Twisted Sisters (one on one)

[Writerwanabe]

Blair let out a happy hum rather than speak again, still getting a few after shocky tingles. "mmm." she reached for Shayne and pulled her in for a gentle kiss and caressed her back with the other hand. "I could never be freaked out love." she cooed softly pulled their bodies together again. She did finally release her and they went about washing. But Blairs eyes rarely stray from the younger woman so near to her, and embedded in her heart like a deeply rooted seed


When they got out blair brushed Shaynes hair because she could, then brushed her own out. She stood in front of the mirror using the towel to dry her hair in nothing but her birthday suit. The taller woman was bent to pull on her sweats over her panties when Shayne said she was hunger. She switched to put on her jeans again. Jeans and a t shirt with her new hoodie she grabbed Shaynes' up as well as the girls flip flops.


"Kay. Lets go get something then." since the attack it was hard pressed to see one without the other. Blair never left Shaynes side other than for the other woman to shower, and now use the toilet since her hands are healed. But she never left the hotel rooms without Shay at her side. Not anymore. She would not risk another run away corrupt cop coming after her sister. She was loathe to leave her side before the attack but the after math of that event had left her even more paranoid to leave her sister alone. Someday she would not be so bad, after she'd trained her up a little, either at a dojo by her own instructor or in the comfort of her living room.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Shayne let her sister come down. She was very surprised her sister had even enjoyed her touch. She watched her with a small smile. She was glad she could please her sister. She still felt like she could do more for her,but wasn't sure how."good I just don't want you afraid of me as much as you don't want me afraid of you." She said."which I am not."she said. She watched her sister with a small smile. She liked to watch her sister and would love to do more with her. They got out ad she dried off.


Her sister brushed her hair it felt nice as she went through it. She had Blair braid her hair and then they dressed. She told Blair she was hungry. She slipped into her sweat pants and sweat shirt. She put in the flip flops and they walked for the car. She asked Blair to give her a piggy back ride to the truck. She laughed as she did. She kissed her cheek, and got in the truck. They went to grab food then go back to the room. They ate and comfy in bed. Shayne smiled and kissed her sister on the lips. She nuzzled in and went to sleep on her sister. Shayne slowly woke in the morning with a small smile. It was so nice to be warm and loved. She rolled to her back and gently ran her hand along her sister's arm.


DeathToAllBetrayers

 

[Writerwanabe]

Blair was surprised herself, not that she could handle and even enjoy Shays' touch because she was the only one, but that she'd not had to fake her pleasure. It had honesty felt good to be at her sisters mercy. At her confession older, drew younger close and kissed her softly stroking her cheek. "It brings me great joy that you can be close to me like this and not be afraid." she said softly, "You are the only one for me Shay, no one else can touch me like you can." she shook her head and kissed her softly again. "Not even Macy or Emma can get as close to me as you can, and they helped me to help you."


She hummed and kissed her sisters head and hair as she brushed it. She was loving and tender as was her way with Shayne, using her fingers to massage her scalp a bit before braiding it up for her. Where Shay was dressed in sweats, Blair completely dressed. She would not be caught in flip flops and sweats when she needed sneakers and jeans with her knife and now ever present hand gun hidden away under her shirt. "Piggy back" she agreed. When they'd first been reunited this wasn't as easy with them both being less than healthy, however now that both were in better shape not only was it fun, but comfortable for both.


No more bones poked where they should not, the short trip was not exhausting and Blair even made it longer by skipping in loops, sprinting zig zags through the parking lot and having an honest to goodness good time. The kiss on the cheek made it all worth it when she set her sister in the truck. They got fast food again, Blair promising a good home cooked meal when they got home the next afternoon or evening. Humming she carried sister who carried food back to the room in the lodge they had for the night. She almost suggest they sit and eat in the large hall where a fire place burned, there were people talking at tables some playing the huge checker boards or some chess, but the room was better.


Come morning, Blair woke with the sun, she lay watching Shayns sleeping face for a long time, only she ended up drifting off again listening to her even breathing. Nothing like the shattered breaths she'd take when having a nightmare. She woke again when Shay rolled off of her, and she cracked an eye open. To see if she was just going to the bathroom, only to see that she did not leave the bed but instead stroked her arm. The once hoodie she'd wear to sleep had given to a long sleeve and finally t shirt as they hit warmer areas of the country and as she got more comfortable with her scars. She thought Shayne was beautiful but saw her own scars as ugly reminders of what she wanted to forget.


"Hey sleepy head." she crooned rolling over carefully, to not elbow or knock into Shay, so that she was over top of her. She kept all of her weight off of her smaller sister and leaned slowly into a kiss should she not welcome it. "Did you sleep well?" she asked, knowing the answer seeing as she did not remember waking in the night, and that they had not moved until waking from how she remembered falling asleep. "Are you excited to see you're new home?"

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Shayne turned her head as her sister woke. She ran her hand over her arm and smiled at her gently. She watched her and was glad that she had come back for her. Right now she would be huddled in a corner trying not to sleep or bleed every where. He would normally drag her out in the morning rape her and then beat her. Then just leave Shayne in a crying heap on the floor. Sometime he come back for more. She had to always say she loved it and fake it with him. She had to make herself tell him she loved it when he did that. She sighed and finally smiled at her sister. She still felt slightly weird not getting beaten or raped daily and being told she was worthless or a slut.


Blair was watching her. She loved to call Shayne beautiful and it made Shayne blush and shake her head no. She still wasn't in the right mind set to say thank you or even accept a compliment. Blair had moved over top of her and asked how she slept. She shrugged,"I am pretty sure I slept okay." She said in a small voice. Her sister leaned down to kiss her and she moved her lips to hers."Yeah I an definitely ready to see where you live. I can't wait to go to a real college." Shayne said.


Shayne just laid under her. She but her bottom lip and reached her hands tentatively to her sister's back. She pulled her to her allowing Blair to put her weight down a bit. She pulled her sister in and kissed her gently on the lips. Her hands ran the length of her sister's body gently. She stop at her sister's thighs and pull her hands back up to her shoulders and down again. She liked to touch her sister her back gently arched up into her sister's grasp. She kinda wanted to repeat what happened the night before in the tub,but she new they had to go,so she laid back on her pillow with a sigh.


DeathToAllBetrayers

 

[Writerwanabe]

Blair as careful as she always was with Shayne, not to hurt her, not to upset her, not trigger her, to not remind her of the bad. She was happy as she was able to look down at the smaller woman and not see her cringe or start to shake. It made her feel good to know that Shay was comfortable with her, even after all that had happened to them, they could still be close to each other.


"Very good." she crooned happy that their sleeping together, not the sex, but just the sharing of space or a bed was enough to let them both sleep easily. She stroked her sisters hair gently and smiled warmer. "I'm excited for you to see it, I uh, I hope you like it." she'd worked really hard on Shaynes room especially, though she was unsure if Shay would even use it now. "You know it's not just where we live right? It's home."


She was ready to move off of Shay when she saw her biting her lip, afraid it was too close, too much and too soon. But then she felt Shays fingers, questioning and tentative at first then she seemed to get more comfortable with touching her and it brought a warm smile to her face. She liked Shay touching her as much as she liked to touch.


As they kissed she sighed, relaxed and happy, weight gentle against her sister even as she was allowed to put it on her. She was happy in the kiss, but she too hungered for more, she'd been so limited in how she could pleasure Shayne in the bath, she wanted to show her all the ways of pleasure. She groaned softly when they broke and said, "We have to check out, or else I'd ask if you wanted to..." she paused and moved her weight from her sister and instead of finishing thought said, "When we get home, yeah?"

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Shayne looked at her and nods. They had to go."I want to but we do have to check out. Yes when we get home." She said. She reluctantly got up and went to dress in normal clothes. She put on dark jeans with rips in them, her black v neck she loved to wear. She pulled a black hoodie over and put converse on. She was glad Blair hadn't said anything about her small tattoos or tongue ring. She had the nose piercing and belly pierced before Blair had left. She wanted to get snake bites on her lips and die her hair black. She would have to ask Blair if she be okay with it. She seemed okay with everything else.


Shayne finished dressing and sighed as she played with her tongue piercing. She sighed and put it back in her mouth. She walked over to grab her stuff and pack her bag."Blair? How would you feel about me getting snake bites or another tattoo?" She asked the girl."I just ask cause you haven't really mentioned any if the other stuff."she said. She played with her tongue piercing. Maybe she hadn't known about it.


Shayne finally had her bags packed and helped her sister load the truck. She looked around and put sunglasses on her eye's. It was bright out. She still wore dark and long sleeve clothing even though it was sunny. She wasn't sure why but she just wanted to wear them. She was actually kinda excited to go back. She looked at Blair with a small smile. Was her sister mad at her she wasn't sure if she could make her mad. She didn't want to test her limits.


DeathToAllBetrayers

 

[Writerwanabe]

Blair felt like her heart was singing when Shayne said she did want to, just when they were home. And she called it home, not 'your place', that made her happier still. She almost pulled Shay into another kiss at it. Instead she got up to go to the bathroom. She took care of her morning duty, brushed hair and teeth before washing her face and exiting to find Shayne dressed. She hoped for more color, but to see Shayne dress how she was comfortable, was comforting. She'd have to get her some leggings to wear under her ripped jeans though. It got too cold for that sometimes and she worried about her health. She herself hadn't been properly dressed for the north west weather and spent months sick with this or that cold related problem.


She herself dressed in her thick jeans, wool socks and heavy boots, a green wife beater under a green tshirt with a green and blue plaid shirt over that. She could not wear white wife beaters, seeing the cursed things brought flash backs. But she liked the layers and so when Macy found out she got together a bunch of the cursed things, with different buckets of dye, and had Blair dye them all. It helped with her wardrobe as well as her panic attacks, it was only white ones that bothered her. She pulled her new hoodie from the Forest of mysteries on top and stopped.


"Hummmm." she thought about it, she did rather enjoy the tongue ring, and she thought the tattoos were nice, if it was what she wanted. "Sure love." she smiled and straightened from where she had finished lacing her boots and moved closer to Shay catching her jaw lightly so they'd look at each other. "If you want them, then sure. I might get something done too?" she pulled her in for a quick hot kiss, slipping her tongue into her mouth to probe the ball on the top of the piercing. Then she was gone, moving to her bag to pack it. They needed to hurry or be charged another night even if they didn't stay.


With their bags packed and everything taken from the room, they packed the truck up, and went to turn the key to the room in. Blair helped Shayne up, now more for the pleasure of touching her than because it was needed, and went around to the back to get an arm full of water bottles for the cooler in the back seat. She didn't start the truck right away though, rather she turned so she could face her sister. Her hands reached out, finger tips lightly touching her tattoos. "I noticed them, but didn't want to ask questions. In case Micky Finn got really good." she too had a tattoo though it was ugly and badly done, thanks to one of her fathers friends who fancied himself a tattoo artist. "You are lovely, your tattoos are lovely, and I think the snake bites will be hot." she leaned in and kissed her again tonguing the ball on her tongue. "And there is much to learn about the uses that thing has." she winked at that then pulled away so she could get them on the move.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Shayne smiled as her sister pulled her into another kiss. She had brushed her hair and teeth out. She liked her dark colored clothing. She was ready and decided to put her hair up in a pony tail. She was comfortable this. Her sister liked to wear bright colors and wanted Shayne to wear bright colors. Shayne had never been the one fro bright colors even before things started happening. She was packing up the back of the truck and smiled as her sister said she liked her things. She was glad, cause she loved them and wanted more.


Shayne smiled as her sister kissed her and used her tongue. There tongues wared lightly. Her tongue ring ran over her sister's. When she pulled back Shayne laughed."What oh no my friend got me a fake ID and we did this a while ago." She said."I use to get in a lot of trouble while you were gone. She said. She sighed and shrugged."oh maybe we could get a tattoo together. Similar in the same spot."she said."you would like snake bites?"she asked Blair.


Blair helped her into the truck and she sighed. She sat in her seat and buckled up. Her sister turned and kissed her playing with her tongue ring again. She smiled and laughed."Oh trust me I know the uses of it. Only reason he didn't rip it out of my tongue." She shiver slightly and leaned back."Come on lets go get some food and go home."she said. they drove home and Shayne looked around they got back around late afternoon. She hoped out and played with her tongue ring as she looked around. She put her jacket on it was slightly cold.


DeathToAllBetrayers

 

[Writerwanabe]

In response to the question of snake bites, Blair kissed her lips where they would someday be in answer. "I'd like that. We can come up with something that'll work, I'm sure." She was humming a little to herself until she realized what exactly she'd said and how it could be and was a trigger. She cursed her stupid brain, mouth, and filter that was apparently broken as Shay leaned back. "Sorry." she said softly, knowing she'd messed up.


They stopped for a late breakfast, late lunch and early dinner, Blair explained. "I know I said I wanted to cook you a good home cooked meal, but I asked my friends to clean the fridge out so nothing would spoil. I won't have any fresh stuff just frozen and nah. So we need to shop but not tonight."


Once parked in her usual spot in the lot next to her building, Blair got out of the truck and went to get their bags. The building itself was plain but the grass was green in the 'yard' and the trees and vines that grew around them in a decorative placing was nice. The two trees that were in their decorative area were called the sister trees. To separate trees had twisted and grown together, their canopy giving shade to the ivy and part of the yard. "Those are the sister trees." Blair said pointing them out as she lead Shayne towards her door.


Someone had used window chalk to write, "Welcome home." on the window that faced the yard. Blair had friends here, people who cared for her, and she hoped desperately that Shayne could feel the same way she did when she thought about it. "Soooo." she drawled while unlocking not one but four deadbolts before opening the door. "Its small but dining room, she turned to the left some, living room, Kitchen bath and bedrooms that way." it really was small, one could see most of the place from the doorway, but it was home.


Where there should have been a big table with chairs for dining, there was a small table against the wall in front of the door, and to the right was a large upright cage. It took a little under a third of that wall space and was colorful. The shelves and floor space of the cage had fleece secured to it, there were random bits hanging here and there as well as bird toys. But it was no bird who lived in the cage but rats. Three pretty girls to be exact. Blair walked to the cage, opened it and let the critters climb up her sleeves to her shoulders where they nuzzled and clung as she turned around.


There was guilt clear in her eyes as she said, "After leaving the dorms I had some... trouble. I was working hard in school and at work to save up money to come get you, so I have no idea where I had the time for it. Emma actually suggested I get a dog," she shook her head, "But I don't like dogs anymore. Cats only seem to like me if I have food for them so that seemed out too." she shrugged a little. "A girl brought her ratties to class once and well I ended up getting these sisters." she looked hopeful at Shayne, it would hurt but she'd find them new homes if Shay didn't like them, "I bet you can't guess their names?"


(I forgot what you wanted them to be named(

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Shayne got out and helped her sister unpack the back of the truck. She walked in and looked around."huh yeah, better then a chemical closet that is for sure."she said. She looked around and crossed her arms as she looked around. She didn't want to touch anything or make a mess. She looked over and saw her sister pulling out rats. She jumped and stepped back. She was not a fan of rodents or small animals. She watched them and made a face.


"Oh um yeah great, rodents gross." Shayne said. "I think I am gonna stay over here." She said. She nods to her sister."So room?" She asked. She got Blair to share to her room she put the bags down and sat on the bed."I like your place it is very nice." She said. She took her jacket and shoes off and went to lay on her back. She was full from dinner still, she sighed."man it feels good to be home and safe." She said.


She sat up and turned to her stomach."so bed then you can show me around tomorrow?"she asked her sister. She got up and undressed. Shayne folded her clothes up and put it on her bag so she didn't make a mess at all. She slipped under the covers and sighed. She smiled over at her sister and got comfy."you have a comfy bed you know that." Shayne said getting comfy. She was tired from the drive.


DeathToAllBetrayers

 

[Writerwanabe]

Blair saw her recoil and gave a small sad smile as she turned to put the rats back in their cage with as much tender care as she gave to Shayne. "Yes of course, pick of the two, they are the same." Both held a bed, closet and dresser and shelves along the top of the walls, one was not the same as it held her clothes in the closet and her books on top of the dresser and high shelves.


she came into the room bag in hand and putting her phone back in her pocket with the other. "Yeah no its not. It's boring." she said with a snort. "the only reason its not a mess is my friend who was watching my pets is a bit of a neat freak. He likes to clean things." and had a couple of ratties himself. She had arranged for him to come take them tomorrow.


"Sure." came Blairs muffled reply as she pulled her layered shirts off at once. "We can get food and stuff tomorrow. Class registration doesn't open again until monday. Matt said they had to close the site again, someone keeps goofing off and hacking the schools site." she stripped of her day clothes and pulled on her sweats. "It gets colder here at night even in the dead of summer. If you get cold tell me." She joined Shayne in bed and gazed at her dark ceiling. "Yeah, i read that you are supposed to test a bed for half an hour. This and the one in the other room are the same."

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Shayne nods and gets comfy in the bed."mmmm never heard that." She said. She rolled to her side and looked at Blair. She smiled at her and moved over to kiss her cheek."I think I will be okay." She said. Shayne rolled back over to her back and closed her eye's. She was starting to fall asleep her hand was on her sisters thigh. She was gently rubbing her thigh and sighed. She was comfy on the bed with her sister.


Shayne didn't think the apartment was plain. She thought it was nice and it was nice to actually sleep on a bed when she had been forced to sleep vertical. She finally fell asleep her hand on her sister's thighs. Her dreams were dark and she tossed and turned in her sleep. The whole tripped she had been drugged. Here she hadn't taken any, in her dream her stepfather had found her and was forcing her to sleep with him. He said she was a bitch for leaving her. He called her fat whore. As he raped her. He kept slapping her and beating her up saying she wasn't allowed to eat for weeks. She thought he was finished then he came back.


He was choking her to death when Shayne woke coughing out No please. She looked around and put a hand to her neck. It felt so real. She laid back on the bed and curled up into a ball in tears, she didn't want to wake Blair. She started to cry and hyperventilating into the pillow. Her body shook with tears and she kept crying, when she felt Blair she turned and cried into her sister holding on to her. Her body racked with sobs. She felt like she couldn't breathe which made her cry even more.


DeathToAllBetrayers

 

[Writerwanabe]

"I'm glad." Came her soft reply as her hand covered her sisters and stroked the back of her hand. She could not feel her skin against her thigh through the sweats, but it was a comforting weight. However that comfort evaporated the moment Shayne let out a whimpered moan. She'd not been taking the sleeping aids and it always took her longer to fall asleep that Shay, no matter how tired she was. Hearing the pained sound she rolled over to wrap around her sister as she had in the past and tried to calm her. Only it wasn't working, it was making her worse. Confused and hurt after several sharp elbows to the ribs, and a particularly nasty bite on her forearm from trying to sooth her Blair pulled away from Shay.


She said she was happy here, that she was comfortable with Blair, was it all a lie? Shay'd never fought her touch like this, never fought her in her dreams. Her touch had always been welcome before. What changed? Despite her outward appearances Blair was fragile and the doubt reduced her to a shriveled mass of brokenness. It was a lie, shayne didn't love her. It was a lie, Shayne wasn't comfortable around her. It was a Lie. She sat back, pressing herself into the wall on her side of the bed when Shayne woke. Afraid the far more frail woman would strike out at her in wakefulness as she had in sleep, pulling her dark sleeve to hide the bloodied bite. If she bleed and made a mess they'd be mad.


Blair watched pained as Shayne continued to suffer even as she woke, longing to reach out to her, comfort her. But it was a lie. When she started to hyperventilate however blair couldn't let it continue. Still worried for the condition of her heart after so much abuse. "Shh." she soothed through her own tears of confusion and pain both emotional and physical. "Shhh, it was a dream." she repeated over and over, she couldn't say she was safe here, safe now. Not when Shay did't feel safe with her.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Shayne sobbed into her sister. She wasn't touching her the same which meant in her night terrors she had hurt Blair and she never wanted to hurt her sister. She didn't mean it in her sleep. Her Night terrors were so real she would lash out at whom ever. She had done it once or twice to her mother so her mother would just restrain her at nights. Shayne sobbed and shook her head. She pushed herself away. Shayne got up and went to the corner sobbing.


She rocked herself back and fourth."I am sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. i am so sorry." She said in tears she couldn't stop her self from hyperventilating. She kept rocking herself and saying the sane thing over and over again. She hadn't meant it and didn't want to hurt Blair in any way. She cried into her knees. She wanted to be locked away in a room. Where she couldn't hurt anyone. Shayne shook violently. She was cold and her body couldn't breathe. She was trying to get air in,but it wasn't helping. She sobbed into her knees.


Shayne just kept apologizing through her tears and hyperventilating. She had however lock me up you shouldn't be near me I am bad. She just kept repeating herself as she rocked in the corner. Shayne hid her face from her sister and dug her nails into her arms so she drew blood. She would harm herself for hurting Blair. She was loathing herself for even falling asleep and being mean to the one person who saved her. She kept digging her nails deeper and deeper into her skin. She could feel the blood welling up,but didn't care.


DeathToAllBetrayers

 

[Writerwanabe]

Blairs touch was tender and caring as it ever was, but it was fearful of invoking anger. But he cried out regardless when Shayne pulled away from her and ran. her own tears flowing stronger now. She'd let herself be fooled into thinking they were healed. Her stomach twisted because her sister still wasn't breathing. The fear of loosing her was more than the fear of angering her.


she slipped off the bed and went to Shay, shaking and crying herself she wrapped around Shay and sobbed. begging her to breath, to forgive her, she was sorry so sorry. She wanted to make her feel better, but didn't know how.


When she could smell blood more than her own she froze her attempts and looked to her sisters hands. She grabbed them and forced them open pressing her clasping fingers around her own wrists to keep the half moons from growing deeper. With Shays' hands no longer damaging herself Blair focused attention else where.


She cupped her sisters face and not un-gently brought their faces together. "YOU. NEED. TO. BREATH." She said it slowly and calmly though tears were still in her eyes. Not pain but sorrow, she simply wasn't good enough to keep her safe. When it still didn't work she kissed her, and hoped that it wouldn't end with her tongue that much shorter.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Shayne had been locked in the corner. She didn't want to hurt her sister. She had felt horrible in every way."No I hurt you and I am so sorry." Shayne wailed. She leaned into Blair. She had never wanted to hurt Blair. The fact that she did killed her inside. She just dug her nails deeper into her already stinging skin. She still couldn't come to terms with breathing. She was having trouble grasping the breathing out part of breathing. Shayne was shaking and trying to calm down.


Her hands were pulled away from her arms. She was no longer self harming herself. She tried to hide from Blair when she cupped her face. She shook her head,to say she didn't need to or didn't want to she wasn't sure. She calmed down when Blair kissed her. Her whole body seemed to Relax into Blair. She leaned on Blair as she pulled away from the kiss. She looked down and looked at the blood and skin under her nails. She didn't want to look at her sister Blair, she had hurt her and didn't want to hurt her.


"I am sorry I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't know I had till..."she breathed in and sniffed."Till I woke up. I'll just grab my things and go. You don't need a monster like me here if I am going to hurt you and can't control it." Shayne said. She went to sit up and to go grab her things,but Blair pulled her back into her. Shayne was slightly confused,but she wrapped around Blair and buried her face."Your so kind to me and I go and hurt you I hate myself."she said."I love you Blair, i just can't hurt you ever again."she sobbed into Blair's chest starting to work herself up again to the point if Hyperventilating.


DeathToAllBetrayers

 

[Writerwanabe]

Blair was able to breath easier herself when Shayne took a proper breath. "Oh Shayne." she half sobbed as she held the smaller, younger female against her. Despite it all, they were still creatures of love, if only for each other "You started to cry and whimper in your dream, I thought it was like any other nightmare." she rubbed her back and cuddled her more closely. "I was holding you and you kept fighting me, I didn't understand what was going on. We've slept the past nights in peaceful rest together. I did not understand why it didn't work this time."


She didn't mind the biting marks in her arm that stung, it meant she was still alive which meant so was Shay, and she'd fight another day for that. Shay was in her arms now and that was all she desired. She cried out again when the younger woman moved to stand. "No." she moaned pulling her back when she tried to move away. She held her close and moved back to the bed, pulling the blanket up and around them, sheltering them from the other places and times.


"I love you Shayne, I don't care what you did!" She tucked her close and would not let her sister move from her grasp. She pet her and rocked her and held her close as she spoke calmly. "I didn't give you sleep aids before bed. You've had them since day one. I should have known this would happen letting you stop cold turkey. I did not expect it. That. Is. All. You are not at fault. You did NOTHING wrong. Please listen to what I say to you Love. I don't blame you for anything, anything at all. Please don't be upset. You are no monster, no animal, you are a beautiful, damaged woman. We are both broken I don't mind that you are as I am."

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Shayne stayed in her sister's grip and cried into Blair and clung to her. She just leaned into her sniffing sobs still wracking through her body. She felt her sister move her to the bed and hid herself into Blair. She cried and just clung to her sister her head hidden into her chest."You should blame me I am a horrible person." Shayne said and let out a sob. "I am sorry." She said clinging to Blair. Shayne did feel really bad, she had meant no harm to her sister. She felt like the worst person in the world.


"You should beat me or hurt me. I was horrible to you." Shayne said and whimpered into her. She didn't want to touch Blair in case she hurt her again but Blair had her hands trapped and she couldn't go back to digging her nails into her flesh like she wanted to. When she messed up she always got beaten why wasn't her sister mad or beating her. She wouldn't mind a good smack or being choked out. Just to know she was doing something wrong and stay back in her place like a frightened dog. She finally relaxed a bit into Blair.


Shayne sniffed and wiped at her eye's. Her arms were stinging and there was still blood welling up in them the blood had dripped down her arm. She was trying to ignore the pain when she started to cry in tears again. Shayne did feel really bad her whole body hurt from crying and she just laid sniffing into Blair. She clung to her and just kept her head buried like a ostrich in the sand.

Spoiler

changing the look cause it is different in my head

DeathToAllBetrayers

 

[Writerwanabe]

((KENZI!! but that only means something to you if you watch Lost Girl))


"Shhh my love." Blair said rocking her sister as she held her. When her crying had eased some and she was wiping at her eyes she caught her hands up again. "Look at me?" It was a request, not a demand or order. Her hands were gentle and her gaze full of love when Shayne did finally look up at her.


"You remember when you said you do no blame me for leaving?" When she got an answer from her Blair turned her arm over so that she could kiss the bloody marks on Shaynes flesh. The tang of it should have been a loathed taste, having tasted much of her own, but something about it being Shaynes made her not mind it so much.


"This is like that. I could not control that I had to leave in order to come back. YOU can not control the nightmares that he has cursed you with. I do not blame you for this." she kissed more of the marks between words, "We have been conditioned to take blame and expect punishment in all things we do and do not do." More kisses still. "To blame you for something you can not control, to allow you to blame yourself for it. Would make me a hypocrite, a horrible sister, and even worse lover. And I love you above all things."


She'd kissed away most of the blood, all that was wet enough to come away on her lips and some that had dried that came away with the soft flick of the tip of her tongue. "Please, do not worry so. You were fighting a foe that you could not harm. They start to fade after time, I still have dreams. Memories of what was done to me, but they are not every night, and never since we first slept in each others arms."

 

[Dark_Psycho]

(Sorry took a nap and watching third hobbit and yes love that show. I can't believe Kenz dies.)


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[Dark_Psycho]

Shayne stopped shaking and crying in Blair's arm's. Shayne looked up when she told her to it was an automatic response that had been beaten into her. She had been told that many times by her step father as he raped her. He wanted to watch her face as he pleasured himself in her. She after a while became submissive and started to not mind him touching her. Her body trying to defend against anymore trauma to her body.


When Blair asked her. She nodded. She remembers, she said it wasn't her fault and it wasn't she didn't rape and beat her daily he did. She watched Blair kiss where she had dug her nails into her arm.


Shayne just nods at Blair. She still felt awful. She still loathed herself for it. The voice in her mind kept repeating she was despicable and should starve for her crime against Blair. She was start to agree with the voice.


Shayne nods,she agreed with her sister,but still felt awful and wanted to puke."I think I am gonna be sick."she said. She got up ran to the bathroom to throw up. She had made herself cry so much She got sick. She kept throwing up,till she felt like her insides would burst. She wiped her mouth with toilet paper flushing it down she rinsed out her mouth and shook,she felt cold.


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[Dark_Psycho]

Stupid double posts

 

[Writerwanabe]

Blair just cuddled and pet Shaynes hair trying to get her to calm down, it didn't work though as her sister shot off her lap and into the bathroom. She followed, holding back hair and rubbing back. Once she'd finished rinsing her mouth Blair lifted her to sit on the counter. "Let me look at these>" she said softly as she looked more closely at the cuts in her arms. She wanted to smother them in ointment and put a bandaid on each on, but not all of them needed it.


One hand on Shayns knee, either for balance or maybe comfort, she squat to get the first aid kit out from under the sink. She kissed the sores and Shays face as she put the ointment on the cuts and used a gauze pad and vet wrap instead. "I love you." she said as she worked. "he is wrong about us. because he tried to make us into nothing but his play things with no emotion or feelings or thoughts." she grit her teeth, he'd told her that once, that he was turning them into nothing but a sack of meat he could fuck whenever he wanted. "Well he failed. Because I love you, and you love me."


Once finished Blair took Shay back up into her arms. "Lets go back to sleep. You'll need your rest, do you want a sleep aid?" she wasn't forcing it on her. She now knew what to expect and would handle it accordingly. she cradled Shay against her chest as she took them back to bed, but left the hall light on and the door cracked. A little light might make shay feel better.

 

[Dark_Psycho]

Shayne sniffed and shook as Blair helped her onto the sink her black hair was up in a messy bun. She was watching Blair clean up her self inflicted wounds. Her pale skin looked even paler. She cringed as Blair cleaned them out. It stung and badly a lot of blood ran down her arm as her sister cleaned her off. She just let her do it she sniffed a bit and watched her arm rinse clean and the bandage go on.


When Blair said she loved her Shayne nods."I love you too." she said through sniffles. She listened to her sister and watched her. What did she mean when she explained Shayne nodded quietly she was feeling sick to her stomach again. Blair took her back to bed, she shivered as she walked. Shayne wanted a sleep aid but she felt really sick still. She bids to wanting a sleep aid. She let Blair go get it. Before Blair got back she had to rush to the bathroom again to puke.


Shayne shook and sniffed as she heaved into the toilet. She had nothing left her system just stomach acid. She finished and leaned over the toilet her head on her arms. She sniffed and groaned, she must have caught the flu or something, because her body ached all over and she was shivering from being cold. She whimpered into the toilet and just laid there a bit till she felt Blair pick her up.


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[Writerwanabe]

Blair had settled Shayne on the bed and turned to her bed side table because that was where she kept the pills, only to have Shayne run off again. She followed and watched her throw up before leaving the doorway again. She could not fathom why she was sick unless it was nerves because she'd been pumping her full of antibiotics.


When she returned she carried a thick towel and warm blanket. When she lifted Shayne it was only long enough for the towel to be slipped under her knees. The blanket she wrapped around her before sitting beside her sister on the floor, ready to either hold her should she wish it, or simply sit near by so she was not alone. The hall light was still on as was the bathrooms. There was no darkness to be afraid of, and she hummed so there was no silence.