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Symbolic Animal of Gallifrey
Elliott listened with interest to Cliff's theory that if said memories were actually repressed he might be able to access them using his powers. It was an interesting angle. He knew that MindWalkers could access the repressed memories of others, and he himself had sense people's repressed and locked away memories when he was in their heads. He'd never mentioned it, but he could feel a wall of resistance blocking him out from certain parts of Kay's mind, though whether that was down to memories Kay had repressed, or ancestral memories she hadn't yet figured out how to access he didn't know. It was an invasion of privacy to look any further so he hadn't. John had a whole chunk of memories he repressed or shoved to one side, which Elliott knew were centred mainly around Newcastle and his time in Ravenscar asylum. Jay also had memories she preferred not to dwell on, but out of all of them, Rinaa had been the worst, she had a whole vault of memories she was trying to keep subdued, combined with the pain the medication couldn't quite rid her off, there was a sense when he was in her mind that all it would take was one place psychic blow for her defences to crumble and for everything to unleash itself.
"I've already made my mind up, it didn't require that much thinking. The whole reason for coming here was to make peace with that part of my past in all it's aspects." The way Elliott emphasised the word 'all' made it pretty clear what his decision was. "If I don't do anything to investigate it now, I'll just start obsessing over what might be up there in my head, and therefore never really get over what happened. Which means there'd be no point in me coming back here, and dragging everybody along with me in the first place, and as far as getting closure goes this trip would be a failure. I'd rather have it confirmed one way or another, having that kind of memory gap as a Mindwalker, it's like a violation. It's hard to explain when you don't experience and re-experience memories like I do, but now that I know there's a gap, it's unbelievably disconcerting."
"I've already made my mind up, it didn't require that much thinking. The whole reason for coming here was to make peace with that part of my past in all it's aspects." The way Elliott emphasised the word 'all' made it pretty clear what his decision was. "If I don't do anything to investigate it now, I'll just start obsessing over what might be up there in my head, and therefore never really get over what happened. Which means there'd be no point in me coming back here, and dragging everybody along with me in the first place, and as far as getting closure goes this trip would be a failure. I'd rather have it confirmed one way or another, having that kind of memory gap as a Mindwalker, it's like a violation. It's hard to explain when you don't experience and re-experience memories like I do, but now that I know there's a gap, it's unbelievably disconcerting."