You're leaving? (A 1x1 with Lexxy)

[isax]

Ashley's mother looked at Clay in utter shock. Ashley told him. She told him about the abortion. She sighed and just stared at the ground. "I-I didn't mean for this to happen Clay." She whispered and Jenna walked over, "Clay, it wasn't her fault. Nobody cou-" Ashley's mother interrupted her. "No he's right. It is my fault. She was born with weak lungs because I tried to kill her with an abortion because I didn't want her." She said and Jenna stared at her in shock. "I'm really sorry Clay. If I would have known all this would happen I would have never tried to kill my daughter at the beginning. I'm really sorry." She said before turning around and walking away. Jenna looked at Clay, "how are the kids?" She asked worried for the three of them.

 

[Lexus]

Clay heaved a sigh disgusted with her mother. "I could lie to you and tell you we're all okay if that'll help you Jenna." He then took a seat on the porch and looked out into the distance. "The twins are fine now, they're too young to understand. I'm worried about Rylan. He's taking it just as I did when I lost my mother."

 

[isax]

Jenna sighed and sat next to Clay on the porch and looked up at the sky. "I figured he would be the one to take it hard. He was closer to Ashley too." She said then looked out into the distance. "I'm here if you need anything Clay. She fought hard for many years Clay. She's free now." She whispered and felt tears want to fall. "I know she's happy she gave you what you wanted before you passed." She added. "Want me to see if I can talk to Rylan?"

 

[Lexus]

"I know Jenna, you're all here." he wiped her tears away and smiled faintly. "I think he needs his space for now, this is all still new for all of us." He still really didn't want to hear how strong his wife had been. Every time he heard that he became selfish and wanted to say she wasn't strong enough because she left him here. What about forever?

 

[isax]

Jenna sighed and nodded. "Alright. If you need time alone just call me and I'll come pick up the kids. She left you a letter. You should read it after her funeral." She said and saying funeral sounded so ugly to her. She didn't want to think about that day. Jenna stood up then hugged Clay and walked off. The whole clan was in pain. They all lost a really close friend.

 

[Lexus]

A week later Clay got up and got himself dressed before waking the kids. He hadn't slept in their room and he wasn't planning on it. He slept in the guest room. He gave himself time to grieve alone before going to wake the kids and getting them all dressed for the mournful occasion. "Okay, all three of you you respect everyone today okay? They are all coming to pay respects to your mother and she would want you to be friendly towards them. Understood?" 
A week later Clay got up and got himself dressed before waking the kids. He hadn't slept in their room and he wasn't planning on it. He slept in the guest room. He gave himself time to grieve alone before going to wake the kids and getting them all dressed for the mournful occasion. "Okay, all three of you you respect everyone today okay? They are all coming to pay respects to your mother and she would want you to be friendly towards them. Understood?"

 

[isax]

All three nodded and Rylan hadn't said a single thing to any of his family members the entire week. They all got in the car and when they got to the grave site, Rylan sat in the chair and just stared at the casket that held his mothers body. She didn't deserve this. She promised forever. If she knew she wouldn't last forever then why did she make that promise? Allie sat next to his dad and Cory sat in the middle. All their friends stood behind Clay and the cries of some people could be heard. Rylan wanted to cry to and eventually he did. Everyone gave speeches and said their goodbyes but Rylan and Clay hadn't gone. Rylan didn't want to speak because he knew he would break down.


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[Lexus]

Clay didn't push his son to go he just looked at him with sad eyes. This had be a dream, please be a dream. He blinked a few times but his wife's casket still lay in front of him as everyone stared back at him waiting for him to speak. He had not the slightest clue what to say. He just let words spew out of his mouth, his gaze concentrated on the ground for a few moments before he began. "We all shouldn't be here," he spoke truthfully. "My wife and I, we were supposed to grow old together, watch our children grow to be wonderful people but sometimes things don't go as planned and while I feel none of this is fair for any of us, I can say Ashley is no longer suffering. She fought a long hard battle, one that shouldn't have been hers to fight. I also know she is proud of each and every one of us for standing here. All that I can ask of you is to not remember her like this, but remember her how I have. Through your memories with her." With that he headed back to his seat choking on his words.

 

[isax]

When Clay began to talk, Rylan began to cry. He only had 8 years worth of memories but they will forever be one he would cherish. He sighed and when everyone left, they started to put the casket in the ground and Rylan watched. He wanted to just jump in with his mom but knew he couldn't. When it was all over, Rylan went over to his dad and hugged him tight. "Can I sleep with you tonight?" Rylan asked as he wiped the tears on his dad's shirt. Allie and Cory felt bad for their older brother and dad but they needed to help them get through this tough time in life. Allie wanted to know all the memories her father had with her mother since she didn't have many with her. She would ask her father later.


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[Lexus]

Clay nodded and picked up Rylan carrying him away from his mother's resting place. "How beautiful of an angel do you think your mother is?" He asks setting him back down waiting for his answer.

 

[isax]

"One beautiful angel. One who won't let harm come to either of us and watch over and just look at all the other angels and be like, that's my family." Rylan said with a smile as he wiped away his tears. It was his first smile in a week. Allie and Cory were glad to see their brother smile and Allie said, "Daddy, how beautiful of an angel do you think mommy is?"


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[Lexus]

"I think your mommy is the most beautiful angel in heaven." Clay replies simply with a smile. "All the other angels are going to know who she is when she walks by." He couldn't help but laugh because she always said she was far from perfect. "Your mommy is a perfect angel."

 

[isax]

Allie smiled at her father and said, "if mommy heard you say that I bet she would tell you I'm far from perfect." All three kids laughed softly and then hugged their dad close. "We love you dad. We will get through this together." Allie said and the boys nodded. "Mommy love you lots Ry. She still does. She loves all of us." Cory said and Rylan smiled softly at his siblings.


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[Lexus]

"Come with me," he told the three of them and walked then to the pier. They had never been here before. As soon as Clay stepped foot on it he remembered their wedding day. The way she laughed when he kissed her. All the memories came flooding back to him. He swallowed a burning swallow. It should have looked familiar to them from the wedding pictures. "This is your mom's special place, we had a lot of memories here," he couldn't help but smile as he looked of f into the distance. "If you miss her you can come here and I'm sure she'll follow."

 

[isax]

The walked with their dad to the pier and Allie fell in love immediately. Rylan looked around and smiled. This pier looked familiar. Rylan smiled at his dad and walked over and looked out into the distance like Clay was. "You and mom got married here right?" He asked and Allie and Cory remembered the pictures. "Daddy, what did mommy look like in her dress?" Allie asked not remembering her mothers appearance from the pictures entirely.


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[Lexus]

"Yes, this is where I married your mom." Clay says smiling and playing with the wedding band on his finger. It was a part of him now. Clay pulled out his phone then and pulled up a picture from the wedding and handed it to Allie. "She was beautiful."


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[isax]

Allie looked at the picture and smiled. "She looked so happy." She said and looked at her dad and smiled. She saw the wedding band and touched it. Rylan touched it too and be smiled. "Mom always said she was lucky to have you dad." Rylan told him the looked out into the distance again. Cory smiled and felt like his mother was there with them. That made him relax. P


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[Lexus]

"No, I was lucky to have your mom." Clays says feeling her too. He always knew her presence from everyone else's. He closed his eyes and took a deep breathe as the wind rushed across all their faces. When he opened them they all looked at him hesitantly. "Don't be afraid," he says with a smile. "She's here."


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[isax]

The three smiled and the twins said they loved her. Rylan smiled and continued to look out in the distance as his mothers presence calmed him. "I'm gunna miss you mom." He whispered and then looked at his dad. "Y'all were lucky to have each other." He told him and smiled that smile that was exactly like his moms. Ashley and Rylan were so alike in many ways it scared the twins. It made Rylan feel closer to his mother however.


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[Lexus]

Clay smiled as they all talked to her as the wind died down. He smiled back at Rylan and saw his wife, he saw her in all three of them and smiled. "Come on there are people to greet." He says putting his hands in his pockets leading them off the pier and back towards the house.


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[isax]

Rylan didn't want to leave but he did anyways and went to the house. He was greeted by hugs and sorry for your losses but Rylan didn't care. The twins simply smiled and stayed polite. Rylan on the other hand only talked to Krislyn, Jenna and Ivy. "Sorry for snapping at you at the hospital." Rylan told Krislyn who just shook her head. "Don't worry love. I don't know what it feels like to lose a mom but I'm terribly sorry it happened." She told him and hugged him. "There's a letter you know. One for your dad but if he plays his cards right he will find something your mom left behind for all of y'all." Krislyn whispered to him but Rylan was confused so he simply nodded.


((Gosh when Clay reads the letter I'm going to cry again.))


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[Lexus]

(I've has a constant stream going.)


Clay walked back to the house slowly. Seeing all those people dressed in black surrounding the house he built for his wife was almost too much for him to handle. He almost didn't want to walk back inside but he did. He had to be polite too all the people too. It still wasn't real for him she was gone, forever.


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[isax]

(My mom walked in on me yesterday asking what was wrong.)


Slowly everyone began to leave the house after they talked with the family and eventually it was just the clan, Clay and the kids.the twins were playing monopoly together but Rylan had his headphones in just listening to his and his mother song. Jenna looked at Clay and said, "I won't ask if you're okay because we know you aren't but like you said, remember her by y'all's memories." Then Gaven laughed and nodded. "We know y'all have plenty." He told his friend and smiled.


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[Lexus]

Clay still wasn't up for optimism but he smiled knowing they were just trying to be there for him in his time of need. However unless someone could bring his wife back nothing would really help right now. He had to wait it out.


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[isax]

"We going to head out. Don't hesitate to call any of us Clay." Jenna said and everyone gave him a hug then left and when they left Rylan laid back on the couch and closed his eyes as the song continued to repeat. Allie looked at her dad and smiled softly and Cory focused on the game board. "Moms love for you is eternal member? Don't forget that." She told her dad and then went back to playing the game with her brother.


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