gh0stwriter
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Landon Sinclaire
Everything was fine.
Just. Fine.
The lie he’d been telling himself since Lock-In. The lie he’d been telling him since his sister found out about him and Gen. The lie he’d been telling himself since Mike took a cheap shot. The lie he’d been telling himself since Evie kicked him out.
Alright. She didn’t kick him out. She told him that either he left or she would. Figured it was best, given the circumstances, that he was the one to go. He didn’t want to. He wanted to stay. Fight it out. Like he and Evie did any other time that they got into an argument.
But this wasn’t an argument. This wasn’t like the other times. This was a betrayal. This was uncharted territory for the Sinclaire siblings. They’d never been in a real fight. Not one that had lasted this long and since Evie has avoided him at school, not answered his calls and blocked him on Twitter. He was pretty sure she was never going to speak to him again.
He hated it. He hated it so fucking much. He’d failed at every relationship he attempted, but Evie was always there. She was his constant. His protector. His conscience. She was his big sister. He couldn’t imagine life without her and when he did…well…it wasn’t a good look.
If he could just explain. If she’d listen. Understand that he didn’t want to hurt her. That Gen didn’t want to hurt her. They fucked up. Feelings. Emotions. They muddled the waters and left him and Gen feeling lonely. It was his fault. Gen could say otherwise, but he knew the truth. He’d pursued it. Flirted. Kept flirting.
And when they were at a low for reasons no one needed to know about, they slipped up. Then they slipped again. And again. And Gen became his friend. Someone he cared about. Someone who was there for him and he could talk to. And why would Evie have a problem with that?
Maybe it would have been different if he had the balls to tell her. But Gen didn’t want to and, to be honest, he didn’t either. He hated lying to her. Keeping this secret, but what if Evie would have told them to stop? What if Evie would have done exactly what she was doing now?
It wasn’t the first time he lied to her. Or at least withheld information, but it had to be the last. Hurting her. Knowing that he caused the pain that she was going through was the worst feeling. A feeling he wasn’t able to shake.
He was miserable without her.
Jace had been kind of enough to let him move in. It was supposed to just be for a few days until Evie cooled off, but…that wasn’t happening, so he sent for the rest of his things and made sure to update the apartment. Jace was happy. He didn’t show it, but Landon knew deep down that Jace enjoyed having him there.
Landon tried to be a good roommate. Cleaned up after himself. Let Jace pick the movie, which he never did cause he hated movies. He made popcorn. All the things that Evie and he used to do. Still wasn’t the same. It wasn’t Jace’s fault. He just wasn’t anything like Evie.
Jace was a great friend. The best. He even tried to fix things with he and Evie, but…it didn’t work out. Jace wasn’t really a people person. It wasn’t his fault, it was just how it was, but he was thankful for the gesture. He tried his best. He didn’t know what he’d do if Jace and he hadn’t made up.
“Ow…FUCK!” He shouted as he collapsed onto the bed holding his big toe and groaning in pain. He rolled over and stood up. Jace’s anti-spooning wall had been destroyed and now laid among every piece of clothing Landon owned.
It had to be here. The shirt Evie had picked out for him. He needed the perfect outfit. He was talking to Evie today. He was gonna make her talk to him. They were going to settle this. He was going to make it right and everything would go back to normal.
A wide smile formed on his lips as he discovered the shirt. He quickly dressed and did his hair. It was going to be a busy day. Make up with Evie. Work on the Arts Festival project. Figure out how to break the news to Jace that he was moving back in with Evie after they make up. The guy will be devastated, but he’ll understand. That’s just how Jace was.
He fixed his hair and checked himself in the mirror. He looked good. Dressed for the California weather, but also looked the perfect mixture of hopeful and ‘I’m sorry I fucked your best friend and lied to you about it’. He didn’t want Evie to think he was dismissing her feelings. He just wanted her to know that he missed her and that he was sorry.
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The ride to school was quiet. He needed to think of the perfect words. Something she couldn’t shut down. “Hi.” And “Hey.” Didn’t seem to work. Probably cause she didn’t get to actually see how sad his face was. Context was always lost over text.
He took a deep breath and exited his car. The moment of truth was at hand as he acted as if everything was peachy keen. No problems here. He entered the school and looked toward Evie’s locker. She’d be there any moment. All he had to do was wait.
The longer he stood there, the more nervous he became. She had shut him down on Twitter. Blocked him. Gen’s advice to just leave her be rang in his head. Maybe…he bolted down the hall and entered the nearest bathroom. Made his way to the sink to splash some cold water on his face.
Everything was gonna be fine.
Right?
mood
optimistic and terrified
location
school bathroom
outfit
clothes duh
optimistic and terrified
location
school bathroom
outfit
clothes duh
playing...
just give me a reason
just give me a reason
by pink
mentions
Evie, Jace, Gen, Mike
interactions
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tags
ohdittoh
Evie, Jace, Gen, Mike
interactions
you'll see
tags
ohdittoh