Realistic or Modern OOC: Santa Monica Home for Boys and Girls [Reboot!]

[littlemedia]

And like when i was asking about puberty the other day... i was like really freaking out and was having a hard time breathing cause... well i dont know why but it really scared me i guess... but like i dont know it doesn’t always bother me... just sometimes and

 

[littlemedia]

Why cant i just be normal!

 

[littlemedia]

im sorry its like four in the morning for you and you probably want go to sleep I shouldn’t be bugging you with this stuff.

 

[Dawnstar]

Liam... Your still really young. So I wouldn't jump to put yourself in some other box yet. But its okay to be curious.
Its okay to have questions.

And its okay to be scared and confused. Its a really confusing and touchy subject. Its okay to freak out. Its okay to be frustrsted or want to cry.

*offers a cuddle*

But Liam. If it helps, we are all a bit weird. Normal really doesnt mean that much, I know that likely doesnt make much sense to you but- it is okay sometimes to be different.

 

[littlemedia]

Liam... Your still really young. So I wouldn't jump to put yourself in some other box yet. But its okay to be curious.
Its okay to have questions.

And its okay to be scared and confused. Its a really confusing and touchy subject. Its okay to freak out. Its okay to be frustrsted or want to cry.

*offers a cuddle*

But Liam. If it helps, we are all a bit weird. Normal really doesnt mean that much, I know that likely doesnt make much sense to you but- it is okay sometimes to be different.

But... bit i just dont know what to do!
Like sometimes it just hurts so much when i get called a boy. And sometimes its fine and i just dont want to keep feeling like that. It really makes me sad.
Sometimes when i see my body naked it just feels like... like i dont know like its not mine or something and then i just sit there and cry and im just scared and don’t know what to do.
I hate being sad and crying and i just want it to stop.

Maybe I should have just talked to dads about it... i just get scared every time i try. It was easier telling you for some reason but im still scared to tell dads or ask them about it or talk to them about it.

*cuddle brother and cry*

 

[littlemedia]

like at first i just ignored it cause i thought it would go away but i never did it just keeps getting worse and i keep getting more upset about it and i dont know!!

 

[Dawnstar]

*just holds Liam and cuddles back*
Im really sorry you feel this way. There are words to describe all of this stuff. Even the feeling like your body isnt yours or something isnt right with it.

I partially understand whst your going through.

How long have you felt this way?

 

[littlemedia]

Umm like not liking being called a boy sometimes that started like i dont know a year ago. At first it just sometimes made me feel a little uncomfortable but i just kept ignoring it and like it just kept happening and i kept feeling worse and worse and now it just makes me want to just start crying when it happens like its just the horrible feeling in my whole body.
The not likeing how i look or feeling like i have the wrong body or something that just started like a couple of weeks ago when I saw hair start growing... down there

 

[littlemedia]

i cant stop crying

 

[Dawnstar]

*continues giving the cuddle*
*wishes I could wipe away the tears*

 

[littlemedia]

Umm dad texted me and asked me to come down stairs to talk about something so i might not message you back for a while i dont know what they want to talk about.

 

[Dawnstar]

Okay.

 

[KaiMedia]

Ummm Dawnstar thanks for holding down the fort while i was... um indisposed sorry I wasn’t there to take over immediately but thanks we got this from here

 

[Dawnstar]

Its alright. I was going to head back to bed but I couldn't heart it to leave Liam upset like this.

I hope I havent overstepped.

 

[KaiMedia]

No no it’s okay what else were you going to do tell him oh well deal with it on your own? Yeah right. I just wish you weren’t put in that position .
Have a good night and dont worry liam will be okay.

 

[Edric Blight]

Working on getting my post up. It's almost done.

 

[Dawnstar]

Its okay Kai. I will speak to you all tomorrow.

 

[KaiMedia]

Working on getting my post up. It's almost done.

Okay im back and cant wait to see your post whenever you get it up

 

[Edric Blight]

Almost done here with this post, I promise. Keep getting side tracked.

 

[KaiMedia]

Almost done here with this post, I promise. Keep getting side tracked.

Cool no problem. Take you time can’t wait to see it

 

[Edric Blight]

Ugh, got it up but I think it looks like trash. Sorry. My mind wasn't really in the right place and I was all over the place. Hopefully it was somewhat readable and ok.

I don't think I should have published it but there it is anyways. Sorry for the wait. :/

 

[Edric Blight]

Does it look ok?

 

[KaiMedia]

Dude it good dont worry! It got a little rambly once or twice but it no big deal i still really enjoyed the post. Asher isn’t going to enjoy it but we already knew that.

 

[KaiMedia]

Ugh, got it up but I think it looks like trash. Sorry. My mind wasn't really in the right place and I was all over the place. Hopefully it was somewhat readable and ok.

I don't think I should have published it but there it is anyways. Sorry for the wait. :/

Also don’t worry about the wait i was kinda busy for a while anyways.

 

[Edric Blight]

Yea that's what I feared. I think I got a little too rambly and repetitive a few times during that post, so apologies for that. Probably due to the fact I like stopped writing it like 3 times cuz I got distracted by stuff. Sorry.

And yea, we all knew that but still, poor Asher. I just think Jack is all discombobulated now. He doesn't even know what to think or say or how to react haha. Poor kids.