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Juliette Jameson
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“You’re going to get, like, breast cancer and die from doing that, I read it online. Like, it’s a big deal-io.”
“If I die, I die. You get whatever’s in the will, congrats whore.” Jules usually wasn’t so morbid, but… okay, fine, she was but never really about herself. Maybe she was in terms of like, mentioning going to hell or whatever, but that was mainly for just the hell of saying it. It’s not like she believed she actually was going to get cancer and die, become roommates with Satan and all that shit.
Thankfully Nickie agreed with her that Castor was hot enough. Not that Jules needed her approval or anything, but it felt good enough to have it– what did it mean since Nickie’s taste was literal garbage? Nothing but JJ felt a little more at ease knowing that she wasn’t the only one who thought he was attractive.
“He’s hot, Not, like, Hunter hot, but, like, hot. But, like…I’ve never even seen him. Who even is he? Is he, like, new? In our grade? What?”
She took the blunt from her, shaking her head with a shrug. “Apparently he’s been in town for three years– and I’ve never met him?! With my luck he’s probably a drug dealer.”
It didn't make sense how he just flew under their radar, but they’ve both been busy with other boys. Nickie clearly busier than Juliette but beyond boys– she had dance.
Which was… the only other thing JJ took seriously other than potential boyfriends.
“We really do, like, literally always get with the worst fucking guys, don’t we? I mean, like…let’s just start with the Brewers, right? Like, you cannot say that was anything but a…”
They spoke simultaneously, filling in the blank of Nickie's sentence.
“Fuck up on our end, yeah."
“Shitstorm.”
“Same thing.”
“Oliver’s brother probably wasn’t bad as Oliver…”
“Disagree. You’re not the one who dated him, but… I mean…”
“I mean, like…it was…good while it lasted, for the most part, I guess. But the ending was shit.”
"Don't remind me." She held up a hand, her stomach started to swirl as the memories threatened to resurface. Since the ending was shit, it sort of made the entire thing worthless? It wasn't even like one of those super hot experiences in like The Vampire Diaries-- Juliette could've dated and been kissed by so much better than a couple of losers.
While it was… some sort of ego-boost that Nickie’s boyfriend at the time liked JJ, it wasn’t something she was gonna brag about– both of the Brewer boys were pathetic. Their annual ‘birthday bash’ freshman year proved to be the worst birthday she’s ever had.
Or well, they’ve ever had since they’ve been sharing parties together since they were four. Their families just decided it was a good way for the girls to get closer and have some kind of excuse to be around each other since tension tended to float around their parents.
“Then, I dated fucking…Edwin…”
Evie’s brother who she wasn’t a fan of. He was the lesser Sinclaire. A whiny, short, boring and inexperienced boy was the last thing Nickie needed.
“Apparently, Mom really liked us, I guess…and then, I…well, I guess I just fucked Damien. And, like…all except for Damien, I mean, like…I loved them, you know? I just, like…picked the fucking worst, you know?”
“I just want someone good, JJ,”
Me too.
“I think Hunter would be, like…good to me. Or, you know, like, good for me.” Nickie sighed, JJ’s gaze scrutinizing her features and she fell silent.
It was the weed.
Had to be.
"If you say so..."
Because Juliette didn’t have the energy to crush her dreams about Hunter Drake being the worst potential boyfriend she could scout out for herself and it was a reminder to stray away from the drug altogether.. She took another long drag, turning her head away from Nickie to blow out the smoke away from her face.
“You know, I come out here to cry,”
JJ sputtered a laugh.
“What?” She questioned, waiting for Nickie to continue.
“It’s, like…just a nice spot for that, and, like…I would take Nelson’s Swiss Army knife sometimes and…”
She ran a hand around the carvings in the tree and Juliette had only now noticed them as she pointed them out. Shaking her head with disappointment– but again, she didn’t really say anything. Nickie already knew the disasters that were her relationships.
“I just…want some heart I carve to actually…be true, you know? I don’t know. Maybe I’m just high.”
Maybe she was? She doesn’t remember the last time they talked for so long about something other than the latest gossip. It felt weird.
“No, yeah… I get it. I mean I didn’t do something as pathetic as carving initials into a tree, but…” She teased, handing the blunt back to Nickie with a heavy sigh.
She did get it... just in a different sense.
Juliette didn’t want another failed relationship, JJ didn’t want to carve a heart with some initials into the tree outside her window, Jules just wanted…
She just wanted to be wanted.
It wasn’t as easy as it sounded.
“I can’t believe I dated Dex.”
Even if Oliver hadn’t kissed her freshman year– Felix still would’ve broken up with her. Even if her parents didn’t force Dex and Jules into a relationship, they still wouldn’t have worked. There was no passion– no lust– no… nothing.
He wasn’t even a bad guy. He was just a fucking idiot. An idiot with a heart and as much as Juliette could love that, she couldn’t ever fall for someone who wouldn’t fall for her back.
It made sense on paper. Cheer captain and this popular, hot-ish guy on the football team. It was set up by their parents and… no matter how much Jules tried to make it work. There was just nothing there. They barely even kissed.
It barely even lasted a month, but she refused to spend a birthday not in a relationship.
“Pretty sure he’s gay by the way. I think he’s all hot for Chelsea. Guarantee you he’s carved his own heart with their initials.” They were sitting here, in a tree– high off of some blunt that one of the Darringtons had given to JJ, and they were talking about their failed relationships.
Damien, Oliver, Felix, Ed, Dex, and fucking Hunter Drake were the topic of their conversation.
Jules adjusted herself a bit closer to Nickie, moving one leg to look at the other carved initial.
“DA + BJ 4evr.”
She forgot about Justin.
…
All of a sudden, Juliette broke into a fit of giggles, her stomach started to ache from laughter and she struggled to catch her breath. “Ow, I can’t– I can’t.”
“Nickie, Nicks,” She snorted, placing a hand on her chest as if that’d help some of the laughter to die down.
She wasn’t sure if it was the drugs, or if reality was setting in, but… this was probably the hardest Jules had laughed in years.
Literally years.
“We’re–” She struggled to get out in between small fits of giggles. “so–”
“Depressing, oh my god– we wanted southern assholes, boys with mommy issues, Evie’s little brother, an idiot, and a boy with donkey tee–” She couldn’t even finish her insult and broke into another fit.
Her eyes were watering and she knew it wasn’t because of the drugs. A tear rolled and she took a deep breath, attempting to get herself under control and she glanced back at Nickie’s face which had just made her laugh even harder.
Juliette and Nickie were known as– she couldn’t actually remember what they were known as, but they were not loved in the ugly, drug-ridden, teenage parenthood landfill that was known as Newcastle.
The fact that she was continuing to go on and on wasn't helping her fit of laughter.
“Nobody even likes us–we’re bitches.”
But that--
That was the cherry on top.
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