Forgotten Horrors

[xXRassBerriXx]

Her last comment was enough to get at him, it seemed his small attempt to cheer himself up had back fired... it only reminded him of that loss. He had even been worried about her earlier, he might have covered it up with a lie, but he had truly been scared that she could have gotten herself into danger. The comment bit at him and he could feel himself tearing up again, quickly he tried to hide it from her though it was pretty had to do.


"I-I.... I have cared about things before!" He protested... he had things even now that he cared about, and the feeling of loss was even stronger now that he had confessed to caring for it, whatever it was that made him feel like this he was sure that he had liked it when it was around. Really, the only part of her wording that had gotten to him was the last part as he was a bit fragile there at current.


By that point, he knew his lame attempt to hide his tears would prove a failure if she hadn't noticed yet. Hoping to keep her from doing such he suddenly turned his back to her, facing the opposite direction where he simply pulled the hood of the jacket over his head, hoping that it would shadow his eyes. Yet, not much cover was provided do to the presence of his transparent horns.

 

[spacepanda]

Anja stilled. It seems she had messed things up once again. Open mouth, insert foot. Admittedly, although she had never been one to socialize, she did have enough common sense to know that not only was she in the wrong, but she had clearly upset him.


His reaction had surprised her, though it probably shouldn't have given his behavior earlier. She had been too wrapped up in her own dilemma to even consider that Akaski might have some issues of his own. He had mentioned that he couldn't exactly leave. For the first time that day she tried to step in his shoes.


If she had been transferred to an unknown world and had no way to currently escape she would be... frightened. He was strong, but he essentially had no clue how this world worked. He was practically at her mercy.


She felt like an ass.


"Hey," she spoke softly, all trace of irritation now gone from her voice, "Look, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have spoke to you like that, it was ... rude." She shifted uncomfortably and had worked up the courage to grab his hand in attempt to turn him around. "Forgive me?"

 

[xXRassBerriXx]

Akaski felt her hand on his, and with a moment of hesitation he peered over his shoulder in her direction. He hadn't expected that she would apologize to him, apologies were rare even among friends in the demonic realm yet he still held difficulties turning to her fully as the distortion at the bottom of his vision was enough to tell him that he still did appear sorrowful.


He tensed a bit taking a small hold on her hand as he decided to turn himself, his words wouldn't truly mean anything if he said them with averted eyes... besides it was his fault for trying to tease her. If he had kept quiet, she wouldn't have gotten mad at him.


He tried to blink away the formed tears to hide them from her view, yet all he managed to do was allow one to escape him and immediately he regretted the action, it made it even more difficult to look her in the eyes.


"I...It's fine..." He assure quietly, unsure if he was speaking truthfully or not. "I... shouldn't have aggravated you..."

 

[spacepanda]

If Anja felt like an ass before, she now felt ten times worse. She was pretty sure he was... crying. She simply stared at him for a moment, unsure of what to do next. It's not like she ever had any close friends she had ever needed to comfort, and people didn't ususlly end up crying in her presence (it was usually the other way around.)


Any grudge she had previously held against him for attacking her was now gone. Reviewing her actions, she figured that in his situation, she might have done the same thing herself.


She was at a loss of words, so she did the only thing she could think of to do, the only thing she probably would have wanted. She hugged him.


"I'm not upset, okay?" She spoke oddly, a bit embarrassed by the situation.


"Get a room!" One of the passerbys shouted, causing her to lightly snarl.


"SHOVE IT!" She yelled back in response.

 

[xXRassBerriXx]

As she hugged him, he felt a feeling of surprise come over him... In truth he couldn't remember the last time someone displayed any physical affection towards him, or the last time he even let someone do such. Yet oddly, he chose not to create separation as normally he would shove away the moment someone would touch him.


It might be his mood, and strangely the hug actually felt nice. He allowed his facade to waver for a moment, speaking in a way to comfort rather than irritate.


"I...It isn't your fault..." He averted his eyes, speaking like this was a bit uncomfortable for him. "I'm just... confused right now... I've been thinking over a few sensitive topics" He brought his sleeve up to his eyes, attempting to rub away his tears once more. 
( Poke~ )

 

[spacepanda]

(sorry I was at lunch when I posted that lol Just got home from work and now I'm catching up on some stuff. I'll reply soon :])

 

[xXRassBerriXx]

( It's alright I'm just having a quiet night tonight, so I got a little bored )

 

[spacepanda]

She blinked. “I see…” The demon clearly had a lot more going on than she originally thought. Then again, doesn’t everyone before you get to know them? This time Anja felt like she couldn’t blame her lack of friends for not having noticed his obvious discomfort before. She had simply been more worried about herself.


As he rubbed her eyes she couldn’t help but to wonder yet again how old he even was. He looked about her age, but for all she knew he could be 2 in demon years.


“Is there… anything I could help with?” She offered, although she wasn’t quite sure why. I’m probably going to regret offering, she mentally sighed. It’s not like she could do very much even for herself. She didn’t even have a car. She slowly released him from their embrace, the whole situation was a bit more… intimate than she was usually used to.

 

[xXRassBerriXx]

He shook his head, allowing his arm to go back to his side. He felt better, though a few emotions remained stirred up within him they where no longer vivid as the had been before. Though often he would push himself and deny any aid from others, the small hug had helped him, though if anyone would ask he would bluntly deny this event having occurred. Just because he let it happen didn't mean his pride would allow him to be honest about it.


Though Akaski was young compared to many demons, he had developed quicker than most mentally. He still loved to collect knowledge though he had no real idea why, it was just part of his personality he assumed. Yet often, being stubborn and holding in his emotions could often make him appear as if he was much younger as he wasn't as socially developed as many demons his age.


"I'm fine..." He replied, looking over to her with slightly dried eyes, they still were a bit wet but it seemed that no longer were they flowing. "I... feel better now..."

 

[spacepanda]

Anja’s blue eyes peered into his for a silent moment while she collected her thoughts. ‘I’m fine’ is clearly his go-to catch phrase. “If you say so,” she responded with obvious disbelief.


In a quick movement she dashed behind him and jumped up, pulling his hood back down to it’s original position. “That, isn’t a look for you,” she chuckled as she turned to face him again. It was true. His horns, which were still currently invisible, were still technically there, and when he had put his hood up it looked almost like his hood was simply floating like a halo above his head. A halo, hah, she snorted.


Clasping her hands in front of her she began walking forward, beckoning him to follow. Pursing her lips she wondered if it was a good idea to still make him go to the café with her. “Hey! Wanna play a game?” She exclaimed suddenly with a smile.

 

[xXRassBerriXx]

Akaski watched her actions, taking note that she seemed surprisingly cheery at the moment. Was... she attempting to aid him still? Though he had already said that he was fine, she might be trying to keep him in a better mood which was something he had a trouble grasping. She was yelling moments before, and he still couldn't really tell if she had grown a small liking for him or not. He himself was aware that she had warmed up to him at least a small bit, and though he wouldn't yet confess this the worry he had felt earlier had proven it to him. She had already grown on him, though he chose to use the word tolerate rather than like.


He peered to her curiously as she spoke of a game, unsure of what she might have in mind. He would normally say something like 'I'm not five' but he held his tongue and spoke a bit more kindly. "What do you have in mind?"

 

[spacepanda]

The fact that Akaski didn’t automatically dismiss her idea of a game relieved Anja. For a minute, she had been dreadfully concerned that he would spend the rest of the day moping about, and she really didn’t know any way to cheer him up. She didn’t really know anything about him, actually. Which is where the game would come in.


“Well, it seems like you’ll be staying with me a while, so I thought it would be nice to get to know each other.” She wasn’t quite sure if he even had any interest in getting to know her at all, but she was nearly bursting with curiosity, and she had been wanting to drill him with questions the moment she first laid eyes on him. Well… maybe she kind of did drill him a bit…


“Basically,” she explained, twirling the end of her ponytail while they walked, “we ask each other questions. About, ya’ know, our lives and such. And, oh! We have to answer them honestly.” At this last word she shot him a look which she hoped said ‘I’m serious’ but which probably looked more like ‘I’m hungry!’ “And if one of us refuses to answer a question the other has to…” She stopped. Drink? Do a dare? She didn’t think either of those would work. “I dunno, we’ll work that part out later. What do you say?”

 

[xXRassBerriXx]

Akaski was a bit unsure over this matter, but it could end up aiding him once he was in the presence of her boss. She had after all told him that Akaski knew her well, and besides he couldn't remember much of his own life as the memory had been drawn into his subconscious about a year ago. It the questions would be directed upon his back story, he could probably just answer most of them with 'I don't know" or 'I forgot' overall, it seemed this game would benefit him mostly.


Knowing her own story would probably come in handy, and this game was an easy opportunity to toy with her. Yet he hadn't taken into consideration that she could question him over matters that he could explain, like why he was mopey, or question him about the parts of his life that he could recall.


"I guess it'll pass the time..." He said, making it sound as if he hadn't just thought out his gain and compared it to her's. It was in a demon's nature to do such as that, though he would occasionally sacrifice when he truly needed to, he preferred not to when participating in little thing. "Fine, we can play."

 

[spacepanda]

"Really?" she beamed, and placing a finger on her lips she began to think of a question. She didn't want to seem too nosy or invasive, so she would have to start off with something simple


Oh, I can ask him about his family! She thought at first, and then, face falling, she realized it was probably best if she didn't. She really hoped he didn't ask about hers, at least not right away. No, she would have to ask something small.


She nodded, she had it. A question that was simple, explainable, and not too invasive. It was also a question she wanted an answer to as well, it was perfect.


"So, Akaski. How old are you anyway? -And don't lie!" She quickly added.

 

[xXRassBerriXx]

"I'm twenty-one" He replied simply, it was an easy question and it was really something he was secretive about even though such a young age could make another demon underestimate him.


Demons could live for a very long time, they're growth just slows around the age of thirty and its why not two many elderly demons could be seen. Most get killed of quickly, yet still they're numbers were oddly large.


"What about you?" He asked her, retorting the simple question to her. He held a similar thinking in his methods. It would be bad to ruin the game before he learned anything useful, and age was a pretty basic thing to know. He would probably be expected to know that by her boss though he might not be questioned about it.

 

[spacepanda]

Anja was a little disappointed. She had kind of wanted him to say something along the lines of I'm 453 years and 12 days! just so she put some kind of distance between them. But he was only a couple of years older than her. She laughed.


"I'm 19, just turned it a couple of months ago, actually. My birthday is in October." He hadn't asked her that, but it just seemed to fly out of her mouth. She was forced to admit to herself that she was getting quite comfortable and... maybe even enjoying is company. But just a little!


"My turn again!" Once again she pondered what an appropriate starter question would be. "Hmmm, oh! What's your favorite thing to do on your time off?" Okay, maybe it was a lame question. But it was still one that should be easy to answer.

 

[xXRassBerriXx]

He thought a moment before replying. "I like to read, and I do a lot of traveling..." He said, knowing there was more that he would do, but his answer would have been pretty long if he were to list everything he liked. Besides, she said favorite, and those two seemed to be near the top.


He did notice that the two held a close age, he was only a few years older than her. Knowing her birthday to be in October he did receive some information do to his knowledge. She would be either a Libra or Scorpio, Libra being at the beginning of the month and Scorpio at the end. He wasn't sure why he took note to this, but he assumed it was just because he liked to figure things out.


Choosing to resolve the question in his head, he chose it as his next. "Are you a Libra or Scorpio?" He knew it would only bug him later if he didn't know, though an easier way to figure this out without any misleading would have just been to ask for the date of her birth, he hadn't thought of that.

 

[spacepanda]

(Ugh, this is why I shouldn't type my posts on the actual website text box. My page refreshed and I lost everything I typed. Oh well, let's see if I can remember most of it...)


Reading and traveling. She nodded, those seemed like hobbies normal enough. She enjoyed reading herself, as it was a pass-time that didn’t require the involvement of other people, as for traveling… well, she never had. But she always dreamed of it. One day, she silently promised herself.


His question caught her off guard. She would have never thought he would ask her a question based on astrology. It wasn’t a subject she pictured him showing any interest in. Quickly covering her face she stifled a giggle. He most likely wasn’t going to appreciate her answer.


“That depends on who you ask,” she smirked. “I was born on the 23rd, so some say Libra, some say Scorpio. I go with Scorpio most of the time, though." She shrugged. She had never really delved into the world of astrology, as it seemed more of a thing people talked about in a group… and she never had friends to compare star charts and personality traits with.


“My turn again,” she announced, “if you could do anything you wanted to, right now, what would it be?” She was having fun now, and why not? They wouldn’t be at the café for about another 15 minutes anyway.

 

[xXRassBerriXx]

He wasn't sure why she appeared so amused by his question, he had read a few books on astrology and it did tend to aid him back in the demonic realm, so it was information that stuck with him. Often it would aid him in deal-making, many demons liked to play around with words so it was important to know the meaning behind metaphors and such.


At her next question, he knew exactly what he wanted, but it was a tad personal. He hadn't gained enough information yet though, so it seemed to be fair trade at this point, he could mask some of the information. She didn't truly ask him for anything pacific.


"I would want to remember something" he replied, using the word something as a scapegoat for his past. He wouldn't want to have to explain the dreams or anything that deep into it, but if he needed to he would. Its not like she could do much with the information anyways. Truly he just didn't want to be pitied because of it, he was used to being alone as not many demons truly would find interest in his personal life, they would just use each-other, and that basically was friendship in the demonic realm. Playing one another, stabbing each other in the back, then making up.


"What was your reason behind hugging me earlier?" He asked, as that had been bugging him to. He wasn't sure if it was just pity or a show of affection... and he was curious over the matter.

 

[spacepanda]

Want to remember something? Anja looked up at him curiously, feeing he had been specifically vague. What could be so important that he would want to remember, she pondered. OR even more puzzling, if it had been so important, why couldn’t he remember it? Her finger lightly tapped her lips again. Maybe he got really drunk one night at misplaced an ancient artifact…


Upon hearing his next question Anja scrambled to fix her scarf so it somewhat covered her face, as it was now deepening to a nice shade of pink. “O-oh…I just thought- You looked upset and I…” she honestly really didn’t have an actual reason. She hadn’t given it much thought, really. It had just seemed like the right thing to do at the time- the thing she would have appreciated most if she were in his position. Of course, saying it that way would make it seem like she had given a lot of thought, when really she just felt awfully apologetic.


“I just didn’t like seeing you upset.” She finally answered, honestly, hoping he wouldn’t delve into it deeper. She wouldn’t really have any answers to give him.


Still feeling a bit embarrassed, she went on with her next question. “Why were you so quick to make a deal with me?” It seems he had a knack for doing things she didn’t expect him to, agreeing to the deal being one of them.

 

[xXRassBerriXx]

Her reply was enough to surprise him, again he wasn't used to this sort of thing. He couldn't recall ever being worried over or truly have anyone who wished to help him without pay. Demons where prideful and stubborn creatures, at least most of the more intelligent ones were. He was a bit of a different case, though still he acted as if he was one of those demons. He just didn't enjoy to display anything they would label as weakness.


As her next question came around he knew the answer quickly and he did put it rather bluntly, not bothering to soften it up. "Well, it was clear right of the bat that I got the better end of the deal. You wished for only one favor, and I got multiple in return, you could have easily made your end much more plentiful considering all that I got from the deal." He smirked a bit, it was proving that he really could use this game as a way to mess with her.


He moved on to his next question, having recalled his thought of playing with her a bit. Though he had earlier said that he shouldn't have aggravated her, he was in a much better mood and he assumed he wouldn't get upset as easily. "Have you developed a likeness for me?"

 

[spacepanda]

Anja narrowed her eyes at the Demon, now a tad annoyed at herself. Dammit! She had, at the time, really thought herself to be getting a great deal. To be owed a favor from a powerful supernatural entity? Yes, please! But, now as she got to know Akaski, he seemed to be a bit less the 'all-powerful-all-knowing-watch-me-breathe-fire' kind of demon she had envisioned. And now, here she was, vowing herself to his servitude... for what? She still hadn't even a clear image of what she wanted her favor to be or what he could do.


Well the joke will be on you, she attempted to tell him with her gaze. I'm going to make sure to ask for something really big. Had she been made a fool of? Well... yes actually. But she wasn't about to let that discourage her.


Suddenly, she felt really discouraged. He had asked yet another embarrassing question, as if the last one hadn't been bad enough. Thankful the scarf was still covering her face, she tried to answer without sputtering. "Well not anymore! You straight up just admitted you're using me. Am I supposed to be okay with that? Oh! You're more conniving than I thought!" She gave him a sudden shove, but it was a light one meant to be playful and distracting more than anything.


"My question then, is that the sort of thing that brings you amusement? Messing with me?" She huffed a bit.

 

[xXRassBerriXx]

He smirked a bit at her reaction, it was rather amusing and seeing as he had to be honest, why not irritate her a bit more? Yet, if she had known how demons act his teasing was actually a small show of affection, at least it was now. The closest thing he ever had to friendship was being used, and using others. It was the only way he knew how to act when someone was warming up to him and he had grown oddly comfortable with her presence in some ways.


"Of course it is, your reactions are priceless" He said once again being blunt, still a small smirk on his face, but it was only then that he took notice to something. 'Well not anymore' This meant she did hold a bit for him, and he was sure she would get over this teasing in a bit. He was quiet for a moment after that thought passed him, but he soon found himself speaking once again.


"Besides, what's wrong with using you? Am I just supposed to let a perfectly good opportunity go to waste? Demons use each other, I don't know a single demon who hasn't tried to mess with me..." Realizing he was going on and not yet had he given her his next question, he hushed himself and continued the game though he assumed his first question would be good enough.


"So then, can you tell me why using you is such a bad thing?"

 

[spacepanda]

My reactions are priceless? He is messing with me! She shot him a glare as he smirked. He’s getting a kick out of this, she thought. But she had to admit it was rather… nice to see he was feeling a bit better.


Listening to his next batch of banter Anja’s eyes darkened. Being used was something she was very accustomed to. It’s all she had ever really been good for, if any of her past relationships were taken into account. Is that really how demons worked? And they didn’t mind it? Staying silent at his next inquiry she walked with her eyes to the ground, not really much in the mood for questions anymore.


Attempting to mask her sudden sadness she spoke in monotone, “No, I can’t. You’re right. Why let such a perfect opportunity go to waste?”


She had thought for a moment… well they seemed to almost be getting along. He’s a demon, Anja, she reminded herself for what was most likely the twelfth time that day. His question caused her to come to a self-realization that she had been denying for many years now. She was lonely.


So lonely that I’d practically become a slave to a demon just for some company? Pah. You’re pathetic, Anja. “We’re almost there.” She quietly announced, hoping he took it as a cue that their game was now over.

 

[xXRassBerriXx]

He found himself silent for a moment, she had changed rather suddenly. Though she was aggravated before, she still seemed as if she was enjoying the game, yet now she seemed to hold little interest in it. Had he managed to upset her?


He didn't mean to harm her in that way at all, having felt sorrows himself he always hated it when others would experience that emotion yet not always would his pride allow him to help. No longer was he truly thinking about the information, that had been pushed to the back of his mind as new thoughts replaced it. He didn't feel right and he already knew it was useless to tell himself that he shouldn't care, he always ended up caring anyways.


"Y...You know..." He began quietly, hoping to find something to get her back into her previous mood. He searched his mind, a pause in his speech occurring due to this, but he soon seemed to find something that could work. A faint florid look crossed him, embarrassed over saying this, but he was having one of his kinder moments.


"When I went to go find you earlier... I wasn't only thinking about the deal..." He peered away from her, having trouble saying this. "I-I was worried... about you... I didn't even bother to think of the deal until I found you..."