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[NessieAlways]

Lindsey

Lindsey laughed at Aubri's comment "Oh so she can cuss us out and we're suppose to just sit back and watch..."
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[X3 Infernal Infinity]

"Mhm...well that aside I'm going to start talking now so anyone who interrupts me will be meeting the bad end of my temper... I actually do not care how many of you are thinking who died and made Ash boss... The answer is no one... But I see a problem and unlike the rest of you who want to sit in your corners and cry like little children I actually want to make the effort to fix it... I'm pretty sure you all know what the problem is... This group, our friendship, the entire Pack...is falling apart... And to be quite frank I think that is some of the saddest most pathetic bullshit I have ever seen in my life... We've been apart for SIX MONTHS... Six months and that's all it takes for everyone to lose the friendships that we built for FOUR YEARS... How...how the fuck do you lose FOUR YEARS of friendship in SIX MONTHS...? Don't answer that... I will tell you exactly how... Because everyone is so deep in there own worlds, thinking about themselves... Yea college started... So you're "busy" right... Everyone's too "busy"... But there is no such thing as being too busy for your friends...for your pack... No one is ever busy... Because if it's important to you...you make time for it... But no one has time huh..."


Ash chuckled dryly, taking a hit of her cigarette to let what she had said so far sink in.

 

[Ch0sen1]

I roll my eyes at Taisuke and remian quiet. He swears he loves the pack and is soooo loyal but gets agitated when things don't go smooth or any of us try to actually work stuff out in a positive way. If it's not b-boying....he's not all there. No matter how bad it gets, how mad we get, I'll never want to 'get things over with', because this moment is what defines us as a family, and I'll love them no matter what. So I keep quiet.

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[NessieAlways]

Lindsey

"If you're so worried about us falling apart why did you loose touch Ash. I'm sure I wasn't the only one who didn't hear from you all those months. Why wait six months to get us all together and talk? Lindsey had no idea where she was going with this, but she knew that it was true. If they had really cared about each other then they wouldn't have lost touch.​

 

[Ch0sen1]

Ash's words rung to me. Yeah I had been talking to the Pack every now and then, but no matter how busyI was with school and swimming, I could've talked more...especially after what Ash told me earlier....


Lindsey makes a rash comment about my tone at Tai, I keep quiet content with what I have to say to her later in my mind, 'Hmph, just wait....'
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I reply Lindsey "Because Lindsey we were all....MOST of us were in school and had jobs and such....no way we could have.." I say with a 'Duh' face.

 

[Yanipurr]

"Yeah but she is blaming that on US we can't change things like that if I have a event lined up I can't just get the date changed so they is no way its only because we were busy that the pack is falling apart we just an't close anymore we all live so different life's we can't just bend time around them this isn't school anymore we don't have the same amount of time anymore." Taisuke said sighing looking at the ceiling.

 

[X3 Infernal Infinity]

"I could have sworn I said something about not interrupting me... But do you want to know Lin... You want to know why I was gone for six months and out of touch... I was out of touch for six months not because I was advancing my life, enjoying college, making new friends, making dumb ass decisions... I was gone for six months and out of contact because I had no phone, no computer, no way to get in touch with anyone... I spent the six months you all were away having your lives at college LOCKED UP IN A GODDAMNED PSYCHIATRIC FACILITY... But you wanna know the one thing on my mind every day I was in there... I wish I could see the Pack...talk to them... So I could have a reason to go on... I understand that shit gets busy but you cant take five minutes out to pick up the fucking phone... To check up on your friends... To come to them when you're in trouble... When you have the opportunity...all of you HAD the opportunity... But you didn't..."


The words weren't meant to come out, but Lindsey was pushing her temper. She was pressing buttons Ash didn't need pressed. She off all people who hadn't bothered to talk to the pack while dealing with an abusive boyfriend wanted to know where she had been for six months. It pissed her off. Running a hand roughly through her hair she took a long drag of her cigarette, flicking the ash with more than a little anger into the ash tray.

 

[Keiser]

He just saw Lindsey give everyone a hug, and to him a wave. He just looked down to the floor and standed there, arms crossed. Tai was getting way too aggressive. He just clenched his fists, if he did a false word or movement, he wouldn't doubt on shutting that cocky mouth of his up. He sat down. He was just infuriated how the both taught they were innocent and Tai was just protecting Lindsey as if she were his girlfriend.

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[Ch0sen1]

"It's talk like that Tai that drifts us, it doesn't matter what we do YES we all have lives now but it don't mean we can't stay close are you kidding? Phone, texts, Skype, there's a MILLION ways..."


Then Ash snapped....she told us everything. I already knew....but the pain in her eyes really hurt me...I was speechless after that.
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[Yanipurr]

Taisuke just kept looking at the ceiling blinking. What the hell she was in a psychiatric facility why.He thought to himself. He was going to stay quiet now the pack wouldn't fell the same even if everyone did make up Taisuke was certain of that as much as he wished it could it wouldn't. Taisuke just stayed staring at the ceiling.

 

[Timv9]

Nick just sat there listening to everyone arguing. He hated this so much. He loved his group of friends they had helped him get through his breakup and through all the pressure his parents put him under. Nick just sat there and sighed. He then heard what ash said about where she had been the last 6 months and he was shocked. "Ash what why?"

 

[X3 Infernal Infinity]

"Look... All I'm trying to say here is that we have four years of friendships... Four years of sticking together through all the tough shit in life... Just because we all have lives and college and whatever else we're dealing with there should be no reason that we can't still be that support system we are supposed to be for each other... No one wants to do this whole crazy thing called life without someone in their corner...and for me...for all of us... At some point that someone was this Pack... If you all can't see past your own involvement with yourselves to see what this group was...what this group is... Then I don't know... Things won't be the same as high school... We all know that already... But we can try at least to bring back the friendship we once had... I don't know about everyone else but I still care about all of you guys... You're my family and I would do anything to see you happy...even if you wouldn't do the same..."


Ash sighed flicking the ashes from her cigarette. She tilted her head to one side running her hand through her hair. She sighed shaking her head a bit taking another hit of the cigarette and resting her head in her hands. She was more than stressed now and irritated. But more than anything she was hurt. She was angry and hurt and tired. She didn't know what else to do and she had nothing else to say. Whatever happened was what happened. She was just sick of talking at a brick wall.


@LannTheClever @Bills352 @Keiser @NessieAlways

 

[Keiser]

He sighs and sayed, with his usual, deep, raspy voice, with an extremely calm tone. ''Lindsey, don't take it as if we where just stabbing you with your faults and flaws, we're just displeased on how some of us had to suffer trough sweat and tears to see each other again, and when you arrived, you just left us. I actually felt something for you for a while, i'd understand you got ''blinded'' by love by a while, i have passed trough it, but you knew that person was just a lost cause. I don't understand how you could leave your family. The one that was with you since kids.''

He gave a deep breath and just looked at Lindsey.
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[Ch0sen1]

The tension was high, no doubt about it. Tai was giving up, Lin was sneaking out....it's like no one even wanted to be here anymore, and my Ash was hurt and done. Then it hit me, so as I stood up from my chair I look across the room at the entire party and I just say it.


"Does anybody even WANT the Pack? The way you're talking it's like you don't care anymore yet you say you'd do anything for the Pack? The time for hypocrites is OVER, so raise your hand right now if you don't want to be here, or if you think there's no point. Be honest. I would die for you all and love you all but if you don't feel the same what's the point?? Speak up"


@LannTheClever @Bills352 @Keiser @NessieAlways @X3 Infernal Infinity
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[NessieAlways]

Lindsey

It came to her as a shock that Ash was locked up in a ward, and she felt bad, but she was mad because it seemed like Ash was blaming everyone else. Lindsey's voice was controlled not wanting to loose her temper and start yelling because then she'd just look like a fool. "People grow apart. It happens. You can't hold on to the same things for ever. You have to let them go if you want to grow up and mature. Some people can stick with you, but you have to let go of most to make room for the people in your future. What she said was harsh, trading in your friends for others along the way wasn't exactly what Lindsey wanted, but that's what seemed to be happening. It wasn't like she never tried to contact anyone, she did, but everyone was always busy and when they weren't, she was. It was a none ending cycle.​

 

[Keiser]

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Damn, 2 posts right when i typed in ;~;

 

[NessieAlways]

Lindsey

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"Oh don't act so innocent James! She lost it. "You strayed away from everyone when you arrived! You were distant and would rather leave the room than talk to anyone! So don't tell me that I'm the one at fault for leaving when you wouldn't even say a WORD TO ME!

 

[Ch0sen1]

"Wow Lin really? So we're worth letting go to you? And that pussy that beat your ass is worth preserving!? That's why you called me last night right?? [shakes head] You know what....anyone who wants...." I had to stop myself....I wasn't giving up on these people. I couldn't. They meant too much. "Lindsey, guys, I love you.....but we have to step outside ourselves..."

@NessieAlways

I step in to break up James and Lin


"Stooooppp! No! We talk as adults!" @Keiser
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[Keiser]

''Heh, i believe the first person who welcomed you was me, with a warm hug. I never stayed distant, i gave you guys space. Austin and Bri were happy to see each other. Did i not say a word? It's because you left me hanging at this cold couch. I'm the heartless one? ''

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[Ch0sen1]

"EVERYBODY STOP ARGUING PLEASE!!!!" I shouted to the room. I had to breathe to keep calm, but I wasn't allowing this. "Please..."

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[X3 Infernal Infinity]

Ash stood up slowly, crossing the room to kneel down at Lins level. She held the girls gaze for a moment, coolly, quietly. When she spoke her accent was prevalent, heavy, her voice soft and raspy.


"Is that how you feel Lin... That were all disposable friends to be discarded when they no longer fit your mold or suit your purpose... Please don't mistake me for spreading the blame... I know that I'm at fault as well... For the decisions I've made... Just like you are for yours... But do you want to know what happens when people start seeing others...themselves...their place as disposable...? They lose themselves and everything they've ever held on to... Real friends grow with you Lin...and only part when they must... So none of us were your real friends if were so disposable to you..."


Ash shrugged a soft frantic laugh escaping her lips. She stood heading in to the kitchen. Her fingers pressing and rubbing against the long lines on first one arm then the other. She had nothing left to say. Nothing nice at least. It was a thin line now, between her flipping out and her keeping her cool. She sighed rubbing her eyes and grabbing the bottle of vodka. Sliding down against the counter again she opened the bottle and took a drink.

 

[Ch0sen1]

What Ash said to Lin stared to ring in my head......had Lin seen us as pawns? Just people she could use then bounce when she wanted? The thought of thatmade me sad, not angry. After all I been through with her....she was the next best thing I had to a sibling...but...her words...maybe it wasn't the Pack....maybe it was the wolf.

@NessieAlways @X3 Infernal Infinity
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[Yanipurr]

"I agree with Aubria we need to stop arguing I mean we can't even hold a normal conversation anymore you guys are like my second family I don't want you to brake up like my first but if we keep going this way the best choice would be to just go out own ways which I don't want to happen." Taisuke said conversation turns to and argument then into another argument which was just made this a waste of time.

 

[NessieAlways]

Lindsey

Lindsey was quiet. Sure she had once believed all of what Ash had said. She believe that all of them would grow old together and continue their lives making memories, but friends weren't just there for the good times and none of them had been there for her when she needed them. She had called, but like stated before, everyone was living their lives, and she didn't blame them. The closest person she could have trusted was Opal and she had been there for her. After what she went through Lindsey felt like she couldn't count on her 'friends' anymore, so she stopped calling and grew apart.​

 

[Arael]

((Dammit I missed alot but I'm back))


Austin just sat there quietly watching all of them argue and yell at each other his main focus was on Ash though she seemed like she was in complete control of everything like she knew all the answers "in my opinion not that I really care but I'd say we're all at fault here for what's going on, I agree we can't help that our lives are busy but the fact that we came with no regard of how close we used to be may just be the cause of this situation right here" he stated calmly as he looked around at his so called "pack I mean let's face it we're not wolves right now we're just a pack of rabid dingos fighting over a few scraps..well at least that's how I see it"