LONELYRAIN
somehow adulting
Her silence that followed made dread settle within him. She's shocked, isn't she? Emory wished to laugh, oh what else did he expect? Perhaps she would run as soon as he let her go? That was a more normal reaction than the one he was expecting from her. And then her question came, a gentle question that made the man nearly stir from his current position to look at her. Was it just a habit of survival? Or was he just clinging to that convenient excuse that she had given to make the disgust ease away even just slightly? Regardless, Emory was silent as he could feel Rose's gentle touch tracing small patterns upon his back. Ah, when was the last time someone had touched him so gently? He couldn't remember.
"I felt no disgust... before you came to me." He whispered those words, even knowing fully well that speaking more on the matter would reveal far more than he felt comfortable with revealing to her. She'd heard enough as it was. He didn't interrupt her as she continued to speak, her gentle words soothing although he was desperate grabbing onto anything, any excuse to keep her at his side. A basic urge for survival, was it? Yes. It had to be. Perhaps he'd conditioned himself to enjoy it to protect himself, to not allow himself to be riddled by guilt, to see the state he would leave people in. It was a convenient excuse he clung to; allowing the disgust to fade further away as he continued to hold tightly to Rose as if his life depended on it.
And then she reassured him that she wouldn't leave. That caused the man to take in a shuddering breath, followed by a gentle kiss and holding him even tighter than before. A laugh, despite the turmoil raging within him had left him. "You must be the bravest woman to ever exist." Emory slowly moved, his muscles having locked in place during the silent moment he'd allowed her to speak, it felt as if he could breath again. His expression had not changed as he had let go of her; the emptiness upon his face, in his eyes had yet to fade, and yet he raised a gentle, soft hand to the side of her own, the softest whisper of a touch, though his fingers were trembling as he did so.
"I... don't understand you at all." Words that he had spoken to her before, he didn't understand. He couldn't understand how she could be so tolerant. She truly was everything that he was not. To claim that she'd not run from him was so utterly foolish that he couldn't wrap his head around it. He shook his head at her; his hand lowering from her face and landing on the tabletop. But, perhaps she was only acting in such a way because she'd never viewed what he had done personally? Ah, yes, that had to be it. Searching for an answer for her odd reaction was all he could do to make sense of it.
Viola had reacted similarly, although he remembered her pleading for her life before him in the slaughter at the mansion. He still saw; even if the woman was gentle with him now, years after the event, there was still some fear in her eyes and a distance that she carefully kept. Perhaps, Rose would react the same way? He found that he didn't like that. It's better for her not to see. Stepping away from the table only slightly, Emory had shook his head at her, bewildered obviously. Was it her affection for him? Perhaps. But even that was such a new emotion for both herself and him that he couldn't simply leave it at just that.
"Why? Why are you... why are you staying at my side?"
"I felt no disgust... before you came to me." He whispered those words, even knowing fully well that speaking more on the matter would reveal far more than he felt comfortable with revealing to her. She'd heard enough as it was. He didn't interrupt her as she continued to speak, her gentle words soothing although he was desperate grabbing onto anything, any excuse to keep her at his side. A basic urge for survival, was it? Yes. It had to be. Perhaps he'd conditioned himself to enjoy it to protect himself, to not allow himself to be riddled by guilt, to see the state he would leave people in. It was a convenient excuse he clung to; allowing the disgust to fade further away as he continued to hold tightly to Rose as if his life depended on it.
And then she reassured him that she wouldn't leave. That caused the man to take in a shuddering breath, followed by a gentle kiss and holding him even tighter than before. A laugh, despite the turmoil raging within him had left him. "You must be the bravest woman to ever exist." Emory slowly moved, his muscles having locked in place during the silent moment he'd allowed her to speak, it felt as if he could breath again. His expression had not changed as he had let go of her; the emptiness upon his face, in his eyes had yet to fade, and yet he raised a gentle, soft hand to the side of her own, the softest whisper of a touch, though his fingers were trembling as he did so.
"I... don't understand you at all." Words that he had spoken to her before, he didn't understand. He couldn't understand how she could be so tolerant. She truly was everything that he was not. To claim that she'd not run from him was so utterly foolish that he couldn't wrap his head around it. He shook his head at her; his hand lowering from her face and landing on the tabletop. But, perhaps she was only acting in such a way because she'd never viewed what he had done personally? Ah, yes, that had to be it. Searching for an answer for her odd reaction was all he could do to make sense of it.
Viola had reacted similarly, although he remembered her pleading for her life before him in the slaughter at the mansion. He still saw; even if the woman was gentle with him now, years after the event, there was still some fear in her eyes and a distance that she carefully kept. Perhaps, Rose would react the same way? He found that he didn't like that. It's better for her not to see. Stepping away from the table only slightly, Emory had shook his head at her, bewildered obviously. Was it her affection for him? Perhaps. But even that was such a new emotion for both herself and him that he couldn't simply leave it at just that.
"Why? Why are you... why are you staying at my side?"