WhiskeyMarten
I am FangS31
IT'S THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS
What's the problem? What's the problem? It would be easier at this point to ask Darius what isn't the problem. Darius tried hard to concentrate on the situation at hand, to try and articulate something reasonable. He wanted to solve this rationally, but every sentence Ten spoke threw him further away from that goal. He hated the way he spoke to Ten already, and yet he only felt angrier at them.
The way Ten spoke so eagerly about the whole thing, seemingly failing to understand how it could possibly be a bad idea. Darius just needed to explain why this couldn't happen, even though their mind already seemed to be made up. He tried to speak, he had to say something, to stop Ten before they got too carried away. No words came out, their throat felt tight. Maybe those tears were going to arrive after all.
He felt Ten pull themself up beside him, but he couldn't bear to look. Everything was going to shit. Try again, Darius. You need to explain things to them right now. As he was about to give speaking another go, Ten went right ahead and broke his heart.
"keep each other s- safe and stuff!"
This isn't how things are meant to be. In Darius's mind, he was the protector. He was the responsible one. He was the violent one who could fight for them. Ten was his love, his world, his everything. They didn't kill people, they weren't in a gang. They didn't protect him. Darius was stuck in this mindset, despite the fact that Ten had looked after him in the past, he couldn't accept that. Ten couldn't keep him safe, Darius had to keep them safe. But with them in cahoots with the likes of Caio, how could Darius ever ensure his safety now.
He still needed a lot more time to process things, but with Ten stepping in his line of sight, his composure fully broke. Though he placed one hand over his mouth, he couldn't stifle the loud cry that came out.
"Ten. You don't get it. You can't join. I can't be there." He choked the words out between sobs, and walked away from Ten, away from the light. He didn't want Ten to see him like this. "I can't do this anymore... I've fucked up so badly." He regretted wandering away from Ten, he felt cold and alone. He just wanted everything to be over.
What's the problem? What's the problem? It would be easier at this point to ask Darius what isn't the problem. Darius tried hard to concentrate on the situation at hand, to try and articulate something reasonable. He wanted to solve this rationally, but every sentence Ten spoke threw him further away from that goal. He hated the way he spoke to Ten already, and yet he only felt angrier at them.
The way Ten spoke so eagerly about the whole thing, seemingly failing to understand how it could possibly be a bad idea. Darius just needed to explain why this couldn't happen, even though their mind already seemed to be made up. He tried to speak, he had to say something, to stop Ten before they got too carried away. No words came out, their throat felt tight. Maybe those tears were going to arrive after all.
He felt Ten pull themself up beside him, but he couldn't bear to look. Everything was going to shit. Try again, Darius. You need to explain things to them right now. As he was about to give speaking another go, Ten went right ahead and broke his heart.
"keep each other s- safe and stuff!"
This isn't how things are meant to be. In Darius's mind, he was the protector. He was the responsible one. He was the violent one who could fight for them. Ten was his love, his world, his everything. They didn't kill people, they weren't in a gang. They didn't protect him. Darius was stuck in this mindset, despite the fact that Ten had looked after him in the past, he couldn't accept that. Ten couldn't keep him safe, Darius had to keep them safe. But with them in cahoots with the likes of Caio, how could Darius ever ensure his safety now.
He still needed a lot more time to process things, but with Ten stepping in his line of sight, his composure fully broke. Though he placed one hand over his mouth, he couldn't stifle the loud cry that came out.
"Ten. You don't get it. You can't join. I can't be there." He choked the words out between sobs, and walked away from Ten, away from the light. He didn't want Ten to see him like this. "I can't do this anymore... I've fucked up so badly." He regretted wandering away from Ten, he felt cold and alone. He just wanted everything to be over.