Soliloquy
♥Hopeless Chromatic♥
Despite the experience in June, Willow wasn't about to completely give up on the ocean. She might have taken extra precautions and stayed quite close to the shoreline, but she wouldn't avoid it just because of Kellsy. She had just come back to the blankets to dry off and enjoy the sun a bit longer in time to hear Finn and Granya singing. She gave a round of applause in approval, still standing up. "That was wonderful you two!" she praised. If it wouldn't have been too suspicious, she might have recommended they sing together at the pub.
By now Granya didn’t shrink into her coat when Willow came around. Quite the opposite. And while she may shy away from a compliment from a stranger, she offered an appreciative smile to Willow, “Thank you, Тетя Willow.” She used the title of ‘Aunt’ now. It didn’t matter to her if Theo had yet to legally marry Willow. To Granya she was already fit for the role.
Finn tilted his beak up proudly, “Maybe one day we sing at the pub.” There were few people at Pine park on Mondays that Finn felt comfortable to speak a little more than usual.
"I think everyone would love that, Finn." Willow nodded toward the water's edge giving Granya an encouraging smile. "Care for a walk? Or would you rather skip that for this week?"
“Alright.” Granya nodded, standing up with Finn on her shoulder, as always. Well, nearly. Sometimes he saw something of interest to take him flying.
They were a little into their walk when Willow decided to pose the question that had been eating at her for nearly a week after her talk with Theo. "So, I was talking with your uncle about Liam and how it'd be helpful for everyone to know more of his backstory. I was going to ask him about it after park day ended and was wondering if you'd want to come with me?"
Granya hadn’t expected that. Finn didn't either, shifting uneasily from talon to talon. Granya tilted her head like she sometimes did as a wolf when she was curious or her interest piqued. They had, at times, tried to coax more information from Liam. The most they got were vague descriptions and a promise he meant no harm. For a while Granya had been wary of him. But with time, and Finn’s seal of approval of Liam (saying he felt no ill-will from him), she had become comfortable around the young man. She even had thought to ask if he like video games once. It had been when he helped shoo away the Russian guy who wanted to dance. But she found herself shy to ask. Granya had a harder and harder time being around him, she suddenly realized. She wasn’t sure why. But, if Willow was with her, Granya decided she’d have an anchor to hide behind in case her stomach made that weird feeling again.
“I guess so. Natalia wants to take Pradedushka Lyov to dinner later, so she’s taking him with her afterwards.” Granya smiled. “And then maybe we scrapbook?”
Willow reached over to tussle her hair at the agreement and grinned in agreement. "Maybe we'll scrapbook. I've got a bunch to add from this year so far. It's just been gathering in a folder," she admitted as they continued their walk. "It'd be nice to make some little decor items for the house, too." The two continued their casual walk down the beach, sharing different ideas they'd found thanks to the wonders of Etsy and Pinterest. Before long their day in the sun came to an end and everyone parted their ways. Granya and Willow traveled together to the pub, still chatting about their shared hobby.
Coming in the back door of the Old Bear they were surprised to find that it strangely lacked a Liam. They found his pottery wheel, a partially shaped chunk of clay on it that was covered with a wet cloth to keep the it from drying while it wasn't being worked. Willow furrowed her brows in confusion, wondering where he could have been, though she hadn't pried much into what he did with his personal time. It didn't seem fair when he wasn't invited to theirs.
She figured it wouldn't hurt to call out to him. "Liam?" There was no answer or even sound around to signal that he was around a corner or maybe in the kitchen. She tried a second time but found the same results. Deciding it just wasn't meant to be, she pointed with her thumb toward the back door. "Home it is then?"
Before the drive home Granya excused herself to use the bathroom, which Willow couldn't blame. Some of the roads were a bit bumpy and it wasn't worth the risk to try and make it home when there was a perfectly good restroom right there. Figuring she'd wait for her in the car, Willow headed out the back, opening the door and surprised to see Liam crossing toward the dirt bike that had been fixed up to give him a way around town. Maybe fate was on their side after all!
As Willow walked up to Liam from behind, who was hastily hopping on his bike, she could hear him humming a familiar tune whilst getting his helmet ready to put on. There was no mistaking the melody for anything other than ‘I see the light’ from Tangled. She nearly stopped in her tracks, clearly recognizing the song as the one Finn and Granya had a duet to earlier that day. An odd coincidence... Brushing it aside, she decided to focus on the entire reason she'd choreographed the visit. "Hey Liam!" she called just a short distance.
At hearing Willow, Liam visibly jolted in startlement. He hovered his helmet over his head a moment before easing it onto his lap. Liam offered a sheepish smile, and flick his eyes warily at the Old Bear, “Oh heh, Willow, hello. . .How was the park?”
His visible surprise was curious, though maybe she had just been treading too lightly. "It was lovely. Always nice to have a day of fresh air," she smiled, nodding toward the bike. "Were you heading somewhere? I wouldn't want to hold you up if you had somewhere to be."
Liam hesitated, running through what he could offer as a reason to leave quickly, something that would warrant not a moment to spare to talk with Willow, “Uh yes, I-- I need--” In seconds Liam dismissed using illness as a reason. Natalia had stocked the Old Bear with what was necessary to handle sickness. They all knew he didn’t have anywhere he went to, no classes, no doctors appointments-- they had yet to fully make him American to have health insurance, and until they were sure he couldn’t be traced, he settled for Theo and Natalia for health. All he did was work at the pub and do ceramics. Liam fished for the right reason, when he said, “--I need to get another loop tool, for the vase I’m making. My other one broke.” Yes, clay! It was drying as they were speaking, and he had to get another before it was too dry.
"Oh," Willow didn't miss how long that answer took, but she wouldn't push it. She knew how to play her cards when it came to men who gave looks like Liam was giving to Granya. Instead, she said with a shrug. "I suppose Granya and I will just have to come back another time then. Wouldn't want to risk the vase getting ruined."
"Right!" Liam nodded, popping on his helmet. His sweaty hands gripped the bars of the bike, "Tell her I said hello?"
"You don't want to hang around just a few moments and tell her yourself?" It couldn't take more than that for her to come out of the bathroom. "She did come over to see you, after all." It was a slight fudging of the truth, but only slight.
"Uh, it's okay, she'll be a while, and I'm sure I'll see her some other time," Liam started his bike, "Don't want to risk the vase getting ruined." She could practically hear the relief of her suggestion existing in his voice. "Good to see you, Willow."
Her lips pursed together, still not able to give up on her endeavor. She hoped that if he was stalled long enough for Granya to appear he'd linger. "Granya and I were just talking about crafting," she shifted her position just enough that it was going to be hard for him to pull out, though not impossible. "I've always thought about taking up a pottery class. Any suggestions?"
Not unkindly, Liam began to scoot the front of his bike to the side of her as he spoke, “Uh, actually I don’t know, I haven’t really been involved outside of the family since I got to America.” He grunted from the weight of the dirt bike, “ I’d suggest looking online for that information,” Liam began to awkwardly walk the bike forward, side to side, to try to pass Willow safely before kicking off.
"Hmm, that's a good idea. Would you want to join us? If we found one that fit your schedule and Granya's?"
Liam paused in his efforts to attempt escape. A brief silence followed before he said, "I'd like that..."
There was still a bit of hope, even if he had seemed quite determined. "Perfect. So we'll look for a pottery class or even an event and maybe Granya can show you some of her other crafts," she continued on.
Another silence. While Willow couldn’t see his face behind the visor, she could tell from his slumped shoulders that he did not see it the same way, “Willow, I would love it. And I'm guessing you probably know why,” Liam murmured somberly, “But the family isn’t comfortable with me getting closer to her than I already am. They don’t fully trust me. I hold no hard feelings. I completely understand why.” Liam sighed, “So yeah, that would be perfect. She’d probably open up to me over time and maybe even like me back, but I can’t risk upsetting them. They could become guarded and restrict what time I get with her now. And I can’t do that. Just because I want to be the guy who makes her happy.”
Her heart went out to him, as it had a tendency to do. She could only imagine how hard it was to be kept at bay by the family of someone you cared for. Still, she also knew they had reason to be weary. "Oh I would know why, and that's actually why we're here," she couldn't help but smile at his covered face while she unveiled a bit of her scheme. "I know that it'd help them trust you if they knew more about you. I spoke with Theo and he said that would help them all relax. It wouldn't hurt toward doing things like park days with everyone and I bet even Granya would open up."
Liam bowed his head, “Willow, this is a great family. I’d do anything for them. Sleeping on stage is a gift. I’d sleep on hot coals if it meant I could stay. They have gone through a lot and Lyov in particular has impressed me with his devotion to mercy, but if they learned what they need to know for us to have an open and honest understanding of who I am, I’d risk more than just losing out on time with Granya. I am afraid. I fear what I have done right will not be enough to forgive what I have done wrong.”
She watched him and though she couldn't read his facial expressions through the helmet, she did hear it in his voice. "Liam, I know that your world is one completely different from mine, but you can't live with your past some mystery. They are all good people and they have the biggest hearts," she tried to offer him encouragement. "I'm sure you're not the only one with a less-than-spotless history, but that doesn't mean you should let it hold you back from trying to have a future."
If Willow hadn’t heard it in his tone enough, she did now. Liam’s voice cracked under the weight of his worry, “I understand, I just. . .don’t feel that I deserve it.” He had long since dropped the guise of needing to leave for his tool. Liam settled into his seat and crossed his arms in indecision, “I guess I just hoped that if I’m right, and they do reject me, that I could stall long enough to get all the time I could with them, and with Granya, before I had to go. I mean best case scenario is they make me leave. Worst case, Amalia or Jovan might try to beat the shit out of me.” Liam did admit his time in Aarin had painted his expectations. Lyov and his notion of forgiveness did not find a home there. Liam took off his helmet and she saw the expression she knew he had, “I feel like a monster asking this of you, like I’m using you. . .I do care for you, Willow. And I think if I have an ounce of hope, it’s help from you. . .and I’m sorry if asking this is selfish or as if it sounds like I am pitting you against them. . .But if I told you everything. . .Would you be at my side when I tell them?”
Willow watched him for a long moment, admitting that while she had wanted to know before, now she was all but dying to find out what his history was. What could have happened that he didn't think Lyov would still accept him? "If you swear that you will tell me the absolute truth, then I won't let you tell the others alone," she said, breaking her gaze to glance over her shoulder at the pub. "Granya was here so we could try and talk to you together. Do you want her to know yet?"
“I can’t say it in front of Granya. I don’t know how she’d take it and I don’t want to see her look at me with anger or disgust.” Liam frowned, “Do you mind if you and I take this somewhere else? Maybe at your place?” He realized that might be too much, adding, “We don’t have to go over this there, we can do it a park or a coffee shop instead. I just don’t want to risk their familiars hearing me.”
At their house didn't sound like a good idea, even if she didn't expect him to attack her or anything ridiculous. Rather she never knew when Giest might show up and if he was concerned with the familiars then it was a good area to avoid. "There's a coffee shop we can meet at once Granya is back home," she decided, giving him the address of one that wasn't far from their house. "But remember, the absolute truth."
Grateful, Liam took the address, “Yes, of course. I promise.” He tucked it in his leather jacket for safekeeping. “Text me when you’re ready. I’ll meet you there.” Since he didn’t have to run off anymore, Liam dismounted. He’d have to play off that he had only just arrived. It wasn’t his favorite choice to make. Liam had worked hard to be as honest as he could. “Guess I’ll just go to the pub and get ready. I suppose you know by now my tool isn’t broken.” He offered a sheepish smile.
"I will and yes, I knew," she smirked, moving to head to the car to actually wait for Granya so they could head home. "You don't lie nearly as well as think you do. But that's a good thing. Honesty isn't something to be ashamed of."
By now Granya didn’t shrink into her coat when Willow came around. Quite the opposite. And while she may shy away from a compliment from a stranger, she offered an appreciative smile to Willow, “Thank you, Тетя Willow.” She used the title of ‘Aunt’ now. It didn’t matter to her if Theo had yet to legally marry Willow. To Granya she was already fit for the role.
Finn tilted his beak up proudly, “Maybe one day we sing at the pub.” There were few people at Pine park on Mondays that Finn felt comfortable to speak a little more than usual.
"I think everyone would love that, Finn." Willow nodded toward the water's edge giving Granya an encouraging smile. "Care for a walk? Or would you rather skip that for this week?"
“Alright.” Granya nodded, standing up with Finn on her shoulder, as always. Well, nearly. Sometimes he saw something of interest to take him flying.
They were a little into their walk when Willow decided to pose the question that had been eating at her for nearly a week after her talk with Theo. "So, I was talking with your uncle about Liam and how it'd be helpful for everyone to know more of his backstory. I was going to ask him about it after park day ended and was wondering if you'd want to come with me?"
Granya hadn’t expected that. Finn didn't either, shifting uneasily from talon to talon. Granya tilted her head like she sometimes did as a wolf when she was curious or her interest piqued. They had, at times, tried to coax more information from Liam. The most they got were vague descriptions and a promise he meant no harm. For a while Granya had been wary of him. But with time, and Finn’s seal of approval of Liam (saying he felt no ill-will from him), she had become comfortable around the young man. She even had thought to ask if he like video games once. It had been when he helped shoo away the Russian guy who wanted to dance. But she found herself shy to ask. Granya had a harder and harder time being around him, she suddenly realized. She wasn’t sure why. But, if Willow was with her, Granya decided she’d have an anchor to hide behind in case her stomach made that weird feeling again.
“I guess so. Natalia wants to take Pradedushka Lyov to dinner later, so she’s taking him with her afterwards.” Granya smiled. “And then maybe we scrapbook?”
Willow reached over to tussle her hair at the agreement and grinned in agreement. "Maybe we'll scrapbook. I've got a bunch to add from this year so far. It's just been gathering in a folder," she admitted as they continued their walk. "It'd be nice to make some little decor items for the house, too." The two continued their casual walk down the beach, sharing different ideas they'd found thanks to the wonders of Etsy and Pinterest. Before long their day in the sun came to an end and everyone parted their ways. Granya and Willow traveled together to the pub, still chatting about their shared hobby.
Coming in the back door of the Old Bear they were surprised to find that it strangely lacked a Liam. They found his pottery wheel, a partially shaped chunk of clay on it that was covered with a wet cloth to keep the it from drying while it wasn't being worked. Willow furrowed her brows in confusion, wondering where he could have been, though she hadn't pried much into what he did with his personal time. It didn't seem fair when he wasn't invited to theirs.
She figured it wouldn't hurt to call out to him. "Liam?" There was no answer or even sound around to signal that he was around a corner or maybe in the kitchen. She tried a second time but found the same results. Deciding it just wasn't meant to be, she pointed with her thumb toward the back door. "Home it is then?"
Before the drive home Granya excused herself to use the bathroom, which Willow couldn't blame. Some of the roads were a bit bumpy and it wasn't worth the risk to try and make it home when there was a perfectly good restroom right there. Figuring she'd wait for her in the car, Willow headed out the back, opening the door and surprised to see Liam crossing toward the dirt bike that had been fixed up to give him a way around town. Maybe fate was on their side after all!
As Willow walked up to Liam from behind, who was hastily hopping on his bike, she could hear him humming a familiar tune whilst getting his helmet ready to put on. There was no mistaking the melody for anything other than ‘I see the light’ from Tangled. She nearly stopped in her tracks, clearly recognizing the song as the one Finn and Granya had a duet to earlier that day. An odd coincidence... Brushing it aside, she decided to focus on the entire reason she'd choreographed the visit. "Hey Liam!" she called just a short distance.
At hearing Willow, Liam visibly jolted in startlement. He hovered his helmet over his head a moment before easing it onto his lap. Liam offered a sheepish smile, and flick his eyes warily at the Old Bear, “Oh heh, Willow, hello. . .How was the park?”
His visible surprise was curious, though maybe she had just been treading too lightly. "It was lovely. Always nice to have a day of fresh air," she smiled, nodding toward the bike. "Were you heading somewhere? I wouldn't want to hold you up if you had somewhere to be."
Liam hesitated, running through what he could offer as a reason to leave quickly, something that would warrant not a moment to spare to talk with Willow, “Uh yes, I-- I need--” In seconds Liam dismissed using illness as a reason. Natalia had stocked the Old Bear with what was necessary to handle sickness. They all knew he didn’t have anywhere he went to, no classes, no doctors appointments-- they had yet to fully make him American to have health insurance, and until they were sure he couldn’t be traced, he settled for Theo and Natalia for health. All he did was work at the pub and do ceramics. Liam fished for the right reason, when he said, “--I need to get another loop tool, for the vase I’m making. My other one broke.” Yes, clay! It was drying as they were speaking, and he had to get another before it was too dry.
"Oh," Willow didn't miss how long that answer took, but she wouldn't push it. She knew how to play her cards when it came to men who gave looks like Liam was giving to Granya. Instead, she said with a shrug. "I suppose Granya and I will just have to come back another time then. Wouldn't want to risk the vase getting ruined."
"Right!" Liam nodded, popping on his helmet. His sweaty hands gripped the bars of the bike, "Tell her I said hello?"
"You don't want to hang around just a few moments and tell her yourself?" It couldn't take more than that for her to come out of the bathroom. "She did come over to see you, after all." It was a slight fudging of the truth, but only slight.
"Uh, it's okay, she'll be a while, and I'm sure I'll see her some other time," Liam started his bike, "Don't want to risk the vase getting ruined." She could practically hear the relief of her suggestion existing in his voice. "Good to see you, Willow."
Her lips pursed together, still not able to give up on her endeavor. She hoped that if he was stalled long enough for Granya to appear he'd linger. "Granya and I were just talking about crafting," she shifted her position just enough that it was going to be hard for him to pull out, though not impossible. "I've always thought about taking up a pottery class. Any suggestions?"
Not unkindly, Liam began to scoot the front of his bike to the side of her as he spoke, “Uh, actually I don’t know, I haven’t really been involved outside of the family since I got to America.” He grunted from the weight of the dirt bike, “ I’d suggest looking online for that information,” Liam began to awkwardly walk the bike forward, side to side, to try to pass Willow safely before kicking off.
"Hmm, that's a good idea. Would you want to join us? If we found one that fit your schedule and Granya's?"
Liam paused in his efforts to attempt escape. A brief silence followed before he said, "I'd like that..."
There was still a bit of hope, even if he had seemed quite determined. "Perfect. So we'll look for a pottery class or even an event and maybe Granya can show you some of her other crafts," she continued on.
Another silence. While Willow couldn’t see his face behind the visor, she could tell from his slumped shoulders that he did not see it the same way, “Willow, I would love it. And I'm guessing you probably know why,” Liam murmured somberly, “But the family isn’t comfortable with me getting closer to her than I already am. They don’t fully trust me. I hold no hard feelings. I completely understand why.” Liam sighed, “So yeah, that would be perfect. She’d probably open up to me over time and maybe even like me back, but I can’t risk upsetting them. They could become guarded and restrict what time I get with her now. And I can’t do that. Just because I want to be the guy who makes her happy.”
Her heart went out to him, as it had a tendency to do. She could only imagine how hard it was to be kept at bay by the family of someone you cared for. Still, she also knew they had reason to be weary. "Oh I would know why, and that's actually why we're here," she couldn't help but smile at his covered face while she unveiled a bit of her scheme. "I know that it'd help them trust you if they knew more about you. I spoke with Theo and he said that would help them all relax. It wouldn't hurt toward doing things like park days with everyone and I bet even Granya would open up."
Liam bowed his head, “Willow, this is a great family. I’d do anything for them. Sleeping on stage is a gift. I’d sleep on hot coals if it meant I could stay. They have gone through a lot and Lyov in particular has impressed me with his devotion to mercy, but if they learned what they need to know for us to have an open and honest understanding of who I am, I’d risk more than just losing out on time with Granya. I am afraid. I fear what I have done right will not be enough to forgive what I have done wrong.”
She watched him and though she couldn't read his facial expressions through the helmet, she did hear it in his voice. "Liam, I know that your world is one completely different from mine, but you can't live with your past some mystery. They are all good people and they have the biggest hearts," she tried to offer him encouragement. "I'm sure you're not the only one with a less-than-spotless history, but that doesn't mean you should let it hold you back from trying to have a future."
If Willow hadn’t heard it in his tone enough, she did now. Liam’s voice cracked under the weight of his worry, “I understand, I just. . .don’t feel that I deserve it.” He had long since dropped the guise of needing to leave for his tool. Liam settled into his seat and crossed his arms in indecision, “I guess I just hoped that if I’m right, and they do reject me, that I could stall long enough to get all the time I could with them, and with Granya, before I had to go. I mean best case scenario is they make me leave. Worst case, Amalia or Jovan might try to beat the shit out of me.” Liam did admit his time in Aarin had painted his expectations. Lyov and his notion of forgiveness did not find a home there. Liam took off his helmet and she saw the expression she knew he had, “I feel like a monster asking this of you, like I’m using you. . .I do care for you, Willow. And I think if I have an ounce of hope, it’s help from you. . .and I’m sorry if asking this is selfish or as if it sounds like I am pitting you against them. . .But if I told you everything. . .Would you be at my side when I tell them?”
Willow watched him for a long moment, admitting that while she had wanted to know before, now she was all but dying to find out what his history was. What could have happened that he didn't think Lyov would still accept him? "If you swear that you will tell me the absolute truth, then I won't let you tell the others alone," she said, breaking her gaze to glance over her shoulder at the pub. "Granya was here so we could try and talk to you together. Do you want her to know yet?"
“I can’t say it in front of Granya. I don’t know how she’d take it and I don’t want to see her look at me with anger or disgust.” Liam frowned, “Do you mind if you and I take this somewhere else? Maybe at your place?” He realized that might be too much, adding, “We don’t have to go over this there, we can do it a park or a coffee shop instead. I just don’t want to risk their familiars hearing me.”
At their house didn't sound like a good idea, even if she didn't expect him to attack her or anything ridiculous. Rather she never knew when Giest might show up and if he was concerned with the familiars then it was a good area to avoid. "There's a coffee shop we can meet at once Granya is back home," she decided, giving him the address of one that wasn't far from their house. "But remember, the absolute truth."
Grateful, Liam took the address, “Yes, of course. I promise.” He tucked it in his leather jacket for safekeeping. “Text me when you’re ready. I’ll meet you there.” Since he didn’t have to run off anymore, Liam dismounted. He’d have to play off that he had only just arrived. It wasn’t his favorite choice to make. Liam had worked hard to be as honest as he could. “Guess I’ll just go to the pub and get ready. I suppose you know by now my tool isn’t broken.” He offered a sheepish smile.
"I will and yes, I knew," she smirked, moving to head to the car to actually wait for Granya so they could head home. "You don't lie nearly as well as think you do. But that's a good thing. Honesty isn't something to be ashamed of."
Last edited: