcomed them home and when the kids ran up the stairs he shook his head towards Jenna who looked at him confused and let the tears meet his cheeks. He was physically heart broken.