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The Mercury Nightclub Building Site
~ Bethnal Green, London ~
Billy King
~ Bethnal Green, London ~
Billy King
It was hard to tell how Spencer really felt about Billy and Erik being gay. He told Billy there was no need to apologise, but his tone was short and he sounded frustrated. While he waited for the man to get his thoughts together, Billy spent every second trying to guess, watching and listening for signs that it wasn’t going to be a problem for him, that Billy wasn’t a disappointment or a disgrace. Spencer warned them of the risks of keeping such a heavy secret, and Billy knew exactly what he meant - so far, Spencer was handling it relatively well and Billy didn’t believe he would react violently, but he was aware that one of the outcomes of being caught in the arms of another man was getting beaten up or even killed. If it had been someone else walking in on them, they might not have been so lucky. Regardless, Spencer assured him that he wouldn’t tell anyone their secret.
The thought that he had risked Erik’s role in the business made him want to cry. If Bruce decided to separate the pair to avoid trouble and ended up flying Erik back to New York, how would they explain it to Moretti? Erik could end up in danger, and it would be Billy’s fault…furthermore, the thought of not having him around anymore would break his heart. Billy was on the verge of tears as he awaited Spencer’s verdict, but instead his brother told him to calm down. He had already agreed to keep their secret for them so Billy would hope that included their uncle, but he knew how closely Spencer and Bruce worked together so if it was going to be an issue he wouldn’t be surprised if it was one they ended up discussing.
His throat burned as he fought to keep his breathing under control without drawing attention to how anxious he felt. The room fell quiet as Spencer dug out a packet of cigarettes and Billy glanced at Erik, wondering how he felt about being exposed in such a way. He wanted time alone with him to ask, but was worried he would be upset and wouldn’t want to talk to him. Erik rejected the offer of a cigarette and that made Billy want to do the same, but after a few seconds he gave in. He let Spencer light it for him, but once he had it in his hand he stepped back to reestablish the distance between them.
Billy had to look away when Spencer awkwardly explained that he didn’t know any other gay men. Whilst on the one hand that meant there were no specific examples of gay men he had in mind to compare Billy to, it also made Billy and Erik the first, and that put some pressure on him to be as easy to accept as possible so as not to negatively influence Spencer’s opinion of homosexuality. However, his brother went on to express no desire to judge him or Erik, and that his sexuality didn’t change the fact that he was still his brother. Billy looked him in the eye, the lingering shock and fear now combining with overwhelming relief that Spencer still loved him and drawing tears to his eyes. Biting down on his lip, he nodded his head when prompted.
Seeing his brother draw from his cigarette reminded him that his own was slowly burning away between his fingers, and so he took a drag, too. Any humour in Spencer’s next remark was lost on Billy and he reached up to cover his face, blushing deeply at the thought that he and Erik could have been caught doing something far more incriminating if Spencer had arrived just a minute later. Regardless, Spencer’s frustration seemed to have simmered down, bringing the tension down with it, and so when he expressed his concern for their safety, Billy felt a bit more understood. He too was worried about being caught by the wrong person. While he had been too drunk to remember, Erik had told him about the taxi driver who had beaten them up after Billy had started trying to have sex with Erik in the backseat. It saddened him to know that they would have to deal with such prejudice and hostility if they ever wanted to be free. However, as Erik pointed out, he had been dealing with the discrimination since he was a teenager and was by now used to handling it without getting too upset. Billy didn’t know the extent of Erik’s experiences with homophobic assaults, but he trusted him either way.
When Spencer brought up Gabriel, Erik confirmed that the New York boss knew nothing about his sexuality and that he’d prefer to keep it that way. He referred briefly to Tatiana and what she had said about her father’s treatment of her around her own sexual orientation. It wasn’t something Billy had spoken with her about, but he knew that her being a lesbian wasn’t exactly a secret. Still, Billy had never got the impression that Gabriel was a very open-minded man and so he was relieved that Erik had managed to keep his sexuality a secret from him all these years. Considering Billy had already accidentally outed himself both to Jeremy and now to Spencer, he figured he could learn a thing or two from Erik about how to be more discreet.
There was something comforting about listening to Erik reassure his brother that there was no need to worry. If Billy was going through this on his own he was sure he wouldn’t feel half as calm as he did with Erik at his side. He mirrored Erik’s soft smile with one of his own as the two men exchanged warm glances, and he felt his anxiety ease a little, taken over by the love he had felt before Spencer had caught them. However, Erik’s smile didn’t last long before it was replaced by a heavy sigh. Billy frowned slightly, and when the man went on to say that he was willing to keep it a secret, it was suddenly all too obvious that the idea of pretending to be someone he wasn’t was going to hurt Erik. His sweet words made Billy feel loved, but he felt bad knowing that he was essentially forcing the man to hide who he was.
“I’ll tell him,” Billy suddenly said, looking at Spencer to see if he might discourage the idea. “Bruce, I mean. I…I should tell him at some point, anyway, so it might as well be soon. Then all that’s left is Darcey and Alex…” He glanced briefly at Erik, suddenly realising he had never told him that he had already come out to a couple of people. “I told Harper first,” he sheepishly admitted. “Before the attack…I’m sorry, I just had to talk to someone, and I thought she’d understand ‘cause she’s into women and that. But then Jeremy overheard…” Billy looked down, shifting his weight between his feet as his forgotten cigarette continued to burn away without him. “I was gonna tell you, too, Spencer, but…I wasn’t sure if you’d be okay with it…and your opinion could change things, you know?” He felt his voice waver as the old feeling of dread resurfaced. It had been with him for such a long time that he couldn’t get rid of it in the space of their short conversation. “But if…” He glanced to Erik, reminding himself of why he needed to tell Bruce. “If you were willing to back me up if he doesn’t accept it, then…I’ll tell him. I just don’t want him to send Erik back.”
As if on cue, the main door opened again and Bruce walked in. “Oh, you’re all in ‘ere,” the man said, letting the door swing shut behind him as he made his way into the room. Having only spotted Billy’s car outside, he thought he would only be able to round up his youngest nephew for the meeting they were supposed to be having, but seeing the others was useful. When he noticed the distance between the three men and the startled look on Billy’s face, he realised he had walked into a somewhat heavy atmosphere. Stopping in his tracks, Bruce looked between the three of them. “What’s goin’ on ‘ere, then?” he asked in a serious tone. “Is there somethin’ I need to know?”
Still slightly red in the face, Billy took a long drag of what was left of his cigarette before dropping it at his side. “Um…”
Bruce raised an expectant eyebrow and took a step forward, concerned that something bad had happened. “What is it? Just tell me.”
“I…I’m…” Billy stammered, glancing between Erik and Spencer for support before returning his focus to his uncle. “I have something to tell you.”
“Well, we don’t got all day,” Bruce pressed, though his eyes carried some concern. “What’ve you done?”
Billy fidgeted on the spot, feeling the burning sensation return to his throat as if trying to save him from speaking the words aloud. His breaths were growing heavy and rapid, but he was there, now, and with Spencer and Erik as witnesses, he knew there was no backing out.
“I’m gay.”
As soon as the words left him, his eyes filled with tears and he had to bring both hands to his mouth to help stifle a sob. Bruce was staring at him, eyes wide, and even though he wanted desperately for the floor to open up and swallow him, he managed to maintain eye contact with his uncle, watching for his reaction.
“Okay, well…so, what, you like men, then?” he asked, and Billy let his hands drop, able to take a deep breath before nodding his head. “And why am I hearin’ about this now? Are you in trouble?”
Surprised that his uncle didn’t appear as shocked as he had expected, Billy was able to calm down a little. “No,” he sniffed, shaking his head. “It’s just, I’m realisin’ that…I can’t go back to lyin’ myself anymore. ‘Cause there’s someone…” A hitch in his breath cut him off as he struggled to fully rein in his crying. Instead, he simply turned and looked at Erik.
A few seconds passed before Bruce said, “It’s you, Erik?”
“Please don’t send him back,” Billy practically whispered, his voice taken from him by the weight of his fear. His uncle approached his New York employee and placed a hand on his shoulder before beckoning Billy over and doing the same to him.
“Look,” Bruce said with a small sigh, looking each of them in the eyes. “What two men get up to behind closed doors ain’t no business of mine. What does concern me, however, is how this impacts the firm. I know you two have had your tiffs in the past, and if that’s the kind of relationship you’re gonna have, then I ain’t gonna stand for that. I put you workin’ with each other ‘cause it made sense and so far, apart from the odd fallin’ out you two have had, it’s been a worthwhile investment. Do you agree?” Billy nodded, reaching up to dry his eyes. “So if you’re gonna do this, don’t be stupid. No attractin’ trouble and no messy break-ups. Erik, you’ve made a good home for yourself with us and I’d take it hard to see you leave us, but you are an employee of mine first and foremost and if this little love affair between you boys turns sour, I will be sendin’ you back to New York, for my nephew’s sake, and also for the sake of the business. Do you understand?”
Once all was confirmed, Bruce drew Erik into a firm hug and kissed the side of his head. He then did the same to Billy, squeezing his nephew tight. “There,” he said with a heavy sigh once he had released his nephew. “We all alright now? Billy, dry your eyes, there’s no need to cry.” He walked away, allowing the pair to recover from the confrontation, and instead he moved over to Spencer.
“The others are waiting at this meeting, now,” he said, rather flatly. He was aware that he and Spencer hadn’t spoken to each other since their fight the previous week, but after the drama with Billy and Erik, he wasn’t in the mood for another confrontation. “We should go. You can get Billy to drive you if your car ain’t nearby, and I’ll meet you both there.”
Now that he knew where they were, Bruce decided to make his way to the meeting with Darcey and Alex that he had organised, expecting Spencer and Billy to follow when they were ready. “Don’t be long,” he reminded them on his way out. “And Erik, if you’ve managed to get this one to come out after all the fake girlfriends he’s told me about, he must be pretty damn fond of ya’. So don’t hurt ‘im, or you’ll see what sort of uncle I really am.”
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