You're leaving? (A 1x1 with Lexxy)

[Lexus]

Optimism again. It almost made him want to clench a fist and punch a wall. This wasn't supposed to happen. She promised she would always fight. She promised. He sighed and got up from the chair and for the first time in a week walked into their room and sat on the bed. He stared at all the pictures and silently cried. He looked over to her side of the bed and saw the letter. He didn't want to read it, not now, not ever he wasn't supposed to ever read it. They were supposed to grow old together, she was supposed to be here. They should be at a game right now. He reached for it slowly and forced himself to open it.


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[isax]

The letter read:


To my dearest love Clay Waters,


If you are reading this then it means I have left the world and left you behind and for that I am sorry. I know I promised Clay. I promised I would be with you forever. I promised I would always fight but I knew I wouldn't last long. I'm utterly sorry. Words can't describe how sorry I am for ever thinking I was doing the right thing. I just wanted you to be happy and have no worry. I was wrong for thinking that it was the right thing to do.


I know you don't want to hear optimism because my love I know you well but you need to know, I love you. My love for you is eternal and special. I didn't love anyone the way I love you.


I'm happy I could leave you what you always wanted Clay. A family. I knew from the way you looked at children you wanted some of your own and I am happy I could give you a family. Even if ours was whole for a short time. I see you in the critters so much Clay it makes me smile. It let's other know they are Waters and Waters are strong. I need you to be strong my love.


I left a box in the back of our closet because I knew you would never find it there. It has 4 items. One for each and every one of you. I put a lot of love and care into them and it's your choice whether you want to find the box or not.


I am utterly sorry I left you my love. If I could go back in time and make sure I had healthy lungs I would but unfortunately I wasn't wanted when I was little and I grew up thinking that until I met you. You changed my whole world Clay, you made me feel like I was wanted and you made me feel loved and for that alone I could never thank you enough. I will miss the days we spent together. The days in Barcelona. The days at the pier. Our young aged days. Just days where you and I held hands in bed and slept together. I won't forget any of those. I especially won't forget our wedding day. The day I got to call you my husband. That is one day I will never forget.


I love you and I'm sorry. Six words that I know you don't want to hear but I am.


I love you and I'm sorry.


Love you always,


Ashley Waters. A proud wife of her her husband and a proud mother of her kids.


At the end of the letter was a family picture of all 5 of them. Below it their wedding picture and lastly the picture of the day her and Clay first met.


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[Lexus]

(Currently crying in the car on the way to the airport.)


Clay read the letter at least three times and each time the tears just got worse. She said she was sorry more times than she needed to. She shouldn't be sorry, it wasn't her fault. He threw the letter on the dresser and just laid there until he had no tears left.


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[isax]

(It's okay. I cried when I was writing it.)


Rylan walked into the room after Allie and Cory had fallen asleep for a nap. He looked at his dad and felt his heart breaking. Rylan always came in here especially during this week. He loved looking at the pictures his mother kept. He got into the bed next to his dad and curled close to him. "I love you dad." He whispered as he remembered sleeping in the middle with his dad and mom and that alone brought tears to his eyes again.


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[Lexus]

When Rylan entered the room he tries to quickly compose himself for his son's sake. He smiled when he climbed on the bed. "I love you too." He whispers pulling him closer. He wasn't sure how he would do this alone but e would. He had no other choice


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[isax]

Rylan stayed close to his dad and slowly began to fall asleep. He needed to stay strong for his family. He stayed there and after awhile woke up and looked at his dad. "What's one of your best memories with mom dad?" He asked softly hoping he didn't upset his father.


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[Lexus]

Clay smiled at his son's question and stretched from the bed. "Let's see." He says standing up and looking at the abundance of pictures on the wall. It was hard to pick just one. "This one," he says pointing to a picture near the too. It was the two of them, she jumped in his arms. There' was a Christmas tree behind them. He was dressed in his uniform. "I surprised your mom and came home for our first Christmas together as the Waters." He had never seen her so excited to see him


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[isax]

Rylan walked over to the pictures and smiled at it. "I didn't know you were in the army dad." Rylan said as he looked up at his father and smiled. "It must have been hard for mom while you were away." He added and then saw one with his mom and dad jumping off the pier holding hands. "What was this one?" He asked pointing to it. In every picture his mother seemed so happy.


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[Lexus]

"It was hard for both of us." He says before looking over to the one his son was pointing to. "Oh that one," he says with a smile from ear to ear. "That was before we were married. That was right after I came home from school."


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[isax]

"Came home from school? Like college? Mom only looks like she's in high school." Rylan said as he looked at his dad. He hadn't realized how much older his father was from his mother. Rylan then looked at the other pictures. He saw one that caught his eye. One where his mother was in a hospital bed but her and Clay were hugging with flowers in her lap and a bear. "Was this mommys first major attack?" He asked pointing to it.


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[Lexus]

Clay laughed. "That's because she was in high school, senior year. Your mom and I are four years a part." He then looked to the other picture his son was pointing to. "First one I was there for."


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[isax]

"Four years huh? That's not that bad." Rylan said as he smiled at his dad and laughed. Rylan then looked at his father a little confused. "First on you were there for? Weren't you and mom like friends since y'all were 8?"


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[Lexus]

"Yes but there was a time when your mom didn't have them, Almost like they were gone." He sighed. He wished it had stayed that way.


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[isax]

Rylan could tell he hit a sore spot and just looked down at the ground. He too wished mom didn't have asthma attacks like she did. He looked at the other pictures and saw one where they were both full of dirt. "If mom put these in order, then this happened after y'all's wedding. I'm assuming y'all were out in the country." Rylan said as he pointed to one where Ashley wore a white sundress and boots but was covered all in dirt and mud. Clay as well.


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[Lexus]

Clay looked up at the wall, he never noticed she had put them in order. He smiled when he saw that picture. "Yeah, we were," he says looking for a certain picture and when he found it he removed if from the wall. "This was her favorite picture." He says handing it to his son. It was the first one of the three of them together right after Rylan was born.


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[isax]

Rylan looked down at the picture his dad was handing him and he knew that baby was me. Rylan smiled from ear to ear but felt tears threatening to leave his eyes. "Mom looked so proud to be my mom." Rylan said as the tears finally fell and fell onto the picture. "Mom told me about her miscarriage. She said she was so sad but when I was born she felt this happiness that she never felt before." He told his dad.


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[Lexus]

Clay nodded. "You were your your nom's first baby. She wouldn't let any one touch you without her permission until you were almost one." He laughed remembering her smacking Gaven in the was for trying to pick him up. He saw his son was upset and sighed. "You keep that picture."


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[isax]

Rylan looked to his dad and blinked away the tears, "Are you sure? It was part of yours and moms wall." He said and heard Allie walk in. "Daddy.." She said sleepily as she walked over to him and tugged in his shirt while she rubbed her eyes. "I saw this picture awhile back and mom said you would tell me eventually what happened in it." She said and Rylan laughed and shook his head at the picture she pointed to. It was one of Ashley falling into the water and Clay standing at the edge of the pool laughing and Jenna's head in her hands. Ashley was taking a picture with Jenna when she was pushed into the water by Clay.


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[Lexus]

Clay nodded to his son's question before Allie came in and tugged at his shirt. "What baby girl?" He asks picking her up and joining in on Rylan's laughter. "That was your daddy being mean to your mommy and pushing her in the pool. Uncle Gaven said I wouldn't do it."


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[isax]

Allie smiled and laughed softly. "I wonder why it was moms favorite." She said and rested her head in his shoulder. "Daddy, in time will we get to know all the stories behind these pictures?" She asked and looked at him with her bright blue eyes.


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[Lexus]

"Yes baby, you will." He says with a smile. She looked just like her mother. "I'll tell you all the stories you want to hear. Just not right now okay?" He says rubbing her back.


(If I disappear I boarded the airplane I'll reply when I get home :3)


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[Lexus]

(Gotta go.)


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[isax]

Allie nodded and yawned as she slowly fell asleep with her head in his shoulder. Rylan smiled and looked at the picture his dad gave him again. "I love you dad." He told him and the smiled and went to lie down on the bed.


((Okay.))


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[Lexus]

Clay set Allie in the bed next to her brother and kissed both their heads before going to get Cory. He fell asleep with all three of them nest to him.


(Home :3)


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[isax]

On the bed was Rylan. He was mostly in his mothers side. He could smell the lavender and lilac she loved so much. He had the picture under the pillow. Then Allie and Cory. Cory was the one who moved a lot and the first one up was Rylan. He looked up at the ceiling and sighed. If he still had his mom, all three would be jumping on the bed telling his parents to wake up. "Wake up mom." He whispered out loud and then smiled at the picture.


(Welcome back home.)


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