You're leaving? (A 1x1 with Lexxy)

[Lexus]

"I don't know," he whispers pulling her closer and whomping away her tears before he kissed her cheek. He really didn't want the kids to find out that way either but they were bound to find out eventually. "But we've talked about this, it wasn't your fault."

 

[isax]

Ashley sighed and nodded. "I know. You say that all the time but I know it was my fault." She said and then pulled away from his hold and just wrapped herself under the covers. She didn't want to talk to anyone.

 

[Lexus]

"Ashley, please come back down stairs." He whispers. He knew she would never forgive herself but she saved so many people but for a mother that didn't matter when your own child was the sacrifice. "We have a guest. Please, for me?" He asks with a smile cuddling up beside her.

 

[isax]

Ashley sighed as she felt Clay cuddle up next to her. "Okay..." She whispered and stood up then sighed and took in a deep breath to try and compose herself. She didn't plan in her night going like this."

 

[Lexus]

Clay smiled and helped her by wiping her face with his shirt. "There's the Waters in you," he whispers. Leaning down he kissed her forehead and took her hand, lighting squeezing it as they walked down the stairs.

 

[isax]

Ashley smiled weakly and walked back down stairs with him as all eyes fell on her. She smiled at her friends and they simply smiled back. They knew she wasn't okay. "So Clay, mind telling us why you invited us all now?" Gaven asked as Jenna looked at her friend.

 

[Lexus]

Clay sighed. He knew his wife wasn't okay either, and what they had to say wouldn't make it any easier for anyone. He looked led to his wife and nodded, he would be the one to tell them because she couldn't, not now. "Sit down," he pulled out the chair for Ashley and waited for all the others to sit before he went to grab the kids. "So, this isn't going to easy for me to tell you guys," he paused. Especially not with what the kids just discovered. "But Ashley and I, well we've decided to do what's best for our family and that involves moving, to Texas."

 

[isax]

Everyone became quiet as they all looked at the Waters. Ashley stared at her lap and Gaven looked a little upset. "I knew this day would come. Does this mean we have permission to move with you guys?" Jenna asked and laughed softly. Gaven sighed and looked at Ashley then at Clay. "Well.... I have no words to say." He said and Ashley sighed. Reagan on the other hand, looked at Rylan with big eyes. "You didn't tell me?!" She exclaimed and Rylan tried to talk but she just walked off. Ashley couldn't take it. Things weren't going the way she wanted. "Clays just kidding. We aren't leaving." She said and everyone looked at her confused. Allie looked at her mom and knew why she was saying that. She was thinking of her kids before herself. She was thinking of the clan. She wanted everyone else happy, even if she wasn't.

 

[Lexus]

Clay glared at her and looked up to their friends again. "No, I'm not." He says sternly. After he finally broke her and she said she hates it here he wasn't going to let it slide. "She's only saying that because she wants the rest if us to be happy rather than her." He admits. "Guys, I know it'll be tough at first but it's only an hour, well always he here if you need us." Clay was pleading his case to try to get his friends to help him out. "And we just decided this today, we haven't been keeping it from you." He just wanted his wife to be happy.

 

[isax]

They looked at Clay and Ashley sighed. "We aren't moving. Don't listen to him." She said and Allie smiled and hugged her mom. "I love you!" She said. She didn't want to move anyways. Ashley smiled at her daughter then looked over and saw Gaven staring at her. "Don't lie Ash. We knew this day would come eventually. Like Clay said it's only an hour away. We will survive." He said and Ashley simply shook her head. "We aren't moving. Trust me." She said and stood up then went to go clean dishes.

 

[Lexus]

Clay threw up his his hands. "Fine," he simply says not wanting to cause a scene with all these people there. But her stubbornness finally did get the best of him. "Here Allie, you can have this back," He says tossing her the phone because his efforts just didn't matter anymore. "Well, I guess that concludes tonight's dinner," Clay says clasping his hands together. "It was nice netting you Greg and the rest of you I suppose we will see at the twin's party." Clay says before leading them outside and when he walked them I their cars he didn't want to go inside so he scuffed his feet all the way to the barn and kicked the hay barrels to relieve his frustration. And when he was finally done he sat on too of one and breathed heavily.

 

[isax]

Ashley sighed and she knew she pushed her husband. She knew he became frustrated with her. Allie caught her phone and smiled then went back up the stairs and to her room. Ashley stayed down stairs and sat in the couch with her head in her hands. She sighed. She was just a terrible person all around wasn't she? She got up and walked out of the front door and walked to the pier. She needed to just be alone right now.

 

[Lexus]

When Clay walked inside to not see his wife he didn't know how to feel but he didn't try running after her, it would be useless. Lately she didn't listen anyway. Instead he took his shower and sat in their bed and when she finally came home he fell to sleep, his back facing her.

 

[isax]

Ashley sighed as her husbands back faced her. She got out of bed at 4 in the morning and left their wedding band on the dresser with a note that said, "Sorry.... I just need time to think." She left in her truck. She went to the country. She really just needed to be alone before her anger and frustration and unhappiness was taken out on the wrong person.

 

[Lexus]

When Clay found this he just shook his head she left it there. He still had kids to care for, he did worry about his wife yes, and yes he still loved her it was just there were times she took everything the wrong way and no matter how hard he would try to get her to see things how he wanted her too she was too stubborn and hard headed to see it. So, he gave her that time and tried not to take offensive to the face she removed her ring before she left. He didn't know how long she would be gone but he wasn't going to mess with her. It was Ashley, she would talk to him eventually.

 

[isax]

Thing was, Ashley was gone for a week and had yet to return home. Plus the kids started to become worried. "When's mom coming home?" Rylan asked. "If she ever comes home." Allie added as she just played with her food. Cory sighed and didn't eat any of his food either. "I can't believe she just left us like that." He said and Rylan clenched his hand. His mom left them. He would have never thought she'd do that. He got up and went up to his room. He didn't want to talk about this anymore.

 

[Lexus]

Clay sighed when Rylan walked away. There was nothing he could say to protect them from the truth, that yes, Ashley did leave, they weren't little enough anymore for him to protect them from that. Clay rolled his tongue into his cheek and laid his head on his fists. "You two go get ready for bed, I'll be up in a dew minutes okay?" Clay asked picking their dishes up from the table. He wanted to say something to reassure them. He did but there was nothing to say. It was one thing to walk out on him but she left her kids too. He knew she was okay though, he had her aunt call him every day.

 

[isax]

She arrived back home that night before the kids fell asleep. Allie and Cory just stared at their mom and when Rylan saw her, he felt this anger boil up inside. "So now you think it's okay for you to just return home?! I'm sorry, were we such a bother for you?!" Rylan exclaimed and Ashley flinched. Her kids had so much anger with her right now and that was understandable. "Why don't you just walk out on us again huh?! Not like we ever made you happy." Allie exclaimed and Ashley just stayed against the door. She sighed as she felt tears rolling down her cheeks. She really was the worst mom ad wife ever. Congratulations Ashley. She just stayed quiet and let their words sink in. "Then I'll leave..." She whispered and all three looked at her in utter shock. They didn't want their mom to leave them. They were just so angry with her. "I'm sorry you think I wasn't happy with you..." She added and Allie looked at her mom. "You weren't happy with anything! You weren't happy with us or with dad! So go ahead and leave again mom. Not like you ever did anything to make us happy." She added and Ashley flinched. Rylan looked at Allie and sighed. Allie took it to far. "Mom..." Rylan said and Ashley just sighed. "No.... It's fine Rylan.... I'm fine.... I guess I never did really make you happy right? I guess I didn't give up my career, what I loved doing so much just to make you happy. I guess I never fought for 6 whole months because I knew my family needed me! I'm so glad I never made you happy.... So thank you for telling me that." Ashley said and Allie fell silent. She didn't mean to make her mom feel like that.

 

[Lexus]

Clay walked down the stairs and stared in utter shock at his wife and kids. "I thought I told the two of you to go upstairs," he says simply and they obeyed. For once, they sludge did to him. He didn't know how to approach Ashley so he tried his best. But kept it in a whisper. "I know your upset Ashley, but they're kids, you don't have to talk to them like that." He says simply going to clean the kitchen count sees. Before turning back to her after a long silence. He had to hold back his tears. "I know you did all those things for them, for us but the paint is, no one ever asked you to do those thing Ashley, you took that upon yourself, I tried to make you happy, I did but to just walk out on your kids like that?" He shook his head in disappointment. "Look, I don't know what's gotten into you," he says stepping closer "but the woman I married, she would have never walked out on her kids when things got tough and she most certainly wouldn't have just talked to them like everything he did was their fault." He let the year toll down his cheek. "If you find the Ashley I married though, let me know."

 

[isax]

Ashley's eyes grew wide at her husband. She changed that much? She sighed and bit on her bottom lip. She felt tears leaving her eyes and looked at Clay. "Oh yeah.... Sure. Then maybe you should start looking for a new wife Clay.... I'm not blaming anything on you guys. This is all my fault. It's all my fault I'm so unhappy... I get that. I'm just sorry you guys feel the way you do. I honestly don't know what has gotten into myself but I understand. Maybe it's time for me just to leave...." She whispered. She spent so many years with Clay, she never thought she would feel like this. What has gotten into her. She loved her family more then her own life. She tried to stay strong but she couldn't. She slid down to the ground against the door and hugged her knees as she began to cry. She broke down. Something she hadn't done in years. She knew Clay wouldn't comfort her though. Her kids wouldn't either. She was alone. Just like in the beginning and this happened because she brought it upon herself.

 

[Lexus]

Clay sighed, he really didn't want to have to be the one there for her right now, not after what she did to the kids but he made a promise never to let her feel alone again, not when he saw what it did to her the first time. He held out his hand and helped her up. He walked outside with her because he didn't want the kids to hear. He didn't know where to start but he waited for her to calm down before he said anything. "You know sometimes, you act like you mean nothing to me and that you can be easily reached and you and I both know that isn't the truth." He was being honest as he looked at her with hurt in his eyes. "I've given you everything, a friend, a home a family, a new life and still you're unhappy." This made him have to catch his breathe. He was speaking gently to her, he had no anger, just misunderstanding. "But yet, when I try to fix your unhappiness you just ignore it. I'm really trying hard Ash, I really am bit sometimes things are so conflicting I feel like you're unhappy either way. So please, try to get me to understand what it is you want."

 

[isax]

Ashley took a deep breath and then sighed as she looked at the ground. "I just want my family happy. That's all I've ever wanted." She told him and squeezed his hand. She thought she was doing everything she could to make her family happy but she was only tearing them apart and further away from her. She closed her eyes and then looked at Clay. "And if they're happy without me like Allie said then I guess I'll just leave...." She added. That was when Rylan ran outside because he thought his mother was leaving him again. He ran over to her and hugged her tight. It almost made Ashley lose her balance. "Don't leave me... Not again mom." He whispered and Ashley looked at her son and hugged him close. She didn't deserve any of the comfort she was getting after what she just said to her kids.

 

[Lexus]

Clay smiled at their son. "There's your answer," he whispers to his wife before turning towards his son and hugging him. "Everything will be okay, now go to sleep and we can all talk in the morning." When Rylan left Clay turned back to Ashley, "All I want for you is to be happy but you can't just go running off like that Ashley, you're grown now." Now was the time to get at what was really bothering him. "Ashley, don't think I don't know what happened while you were away, your Aunt Jamie told me, she said she saw you with Trent," he didn't have to look at her eyes to know what she did. "You know I love you, but really? Were things that bad you had to go and have a one night stand?" His eyes were red and puffy. "If he makes you happy then go, I'm not asking you to keep this family together for the kids sake, but I need to know, is it more than just a one stand? Have you been going over there instead of working?" He wasn't trying to accuse her if anything he was just heart broken she would do such a thing.

 

[isax]

Ashley stared at the ground as her husband asked her. Trent was just a one night stand. She had gotten really drunk that night. She hadn't been going with him instead if work. She was faithful to Clay, she really was. "Clay... It was just a one night stand." She told him and sighed. She really messed up. "I was drunk that night.... I'm sorry. I get it. You think I've fallen in love with him and we have more then just a one night stand but Clay..... You're the only one who holds my heart. You've given me anything I could ever ask you. You're my best friend. Not only that, you're my husband. I love you more then my own life. I'm sorry... Words can not describe how utterly sorry I am." She told him and stayed looking at the ground. She screwed up terribly. "But if you don't believe me then it's okay too." She added with a sigh as her tears fell again. What happened to her? This wasn't who she was.

 

[Lexus]

Clay nodded. Despite it all, he still loved her bit he knew he couldn't just forgive her right off the bat or people would think he was crazy. "I so pericarp your honestly but my trust for you right now, well, it's not there. If you need a few days to think, about what you want to do, go but you better chose wisely because if it happens again, there is no more us."