Mariana was worried about her? Embarrassment and shame rushed up, adding yet another layer to her sense of failure. If she had done better, she could have avoided this unnecessary distraction. Then Mariana’s words turned to something softer, something that Marianne’s mind couldn’t poison and twist into black barbs. An afterglow of pure empathy was left behind after each of her words. It made Marianne go completely silent, dumbfounded by shock. All she could do was stare, blinded like a deer stuck on the highway.
It really did hurt, but bearing it was all she could do. She was bleeding out in the snow, and knew that if she stopped to rest for even a second, she would never rise again. Exhaustion, fear and doubt hounded her, but Marianne would sooner gnaw off her own arm than admit such a thing.
The lapse in concentration and a trip from Mariana was enough to separate the two and jolt Marianne back into focus. She was struggling to stand by herself, so all she could do was lean on Annamarie and look back at the fallen girl.
“You don’t seriously intend to fight that thing?” she shouted back, trying to plead reason to the surprisingly stubborn wallflower and her over-eager demon.
She heard the crash of a window and saw the vague outline of Mariana’s anima climbing through. That had to hurt. Not long after, Crimson followed her lead and exited the hallway similarly. Now there were two broken windows. What exactly was the point of staying behind when they were just going to escape through a window? At least one had less glass shards.
Then it clicked; it must have been a ploy to lure the demon outside. Theoretically, if the demon left the miasma it would be significantly weaker, giving them a better chance. It was a decent plan, one that Marianne was interested in joining. There was only one small issue.
The demon did not leave its territory.
Marianne was at the end of the hallway now, yet she was close enough to see the hulking creature take a moment to pause, as if considering the two that had left the facility, and then slowly turn to face her. Like the beam of a lighthouse, Marianne’s refined sight could feel the core of its focus settle directly onto her. She couldn’t help but shudder from it. The demon had no head or eyes, yet it saw her. The only explanation was that it was using a refined sight of its own. Marianne was unable to outrun its charge, and fighting was certainly off the table, but she did have an idea. It was perhaps the one good option she had left.
Quickly, she motioned for Annamarie to stop. Her voice was low and shaky, as if afraid that the headless demon would somehow hear her, “Suppress your anima…”
Annamarie compiled without hesitation, bundling her chaotic mess of anima into a tiny core. Her scissors vanished, and even the red glow of her eyes dimmed as her life-sustaining energies were reduced. Trading offence for discretion, she would be utterly defenseless should she come under attack now. A necessary gambit.
As for Marianne, it was more of a struggle. Fear, pain, and even the lingering shock from Mariana’s words all clung to her battered body. If she didn’t control it fast, she would be a near perfect target for the demon. Closing her eyes, Marianne focussed on her lessons on anima suppression. It was one of the first classes, but it was now the most crucial.
She could almost hear Jaquie’s lacklustre drawl above the heartbeats ringing in her ears, 'To accomplish this, you must simply pick an emotion to feel and suppress it to the point that it is no longer there.'
Slowing down her breaths, she searched herself for the fear and pain. Slowly, she gathered the anima like loose strings and weaved them together, until it was nothing more than a speck of dust in the sickening miasma.
Marble hearts feel no fear, she thought, porcelain does not bleed.
It really did hurt, but bearing it was all she could do. She was bleeding out in the snow, and knew that if she stopped to rest for even a second, she would never rise again. Exhaustion, fear and doubt hounded her, but Marianne would sooner gnaw off her own arm than admit such a thing.
The lapse in concentration and a trip from Mariana was enough to separate the two and jolt Marianne back into focus. She was struggling to stand by herself, so all she could do was lean on Annamarie and look back at the fallen girl.
“You don’t seriously intend to fight that thing?” she shouted back, trying to plead reason to the surprisingly stubborn wallflower and her over-eager demon.
She heard the crash of a window and saw the vague outline of Mariana’s anima climbing through. That had to hurt. Not long after, Crimson followed her lead and exited the hallway similarly. Now there were two broken windows. What exactly was the point of staying behind when they were just going to escape through a window? At least one had less glass shards.
Then it clicked; it must have been a ploy to lure the demon outside. Theoretically, if the demon left the miasma it would be significantly weaker, giving them a better chance. It was a decent plan, one that Marianne was interested in joining. There was only one small issue.
The demon did not leave its territory.
Marianne was at the end of the hallway now, yet she was close enough to see the hulking creature take a moment to pause, as if considering the two that had left the facility, and then slowly turn to face her. Like the beam of a lighthouse, Marianne’s refined sight could feel the core of its focus settle directly onto her. She couldn’t help but shudder from it. The demon had no head or eyes, yet it saw her. The only explanation was that it was using a refined sight of its own. Marianne was unable to outrun its charge, and fighting was certainly off the table, but she did have an idea. It was perhaps the one good option she had left.
Quickly, she motioned for Annamarie to stop. Her voice was low and shaky, as if afraid that the headless demon would somehow hear her, “Suppress your anima…”
Annamarie compiled without hesitation, bundling her chaotic mess of anima into a tiny core. Her scissors vanished, and even the red glow of her eyes dimmed as her life-sustaining energies were reduced. Trading offence for discretion, she would be utterly defenseless should she come under attack now. A necessary gambit.
As for Marianne, it was more of a struggle. Fear, pain, and even the lingering shock from Mariana’s words all clung to her battered body. If she didn’t control it fast, she would be a near perfect target for the demon. Closing her eyes, Marianne focussed on her lessons on anima suppression. It was one of the first classes, but it was now the most crucial.
She could almost hear Jaquie’s lacklustre drawl above the heartbeats ringing in her ears, 'To accomplish this, you must simply pick an emotion to feel and suppress it to the point that it is no longer there.'
Slowing down her breaths, she searched herself for the fear and pain. Slowly, she gathered the anima like loose strings and weaved them together, until it was nothing more than a speck of dust in the sickening miasma.
Marble hearts feel no fear, she thought, porcelain does not bleed.