Dazzle
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TL;DR Meeting up with friends
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Astraea Dupante
there are so many beautiful reasons to be happy....
Astraea turned as Carson took the bottle from her hands, sticking her tongue out and pressing it in between her lips as Carson spoke. She was glad she was turned away from her, Carson wouldn’t have been able to see the color changing on her cheeks as her face began to heat up. “I’m not, not, attracted to you, Carson.” Astraea used one hand to scoop up her blonde hair, holding it up so that Carson could get every inch of her back.
“You’re soo pretty! How could anyone not be attracted to you.” She smiled as she looked over her shoulder to meet Carson’s eyes. Resting her chin on her shoulder where Carson had just covered with sunscreen. Her eyes were soft, as she looked down at the ground behind her.
Astraea never really thought much about her heart beating faster when she was around Carson. Or the reasons that her face seemed to burn up so much when Carson started to flirt with her. Astraea liked guys, she never even considered dating a girl. It just wasn’t a thought that crossed her mind.
But she did seem to always take notice when she a pretty girl would cross the street, and smile brightly when one would compliment her outfit. Astraea didn’t seem to fully grasp that being attracted to someone meant more than realizing someone was just attractive.
Astraea could only roll her eyes as Carson said that ‘Thad, wasn’t so bad.’ Her problem lay where Carson used the sentence to say that Thad was actually an okay boyfriend. “I think you should give Hassim some time. He just moved here, he’s probably just settling in.”
She paused for a moment before turning around to face Carson. “Plus, sometimes you do come on a bit strong.” She said these words a bit tense, like they were struggling to leave her throat. “Maybe he’s just not into that?” Astraea shrugged, tilting her chin and pressing it against her shoulder again as she twisted back and forth slightly.
“Oh… I don’t know… I don’t think anyone would really ever like me in that way.” Astraea laid back on her towel again. She felt awkward talking about her attractions, she felt like she didn’t really know what it was like to have a crush. She was always too afraid of rejection to give anything a try. She didn’t want to let that wall down. “I mean, Alexi is cute, but you just said he’s into Jo so….” She trailed off. “And I don’t know anyone who wouldn’t find Hassim attractive, I am pretty sure that Artie almost passed out when he first saw him.” She snickered at the end, thinking about how starstruck Artemis had looked when Hassim showed up to the festival.
“I’m really okay though, focusing on school is taking up most of my time anyways.”
code by valen t.