EclipseRosee
YIKES ™️
Larkyn Gaunt
Adrenaline was pumping through his veins, nearly as much as it did when he was on assignment. It made no sense to him how breaking off his engagement got his heart pumping as much as chasing dark wizards did but it did. As Larkyn stood there in the hall, Sapphiras hands against his face, he took the time to try and calm himself. To breathe. To comprehend what he had just done. Then suddenly he broke into a manic laugh as happiness, sadness and anxiety all fought to be the primary emotion of the moment. “Merlin.” He breathed, his voice finally coming back to him. “Yeah, I’m fine. I think.” Another little chuckle came from him as Sapphira threw her arms around him. It felt nice, she was warm and comforting.
The words she said next however were better than any hug she could ever give him. Larkyn moved his arms around her tightly after a moment of shock, his face pressing into the side of her neck as he squeezed her against his body. Proud. It was something that Larkyn had heard so rarely in his life. Something that he sought. He knew he should care so much what other people thought of him, of his actions, but he did. Everything he did was for other people and all he ever wanted for them to praise him for those things. Maybe it was shallow, but it was true. Larkyn believed that deep down everyone wanted someone to be proud of them, and someone to be proud of.
“I just couldn’t do it. I don’t want to lose my job, I don’t want to hurt Loire or even Dru. But they’re right, I can’t make myself a martyr.” Larkyn pulled back and gazed down at her, his icy blue eyes searching hers for the confidence to continue despite the fading adrenaline. “If I hadn’t reconnected with you, maybe I could have made it. Maybe I would have been okay. I wouldn’t have known what I was missing, what I really wanted.” Sapphira released from the hug and pulled away, her hands reaching out to smooth over his robes. He watched her with a calm face as she spoke, letting her finish before he reached out and cradled her face like she had done for him. “I don’t want you to leave unless you want to return to your family. I want you to stay here though, with me. To figure out how to go forward from here, how to maintain some sort of dignity in my career but also to allow myself to be happy. To allow myself to be with you without having to hide in my bedroom.”
Larkyn traced a finger down her jawline, his hand moving to hold the nape of her neck as he leaned in closer. His lips ghosted over hers and he could feel a bit of her lipstick transfer to him but he didn’t care. He didn’t move back before he spoke again, this time his voice whisper soft. “Stay with me Sapphira.”
Adrenaline was pumping through his veins, nearly as much as it did when he was on assignment. It made no sense to him how breaking off his engagement got his heart pumping as much as chasing dark wizards did but it did. As Larkyn stood there in the hall, Sapphiras hands against his face, he took the time to try and calm himself. To breathe. To comprehend what he had just done. Then suddenly he broke into a manic laugh as happiness, sadness and anxiety all fought to be the primary emotion of the moment. “Merlin.” He breathed, his voice finally coming back to him. “Yeah, I’m fine. I think.” Another little chuckle came from him as Sapphira threw her arms around him. It felt nice, she was warm and comforting.
The words she said next however were better than any hug she could ever give him. Larkyn moved his arms around her tightly after a moment of shock, his face pressing into the side of her neck as he squeezed her against his body. Proud. It was something that Larkyn had heard so rarely in his life. Something that he sought. He knew he should care so much what other people thought of him, of his actions, but he did. Everything he did was for other people and all he ever wanted for them to praise him for those things. Maybe it was shallow, but it was true. Larkyn believed that deep down everyone wanted someone to be proud of them, and someone to be proud of.
“I just couldn’t do it. I don’t want to lose my job, I don’t want to hurt Loire or even Dru. But they’re right, I can’t make myself a martyr.” Larkyn pulled back and gazed down at her, his icy blue eyes searching hers for the confidence to continue despite the fading adrenaline. “If I hadn’t reconnected with you, maybe I could have made it. Maybe I would have been okay. I wouldn’t have known what I was missing, what I really wanted.” Sapphira released from the hug and pulled away, her hands reaching out to smooth over his robes. He watched her with a calm face as she spoke, letting her finish before he reached out and cradled her face like she had done for him. “I don’t want you to leave unless you want to return to your family. I want you to stay here though, with me. To figure out how to go forward from here, how to maintain some sort of dignity in my career but also to allow myself to be happy. To allow myself to be with you without having to hide in my bedroom.”
Larkyn traced a finger down her jawline, his hand moving to hold the nape of her neck as he leaned in closer. His lips ghosted over hers and he could feel a bit of her lipstick transfer to him but he didn’t care. He didn’t move back before he spoke again, this time his voice whisper soft. “Stay with me Sapphira.”