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Clara stared blankly into her lap, only vaguely aware of the world whooshing by outside the car window. A small part of her acknowledged that leaving a place she considered home should have felt just a trifle more momentous. To be fair, though, the events over the course of the past ten minutes hadn't exactly sunken in yet. Maybe it'd hit her tomorrow morning, or in a couple weeks from now... if she even had that long. You know, seeing as she couldn't even drink her morning coffee before having yet another deadly weapon aimed at her face? Those cops and their horrible guns might be in the rearview window for now, but her heart still beat like a time bomb. For the time being, she focused on building her defenses. Rather than shiver with the impending sense of doom she was currently grappling with, she tried numbing herself to all of it. Sentimentalism, anger, fear. Especially fear. Don't look behind you. Don't, don't, don't. Voices hissed. Shadows continued to lurk in her peripheral, looming like a gloomy raincloud over her head. She wondered if she was the only one who could sense their presence. After all, Spooks was simply staring back at her with one oblivious eye, her pink little tongue hanging out of her mouth in a smiling pant as her tail wagged behind her. (Adorable, really. But not even a sight as cute as that could coax a smile from her now.) The simple joys of being a dog, huh. From her perspective, this had to be an exciting development. Like, woohoo, they were going on an adventure! And Thea? Thea, for all extents in purposes, seemed to be taking the same carefree approach as Spooks. Good for them, really, that they were coping with this mess exceedingly better than she was! There's no turning back now. No hiding now.
Well? Answer her. Clara's throat closed up and she struggled to draw air into her lungs. She couldn't breathe, let alone speak. What just happened?What have I done, what am I doing here, why-- It can be hard to tell the difference... was this a panic attack or the malicious antics of her personal eldritch horror creature? And no, that wasn't her attempt to be poetic or overdramatic about her 'inner demons'. Clara knew it was there. She just set it loose, hadn't she? Although she'd never used it like that before. Never to attack people. Or, no. Rather, she'd done it to defend herself. That distinction was very important! (Well, there was last night as well. But last night doesn't really count, considering the fact that everything about last night was absurd. It really made her terrifying display fade into the background in the grand scheme of things.) No matter what it was attributed to, she needed to push past it. Calm down. Just calm down. Breathe.
"Anywhere." Clara sighed at last. I'm calm. I'm fine. An impassive response was all she could muster. As much as she loved her lists and plans, she hadn't exactly accounted for this impromptu road trip. (Because calling it a road trip, at least for the time being, was easier than acknowledging it for what it actually was.) She was too tired to care that she was casting her future to the wind. Too tired to snap or get angry. For now. (Later, she resolved, she would ask Thea to hold up to her end of the bargain. She owed her some kind of explanation for all of this-- whether sock puppets were involved or not.) Still. Why was she even asking her? Surely... surely Thea must've had some inkling of an idea in regards to where she was headed, right? She was already on the run as it was, thus had more time to ponder it. "Just go wherever you planned on going after leaving my place."
"I always thought Hogwarts was an unappealing name for a school." She huffed, momentarily distracted. Thea's compliment was sweet and all, but Clara was lost. Yes, the shadows had lived with her since she was a little girl. And curiously shaping the shadows on her bedroom walls was easily explained away by saying she had an overactive imagination. It reminded her of painting, really, and had never particularly bothered her. By the time she was old enough for her to bother her, it felt natural enough that it... just didn't? Sometimes she'd experiment with them in dreams, too. Although she kept it a secret from other people in her life, she acknowledged its existence rather than try to bury it away. Maybe that as well as the harmless practice gave her some semblance of control? But, again, she'd never wielded it like that before. Or at least not that she can remember. Clara thought she and Thea might have that in common as well, like the case with the voices in their heads, but judging by her reaction now-- "That skeevy cop touched my branding before he put his gun to my head. Something about that just... set me off, I guess." Reluctantly, she bit her lip. "I don't know what I'm doing any more than you do."
"It really tired me out, though." Clara yawned softly and crinkled her nose when Spooks flicked her tongue at it. That she'd only gotten about two hours of sleep last night was also a factor. Thank goodness she'd been wearing her headphones around her neck. If she could block out the voices, catch up on sleep and calm down a little... then maybe she'd be better suited to contribute to plans for their stressfully uncertain future. "I'm going to sleep for a bit. Wake me up if something happens, okay?"
Well? Answer her. Clara's throat closed up and she struggled to draw air into her lungs. She couldn't breathe, let alone speak. What just happened?What have I done, what am I doing here, why-- It can be hard to tell the difference... was this a panic attack or the malicious antics of her personal eldritch horror creature? And no, that wasn't her attempt to be poetic or overdramatic about her 'inner demons'. Clara knew it was there. She just set it loose, hadn't she? Although she'd never used it like that before. Never to attack people. Or, no. Rather, she'd done it to defend herself. That distinction was very important! (Well, there was last night as well. But last night doesn't really count, considering the fact that everything about last night was absurd. It really made her terrifying display fade into the background in the grand scheme of things.) No matter what it was attributed to, she needed to push past it. Calm down. Just calm down. Breathe.
"Anywhere." Clara sighed at last. I'm calm. I'm fine. An impassive response was all she could muster. As much as she loved her lists and plans, she hadn't exactly accounted for this impromptu road trip. (Because calling it a road trip, at least for the time being, was easier than acknowledging it for what it actually was.) She was too tired to care that she was casting her future to the wind. Too tired to snap or get angry. For now. (Later, she resolved, she would ask Thea to hold up to her end of the bargain. She owed her some kind of explanation for all of this-- whether sock puppets were involved or not.) Still. Why was she even asking her? Surely... surely Thea must've had some inkling of an idea in regards to where she was headed, right? She was already on the run as it was, thus had more time to ponder it. "Just go wherever you planned on going after leaving my place."
"I always thought Hogwarts was an unappealing name for a school." She huffed, momentarily distracted. Thea's compliment was sweet and all, but Clara was lost. Yes, the shadows had lived with her since she was a little girl. And curiously shaping the shadows on her bedroom walls was easily explained away by saying she had an overactive imagination. It reminded her of painting, really, and had never particularly bothered her. By the time she was old enough for her to bother her, it felt natural enough that it... just didn't? Sometimes she'd experiment with them in dreams, too. Although she kept it a secret from other people in her life, she acknowledged its existence rather than try to bury it away. Maybe that as well as the harmless practice gave her some semblance of control? But, again, she'd never wielded it like that before. Or at least not that she can remember. Clara thought she and Thea might have that in common as well, like the case with the voices in their heads, but judging by her reaction now-- "That skeevy cop touched my branding before he put his gun to my head. Something about that just... set me off, I guess." Reluctantly, she bit her lip. "I don't know what I'm doing any more than you do."
"It really tired me out, though." Clara yawned softly and crinkled her nose when Spooks flicked her tongue at it. That she'd only gotten about two hours of sleep last night was also a factor. Thank goodness she'd been wearing her headphones around her neck. If she could block out the voices, catch up on sleep and calm down a little... then maybe she'd be better suited to contribute to plans for their stressfully uncertain future. "I'm going to sleep for a bit. Wake me up if something happens, okay?"