Realistic or Modern Love, Live, Life

[Keiser]

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Bye guys!

 

[X3 Infernal Infinity]

"Ich mag keine Lügen* Bri... Not to myself...or others... It hurts that you can't even talk to me yea...rather hold it in... You two are a lot alike... And Lin you think the world ends when things don't go the way you see it... I wanted to have fun...but it looks like that's still as impossible as ever... "


Ash clucked, taking out another cigarette and lighting it off the one she was already smoking. Lifting her foot she ground out the butt of the first one on the bottom of her foot. She sighed flicking the butt away. Lifting the fresh cigarette to her lips she took a slow pull exhaling a cloud of smoke. Her expression was even, neutral, but in her head she could still feel the sense of everything being shit. It was like she had thought before, they were dogs licking their wounds, wounds they kept reopening and picking at possibly for no other reason than seeing if they would bleed any more than they already were.


"Sie könnennicht übersich selbst sehen...**"





*I don't like lies


**You can't see beyond yourselves...

 

[Ch0sen1]

I seen Lindsey walking away. Again, this time I wasn't mad, I was heartbroken. She did it twice in two days...A part of me came back. @LannTheClever

@Timv9 @Energie [/color]
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[X3 Infernal Infinity]

"Bri...I love yo*u like a sister... But what you just said to me Bri...is something you have no right to say... Have you considered that perhaps what you said hurt him and he was hurting you back... I don't think you realize sometimes how badly your well intentioned words can hurt... Like you just hurt me... I won't hurt you back cause that won't solve anything... You're my sister yea... But you can't support me like I support you...cause you're hurt... Wie ein Rudel Hunde reißen alte Wunden auf... Sie werden niemals heilen...*"


Ash shook her head, walking the rest of the way to the tree. She climbed up scaling all the way into the upper branches. She was angry now and when she was angry it was best for her to be so at a distance. She started smoking, a soft noise of irritation escaping her lips.


@Ch0sen1


*Like a pack of dogs tearing at old wounds... They'll never heal...

 

[NessieAlways]

Lindsey

She heard every last one of Aubria's words. They resonated in her head playing on a constant loop. No Aubria. I'm not going to sit down and pretend like everything is okay. You can't keep everyone together when we all obviously repel each other like magnets. Lindsey turned around and saw Aubria sitting down roasting a marshmallow trying so hard to keep things in check. She shook her head and whispered under her breath "Bye my dears friends. I love you all, but we don't work well together." Another tear fell down Lindsey's cheek and she continued walking. the father she walked the angry she became and the angrier she was the faster she walked until she was sprinting through the sidewalk.
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[Arael]

Austin sighed heavily and sat up grabbing his phone, walking out of the tent he saw ash climb up a tree yet again it seems like he missed something, he walked under the tree "hey Ash do me a fav and drop a durry down here" he rarely smoked unless he really needed to so he only allowed himself to once a week yhat was if he needed to.


@X3 Infernal Infinity

 

[Ch0sen1]

"Hey....Ashhy don't walk away from me!" I follow her to the tree. "You're having this talk with ME? You don't even know the vile things he said to me!! Ash literally all I said was he'd have to deal with me being polite and nice to Blake because he wasn't! He took it as an insult....a freaking insult! And you're going to condone the fact that he said I was bipolar and he didn't care about me and what I had to say and that he's gonna 'shoot the world up'? Again we're just going to let him get away with being childsh and immature? But yet I say ONE THING and I get barraged for it?? Okay you're right I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that to you....I just don't want you in a whim to his temper and get hurt if he can jump from Lin to you he can do it to you to [shrugs] just saying... not saying it WILL, but it CAN. So I'm sorry for looking out for you know what maybe I am the problem how about you guys have fun and I'll go. Okay?" I head to the tent to get my things and straps on my backpack. Yes, I knew what leaving meant. I walk up and kiss AJ on the forehead "Bye bloke." I begin to walk. And I stop....I didn't want to give up but...Ash was right, I can't support forever.

@X3 Infernal Infinity @EclipseRising
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[NessieAlways]

((Somebody say something I'm getting anxious =P ))

 

[X3 Infernal Infinity]

Ash jumped down from the tree puffing at her cigarette dramatically, inhaling softly as she walked up behind Bri. She stopped close enough that the girl would know she was there but didn't reach out to touch her. When she spoke her voice was calm, restrained, but the emotion in the quite voice was undeniable.


"Bri telling people what to do, trying to get us to dictate our emotions by your standards and your set of rules...it won't work it never will... We are all different people all scarred in different ways... When you make decisions on your own, when any of us make decisions on our own, that affect the Pack as a whole you aren't taking the individual in to account... Only yourself... I've been saying this over an over...when it comes to the Pack it's not about one lone wolf but all of them... What you say to him picks at his wounds like what he says to you picks at yours... When you listen only with your reason and justify only with your heart things are bound to become messy and confused... And then you... You as a person Bri... You can't even see yourself as the wonderful person you are or the great personality you have... You can't see your own damn worth Bri...and that pisses me off... It warps your view like my scars warp mine... As for me and James... That is for me and him to worry about yea... If I get hurt I get hurt... I've been hurt before and instead of hiding from the pain, I just learned to love harder... I don't believe he would hurt me and I'll believe it until I'm proven otherwise..."





@Ch0sen1

 

[Ch0sen1]

I stop in my tracks and I stare Ash into her soul. I place my hands on her cheeks "I'm not trying to get you to do anything. I can't make any of you do anything. It may seem like I'm barking out commands but really I can't do anything it's up to YOU all. It just sucks that you're taking his side that's why I'm walking away. Because all of you are acting so blind. [shakes head] there's no balance in this Pack anymore...you didn't go to James and have this talk with him did you? Nope, you adorned him. All I've been is selfless to you all, every last one of you, and now that I'm starting to think for me, oh NOW I affect the Pack huh? And I know my worth...now I finally do, and it's not how I've been treated. By James, by people getting emotional over me trying to do the right thing. I said yesterday I would try to be empathic, and I am....problem is it's a one way street. And if you have that attitude about being hurt and pain by all means do you...you think I'm hiding from the pain? Ashtin if I released what I wanted to you all would never talk to me again. When you listen only with your reason and justify only with your heart things are bound to become messy and confused...you just told me that, now apply that to how James has been acting over Lindsey, and over my commentary earlier. Yeah."

@X3 Infernal Infinity


And with that I walk away, and I turn my head to Austin. "Are you going to come with me?" @EclipseRising
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[Arael]

Austin turned and watched the two talk he understood where they both were coming from but he decided not to get involved instead he just grabbed his stuff from the tent and threw it in his car and walked back over once they finished talking, he looked over at aubria when she asked if he was coming with her "of course sheila".


@Ch0sen1

 

[X3 Infernal Infinity]

"And you do it again... You tell me what I will do before I do it... I trust you enough to tell you things that I didn't want anyone else to hear... I always have... Because I won't ever just assume you'd judge me... I would never do the same to you but you don't believe in me enough to even let me hear what you have to say... Because I will listen, not with my anger not with my feelings but as a friend trying to hear a friend out... As for James I did not know what he said to you, he didn't tell me anything that went down between the two of you... I told him not to take things to heart and when I get the chance I will tell him the same thing I told you... I will tear him a new one if I see fit... You twist my words to suit you, my meaning to fit yours, but you're not listening to a word coming out of my mouth... You think you've been selfless yea...? Everyone will think that... But have you once admitted that you were wrong Bri...? No it's the Pack, or its the person, it's this or it's that... You aren't the only one being empathetic Bri... And we aren't the only ones blind... But if you want to walk away then that's your choice... I wont force you to stay and I'm tired of talking... I'm fucking tired..."





@Ch0sen1

 

[Ch0sen1]

"Really Ash that's what you say to me? Out of everyone YOU don't tell me you're tired of talking to me....are you seriously serious right now? Not even TEN MINUTES ago I told you you were RIGHT I shouldn't have said what I said to you didn't I!? You just proved you don't fucking listen to me!" I hear my voice raising and me getting irate "I'm the FIRST to admit when I'm wrong how could you say that!?" I rapidly grab my things and storm to the Lambo.





"Too fucking far man.....all I do....fuck it....." I hop in the Lambo and fold my arms, pouting like a brat. I can't believe Ash really said that. Of course I was domineering we all knew that, but to ever judge or say I don't take responsibility? Enough. I get back out of the car and get my things again. "I'm sorry Austin you don't have to leave. Stay with the Pack I can walk okay? Really, I'm okay..."
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@X3 Infernal Infinity @EclipseRising

 

[NessieAlways]

Lindsey

The path Lindsey took was a blur. Her legs were aching from the run and her chest burned from lack of oxygen, but Lindsey pushed with every last bit of her strength until she was completely worn out. She collapsed on the floor and let out a loud cry of pain. Emotional pain. Lindsey curled herself up into a ball and began to sob over the gaping hole in her stomach and the scrutinizing pain leaving her friends had left her. She had lost the people that had meant the world to her once again. She lost them going to college and now, she lost them over petty drama. It had hurt walking away, but it hurt more to watch as they all tore each other apart.

Lindsey was laying on the cold concrete sidewalk crying a million tears. Her head was fogged up with pain she had forgotten what she was crying about in the first place. All she new was that crying somehow made her feel better and there on the sidewalk, Lindsey cried herself to sleep.​

 

[Ch0sen1]

Lindsey

The path Lindsey took was a blur. Her legs were aching from the run and her chest burned from lack of oxygen, but Lindsey pushed with every last bit of her strength until she was completely worn out. She collapsed on the floor and let out a loud cry of pain. Emotional pain. Lindsey curled herself up into a ball and began to sob over the gaping hole in her stomach and the scrutinizing pain leaving her friends had left her. She had lost the people that had meant the world to her once again. She lost them going to college and now, she lost them over petty drama. It had hurt walking away, but it hurt more to watch as they all tore each other apart.

Lindsey was laying on the cold concrete sidewalk crying a million tears. Her head was fogged up with pain she had forgotten what she was crying about in the first place. All she new was that crying somehow made her feel better and there on the sidewalk, Lindsey cried herself to sleep.​

(que @Kawashima Thunder entrance to Lindsey)

 

[Arael]

Austin watched bri storm off to the car then back out saying that she'd walk, he grabbed her hand and looked her directly in the eyes "no way im letting you walk by yourself, wherever you go I'll go".


@Ch0sen1

 

[Keiser]

He got up from being laid down on the tent. He simply walked out. Every part of all this mess was simply usual. Even tough we looked at the past with so much nostalgia we didn't see the bad moments, and that's normal. He walked to Ash and just put his arm around her neck. ''Ash, people like you and me have already learned to support the people that throw lemon juice in our wounds. People like her only want sunshine and happiness, we all do, but when it doesn't go well, you gotta just accept it. She called me thousands of time a ''brat'' and ''immature.'' when she's the one that is immature since she walked out bitching about what i said. I mean, what did she expect me to say? ''Oh my god Bri i'm so sorry if you could ever forgive me queen''. I understand she's like your sister, but, give her time. We all get better sooner or later. If i was in the wrong we can talk right now, but if she leaves, just close your eyes and think about the best, not the worst. When things like these happen, you just add them to your book of pain. Nobody is perfect, we will never be, but we can learn to support those imperfections.'' He grabs her hands ''Everything will be ok.''

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[X3 Infernal Infinity]

Ash couldn't hear anything over the blood rushing in her ears. Her skin was hot and beneath the calm face her mind was clouded. She could feel the anger, the hurt, everything she had been burying deep for days deep inside her heart was clawing it's way to the surface. She wanted to scream, but not a sound would escape her. She wanted to cry but her eyes were too dry for tears. She had to do something, anything to let that feeling out. Almost in a daze she turned, pulling her hands from his, walking up the park path a bit. Balling up her fist she slammed her hand straight through the thick plate glass of the walkway lamp. She could feel the glass biting into her flesh, the heat of blood running down her hands. She pulled her fist away, looking at the blood and cuts on her hand. She could feel the burning pain only vaguely, she was still too numb. Her chest rose and fell rapidly. She blinked, and then everything went dark. She wasn't even aware of herself hitting the ground.

 

[Keiser]

He stood in confusion when she let him go, she didn't have expression, he just followed her and he just opened his eyes, so wide, he felt like they would fall off. She just saw her hit that. A gasp of air escaped his chest. ''ASH!! NO!! FUCK NO YOU'RE NOT DOING THIS TO ME!'' He ran to the tent, with tears falling and heart pumping, he grabbed his first aid kit and ran back to the location. He grabbed her fist and checked pulse, she was alive. He pinched the glass out of fist, she was knocked out of the pain, so she couldn't suffer anymore. He got them out and wrapped furiously a bandage around her hand ''ASH NO!! FUCK NO, NO NO NO!!! FUCK!!!'' He was screaming at the top of his lungs, she hugged her in the ground, very tightly, her wounds had been bandaged, he couldn't do any more. He bursted out crying, screaming, at the scene.

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[Ch0sen1]

All I heard was a crash of glass....I was about to give James a piece of my mind until I turn to see Ash fall out....with a bloody hand. My world broke apart....not my sister....


"AHHH!! Oh my God Ashtin!?"


I run over and Join James who has a kit out of the tent and applies it to her hand.


"James!! Is she ok?? Baby?? Baby wake up!! Lift her hand up above her head it regulates circulation!"


I seen that James had hastily bandaged her wounds, I unwrap the bandages slowly and grab the alcohol out of the kit and pours it all over her hand.


"James I have to stop infection! Help me okay! Look at me! I need your help!"


I rewrap the bandage and I search for my phone.


Panic hits me. @Keiser
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[Keiser]

''MY FATHERS A DOCTOR I KNOW WHAT I DO! CALL THE AMBULANCE, WE CAN'T DO ANYTHING ELSE, SHE WON'T SUFFER ANYTHING LIKE THIS!'' He says screaming, the panic hits him even more than when he's in shootouts, he was worried, sobbing and just hugging Ash's collapsed body

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[Ch0sen1]

"James....James....she's not going to die, she's JUST passed out." I take James by the face. "You have to relax and calm down yeah? Do you have your phone? Call 911." I say to James as I fan Ash. I didn't care about anything else....just to make sure Ash is ok.

@Keiser


"AJ! Lambo! Now! We need to get her to the hospital phone search is taking too long!" @EclipseRising
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[Keiser]

''I don't care if it's grave or not! She could've fell and passed out and i'd still be sobbing! I CARE ABOUT HER!'' He gets out his phone and starts touching the buttons, almost smashing the phone. ''911?! AN AMBULANCE! PLEASE! MY FRIEND IS KNOCKED OUT! HER HAND GOT STABBED BY GLASS! WE'RE AT THE PARK [[insert name i don't remember here]]!! PLEASE COME FAST!''

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[Ch0sen1]

"James....so do I...I've been throught this with her before okay? Panicking won't solve anything, it's not making her come to faster ok? So RE. LAX." I hold Ash's arm elevated as James comforts her. "They'll be here."

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[Keiser]

''We can just wait now, i can wait, yeah, uh.. i can wait! For you Ash!'' He hugs her very tightly, sobbing and crying over her chest. He was simply blinded by emotion, he had never felt so sad.

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