Winona
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Ashton West
She was shaking, although she wasn't really for sure on why she was like shaking, because it wasn't like near the end that her mother had been paying her any attention. All of her harsh words had instead been directed at Lucky, who she apparently knew way too freaking much about, and now it was like... it was like... she couldn't breathe, her chest was squeezing, and her throat hurt, and the oxygen was being snatched from her lungs.
Oh god, oh god, oh god.
Why was Lucky still like talking to her and acknowledging her? Because like, like, like, this wasn't what was supposed to happen after something like that. He was supposed to storm away, and then she'd be left with her mother, and then her mother would make some snide remark about Ash not being able to keep anyone around, and then she'd be like upset or whatever, but it was fine because she was used to it.
But instead, Lucky was still holding her hand, and she knew that she should probably let go of his hand because this was going to look weird as heck to anyone that saw them, and like if the tabloids or whatever got a picture of it, then there'd be all of that and her mother would be even more pissed. And yet, like, she couldn't bring herself to pull her hand away, because holding onto his hand kind of felt like a lifeline, because Ash was pretty sure that if she let go, she wouldn't be able to keep walking. Like she'd just kind of sink down or something.
Like she felt numb. And her free hand was still shaking, so she pressed it against her stomach, but that didn't really help anything, and oh god, oh god, she was going to puke.
Eventually, Lucky led them to like a little alcove area that was kind of off from the main traffic, so there wasn't really anyone around. It was like as secluded and alone as you could get in a busy theater that was full of all of the students and their parents and scouts and whoever else.
So she figured that he'd pretty much just dragged her here so that he could yell at her for her mom being a bitch, and her lungs squeezed up, and her stomach clenched. He glanced down at their hands still held together, and then when he lifted his gaze to look at her, she instinctively flinched.
“You good?” He asked instead. “I mean, are you okay?”
Her muscles, which had tensed in preparation for him to yell at her or whatever, relaxed a fraction as she reluctantly looked back towards him. Her eyebrows had drawn together in confusion, her lips slightly parted as she tried to come up with something to say, because like, like, like...
This didn't make sense.
Of course she was fine. Why wouldn't she be fine? Her mother had attacked him, not her, and yet here Lucky was, asking her if she was okay, and now she just felt that same creeping feeling of guilt in the pit of her stomach. Just like the one from earlier in the dressing room.
For a moment, Ash didn't respond, and then when she did start speaking, it all kind of just poured out in a nonsensical fashion.
"Yeah, yeah, of course I'm fine," she said, dismissing his questions and his worries right away. "Are you? I mean, like... I'm just... I'm so, so, so sorry. I didn't think she'd do like that. Like I didn't even tell her that we were doing the song together, and I didn't know that Jace even knew, and I didn't know that she'd do that. And like if I had known, I would've made sure you didn't see her, but I didn't think she'd say anything. And I'm sorry, I'm so, so sorry. I should've said something, or like, like, like, done something, but I just... I just... I didn't know what to do or like what to say, but that's just a dumb excuse. And I'm just... I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," she continued to ramble, her words catching in her throat and choking her for a moment.
Ash pulled her hand away from his, her arms crossed over her stomach as she tried to steady her breathing and like, keep herself from crying because she wasn't an overemotional mess or whatever it was that everyone thought. But she felt really, really bad, and the guilt was killing her, and she was pretty sure she was going to die if she didn't freaking cry, but she also couldn't let herself cry, and-- and-- and--
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," she repeated again. "I didn't... I didn't mean for any of that to happen and I'm so sorry. Please don't be mad. I didn't think, I didn't..." her words caught in her throat again, and she just shook her head.
She couldn't breathe.
"I'm so sorry, like, you can... you can go. If you want or whatever. I... I mean, like, I get it. It's fine."
And before she could utter a million more apologies, she pressed her lips tightly together.
Oh god, oh god, oh god.
Why was Lucky still like talking to her and acknowledging her? Because like, like, like, this wasn't what was supposed to happen after something like that. He was supposed to storm away, and then she'd be left with her mother, and then her mother would make some snide remark about Ash not being able to keep anyone around, and then she'd be like upset or whatever, but it was fine because she was used to it.
But instead, Lucky was still holding her hand, and she knew that she should probably let go of his hand because this was going to look weird as heck to anyone that saw them, and like if the tabloids or whatever got a picture of it, then there'd be all of that and her mother would be even more pissed. And yet, like, she couldn't bring herself to pull her hand away, because holding onto his hand kind of felt like a lifeline, because Ash was pretty sure that if she let go, she wouldn't be able to keep walking. Like she'd just kind of sink down or something.
Like she felt numb. And her free hand was still shaking, so she pressed it against her stomach, but that didn't really help anything, and oh god, oh god, she was going to puke.
Eventually, Lucky led them to like a little alcove area that was kind of off from the main traffic, so there wasn't really anyone around. It was like as secluded and alone as you could get in a busy theater that was full of all of the students and their parents and scouts and whoever else.
So she figured that he'd pretty much just dragged her here so that he could yell at her for her mom being a bitch, and her lungs squeezed up, and her stomach clenched. He glanced down at their hands still held together, and then when he lifted his gaze to look at her, she instinctively flinched.
“You good?” He asked instead. “I mean, are you okay?”
Her muscles, which had tensed in preparation for him to yell at her or whatever, relaxed a fraction as she reluctantly looked back towards him. Her eyebrows had drawn together in confusion, her lips slightly parted as she tried to come up with something to say, because like, like, like...
This didn't make sense.
Of course she was fine. Why wouldn't she be fine? Her mother had attacked him, not her, and yet here Lucky was, asking her if she was okay, and now she just felt that same creeping feeling of guilt in the pit of her stomach. Just like the one from earlier in the dressing room.
For a moment, Ash didn't respond, and then when she did start speaking, it all kind of just poured out in a nonsensical fashion.
"Yeah, yeah, of course I'm fine," she said, dismissing his questions and his worries right away. "Are you? I mean, like... I'm just... I'm so, so, so sorry. I didn't think she'd do like that. Like I didn't even tell her that we were doing the song together, and I didn't know that Jace even knew, and I didn't know that she'd do that. And like if I had known, I would've made sure you didn't see her, but I didn't think she'd say anything. And I'm sorry, I'm so, so sorry. I should've said something, or like, like, like, done something, but I just... I just... I didn't know what to do or like what to say, but that's just a dumb excuse. And I'm just... I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," she continued to ramble, her words catching in her throat and choking her for a moment.
Ash pulled her hand away from his, her arms crossed over her stomach as she tried to steady her breathing and like, keep herself from crying because she wasn't an overemotional mess or whatever it was that everyone thought. But she felt really, really bad, and the guilt was killing her, and she was pretty sure she was going to die if she didn't freaking cry, but she also couldn't let herself cry, and-- and-- and--
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," she repeated again. "I didn't... I didn't mean for any of that to happen and I'm so sorry. Please don't be mad. I didn't think, I didn't..." her words caught in her throat again, and she just shook her head.
She couldn't breathe.
"I'm so sorry, like, you can... you can go. If you want or whatever. I... I mean, like, I get it. It's fine."
And before she could utter a million more apologies, she pressed her lips tightly together.
mood
help
location
Arts Fest stage
outfit
sparkles
help
location
Arts Fest stage
outfit
sparkles
playing...
Drowning
Drowning
by Ash and Lucky obviously
mentions
N/A
interactions
Lucky
tags
gh0stwriter
N/A
interactions
Lucky
tags
gh0stwriter