KyloGlenn
either born in hell or heaven sent
Rhaegar played along with the lie her sister was spinning, about how her illness wasn’t usually so bad. Saige was fairly certain Rhaegar saw through that, but she appreciated that he didn’t mention it then. If it was something he wanted to confront her about, which she supposed would be a reasonable thing to bring up in their position, it was best done in private. Not a busy market in King’s Landing.
“Right, that makes sense,” Elia agreed with Rhaegar, almost wanting to convince herself of that. She knew she couldn’t. She’d always been away she was not as healthy as the people around her. But it had never been a source of insecurity for her. Well, she’d had her moments. But her family reassured her, her mother especially. Their mother certainly felt guilt that Elia was how she was.
But it wasn’t until she realized she had a purpose to fulfill, someone to impress, that she dwelled on all she couldn’t do.
“And I don’t think drinking so much wine helped, either. She doesn’t drink much,” Saige spoke, mainly so Elia could feel the focus wasn’t on her physical ailment any longer. “I’ll take the blame for that one, I should’ve known better to insist on it. To either of you. Just because I want to drink an entire seas worth of wine doesn’t mean everyone else does.”
Elia cracked a smile, shaking her head. “No, I’m capable of making my own decisions.” She was the older sister. “Thank you, all of you, for being understanding.” It was genuine. Even if she was almost certain Rhaegar was just being nice, that still meant much to her. And she felt bad. She knew it wasn’t desirable of a potential wife. She breathed in slowly, even just standing still helped.
Saige gently squeezed her sister in a one armed hug. “I’m going to go find something for you to drink, yeah?” Saige decided as she looked around, surely someone sold tea around here, or if nothing else she could get some wine.
Saige was used to Elia’s pace. Even after spending years away, she could go home to Dorne and slip back into her routine with Elia. Simply because they all grew up together. It was something to get used to, and not all could become accustomed to it. Saige wondered where Rhaegar would land.
-
Cersei would be lying if she said she minded talking to Aemilia. Not then, at least. Cersei still couldn’t say she liked the woman, but the previous animosity was gone for the moment. Cersei hadn’t had the chance to talk to many others who lost their mother, other than her brother.
And Aemilia made her feel less guilty, for not remembering her mother distinctly. As she hadn’t talked to many, she wasn’t sure if it was normal or not. Or if there was something wrong with her. Maybe there was something wrong with both her and Aemilia, but Cersei would still take it.
Aemilia’s words resonated with her. Having memories she holds onto, but otherwise…
The redhead suggested Cersei consult her father, ask him about her mother. Cersei immediately shook her head at that. “My father doesn’t talk about her.” She simply stated. “I’ve tried before, but his answers were always clipped, or he’d find some way to end the conversation.” He of all people would be the best source to ask about Joanna.
And then Aemilia suggested her aunt, Genna. Cersei hadn’t thought of asking her about Joanna before. She worried if she asked, Genna would tell Tywin. If she asked her uncles, they would. But Genna, she wasn’t particularly likely to run to her brother. “Yes, maybe I’ll ask her.” Cersei mused. Whenever she saw her again. Or maybe she’d write to her.
It was when Aemilia offered to hear what Cersei could remember, to keep those memories alive, that she paused for a moment. She blinked. She had to force herself to remember that Aemilia was not her friend. That she could be after something. But the softness of her voice seemed all too genuine. She wrung her hand behind her back as she considered the offer. “I...I don’t remember as much as I want to. I can’t remember her face exactly. Everyone says I look like her.” She wouldn’t know. There were paintings she could look at, although Tywin had them taken down years ago. But paintings were never truly accurate. “I can remember things she said to us, but I can’t remember it in her voice. I do remember sitting up in the evening with her while she sewed.” Those were fond memories, the peace of them all. Before she knew what the world really consisted of.
“And I remember the perfume she wore, sometimes I’ll smell something like it.” She wasn’t sure where her mother had gotten it, but Cersei would know if she ever smelled it again. “My father still has a bottle at home,” Cersei mused. She used to sneak into his chambers, for multiple reasons, but often to remember her mother. It was obvious Tywin had loved Joanna, and that is what gave her hope that she’d have a marriage like that, one day. “My mother was nice. Loving.” She remembered that distinctly, for it was an even balance with Joanna and Tywin, who was not affectionate in the least. And it was like a splash of cold water in her face when her mother passed.
“Right, that makes sense,” Elia agreed with Rhaegar, almost wanting to convince herself of that. She knew she couldn’t. She’d always been away she was not as healthy as the people around her. But it had never been a source of insecurity for her. Well, she’d had her moments. But her family reassured her, her mother especially. Their mother certainly felt guilt that Elia was how she was.
But it wasn’t until she realized she had a purpose to fulfill, someone to impress, that she dwelled on all she couldn’t do.
“And I don’t think drinking so much wine helped, either. She doesn’t drink much,” Saige spoke, mainly so Elia could feel the focus wasn’t on her physical ailment any longer. “I’ll take the blame for that one, I should’ve known better to insist on it. To either of you. Just because I want to drink an entire seas worth of wine doesn’t mean everyone else does.”
Elia cracked a smile, shaking her head. “No, I’m capable of making my own decisions.” She was the older sister. “Thank you, all of you, for being understanding.” It was genuine. Even if she was almost certain Rhaegar was just being nice, that still meant much to her. And she felt bad. She knew it wasn’t desirable of a potential wife. She breathed in slowly, even just standing still helped.
Saige gently squeezed her sister in a one armed hug. “I’m going to go find something for you to drink, yeah?” Saige decided as she looked around, surely someone sold tea around here, or if nothing else she could get some wine.
Saige was used to Elia’s pace. Even after spending years away, she could go home to Dorne and slip back into her routine with Elia. Simply because they all grew up together. It was something to get used to, and not all could become accustomed to it. Saige wondered where Rhaegar would land.
-
Cersei would be lying if she said she minded talking to Aemilia. Not then, at least. Cersei still couldn’t say she liked the woman, but the previous animosity was gone for the moment. Cersei hadn’t had the chance to talk to many others who lost their mother, other than her brother.
And Aemilia made her feel less guilty, for not remembering her mother distinctly. As she hadn’t talked to many, she wasn’t sure if it was normal or not. Or if there was something wrong with her. Maybe there was something wrong with both her and Aemilia, but Cersei would still take it.
Aemilia’s words resonated with her. Having memories she holds onto, but otherwise…
The redhead suggested Cersei consult her father, ask him about her mother. Cersei immediately shook her head at that. “My father doesn’t talk about her.” She simply stated. “I’ve tried before, but his answers were always clipped, or he’d find some way to end the conversation.” He of all people would be the best source to ask about Joanna.
And then Aemilia suggested her aunt, Genna. Cersei hadn’t thought of asking her about Joanna before. She worried if she asked, Genna would tell Tywin. If she asked her uncles, they would. But Genna, she wasn’t particularly likely to run to her brother. “Yes, maybe I’ll ask her.” Cersei mused. Whenever she saw her again. Or maybe she’d write to her.
It was when Aemilia offered to hear what Cersei could remember, to keep those memories alive, that she paused for a moment. She blinked. She had to force herself to remember that Aemilia was not her friend. That she could be after something. But the softness of her voice seemed all too genuine. She wrung her hand behind her back as she considered the offer. “I...I don’t remember as much as I want to. I can’t remember her face exactly. Everyone says I look like her.” She wouldn’t know. There were paintings she could look at, although Tywin had them taken down years ago. But paintings were never truly accurate. “I can remember things she said to us, but I can’t remember it in her voice. I do remember sitting up in the evening with her while she sewed.” Those were fond memories, the peace of them all. Before she knew what the world really consisted of.
“And I remember the perfume she wore, sometimes I’ll smell something like it.” She wasn’t sure where her mother had gotten it, but Cersei would know if she ever smelled it again. “My father still has a bottle at home,” Cersei mused. She used to sneak into his chambers, for multiple reasons, but often to remember her mother. It was obvious Tywin had loved Joanna, and that is what gave her hope that she’d have a marriage like that, one day. “My mother was nice. Loving.” She remembered that distinctly, for it was an even balance with Joanna and Tywin, who was not affectionate in the least. And it was like a splash of cold water in her face when her mother passed.