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Kenta's heart ached at the bare emotion in Takumi's voice. He remembered a time when the Ox wore his heart on his sleeve, but years apart had turned him inward. And Kenta knew he only had himself to blame. He expected the anger. A flash of the fiery boy he had known in their youth appeared, as quick to temper tantrums and fits of fury as when things didn't go his way. Yet still, Kenta flinched at being labelled a 'coward' by the one person whose good opinion he valued above all others. He had no defense, for deep down he knew the accusation rang true, though he tried to cover it with excuses of noble intention.
Yes, Kenta expected the anger, but not the tears.
His own eyes widened in helpless despair as he watched Takumi roughly brush at his eyes, feeling the knot in his own throat tighten further with each sob Takumi struggled to contain. Instinctively, he took a step closer, arms reaching out to pull his friend into the comfort of his embrace.
But he couldn't. Not here, not ever. He could never truly hold Takumi. His embrace would morph them both into the Ox and the Horse - the result of their curse - and one of the very things now keeping them apart.
Kenta dropped his arms but did not step away. Instead, he moved his body to shield Takumi from curious gazes, allowing the other man a moment to collect himself should he need it. Privacy was a luxury when you were one of the Zodiac hosts. Time was short on their hands and soon they would attract attention. Kenta rushed to say the words he had longed to say for so long, while the chance was still his.
"Takumi, I... I'm sorry," Kenta said quietly. He dropped his gaze, unable to meet Takumi's eyes as the guilt washed over him. "But I stand by my decision to leave. I thought the distance would help you move past... whatever feelings you once held for me."
Gently, hesitantly, he reached out again and brushed his fingers over the back of Takumi's hand, lingering but not grasping, giving Takumi the chance to accept or refuse the gesture.
"You are wrong about one thing though," Kenta murmured, inwardly pleading with him to understand. "I'm not... I'm not okay. Leaving you was -"
"Ah, there you are, Watanabe-san!"
Their time was up. Kenta whipped around at the intrusion, instincts taking over as he stepped in front of Takumi, shielding him from view. He plastered on a polite smile. "Sorry to keep you all waiting," Kenta called out in greeting to the photographers, who had finally tracked them down. His mind raced to find an escape, to buy Takumi a few extra minutes to regain his composure.
"Should we find another spot to take pictures? Perhaps the koi pond would offer nicer scenery," he suggested, gesturing for them to follow as he began to lead the group away.
He couldn't bring himself to look back, knowing it would break him to see Takumi's expression - the sadness, longing, and regret that was surely mirrored in his own eyes. Leaving Takumi's side once more felt like a knife to the gut, twisting and turning his insides mercilessly. He wasn't sure where they stood now, if they could ever reconcile and go back to being friends. With 84 days left, time was precious and fleeting.
But for now, duty called. All Kenta could do was put one foot in front of the other, clinging to the fragile hope that Takumi would forgive him in time.
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Kenta's heart ached at the bare emotion in Takumi's voice. He remembered a time when the Ox wore his heart on his sleeve, but years apart had turned him inward. And Kenta knew he only had himself to blame. He expected the anger. A flash of the fiery boy he had known in their youth appeared, as quick to temper tantrums and fits of fury as when things didn't go his way. Yet still, Kenta flinched at being labelled a 'coward' by the one person whose good opinion he valued above all others. He had no defense, for deep down he knew the accusation rang true, though he tried to cover it with excuses of noble intention.
Yes, Kenta expected the anger, but not the tears.
His own eyes widened in helpless despair as he watched Takumi roughly brush at his eyes, feeling the knot in his own throat tighten further with each sob Takumi struggled to contain. Instinctively, he took a step closer, arms reaching out to pull his friend into the comfort of his embrace.
But he couldn't. Not here, not ever. He could never truly hold Takumi. His embrace would morph them both into the Ox and the Horse - the result of their curse - and one of the very things now keeping them apart.
Kenta dropped his arms but did not step away. Instead, he moved his body to shield Takumi from curious gazes, allowing the other man a moment to collect himself should he need it. Privacy was a luxury when you were one of the Zodiac hosts. Time was short on their hands and soon they would attract attention. Kenta rushed to say the words he had longed to say for so long, while the chance was still his.
"Takumi, I... I'm sorry," Kenta said quietly. He dropped his gaze, unable to meet Takumi's eyes as the guilt washed over him. "But I stand by my decision to leave. I thought the distance would help you move past... whatever feelings you once held for me."
Gently, hesitantly, he reached out again and brushed his fingers over the back of Takumi's hand, lingering but not grasping, giving Takumi the chance to accept or refuse the gesture.
"You are wrong about one thing though," Kenta murmured, inwardly pleading with him to understand. "I'm not... I'm not okay. Leaving you was -"
"Ah, there you are, Watanabe-san!"
Their time was up. Kenta whipped around at the intrusion, instincts taking over as he stepped in front of Takumi, shielding him from view. He plastered on a polite smile. "Sorry to keep you all waiting," Kenta called out in greeting to the photographers, who had finally tracked them down. His mind raced to find an escape, to buy Takumi a few extra minutes to regain his composure.
"Should we find another spot to take pictures? Perhaps the koi pond would offer nicer scenery," he suggested, gesturing for them to follow as he began to lead the group away.
He couldn't bring himself to look back, knowing it would break him to see Takumi's expression - the sadness, longing, and regret that was surely mirrored in his own eyes. Leaving Takumi's side once more felt like a knife to the gut, twisting and turning his insides mercilessly. He wasn't sure where they stood now, if they could ever reconcile and go back to being friends. With 84 days left, time was precious and fleeting.
But for now, duty called. All Kenta could do was put one foot in front of the other, clinging to the fragile hope that Takumi would forgive him in time.
Yes, Kenta expected the anger, but not the tears.
His own eyes widened in helpless despair as he watched Takumi roughly brush at his eyes, feeling the knot in his own throat tighten further with each sob Takumi struggled to contain. Instinctively, he took a step closer, arms reaching out to pull his friend into the comfort of his embrace.
But he couldn't. Not here, not ever. He could never truly hold Takumi. His embrace would morph them both into the Ox and the Horse - the result of their curse - and one of the very things now keeping them apart.
Kenta dropped his arms but did not step away. Instead, he moved his body to shield Takumi from curious gazes, allowing the other man a moment to collect himself should he need it. Privacy was a luxury when you were one of the Zodiac hosts. Time was short on their hands and soon they would attract attention. Kenta rushed to say the words he had longed to say for so long, while the chance was still his.
"Takumi, I... I'm sorry," Kenta said quietly. He dropped his gaze, unable to meet Takumi's eyes as the guilt washed over him. "But I stand by my decision to leave. I thought the distance would help you move past... whatever feelings you once held for me."
Gently, hesitantly, he reached out again and brushed his fingers over the back of Takumi's hand, lingering but not grasping, giving Takumi the chance to accept or refuse the gesture.
"You are wrong about one thing though," Kenta murmured, inwardly pleading with him to understand. "I'm not... I'm not okay. Leaving you was -"
"Ah, there you are, Watanabe-san!"
Their time was up. Kenta whipped around at the intrusion, instincts taking over as he stepped in front of Takumi, shielding him from view. He plastered on a polite smile. "Sorry to keep you all waiting," Kenta called out in greeting to the photographers, who had finally tracked them down. His mind raced to find an escape, to buy Takumi a few extra minutes to regain his composure.
"Should we find another spot to take pictures? Perhaps the koi pond would offer nicer scenery," he suggested, gesturing for them to follow as he began to lead the group away.
He couldn't bring himself to look back, knowing it would break him to see Takumi's expression - the sadness, longing, and regret that was surely mirrored in his own eyes. Leaving Takumi's side once more felt like a knife to the gut, twisting and turning his insides mercilessly. He wasn't sure where they stood now, if they could ever reconcile and go back to being friends. With 84 days left, time was precious and fleeting.
But for now, duty called. All Kenta could do was put one foot in front of the other, clinging to the fragile hope that Takumi would forgive him in time.