MzHyde
'Flamebird'
Fia wouldn't have taken any offence if Cal had said no but having Cal agree to letting her help made her rather relieved. So she took the knife from Cal when it was handed to her and the vegetable in question and began doing as instructed, cutting it into slices and feeling helpful. "thanks for letting me help" she said to her as she did what she had to. She knew if she just sat next Kay she would no doubt become irritating with her restless tapping or fidgeting. She absolutely hated being in this mindset where she was utterly brain numb and tired but also restless and always found when she got like this growing up, she either got in the way of people or just out and out annoyed them with her tics. So she thought putting her to use with something like cooking was the better option, which it proved to be. She enjoyed helping Cal and spending time with her whilst Kay glanced at the coffee table and saw her family photos still on there, which she leaned forward and grabbed them. She fully intended on just getting up and putting them away but she found herself looking at them once more. If there was a time for her to feel remotely homesick it was now.
She couldn't understand why she was feeling it from photos of people she didn't have in her life anymore, but low and behold she was. She missed those days of Sam coming in all bubbly and energetic, a stark contrast to Kay's quiet and reserved demeanor or tired state from spending all night painting or drawing. She missed having her sister there telling her to take breaks so she didn't burn herself out, or bringing in food and drink when it was near damn impossible to snap her out of her creative state. She also missed being the kid in the photo with her mother Fira, the kid who was clearly absolutely happy and overjoyed playing with her mother, missed the days of piano lessons or the days when her other would sing to her that lullaby to calm her if she was upset over anything. If she was honest with herself, seeing her seven year old self was hard to see as she felt like she was barely recognisable. Not because the kid in the photo didn't look like her, it was clear it was, but because of the happy demeanor her child self was expressing in the photo. Before she could let herself cry in front of Cliff and Chas, she stood up and went to the spare bedroom to hide the photos away once more in the inside pocket of her bag. With that done and a few deep breaths to compose herself, she returned and sat back down where she was before as Dan had arrived.
She said her hello to Dan as he arrived as she always did to anyone whilst trying to make herself think of anything but the 'meeting' with Zan and her old photos. She used the time every now and then to see how Fia was doing helping Cal, easily seeing how much Fia was appreciating it, even now and then seeing a smile and chuckle escape her kid. "here you go sis" Fia said without even thinking about it as she handed her the next thing she was doing for Cal.
She couldn't understand why she was feeling it from photos of people she didn't have in her life anymore, but low and behold she was. She missed those days of Sam coming in all bubbly and energetic, a stark contrast to Kay's quiet and reserved demeanor or tired state from spending all night painting or drawing. She missed having her sister there telling her to take breaks so she didn't burn herself out, or bringing in food and drink when it was near damn impossible to snap her out of her creative state. She also missed being the kid in the photo with her mother Fira, the kid who was clearly absolutely happy and overjoyed playing with her mother, missed the days of piano lessons or the days when her other would sing to her that lullaby to calm her if she was upset over anything. If she was honest with herself, seeing her seven year old self was hard to see as she felt like she was barely recognisable. Not because the kid in the photo didn't look like her, it was clear it was, but because of the happy demeanor her child self was expressing in the photo. Before she could let herself cry in front of Cliff and Chas, she stood up and went to the spare bedroom to hide the photos away once more in the inside pocket of her bag. With that done and a few deep breaths to compose herself, she returned and sat back down where she was before as Dan had arrived.
She said her hello to Dan as he arrived as she always did to anyone whilst trying to make herself think of anything but the 'meeting' with Zan and her old photos. She used the time every now and then to see how Fia was doing helping Cal, easily seeing how much Fia was appreciating it, even now and then seeing a smile and chuckle escape her kid. "here you go sis" Fia said without even thinking about it as she handed her the next thing she was doing for Cal.