Prrrgadilly

That feeling when it hurts your head to even think, and yet you're trying to stay current on all your RPs.


I've got these three points of pressure in my forehead, one over each eybrow and the last nestled between my brows, that are really showing me the wrong kind of love.

So, today was chill. I realized that I'm harboring a bit of resentment towards my coworkers because all of them are in happy relationships. I've been single and celibate for twn years, and suddenly looking at couples just pisses me off. I'm sure there's a small bit of jealousy, but I think it's mostly I'm incredulous that people fall for each other's bullshit and bare their hearts like that. It's insane snd stupid. People always find new ways to disappoint. 


The bitter fruit watches from it's branch as the sweet ones fall to their deaths against the unforgiving ground. It had fallen and been returned to the tree. Would it survive another fall? Perhaps it will be plucked with care instead.

Sry about the radio silence. Got busy

Seeing as I'm anonymous here, I've decided to turn RPN into my therapist.


So, I recently decided that I'm going to major in Education in college while leaning towards a minor in philosophy. After making the decision, I felt a serious weight loft from my shoulders. I've also started looking for another job. I like my job now and I simply adore my coworkers, but combining the two appears to be cracking several of my finest masks and letting too much of the chaotic, toxic bitch I really am shine through.


Lessons?


1. Making no decision is the same as a bad decision, so always strive. "Indecision is fatal."


2. Just because doing something good can make you smile, doesn’t mean that it cannot be bad for you.


The sun contemplated peeking through the clouds today. This one looks East and awaits the Rise.

Thanks for the follow!

I miss RPing with all my internet folks.


I'd like to aak people to check out @Desert Rose 's RP The Fall of Men so that we can all hang, once again.

So, you know how you think things at your job are going good only for your manager to sit you down and tell you that nearly all of your coworkers have been pissed at you for one thing or another over the course of th e past three months, and that you've brought two of them to tears with you "attitude". Yeah, that happened to me this morning.


Apparently my attitude has been super bitchy to everyone and I'm "bossy", "talk more than I work", and "talk to people like they're children". I thought things were good, but it appears that I was a bloody tyrant and everyone was afraid to approach me for fear of "setting you off".


It really sucks cuz I thought everyone was cool, and now I realize that they were basically unified against me. So I have the options of improve or be fired. Obvy, I'll choose to improve, but these pathetic bitches aren't going to like the improved me either and they wont be able to pin down anything to fire me for. 


I'll make sure of it.

It has been a long day at work and my head has been pounding for the last 8 hours. Even though I'm tired and eould rather be asleep,  I have to say that talking to strangers online was the best decision I ever made. Reality is lemons and the Internet's my lemonade. 

Going back to the hospital for a follow up / yearly check up (coincidence, i think not) so I'll finally have ample free time to put up CSs for a couple rps I've been interested in. 


Even though I despise seeing any medical practitioner besides my dentist; My teeth are strong,  and have never seen a cavity, chip, or braces. My dentist says my mouth is a breath of fresh air.


@WeepingAngel525

Now, after 3-5 cases of "asleep on feet" while taking an hour long shower, I can finally lay down a catch some serious Zs. 

-pounces on you- I'm tigger!!

That moment when your page randomly reloads and deletes your fucking post right as you are about to sumbit. 

So, yeasterday I was actually at my first ever parade followed by my first county fair. My best friends and I had been out since 4:30p, then, I got home at midnight, had a bowl of cereal and accidentally fell asleep on the couch. Now, I'm at work.


Oh obviously I'm out of the hospital. Clean bill of health FINALLY.  My god being healthy again is amazing. I actually just glad I didn't faint from so much activity after just being released from the hospital yesterday morning.


Here's to hoping that I'm not sick for another 4 years.

Well,  here I am again. I'm getting so much better. The doctor said I can go home soon. I'm so excited. Fingers crossed for this being the last time I get sick for the next 5 years. 


Anyway G'night. Sick bitch needs his beauty rest. Also my hot doctor just walked in.  

HELLO RANDOM FOLLOWER

So, you know how I said that I was recovering from my sickness? Well, apparently my immune system is a slacker cuz I spent the last 5 days in a hospital bed with a viral infection that the doctors just couldn't quite put a name to. They told me that I had, in fact, had layered ailments and my first ever sinus infection. They said that I had been walking around with something akin to, but distinct from, walking pneumonia and would be dead right now if not for the fact that I swooned dangerously, while at work.


TLDR


I was still sick. Nearly fainting saved my life. I had multiple sicknesses that convoluted the main one. I am now stuck in a hospital until further notice, but things are looking up. At least I'm conscious enough to use the internet now.

While my immune system is hard at work, I have become a stay at home bitch. I'm recovering pretty well. Crossed migraines and uncontrolled tears off the list today. Now I just need to quit coughing up raindrops of phlegm and halt the runny nose. Yay for progress!

So, I'm in remission for an especially aggressive stomach virus working tandem with a severe allergy attack and sinus infection. I literally spent the last 30 hrs bedridden and falling in and out of sleep. Whenever I was awake, It was either to cough up a lung for tine amounts of phlegm or puking up my guts. Now I'd sick but at least I can sit up straight without swooning or walk round without having to take 15min breaks for wiggling my big toe.

That feeling of excitement when you come back to the site after a couple hours and see that there are 9 notifs to go through. 


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???????


Congratulations!


Only to open it to see that 7 of them are status updates.


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? me now ? 

Ever wake up after 1, and then an additional 3, hours of sleep,  and feel like you've been beaten with a sack of quarters? No? 


Wish I could say the same. 

Listening to Melanie Martinez while RPing can lead to some... interesting decisions. I apologize in advance for any super-bitch moves I may or may not make in the forseeable future.


(I usually go on month long artists binges. You have been warned.)

So, fell asleep nearly 6 mins after 2:45AM CST and woke up,  feeling rested, approximately 36 ago. And here I thought I was actually going to get a full 6hrs of sleep.  Ha! Less than five. 


Might as well roll over and try to catch 2 restless sets of 30mins before I have to get ready for work.  ¬¬

It's my day off. Guess who's gonna spend 6+ hours at the public library making CSs, playing games, and updating everything on his laptop after a month without Wi-Fi. 


THIS GUY! 

You gave him your blood,


And your warm little diamond. 


He likes killing you,


After you're dead. 


Y'all know who sang this and what song? 


Anyway,  I gots me a new phone. I'm ecstatic. 


Laughing at the smoke, 


From a black-roofed chimney. 


Marching to a beat, 


Of a heart within me. 


Hey ho,  well hey ho.


We're off to work again. 


Bells are ringing, 


We are singing. 


Joyous in our industry.


Same singer, different song. 

No new phone yet. I'm somehow surviving without my connection to the world. I am so much stronger than I thought.