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On some level, Sakura's words registered in Satoru's mind: the part deep inside him that knew the logical faults in his compulsions, yet wasn't emotion the definition of irrational? He wish he didn't know, that he was shrouded in a cape of ignorance, blind to his own hypocrisy, because then everything would be so simple, the answer so clear, and he wouldn't be this conflicted.
He had asked his sensei a similar question on that basis, about war, as a young boy who did not yet understand the world; he wanted to know why people were so intent on causing each other harm, and why couldn't they just stop? And in the simplest way he could answer his student, who was still incapable of grasping the full extent of that question, whose answer seemed so simple, Takeshi had merely stated, 'Because we're only human.'
"Were it so easy," he muttered, after a long stretch of silence, spent with his eyes studying the pieces on the board. Once more he took her turn for her, taking advantage of the opening he had created, and forcing his own side into a tight spot. Another pause, his finger tapping the grid, before he informed her, "You have checkmate in three turns."
Leaning back in his chair, his gaze swept over her, before wandering off to look at nothing in particular, unable to meet her eyes. "Thank you for answering my question, and indulging me in this." His hand swept over the makeshift shogi set, before gripping the edge of the cloth, intending to fold it up for transportation, because he wanted to get out of this room that felt suddenly too small. But he hesitated, and with a frustrated sigh, merely flipped one of the pieces over with a flick of his finger. She had opened up to him, searched for some connection, and for that, he found he couldn't just walk away.
He finally forced his gaze back onto her, and stated the following as if it were fact, outlined in the logic she had just spoken to him: "You seem so concerned about his happiness, but what about your own? It works both ways; you can't absolve him of his sins on the basis of his hurt, while torturing yourself with your own, completely invalidating your own pain. At some point, you need to forgive yourself. Recognize the fact that you're only human."
He had asked his sensei a similar question on that basis, about war, as a young boy who did not yet understand the world; he wanted to know why people were so intent on causing each other harm, and why couldn't they just stop? And in the simplest way he could answer his student, who was still incapable of grasping the full extent of that question, whose answer seemed so simple, Takeshi had merely stated, 'Because we're only human.'
"Were it so easy," he muttered, after a long stretch of silence, spent with his eyes studying the pieces on the board. Once more he took her turn for her, taking advantage of the opening he had created, and forcing his own side into a tight spot. Another pause, his finger tapping the grid, before he informed her, "You have checkmate in three turns."
Leaning back in his chair, his gaze swept over her, before wandering off to look at nothing in particular, unable to meet her eyes. "Thank you for answering my question, and indulging me in this." His hand swept over the makeshift shogi set, before gripping the edge of the cloth, intending to fold it up for transportation, because he wanted to get out of this room that felt suddenly too small. But he hesitated, and with a frustrated sigh, merely flipped one of the pieces over with a flick of his finger. She had opened up to him, searched for some connection, and for that, he found he couldn't just walk away.
He finally forced his gaze back onto her, and stated the following as if it were fact, outlined in the logic she had just spoken to him: "You seem so concerned about his happiness, but what about your own? It works both ways; you can't absolve him of his sins on the basis of his hurt, while torturing yourself with your own, completely invalidating your own pain. At some point, you need to forgive yourself. Recognize the fact that you're only human."