Faith Eliza Cord
Four Thousand Club
Katarina, listening to what Steven is saying, tries to imagine not having brothers and sisters. She can't do it. Ever since the moment she was born, she always had Xander, and it wasn't too long before she had Chris and Kyle too. Alice had been further along down the road, but even so...even now...it seems incomprehensible, unbearable, to think that for the rest of her life, there would be no Alice.
There had always been someone to play with, someone to talk to, someone that she belonged with as a group, even if she was sick to death of them all. A thousand times Katarina had wished she could have some time to herself, that she could only have to worry about herself, but a million times over she had been glad that her siblings were there. She could not imagine being the only child in her parents' home, with all their wrath directed on her alone. True, it was stressful to have all her siblings to worry about, to have to try to protect Chris and Kyle and even Xander at times...it was stressful now to feel that she had to be responsible for them, that every decision she made was her failing them. But what would she do now, if she was all on her own? What would she do if she had lost not only Alice, but the others too?
She would not want to be alive.
She is half listening as Steven continues, thinking solemnly about this, but looks up when he mentions how beautiful Chris is. Her first instinct is some jealousy, but when he goes on to mention Xander jokingly too, she smiles.
"Yeah, yeah, you're pretty too, that what you wanted to hear?"
There had always been someone to play with, someone to talk to, someone that she belonged with as a group, even if she was sick to death of them all. A thousand times Katarina had wished she could have some time to herself, that she could only have to worry about herself, but a million times over she had been glad that her siblings were there. She could not imagine being the only child in her parents' home, with all their wrath directed on her alone. True, it was stressful to have all her siblings to worry about, to have to try to protect Chris and Kyle and even Xander at times...it was stressful now to feel that she had to be responsible for them, that every decision she made was her failing them. But what would she do now, if she was all on her own? What would she do if she had lost not only Alice, but the others too?
She would not want to be alive.
She is half listening as Steven continues, thinking solemnly about this, but looks up when he mentions how beautiful Chris is. Her first instinct is some jealousy, but when he goes on to mention Xander jokingly too, she smiles.
"Yeah, yeah, you're pretty too, that what you wanted to hear?"