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Carlos Da Silva
Aspiring Artist | 23 | Current location ;; New Mexico
That was an unexpected reaction. A strange and weirdly cold kind of reaction. Especially as he left him. Carlos watched him move away, unsure exactly what he had done to make him want to leave. Had he pushed too far? This was why he told himself to behave. This wasn’t like the way he could be with literally everyone else. If other people shied away from him, it never truly hurt. What he did with others was for fun. For a connection. If they didn’t want that connection, then that was okay. No harm, no foul. But with Kaleb, it felt like a stab in his chest. He hesitated for a moment, only a moment, before he was crawling across the bed and sitting at his side. He put an arm around his back, loosely this time. He was afraid. He was so afraid that he was going to lose him. Don’t run from me, Blue Eyes. Let me keep you safe. Stay with me. “I’m not lying to you. I told you that I won’t lie to you. Joking about whether or not I have ideas on how to get up to no good does not count.” He put a hand on Kaleb’s cheek. “Will you look at me? Please?”
Aspiring Artist | 23 | Current location ;; New Mexico
That was an unexpected reaction. A strange and weirdly cold kind of reaction. Especially as he left him. Carlos watched him move away, unsure exactly what he had done to make him want to leave. Had he pushed too far? This was why he told himself to behave. This wasn’t like the way he could be with literally everyone else. If other people shied away from him, it never truly hurt. What he did with others was for fun. For a connection. If they didn’t want that connection, then that was okay. No harm, no foul. But with Kaleb, it felt like a stab in his chest. He hesitated for a moment, only a moment, before he was crawling across the bed and sitting at his side. He put an arm around his back, loosely this time. He was afraid. He was so afraid that he was going to lose him. Don’t run from me, Blue Eyes. Let me keep you safe. Stay with me. “I’m not lying to you. I told you that I won’t lie to you. Joking about whether or not I have ideas on how to get up to no good does not count.” He put a hand on Kaleb’s cheek. “Will you look at me? Please?”