Technological Revenge, and It's Effect... (Saph and Neshimo)

[SaphireTsuki]

Saphire frowned. "We'll be talking about that too, Jamil." And she wasn't taking no for an answer. Instead she would pester him and pester him... and see about making them something to eat, as she'd just realized they'd not had anything at all... and her stomach was starting to growl. Her hands jumped to her stomach, flushing red from the embarrassment. Not meeting his eyes she asked, almost nervously, "C-can we make something to eat, first though?"

 

[Neshimo]

"Sure, off the the cafeteria, they've already started cooking dinner today, so it's probably already probably packed with people. We might have too eat in the briefing room again. Though..." Looking around, everyone still seems too be working hard, and some with bread and water next too them. They might be working without dinner tonight, or if they aren't only a light one. "Well, maybe not packed...we'll see when we get there."

 

[SaphireTsuki]

A nod, her walking close to him, slowing down as she led the way from there. After all, she was the one who... somehow... knew the place. No, not somehow anymore. She'd been here, and for a long time, and she'd lost those memories. Most of them had been bad, some good... was this why he didn't want to sleep? He didn't want to remember the bad and good times? But... "If you don't remember, you're not really you anymore..." A quiet whisper, he might hear it, he might not... it depended on how sensitive his hearing still was.

 

[Neshimo]

Jamil, getting sidetracked halfway through, was in the courtyard, talking too one of the soldiers, and old buddy of his before the lay offs. He'd helped with multiple projects, though now Jamil being a higher rank, he heckles him a bit, though still being friendly towards his work companion. Mainly, looking all over too find a way too ditch out of the conversation they would be having tonight, they'd asked him too a game a cards, though Jamil declines after thinking it through. "She'd find me way too easily from the sound of you guys losing over and over, though I will find some place to hide out. Thanks for a offer."

 

[SaphireTsuki]

Saphire, having noticed he wasn't nearby, paused and turned around, silently finding him in the courtyard through process of elimination. He wouldn't risk getting lost, so he'd go somewhere he knew how to get to. Deciding not to interrupt his conversations fo a short while she says, almost amiably, when there's a break... "Hide out from who, Jamil?"

 

[Neshimo]

"GAH!" He jumps hearing her voice, the group of his old friends whistling and walking the other direction, giving him a good luck smile. Slowly but surely, he glaces behind him, seeing her stare at him, then turns back around. His shoulders tense up, while he breathes in, then relax as he breathes out, his eyes now piercing when he gets his composure back. "Sorry about this..." With that small warning, he runs off.


(Thunderstorm again tonight, power might go out, just so you know -w-)

 

[SaphireTsuki]

Saphire scowls, he just did WHAT?! "Oh no you don't!" And she streaked off after him, hair streaking behind her as she does so. What had been a simple stare was now a glare, her calm demeanor turning dark... and yet some part of her isn't mad. This was kinda like when they had to wrangle Mangetsu into training, her and Shingetsu. She jumped, turned, and used every trick she knew of to get closer to him, always keeping him in sight. He couldn't run, she knew everything about this place... even if she didn't remember it all.


((K. I'm not worried.))

 

[Neshimo]

"I'm not gonna be able too out run you here am I?" He stops and turns around, then punching his two fist together. "You've sedated me and tried too force me too sleep too many times, this time it's not happening." She's quick, very quick, faster then most likely anyone in the entire resistance. Though, unlike them, he's seen her fight, enough he thinks too counter her moves before she makes them, though the fakes will most likely be his down fall, this is the last option. "I'll struggle you down until you wont try and force me anymore."

 

[SaphireTsuki]

A look like 'are you crazy?' was given to him. "I wasn't going to force you. Tonight." Sure, she didn't know why he didn't want to sleep while he could, but... "Before I do that I need to know what's making it so hard for you to." AND BESIDES! "I've only forced you once, you know. The day after you fell asleep on your own." Did he not remember that? She'd sung, sure, but she hadn't forced him to do anything.

 

[Neshimo]

"That-..." A sigh, he got overly dramatic yes, though she does still think there is something from keeping him sleeping. She's right, though it isn't trauma anymore, it's just how he operates. His body's back in tune with his mind set, focus on the goal of taking his life, though she'll probably never understand. She sleeps normally, besides the nightmares, though he only rest. "I'm not speaking with you about it, the sedative knocked me off my schedule, so technically I can call it twice." The song was just over killing on my inevitable passing out. He'd have fallen asleep either way, though the song made him calmer faster.

 

[SaphireTsuki]

A frown, and then... "I won't stop you sleeping how you want," She fidgeted slightly, uncomfortable with what she was going to say, "B-but... I want you to promise that as soon as we're done with him you'll at least try to get a regular sleeping schedule." Her eyes were looking right at his, not wanting to take no for an answer. "And, while I won't stop you... I will ask if you want to go to bed."

 

[Neshimo]

"Not really at least. And after we kill him, well...never mind that's for later." A depressing sigh, he begins too walk out into the forest. "I'll see you in the morning, gonna camp for tonight." With zero camping gear? He'll figure something out, he has before and most likely will again. "I'm not sleeping for a while, and I don't wish too talk about it. Thanks for trying though."

 

[SaphireTsuki]

She actually looked surprised and sad at that. A soft sigh, and a nod, then... "If you ever want to talk, Jamil." So, she couldn't help him? Saphire turned around and walked back inside the building, not caring about the myriad of people who had started to whisper as she left... instead she was only thinking about Jamil. And how she wished he could, or would, trust her more... that he'd open up to her and she could actually try to help him. Of course, with a wry smile, the only thing I'm any good at is killing, so he might not want to talk to someone like me about it.

 

[Neshimo]

Finding himself stopped in the middle of a forest, with out a PDA, shrouded in the little light left from the sleeping sun, he sits in the middle of a small opening surrounded by trees, and decides too take a refuge their, laying down while watching the stars one by one show up in the massive sky. He could stay there for hours, maybe days, just thinking until one of his needs had too be fulfilled. His stomach was growling yes, but it wasn't a need just yet, for now, just a whisper. He'd want too sit forever if he was allowed too, just becoming one with earth. He felt like, dying, and letting the nutrients sink out of him and into the earth. For him, it seemed almost peaceful, that kind of existence.

 

[SaphireTsuki]

Saphire quickly walked to the cafeteria, grabbing some grilled steak and leaving for her room, taking the trey with her. Upon reaching the room she turned off the music, sitting down on the couch and starting to eat, refusing to react to her shaking hands. She finished the food, placing the trey on the small table and lay down on the couch, staring at the ceiling. She let her memories, some happy but most terrifying, was over her. Slowly curling into a ball she let out a soft sob, wishing Jamil, not her sister and not just someone, but Jamil, were there. But she'd run him off by wanting him to take care of himself... and she wouldn't make the same mistake again... she'd take the painful knowledge, and she'd force him to sleep again if he didn't on his own after the mission was finally over. Until then she'd just leave him be... a whisper of her sister's name, and a silent wish that she'd sleep peacefully, as finally her tears lulled her to sleep.

 

[Neshimo]

He stays this way onto the night, listening, smelling, and wandering the sky well until the sun started too rise again and the patter of footprints heading his way, though quickly, seeing her well past through the trees he continues too lay there while a young man comes up too him, saying that their group needs my help. My archery, too help train one of the girls in his group. More so for actually sniping than actual archery, though about the same in premise, and he's done both, he agrees too follow the boy over. One reason for being lost, and the other for actually wanting too help, though he stops once they get too camp. "Meet me back here...I have too go check something."


She's alone, he'd forgotten in his desperate attempt that she actually sleeps, she dreams, and she's scared of her nightmares. His training, helping him slightly, every so often her gets a whiff of her smell, and eventually making it back too their room he takes a deep breath. "Please...be okay." He says, then opens the door.

 

[SaphireTsuki]

Saphire had managed to fall asleep, curled into a tight little ball, small whimpers coming out despite her best attempts not to scream in the dream. Over the entire night she'd been like that, not moving in the slightest, and it showed in the crinkles her kimono had. Still, she'd slept through the night, as she had before the mission, though not as peacefully. The dreams, the days and nights spent here, had somehow been unmangled from her normal distortions, perhaps horrible enough to not need the enhancement... and what good dreams had split up the monotony had stopped coming, even if she woke up she wouldn't be able to see the world around her for a few moments... and she was trembling.

 

[Neshimo]

"Damn it." He sighs, feeling sorry, guilty, beat up, and depressed at seeing her in that sad state. Though, with what he said, would she even want too see him again? He wanted to see, if she could still forgive him after all he'd done too her in one night. He can tell as much she wants too care, and wants him too care that she's caring, though he can't. At least not while seeing her like this, so he walks over, and takes one of her stiffened hands, and holds it. "I'm sorry, Saphire..."

 

[SaphireTsuki]

Her head jerked upward, eyes snapping open, and the only thing she could think of was the blood. The room full of it, her hands bathed in it, the slightly terrified and slightly content feeling she'd had in the dream... she'd been the one to do it. Panicking now she looked down at her hands, seeing only one free of blood, feeling warmth in the other... had she killed someone in her sleep? No! I-it was a nightmare... or was it a memory? A-a-a-and... and she was.... a whimper, her jaw still locked from the nightmare, she unhinged it just enough to let out a tiny cry for help, "Jamil..."

 

[Neshimo]

"...Oh gosh. Saphire, I'm here with you." He hugs her too him, and whispers in her ear. "It's a nightmare, wake up Saphire, just close your eyes, and listen too my voice. I'm here for you, your a killer, your the girl I want too protect with my life." Hugging her with all he can, he begins too hum not the song of healing usually done, though the one playing earlier in this room, not wanting her too always rely on a memory too get her through. "I'm so sorry I left you alone, but I'm here now, I'm always going too be here for you."

 

[SaphireTsuki]

Saphire reacted by holding tightly onto him, refusing to let him go. The warmth had been his hand? H-he'd come back for her? But... but why? He'd needed the time to calm down, hadn't he? It didn't matter, all that mattered was that he was here, the room was clean, and he had come back. Her eyes closed, held tightly shut in her terror, and let his voice wash over her. He'd always been there when she needed it, since he'd become her partner. And she couldn't do anything for him... and at that thought her shoulders began to shake in a quiet sob, tears falling without noise. He'd done so much for her... and was planning on it in the future, and she couldn't even make him feel safe enough to sleep. "I'm sorry..." It was a hoarse whisper, but it held all of her desire to help him, and her confusion and anger for not being able to.

 

[Neshimo]

"I'm sorry for leaving you." He hears her plead, and stays this way, beginning too weave his fingers through her hair, petting first them slightly combing until he got through. "I'll be your pillow for the rest of today..." He'd promised too help, but right now, seeing her in such pain, he needs to be with her. All he wants to do is be with her, always. "Shh, don't be sorry for anything. You've got nothing too be sorry for, it's never been your fault." What would she even wish to apologize for, she hadn't done anything wrong but try to care for him. If anything, he's should be the one too make feel better, and apologizing too her for his brashness too her recently.

 

[SaphireTsuki]

She shook her head, "I can't... I don't know how..." The words wouldn't come, his combing was calming her down though. Slowly the terror faded, faster than if she had been alone, but still bad. Except... she wasn't terrified, that wasn't the right word. Horrified? Better, but... she was also guilty. Who had it been, that she'd killed? And yet... no, that wasn't what she had been thinking about, it was a distraction. She focused on Jamil again, this time forcing the words out, them sounding choked, "I don't know how to help you. I'm sorry. Y-you've done so much for me, and... and I can't do anything for you!"

 

[Neshimo]

"I-I see..." The revelation comes in, and hits him harder than any train or tank shell could. She'd been trying to take care of him, make him sleep, and protect him, though by turning her away, now he's got this little girl. Someone who can only depend on him, and yet feels helpless when she can't even make him sleep. "That isn't your fault Saphire..." Not even that, she'd been trying too make him speak on his problems, train him when all he would is heckle her about how easy or annoying it seemed. All this time, he's been belittling her efforts too help, making her feel useless too him. "Can you go to the music player and pick out a song for me? I'd like too sleep on your lap for a while..." An apology can't even begin too cover how sorry he is, so instead of saying it, he'll show it. "Please...help me fall asleep."

 

[SaphireTsuki]

She pulled back a little bit, nodding. "O-ok..." Slowly, unsure of her movements, her back and legs spasming with pain from being in an unnatural position all night, she starts moving towards the music player. She looked through the music, trying to find something soothing and soft, something that won't keep him awake. Her hand pauses on a CD with a violin on the cover. Would one of these suffice? She took the disk out, looking over the music almost contemplatively, and put it in, moving to a particular song who's title she hoped meant it would help...


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