For the longest time, she pretends she's asleep as she feels Sarah get on the bed and Lucas take a shower. Her heart is beating too fast at the thought of sleeping in the same bed as Maxwell. It wasn't until Maxwell gets up to take a shower that she opens her eyes again. A groan leaves her throat once she knows Maxwell turned on the shower. How the hell am I supposed to go to sleep? She's so used to sleeping on her own for the past year, and even if there was company, not like this. Sleeping with Sarah and Lucas isn't an issue at all, in fact, she'd rather them be there than just her and Maxwell. So, why can't she simply relax and go to sleep?
Hearing the bathroom door open makes her close her eyes again, trying to slow her breathing down so that she appears asleep. Her body feels the bed move constantly but she wouldn't dare try to catch a glimpse of what's happening. Then, she feels a nose against hers' and the same intoxicating scent that's clogged her mind all day. Her tail twitches but refuses to wag to give away that she's awake. A few minutes later and the bed is finally still and quiet from creaks. Now, all that's left is the breathing of her pack, the occasional horn blares, and the loud air conditioning beside the bed. Knowing that turning the air up will not quiet it down, Fesle leaves it alone.
What seems like an hour goes by and the triplets are asleep, but not Fesle. She can't bring herself to fall asleep as easily as they do...she's never been a good sleeper anyway. Quietly as possible, she slides out of the bed in human form before making light steps to the bathroom. Closing the door, she takes some gulps of water from the sink before looking into the mirror. Those cognac eyes, the same ones as in her wolf form, for some reason feel different than before. Fesle thought that this turmoil in herself would stop now that she's with a pack, but it feel like something is still missing. She has a pack, what else could she want? It's not like she needs Maxwell or anything...why did that even come up in her mind? "It's literally been one day." Fesle scold her reflection. In a human's viewpoint, this would be something as "too far" or "too fast". She brings a hand up to her chest, feeling it calm down a bit but not so much. It's like she has no control over what's happening, is this what...instincts are like? There's few times that she feels like, like howling at the moon or hunting an animal. Just what exactly does all this bond stuff like?
She groans again, this time in a groggy and quiet manner. How come she is with a pack but somehow still feels alone. For a moment, a split second of weakness, her eyes cloud with water and forcibly rubs them. Turning off the bathroom lights before exiting, she makes her want toward the entrance of the motel room. The chair is secure under the doorknob, she's even done that a few times if the lock doesn't work. She grabs the chair and sets it away before she unlocks the door. Exiting as silent as possible, she closes the door behind her and is met with the cold wind hitting her bare shoulders. It's a normal for her to stay up late and never feeling the urge to sleep until she's exhausted. She did have that nap earlier this morning as well, more than she usually does. As she turns around to look at the city, the city lamps are light as very few cars drive by the motel. Not a lot of lights are on anymore, signaling that it must be late enough for most humans to be asleep.
Fesle hugs herself as she walks with bare feet, hearing and smelling things that go beyond the motel doors. Some alcohol, drugs, and takeout food is smelt, bringing her somewhat to a calmer state of mind. At some point she reaches the end of the rooms and is able to see the skyscrapers once again, they're lit up beautifully with blue lights. But it shouldn't be beautiful to her, right? "Why can't I just let this all go?" she asks herself, tightening the grip on her arms. She's upset at herself, feeling like a traumatized puppy in a rescue center; safe and sound but uncertain of everything. It angers her but she knows she needs to keep staying positive, not just for herself but now for her new pack- for Maxwell. Leaning against a brick wall of the hotel, she just watches, listens, and smells the city.
Hearing the bathroom door open makes her close her eyes again, trying to slow her breathing down so that she appears asleep. Her body feels the bed move constantly but she wouldn't dare try to catch a glimpse of what's happening. Then, she feels a nose against hers' and the same intoxicating scent that's clogged her mind all day. Her tail twitches but refuses to wag to give away that she's awake. A few minutes later and the bed is finally still and quiet from creaks. Now, all that's left is the breathing of her pack, the occasional horn blares, and the loud air conditioning beside the bed. Knowing that turning the air up will not quiet it down, Fesle leaves it alone.
What seems like an hour goes by and the triplets are asleep, but not Fesle. She can't bring herself to fall asleep as easily as they do...she's never been a good sleeper anyway. Quietly as possible, she slides out of the bed in human form before making light steps to the bathroom. Closing the door, she takes some gulps of water from the sink before looking into the mirror. Those cognac eyes, the same ones as in her wolf form, for some reason feel different than before. Fesle thought that this turmoil in herself would stop now that she's with a pack, but it feel like something is still missing. She has a pack, what else could she want? It's not like she needs Maxwell or anything...why did that even come up in her mind? "It's literally been one day." Fesle scold her reflection. In a human's viewpoint, this would be something as "too far" or "too fast". She brings a hand up to her chest, feeling it calm down a bit but not so much. It's like she has no control over what's happening, is this what...instincts are like? There's few times that she feels like, like howling at the moon or hunting an animal. Just what exactly does all this bond stuff like?
She groans again, this time in a groggy and quiet manner. How come she is with a pack but somehow still feels alone. For a moment, a split second of weakness, her eyes cloud with water and forcibly rubs them. Turning off the bathroom lights before exiting, she makes her want toward the entrance of the motel room. The chair is secure under the doorknob, she's even done that a few times if the lock doesn't work. She grabs the chair and sets it away before she unlocks the door. Exiting as silent as possible, she closes the door behind her and is met with the cold wind hitting her bare shoulders. It's a normal for her to stay up late and never feeling the urge to sleep until she's exhausted. She did have that nap earlier this morning as well, more than she usually does. As she turns around to look at the city, the city lamps are light as very few cars drive by the motel. Not a lot of lights are on anymore, signaling that it must be late enough for most humans to be asleep.
Fesle hugs herself as she walks with bare feet, hearing and smelling things that go beyond the motel doors. Some alcohol, drugs, and takeout food is smelt, bringing her somewhat to a calmer state of mind. At some point she reaches the end of the rooms and is able to see the skyscrapers once again, they're lit up beautifully with blue lights. But it shouldn't be beautiful to her, right? "Why can't I just let this all go?" she asks herself, tightening the grip on her arms. She's upset at herself, feeling like a traumatized puppy in a rescue center; safe and sound but uncertain of everything. It angers her but she knows she needs to keep staying positive, not just for herself but now for her new pack- for Maxwell. Leaning against a brick wall of the hotel, she just watches, listens, and smells the city.