pansexualbread

hi if you're still online these days
just know that i miss you!

BRO WHY IS IT ALWAYS THE PEOPLE I LIKE THAT GET CALLED OUT FOR BEING CRAPPY PEOPLE?

Anyways does anybody have good music recommendations? I’m stopping listening to Wilbur Soot/Lovejoy after the whole situation and their music made up most of my playlist

FUCK WILBUR SOOT

MY MOM THINKS IM AUTISTIC AND WANTS TO GET ME TESTED DOES ANYBODY KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE IM SCARED

hellooo i am doing slightly better :]

i just really quickly want to come on here and say unfortunately my dog has passed away. i will be taking a longer break as this is very hard for me and i need some time to grief. i’m not sure when i’ll be back

okay so what i think i’m going to do is take a break for a little while and think about if i want to stay, come back when i’m ready and say what the plan is from there. This is kind of a hard decision for me to make because

1. I’m very indecisive
2. This is my only place where I can rant/vent to people about all of my issues without feeling too scared
3. I’ve been here a little while and i’ve made some friends that i don’t want to leave

i just seriously don’t know and need time to think on it

MY SISTER GETS TO GO TO A LOVEJOY CONCERT AND I DONT SHE DOESNT EVEN KNOW WHO LOVEJOY IS BUT THEIR MY FAVORITE BAND WHAT THE HECK WORLD

SO I LOGGED INTO MY SCHOOL TODAY AND I GUESS I FORGOT TO DO A READING ASSIGNMENT YESTERDAY OR THEY ADDED AFTER I HAD ALREADY FINISHED THE REST AND DIDNT THINK TO CHDCK OR WHATEVER, BUT I DIDNT DO THE READING ASSIGNMENT. NOW MY GRADE IS AN F IN MY HISTORY CLASS BECAUSE I DIDNT DO ONE TINY READING ASSIGNMENT. WHYYYYYYY. ITS NOT EVEN THAT I REALLY CARE LIKE, YEAH, IM DOING MY BEST, I FORGOT, WHATEVER - ITS THAT MY MOTHER IS GOING TO END ME.

okay now i’m debating stay because this is kind of the only place where i can be open and vent about issues i can’t go to other people for. And really quickly, a small vent:

So my friend C still isn’t over the whole me texting her parents thing even though it was like 4 months ago and she still brings it up. And just earlier, i saw a comment of her ranting to someone on her youtube channel knowingly lying about the story and what happened, and not telling the full picture to set it up to where I look like a total jerk and a horrible person. So like now i’m wondering if she knows she’s in the wrong because she’s lying, over exaggerating everything, and manipulating the story to make it seem a lot worse than it already is.

Sometimes I wonder if I should end the friendship with her because if i’m going to be totally honest, she’s toxic. She is not a great person sometimes and is toxic a lot. She’s made some homophobic/transphobic statements and has some questionable views and i’m not comfortable being with someone who thinks the things she does. But on the other hand, i’ve known her pretty much all my life. I love her a lot and she’s can be a great friend. It’s just ever since the whole incident with her parents, she’s acted like she doesn’t want to talk to me or be around me. She’s been a horrendously dry person but only to me. I see her chats in the group chat with my other friend and she’s much more active with more thought out responses and a bunch of stuff but then when i join in or text her separately I get stuff like:
“hi. cool. yeah. k. yep. oh cool.”

it’s just infuriating that she acts all innocent and like the best thing to happen to planet earth, and she refuses to acknowledge what everyone does for her. i just don’t know.

i was an elasmosaurus plush so badly but i can’t find any

i think my dog is dying

my moms in the hospital again

kinda leaning towards the option of quitting

heyyy might come back, might not. idk honestly

i’m too lazy and don’t have much time to say the people im talking to, so i just hope you see this if i’m in an rp with you or i’m talking to you or whatever:

going to go on break for a while. too much is happening with little help from my family. i have had like 5 mental breakdowns in the past 2 days and i just can’t take this anymore. nobody in my family seems to care. i don’t know when i will come back, if i come back at all. i may quit, i don’t know.

i’m just going to be gone for a little while. sorry

been crying for the past like 2 hours and can’t stop ahahaha so fun

AAAAAAAAAA I GOT MERCH FROM SOMEBODY I REALLY LIKE IM GOING TO CRYYYYYYY AAEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

bored af

i miss kori

Also, guess who never messaged me on my birthday? Yep, my homophobic/transphobic/racist/‘tRuMp wOn tHe eLecTiOn aNd iS StIlL pResIdEnT” grandma, and my sister who doesn’t actually love me and only talks to me when she needs something or to hurt me

bored af but i’m getting good at my skateboard :] (i’m just learning balance rn)

ITS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY

I GOT A FUCKING SKATEBOARD.

it’s my birthday yayy i’m olddd

my birthdays tomorrow yay

(trigger warning, i talk abt my period so if that’s too gross then leave. it’s not graphic tho)

ahaha i’m on day 12 of my period and my flow is still the same as when it started bc i missed one day if my birth control ahahaha

please save me i’m so done with everything right now