KasperXIII
Sworn To A Great Divide
It's safe to say that both Thalia and Tony were discredited after the onslaught of back-and-forth comments in each and every direction. For Tony? It was inexcusable to keep Frank in the dark about his knowledge of the 'mystery redhead' in the motel shooting. That was his sole purpose for pursuing his vendetta. Every word Frank yelled at his partner, words of the feeling of betrayal. Tony should've been upfront from the beginning. That's why he headed up the investigation for Al-Asheera: for vengeance. And that vengeance was through the girl right in front of him. It also explained why Tony was so dead against any sort of romance between Frank and Thalia. But now, Thalia couldn't be deceived by the idea of a fake death for Richard. Frank spilled the truth about that. A bummer, sure, but he could still guilt-trip the girl into confessing everything. She'd broken down significantly as is. Her misery was so satisfying to Tony. The fact that James now had his weapon at her at times, the idea she may not live this through... it's not proper justice, but if his hunch about her was spot-on, and she was the sole culprit in his partner's demise, he would happily condone the worst of punishments for her.
For Thalia? She felt the guilt overwhelming her once again. She didn't even know if it was her hand that injured Richard. She couldn't remember. It all happened so fast. She only said she did to shut Tony up. Give him a fall guy even though she didn't think she was the one who dropped Richard. Oh, god... was it me? Could it have been me?! Over and over again, Thalia tried replaying that day in her head to try and remember if she saw anything to prove her innocence or guilt. Whichever it was, it would come as a surprise. She shivered in her seat, the entire fit between Frank and Tony freaking her out. When the younger detective kicked the table down, she flinched in her place, backing off in fear. Since when did this feeling of cowardice kick in? And with her sudden movement, the pain in her stomach where Tony kicked her came back. She avoided howling in pain again, and just sat back... listening to their words and trying to recall the events of the shootout. There's no way... there were so many of us and so many of them. I couldn't have done this... No, T. There's no way this was you. You have to believe that... She couldn't have. But she was afraid she did without knowing. But finally, she worked up the courage to speak up, despite how she felt like she was going to tear up.
"For your information, Tony..." she sniffled, struggling to stand up to her feet, but trying her best to assert herself and get in Tony's face. "I wasn't the only one there on that day. There were at least 15 other Al-Asheera clansmen there. Including Ra's himself. And all I can think of is, why me? ANYONE could've done that damage to your friend. I honestly don't know if it was my bullet that put him down... or if it was someone else. And you can't know that for a matter of fact either. But no. You don't care whose bullet it was. You are targeting the one that stands out the most, especially because she's been right under your nose. The mystery redhead. We aren't big on diversity in Al-Asheera, so you figured that the one that is noticeable enough to get a nickname in the local PD should be your punching bag. Not many girls. Not many redheads. So why not bully her, especially when she's in your grasp. You were probably rock hard when you came to Karin's place and saw her come home with me."
"I have your carelessness to thank for that, young lady. You should've been more careful. I wanted to arrest you back then, even if it got you killed."
"You just... don't get it!" Her head fell into her palms, fingers running through her hair from the headache of having to repeat herself to Tony. Having to keep say that she wanted to change. "I don't want this! None of it! I don't want to kill or steal or hurt people! That's not me, and you refuse to believe that!"
"Well truth be told, your actions have consequences. And now you're facing them, whether those actions were murder or something less brutal."
She lifted her head up, an almost innocent look in her eyes. "I just wanted to start over.... Tony, you don't even know if it was my hand that gunned Richard down. Plus... he's still alive. You're just blaming me because you are desperate and running out of options. You want justice for your partner, but THIS is not justice. This is just sadistic torture. You are getting off to the idea of having an enemy and you're having fun with every second I'm in pain or crying. My pain is your pleasure."
"Maybe I am. But you had a hand in this."
"I did. And I hate that I did. I hate myself for every bad decision I've taken for the past eight years. But as much of a criminal as I am, you don't seem to believe that I'm not a killer. I couldn't kill you when I had you pinned down. I'm not that depraved. But clearly you are."
"Tell me the truth then, Thalia. Did you gun Richard down?"
She shook her head, taking a deep breath before trying to speak again. "I really don't know, Tony. I hope I didn't, believe me, I hope he's doing okay and recovering quickly. It all... it all happened so fast that day, but I was shooting randomly and aimlessly, not looking back all that much. I was running for my life. I didn't want to hurt any cops, because I can't see myself taking someone's life. I don't blame you if you don't believe me. I don't blame anyone in this room if they don't believe me. I lied about being there at the motel when they shot it up, but that was when we initially took it over. I never went back because of how horrible I felt about it. Sure, nobody was killed, but there was a dozen injured cops from what I heard. One of them was your partner, Tony. And I felt like I had a hand in it, and I regret it so much."
"Your word means dick to me."
"I wouldn't expect otherwise," she sighed, letting herself fall back into the seat, facepalming again. "I'm not a killer... no. I'm not a killer. I never was... No, I'm not... Not a killer..." She found herself repeating her own words over and over in an attempt to convince herself of her own innocence. She was afraid of what was to come. Shocked by how Tony did this to her. But she kept talking, "I've seen the unthinkable. Forced to do things I didn't want to do for so long. When all I wanted was to be someone I wanted to be. And nobody gets that...." Her eyes lifted for a moment and soon reached Karin. Her friend. If she lost Karin's trust, Thalia would surely get up and run. Never come back. "Karin... I'm sorry I didn't say anything about the motel earlier. I swear to you, I didn't want anyone to die. You saw how I was after that guy at the diner was shot dead... If you don't believe me, just tell me. Tell me so I can get up and leave already."
Not like she could blame anyone. Tony made a valid point about her being untrustworthy. Was that the end of it for her and Karin? Maybe so. It was almost tempting for Thalia to walk out the front door and risk James killing her. Maybe go find some bathroom in a restaurant and cry herself to sleep. What did I do....
"Nobody believes you, Thalia," Tony reassured her, stepping away from the girl and slowly towards James. "You're a smart guy. Can you trust anything she's said so far? Maybe she's covering her ass. Maybe she was trying to get this meet set up with Ra's so he could kill us all. We don't know for certain if she did hurt my partner. But I have a goddamn hunch that she did. What do you say? Blindfold and gag her, then toss her in the desert?"
For Thalia? She felt the guilt overwhelming her once again. She didn't even know if it was her hand that injured Richard. She couldn't remember. It all happened so fast. She only said she did to shut Tony up. Give him a fall guy even though she didn't think she was the one who dropped Richard. Oh, god... was it me? Could it have been me?! Over and over again, Thalia tried replaying that day in her head to try and remember if she saw anything to prove her innocence or guilt. Whichever it was, it would come as a surprise. She shivered in her seat, the entire fit between Frank and Tony freaking her out. When the younger detective kicked the table down, she flinched in her place, backing off in fear. Since when did this feeling of cowardice kick in? And with her sudden movement, the pain in her stomach where Tony kicked her came back. She avoided howling in pain again, and just sat back... listening to their words and trying to recall the events of the shootout. There's no way... there were so many of us and so many of them. I couldn't have done this... No, T. There's no way this was you. You have to believe that... She couldn't have. But she was afraid she did without knowing. But finally, she worked up the courage to speak up, despite how she felt like she was going to tear up.
"For your information, Tony..." she sniffled, struggling to stand up to her feet, but trying her best to assert herself and get in Tony's face. "I wasn't the only one there on that day. There were at least 15 other Al-Asheera clansmen there. Including Ra's himself. And all I can think of is, why me? ANYONE could've done that damage to your friend. I honestly don't know if it was my bullet that put him down... or if it was someone else. And you can't know that for a matter of fact either. But no. You don't care whose bullet it was. You are targeting the one that stands out the most, especially because she's been right under your nose. The mystery redhead. We aren't big on diversity in Al-Asheera, so you figured that the one that is noticeable enough to get a nickname in the local PD should be your punching bag. Not many girls. Not many redheads. So why not bully her, especially when she's in your grasp. You were probably rock hard when you came to Karin's place and saw her come home with me."
"I have your carelessness to thank for that, young lady. You should've been more careful. I wanted to arrest you back then, even if it got you killed."
"You just... don't get it!" Her head fell into her palms, fingers running through her hair from the headache of having to repeat herself to Tony. Having to keep say that she wanted to change. "I don't want this! None of it! I don't want to kill or steal or hurt people! That's not me, and you refuse to believe that!"
"Well truth be told, your actions have consequences. And now you're facing them, whether those actions were murder or something less brutal."
She lifted her head up, an almost innocent look in her eyes. "I just wanted to start over.... Tony, you don't even know if it was my hand that gunned Richard down. Plus... he's still alive. You're just blaming me because you are desperate and running out of options. You want justice for your partner, but THIS is not justice. This is just sadistic torture. You are getting off to the idea of having an enemy and you're having fun with every second I'm in pain or crying. My pain is your pleasure."
"Maybe I am. But you had a hand in this."
"I did. And I hate that I did. I hate myself for every bad decision I've taken for the past eight years. But as much of a criminal as I am, you don't seem to believe that I'm not a killer. I couldn't kill you when I had you pinned down. I'm not that depraved. But clearly you are."
"Tell me the truth then, Thalia. Did you gun Richard down?"
She shook her head, taking a deep breath before trying to speak again. "I really don't know, Tony. I hope I didn't, believe me, I hope he's doing okay and recovering quickly. It all... it all happened so fast that day, but I was shooting randomly and aimlessly, not looking back all that much. I was running for my life. I didn't want to hurt any cops, because I can't see myself taking someone's life. I don't blame you if you don't believe me. I don't blame anyone in this room if they don't believe me. I lied about being there at the motel when they shot it up, but that was when we initially took it over. I never went back because of how horrible I felt about it. Sure, nobody was killed, but there was a dozen injured cops from what I heard. One of them was your partner, Tony. And I felt like I had a hand in it, and I regret it so much."
"Your word means dick to me."
"I wouldn't expect otherwise," she sighed, letting herself fall back into the seat, facepalming again. "I'm not a killer... no. I'm not a killer. I never was... No, I'm not... Not a killer..." She found herself repeating her own words over and over in an attempt to convince herself of her own innocence. She was afraid of what was to come. Shocked by how Tony did this to her. But she kept talking, "I've seen the unthinkable. Forced to do things I didn't want to do for so long. When all I wanted was to be someone I wanted to be. And nobody gets that...." Her eyes lifted for a moment and soon reached Karin. Her friend. If she lost Karin's trust, Thalia would surely get up and run. Never come back. "Karin... I'm sorry I didn't say anything about the motel earlier. I swear to you, I didn't want anyone to die. You saw how I was after that guy at the diner was shot dead... If you don't believe me, just tell me. Tell me so I can get up and leave already."
Not like she could blame anyone. Tony made a valid point about her being untrustworthy. Was that the end of it for her and Karin? Maybe so. It was almost tempting for Thalia to walk out the front door and risk James killing her. Maybe go find some bathroom in a restaurant and cry herself to sleep. What did I do....
"Nobody believes you, Thalia," Tony reassured her, stepping away from the girl and slowly towards James. "You're a smart guy. Can you trust anything she's said so far? Maybe she's covering her ass. Maybe she was trying to get this meet set up with Ra's so he could kill us all. We don't know for certain if she did hurt my partner. But I have a goddamn hunch that she did. What do you say? Blindfold and gag her, then toss her in the desert?"